Salvijus

Nobody gets paid for taking care of someone for a month, 3years worth of rent. Wtf. Nurses would be millionaires.

Hmm... That's not the right logic. Hospital bill includes all kinds of bs like taxes, facilities, building maintainance, security and who knows what else. A fair price would be: take the nurse's month salary. A nurse gets paid for taking care for 25 people let's say. So devide her salary in 25. Take into account that you're not paying taxes so cut 20%more. Plus he's unqualified, so cut 20% more. That would be a what you owe him for his job.

I would just see what a baby sitter is worth for a month in your country, pay him that and be done with it. Unless he begins to throw tantrums, then it's a bigger issue. Then you have a parasite with you. And a part of me believes that's what you're dealing with. I'm going to try to share what I feel by reading your post. It could be completely wrong but here it goes anyways. It seems that you're being pressured to play along because otherwise there's going to be lots of drama, perhaps a brake up and you'll get labeled all kinds of names, bad friend, ungrateful, jerk, and just lots of anger and judgement will follow if you oppose. (That's such a dick move honestly). But it also seems that you are afraid to upset that apple cart because of all the conflict that would come out of it. Even tho deep down you're not happy with the situation. I feel if you succumb to the people pleasing pressure, you're going to feel resentment towards him on a deep level for all those three years, (unless you're really good at suppressing your heart to the point you can't notice it anymore) . So there's conflict going to be either way. If you go with what you feel is right in your heart, there will be conflict because he's already attached to his ideas. And if you go with his tantrums, you won't be at peace either. My personal recommendation would be to go into silence by yourself and see what feels right in your heart when nobody is pressuring you to do anything. Every situation is relative and unique and there is no one answer to every situation. You should inquire your own heart to tell you wants the appropriate action is and only what feels true in your heart should lead your way, even if that means losing all your friends and being judged by the whole world. Good luck.

Nobody ever accomplishes anything alone in life. It's always a collective movement. Everyone has a web of people connected to them (both in physical form and otherwise) that are supposed to play out their roles for a particular purpose God wants to manifest. One of those souls connected to you, if it serves the will of god, might be destined to play the role of your husband or wife, yes. But one has to follow their own destiny first in order for those destined to you show up. And love is the path on which you walk your destiny.

That's why I understand burqas, haha.

I think you should talk to her. It's what your heart desires. You want it so bad you can't focus on anything else, pretending to be cool and aloof while dying inside for some kind of connection even if it's indirect. so just say yes to your heart and close that gestalt. Plus it will be fun. And healthy. Go bro. I'm rooting for you

If I feel a bit down I just eat some pretzels. I was legit walking today from the supermarket eating pretzels and praising God how good life is. Not even joking.

You could be a lawyer

Uuh, it's on my list to go there sometime. But sounds like you were there hanging with your grandma. Not actually traveling the world

Nice. Where have you been?

If that was the case, solution would be very simple. Pack your bags and to travel. At least fora few days.

Maybe you're just sick of life

If I had to guess, I'd say "hyper brain nervous system stimulus overload condition" I just invented that. But something like that lol

Looks okay to me. Just not typical, unique in his own way.

I said he can be. I believe in him

If Keryo can be sane, so can you!

Do you have any clue what's causing it? I think it should be solvable.

And this is personal development forum lol.

But I've seen you being cheerful. What's up with that.

"it's not sadistic if they deserve it"

"it's not sadistic if I laugh behind their back"

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These instructions are missing an important link. Metta is not something one generates or creates. It's something that one has to allow to flow through them from the mind of God. Because most humans it's too difficult to connect to God directly, they need a middle man, a medium, like a lineage of angels and ascended masters that create a torrent or stream of light and love for others to tap and plug themselves into. Having that connection to your lineage is of paramount importance to really experience what metta is. The cascades of endless effortless outpouring of love and light that descends from above into the crown of your head, down to the rest of the body, blessing you, your surroundings, your bloodline and everyone connected to you. That video above does a decent explanation of what I'm talking about.

Metta goes really deep...

Lol Bingo