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Try to travel without money. Or minimal amount of money. Try solo meditation retreats. Try vippassana retreat, 10days and you'll be free from these cravings. Leave your house for some time, a week or two maybe.

I think you're right. My guess would also be lack of vision and incentive to pursue your goals. Nice vippassana is really good for this kind of thing. To start new things etc. Lol what i meant was yoga that is delivered in a proper way. You will understand what a proper delivery of practice means once you go through vippassana. You'll see it's impossible to do vippassana without attentending the retreat.. It's just not alive in you. You'll see. It will be very obvious after you finish the retreat. With Yoga it's even more important to have a proper delivery because it's much more subtle technology. Sadhguru says only a yogi can deliver yoga. So that what I meant by real yoga. Yoga that you learn from a real yogi, not a book or a video or some studio yoga instructor. Only then will it have the impact on you that I'm talking about. It's very very different. There're some legit yogis who teach proper yoga to people but it's hard to access them unless you live in India or smth. But if you live in Europe or US your best chance is sadhguru probably. He's all over Europe and US and everywhere else. There're many programs happening every month by trained Isha hatha Yoga teachers. ... Yes I do everyday, sometimes twice a day Good thing about Yoga is that all the benefits that you get from doing it are very motivating. The more you do it, the more you want to do it more and more So that's good. You don't have to grind through it every time. Those 2h+ everyday are my favorite part of the day actually. It's a very satisfying proccess of growth and spirituality with many benefits to keep you motivated. It always leaves me with great enthusiasm for life. "Life on full-throttle, that's my blessing for you" #sadhguru He's not lying

How did mircrodosing worked out for you?

Haha no it's not like that. When you self-enquiry the realization at some point comes that you are observing your mind, you're observing your self-image. Then you move into a deeper state of observing and disidentification. As you keep looking like that you move deeper and deeper into deeper states of observing. Time comes when even the intention to observe is seen, time comes where even a slightest effort of doing something is seen, then you're in a state of pure witnessing, you see that you're behind any kind of movement in the mind. There're no fireworks or breakthroughs, if you have fireworks probably you're doing something wrong, tho crazy things can happen, purging can happen, catharsis can happen but it's of little significence to raising your awareness. It's a slow and quiet process of observing. And as you observe your self-image, thoughts, feelings, effort, movement in the mind, then distence between you and the mind increases more and more. This will become clear to you as you continue with self-inquiry. And yes, please watch videos of spiritual masters as a support when you do self-inquiry. For example, when mooji speaks, just the process of listening initiates looking, automatic self-scanning starts to take place just by listening to his words. If i listen to mooji speak i can't help myself, i get sucked into doing self-inquiry that's why it's so important to use them as a support otherwise you'll get lost somewhere and you won't even know it. I did self-inquiry with Mooji's guidence and still i got lost like 200times. If you go on your own it's a hopeless case.

3.59min. "your ego will shrivel up quicker then a coconat tree on a mountain" Damn it I need to get there Yeah.. future will be nice. The only meaningful job will be left is raising consciousness: like therapists, vippassana instructors, Yoga instructors, etc. That's what I'm aiming for definitely, building spiritual physical and human infrastructure Hard to comment on this. I don't know much about Yuval Harari and his work.

Yes. Turn a video of mooji or rupert spira or whatever you resonate with who shows you how to do self-enquiry, listen to them over and over, untill you get it, that self-inquiry is not a thinking pocess, it's a process of looking. Having someone to listen to is essential for begginers or even advanced ones. Because i assure you, you will not go far without guidence. You'll end up intelectualizing and deluding yourself for a lifetime.

That mess and unorganized things are just a manifestation of your inner situation. If you make yourself very organized and harmonious and balanced inside you'll become very clean everywhere outside naturally. For this i recommend Yoga. (real yoga of course) When i used to be depressed and suicidal i was extremely messy. My room was a mess. My relationships were a mess, I wouldn't shower for days or weeks. Once I started working on it with Yoga my inner situation became harmonious, i became very clean, cold showers twice a day, rooms are always clean, i even clean other people's or my family members mess now. Not by any force or intention. Simply out of your own inner situation. My diet became very clean, i stopped eating meat and all the junk food etc. That's one benefit that I found in Yoga that other techneques don't have. Other techneques like self-enquiry and vippassana have great benefits as well but they didn't give that harmony inside for me. They are great things for raising consciousness and dissolving karma and i think eventually it leads to harmony at some point. But Yoga has very direct effect on this. (Real Yoga of course) Kriya works as well. Idk about the kriya that people do from books but sadhguru's kriya works well for this. That's why they call it Inner Engineering, to engineer your inner situation into harmony.

Haha classic stuff. Every work that i did it's basicly 80% pretending that you do something 20% you actually do something Sorry i don't have any tips for you, play it by ear would be my advise

Sounds good. "I feel like I can recognise an emotion or thing that is happening although I still feel like I have not mastered emotions." This one is very very good benefit. The more you raise your awareness like that the more insights you will get. This kind of meditation can make you very smart. Not book smart but perception smart. It's when you see a situation or a person and you see exacly why he acts the way he acts, or why he feels the way he feels etc. This meditation that you do produces great mental clarity and wisdom about life. I heard one master called this "knowing without studying" simply a clear perception of what is what. That's my favorite benefit of meditation

Your definition of enlightenmemt is too shabby. You underestimate what it's like to be a devine being. Literally god. Not just being in the present moment.

That's true for everyone. "World is not the way you think it is, world becomes exacly by the way you think" - Mooji. There's enourmos enourmos amount of memory in you which is shaping your present experience. It would be true to say that you never experienced a single moment the way it is. What you experience is always distorted by your emotions, thoughts, ideas, prejudices, likes and dislikes, cravings and aversions etc.. all of that is what is called data or memory or karma. This data that is in you descides everything about you. How you walk, talk, breathe, think, feel, what you want, how you persceive life everything is descided by this data or memory aka karma in you. Thats right, this karma is affecting every single moment in you, you never experience reality as it actually is, your experience is shaped and distorted by lifetimes of memory or karma "I have no idea how to conquer this." There are methods to become self-realized and there're methods to dissolve karma. It means you're dissolving everything that is influincing your perception, you're starting to see things just the way they are. you're going from untruth to truth. For example vippassana meditation has nothing to do with nondual mystical experiences, god like consciousness etc. The aim is to purely dissolve karma or cyclical memory in you. Even in nondual states of consciousness there're enourmos distortions happening in your experience. You're still not seeing the way things really are. That's why this question, "how do I know that what I experience is the ultimate truth?" Well the answer is nondual experiences are still not the ultimate truth, until there's a single like or dislike in your mind, even if it's somewhere in a subconcious mind, even if a slightest craving is there that means your experience is distorted experience. It's not the truth. That's why in Bhuddhism in vippassana they dissmiss any kinds of samadhi experience as useless, they are only concerned about dissolving karma. Which is actually a very smart attitude towards life and spirituallity. Unfortunatelly many spiritual seekers don't know about this and they can't even compute what I'm talking about here. Hmm.. actually sadhguru's surya kriya hatha yoga practice has an element of dissolving karma. So you would get both, health, mental benefits, getting in tauch with your body and also dissolving karma which is the whole point of spirituality.

@Lister I would consider putting the chakra practices on hold for a while in case that's the cause of your problem. Energy work is no joke.

@bobbyward i see. Who knows. I saw many versions on YouTube of surya namaskaram. It's totally wrong the way they teach is so irresponsible and wrong on so many levels and they have zero understanding of what they say. Do like this, do like that but they are absolutely ignorant what they say. Of course i didn't see every single video of surya namaskar on YouTube but what I saw was terrible.. I tried some YouTube surya namaskar before I went and learned surya kriya from sadhguru. After that I never ever again going to look into another YouTube yoga instruction... It's just pure bullshit real authentic Yoga is way way different and it can't be taugh by a book or a video. It can only be transmited by a yogi. Because yoga is not a teaching. It's not a bundle of instructions. It's living thing. It's alive. That's why it's so powerful.

Lol. If I started talking about the benefits and my devotion and gratittude and impact it had on me i would not know how to shut up. I would get so excited you would think I'm talking absolute crazy nonsense I'll say this much. You don't know the sheer mind blowing full body orgasmic impact of Yoga untill you tried at least one sadhguru's program. It's on another level of dimension altogether...... .....

@zunnyman @bobbyward it's an ancient yoga practice of tremendous antiquity that can be transmited to you from sadhguru. Very good video on surya kriya.

If i had to guess this is not some purging or cleansing or process of purifying. It's some real physical issue and seems intense. But could be caused by improper practices also. Does it happen during the meditation or at any time of the day?

That's smart descision. Vippassana is a really good choice for this kind of thing. Good for you!

Haha "I know what you did last semester"

Anger is not the best motivation for living life .

Go for surya kriya if you want mental balance. It's very powerful way of developing mental balance. You can feel it when you do it. There's no other feeling like that. The feeling is like: "wow, this is the first time in my life that I'm actually doing something for my mental balance". Until I tried surya kriya i had no idea what "mental balance" even means. "If you learn to bend, you won't brake, that's why Yoga (laughs)" #sadhguru

Well i didn't know you like pranks I just had a vague memory that you're still of that age who goes to high school I think you mentioned it somewhere in the forum.

I know. That's why I gave this example with class But it's true on so many levels in life..