Salvijus

This is good observation. But I literally sharing with you how to bring that connection back. The connection to yourself is done by putting the awareness on desire. Desire is never gone and can never be extinguished. It's only a matter of putting your awareness inward on it and allowing your attention rest there for a while so that it would rekindle the fire and your sense of self.

That's fair thing to say. However opening the gates of libido is not that difficult. It's a simple matter of becoming aware of desire energy and allowing it to burn without restricting yourself. Because it's the psychological barriers of fear, guilt, shame, judgement that block the libido energy to flow properly.

Thank you.

Libido is more than just arausal. All desire is libido desire. Without desire you wouldn't be able to participate in any activity whatsoever. Although there could be some truth that you're feeling low and despirited. But libido can't be killed really. It's the source of life. It's the source of love and glory. It's actually the source of who you are aswell.

It's off topic a bit. But can we just all agree that this gesture of putting foreheads together is the most beautiful thing in the world? Cmon. It's so deep........

I doubt an image like this doesn't move you.

Hmmm... Idk... This is deep topic. Somehow I sense more warmth and brotherhood by sharing the food rather than stocking it to yourself. Many arguments could be made on all sides tho.

It's not about how still the mind is. It's about how aware of the mind you are even if tsunami of thoughts is happening. If the mind is going crazy but you're still able to observe it. That's what counts as a success of the meditation.

Nobody gets paid for taking care of someone for a month, 3years worth of rent. Wtf. Nurses would be millionaires.

Hmm... That's not the right logic. Hospital bill includes all kinds of bs like taxes, facilities, building maintainance, security and who knows what else. A fair price would be: take the nurse's month salary. A nurse gets paid for taking care for 25 people let's say. So devide her salary in 25. Take into account that you're not paying taxes so cut 20%more. Plus he's unqualified, so cut 20% more. That would be a what you owe him for his job.

I would just see what a baby sitter is worth for a month in your country, pay him that and be done with it. Unless he begins to throw tantrums, then it's a bigger issue. Then you have a parasite with you. And a part of me believes that's what you're dealing with. I'm going to try to share what I feel by reading your post. It could be completely wrong but here it goes anyways. It seems that you're being pressured to play along because otherwise there's going to be lots of drama, perhaps a brake up and you'll get labeled all kinds of names, bad friend, ungrateful, jerk, and just lots of anger and judgement will follow if you oppose. (That's such a dick move honestly). But it also seems that you are afraid to upset that apple cart because of all the conflict that would come out of it. Even tho deep down you're not happy with the situation. I feel if you succumb to the people pleasing pressure, you're going to feel resentment towards him on a deep level for all those three years, (unless you're really good at suppressing your heart to the point you can't notice it anymore) . So there's conflict going to be either way. If you go with what you feel is right in your heart, there will be conflict because he's already attached to his ideas. And if you go with his tantrums, you won't be at peace either. My personal recommendation would be to go into silence by yourself and see what feels right in your heart when nobody is pressuring you to do anything. Every situation is relative and unique and there is no one answer to every situation. You should inquire your own heart to tell you wants the appropriate action is and only what feels true in your heart should lead your way, even if that means losing all your friends and being judged by the whole world. Good luck.

Nobody ever accomplishes anything alone in life. It's always a collective movement. Everyone has a web of people connected to them (both in physical form and otherwise) that are supposed to play out their roles for a particular purpose God wants to manifest. One of those souls connected to you, if it serves the will of god, might be destined to play the role of your husband or wife, yes. But one has to follow their own destiny first in order for those destined to you show up. And love is the path on which you walk your destiny.

That's why I understand burqas, haha.

I think you should talk to her. It's what your heart desires. You want it so bad you can't focus on anything else, pretending to be cool and aloof while dying inside for some kind of connection even if it's indirect. so just say yes to your heart and close that gestalt. Plus it will be fun. And healthy. Go bro. I'm rooting for you

If I feel a bit down I just eat some pretzels. I was legit walking today from the supermarket eating pretzels and praising God how good life is. Not even joking.

You could be a lawyer

Uuh, it's on my list to go there sometime. But sounds like you were there hanging with your grandma. Not actually traveling the world

Nice. Where have you been?

If that was the case, solution would be very simple. Pack your bags and to travel. At least fora few days.

Maybe you're just sick of life

If I had to guess, I'd say "hyper brain nervous system stimulus overload condition" I just invented that. But something like that lol

Looks okay to me. Just not typical, unique in his own way.

I said he can be. I believe in him

If Keryo can be sane, so can you!