Salvijus

Masculine holds the space, feminine dances inside of it. If you identify with the emptiness, you experience primordial peace. If you identify with the feminine, you experience an ecstatic dance of creation. Life is both. No idea if that answers the question.

It's actually true that the state of emptiness can feel really dry, lifeless and passionless. That's why I hesitate to completely dismiss your case, haha. If we assume that's indeed what you're going through, then the only solution would be to activate the feminine side of enlightenment, the heart center, the creative energy that fills you with passion for life. Like the opposite of masculine immobile Zen emptiness. On the contrary, the heart energy is very dynamic. When you have both, you become super enlightened. Maybe that's you.

Idk what to make of it. There is more than one way to interpret that experience. So you're hoping a full dissolution will solve this? What if a full dissolution is even worse than that? Lol

I believe this part. But the less dense you become, the more alive and vibrant you should become. That's the part where I have a problem with your explanation. No, I've said something else, haha.

They are taking about self realization mostly. You can realize yourself beyond the ego without dissolving the ego. Dissolving the ego is a longer process. I don’t know. I'm trying to see how that could be true but I struggle to see it. The signs are not there. There are other explanations that fit your description much more as far as I can tell.

That's almost unachievable goal. Monks spend their entire life in monestary to attain to it and don't get there. It takes multiple lifetimes to get there. Ekchart is open about his pain body not being fully dissolved also. They all are. Even if you were 1% close to infinity, you'd be levitating basicly with so much energy.

Almost incomplete self dissolution looks like ekchart tolle, rupert spira, mooji etc. None of them have problems that you describe. Ego dissolution invigorates the cells in the body, your body would be all vibrating with energy basicly. It doesn't feel suppressing or numb or zombie like. In my estimate it's either a lost soul phenomena or something is attached to you and is draining your energy/suppressing you. If it's the latter, then I could probably deal with that myself, it's a common reality for me.

A lost soul phenomena. https://entheonation.com/blog/shamanic-soul-retrieval/

You're not killing anyone by not flying the plane. You're killing passangers when you drop them off the plane mid air. Nature gives a certain time as an opportunity to fly the plane, there's no crime in postponing the opportunity or not using it. But once you used the opportunity to lift off, then dropping the passangers mid air is not cool. It's reckless lifestyle.

I'm out of gas, haha. Not particularly inspired to add anything at the moment. But thank you for the positive response. And yea, I could see from the beginning we have a similar understanding of the nuances and the traps of this topic. That's pretty cool. A breath of fresh air for me:)

If you're the one who ran over a basketball player, then you should be held responsible for his life and make amends and what not. If you got yourself pregnant, then it's your task to handle that responsibility gracefully. Unless you got pregnant against your will. Then it complicates the answer quite a bit. The entire responsibility would fall on to the father then I guess. And if a mother chose to do abortion than the blood would be on his hands. You're free to do whatever you want, if you're willing to accept the consiquences of it. With that in mind, it would be wise if you handled every situation gracefully, if you want to live a gracefilled life. Otherwise your life will be a full of suffering and you'll end up in hell. Nothing wrong with that. Preventing a birth and terminating a life in a womb is not the same thing.

If you say so.

You are the real observer. You the conciousness.

Some perceptions are distorted through projections of the mind. Those inheritly fall under the category of false perceptions. For example, people see what they want to see rather than what is true. A self serving perception of reality rather than the naked truth without any filters.

The point is, some perceptions are illusory and some are true. Some perceptions happen because the mind distorts reality through projections and ego and what not and when the mind becomes like a plain mirror, then it reflects reality perfectly without any distortions. That's enlightenment. That's illumination.

That could happen, yes. But the experience of infinity is still a valid one regardless. That is the true taste of nonduality. Simply telling yourself that there is no you without an experience is absurd. Only a shift in perception matters. Without the shift in perception, intellectually you might be correct, but existencially you're still in illusion. Intellectual understanding is not enough.

Stare at this photo until you get a shift in perception. A tiny demo of what's it's like to go from a small ego to infinite conciousness.

A perception of seperation still needs to shift to realize oneness experiencially. Intellectual understanding of oneness is not enough.

There is an illusion of seperation. A false perception of reality. This perception can be corrected, it's called an illumined mind. That's when your experience shifts from being just a person to being everything. Not as a philosophy but as a living reality. A samadhi. You are everything. Everything is you. You exist.

One Self has many parts. All the parts are one. Idk, if that answered the question.

I'm listening.

You are everything. That's not spiritual ego. That's the truth of what you are. If that is not your experience, then your mind is still under the spell of illusion of seperation. And no amount of nonduality talk is going to change that. Only a shift in perception can change that.

@VeganAwake you have a strong intellectual convinction that there is no person inside yet everything you do is in service to that person. So you're a hypocrite. It's like you're trying to prove that ghosts don't exist while wearing a thousand amulets for protection against ghosts. Your behavior exposes what you truly believe at the depth of the mind. That's what ExploringReality tried to say earlier but it probably flew over your head. Intellectual understanding that the person is an illusion is not enough. It has to be a brakethrough in conciousness where the perception of a seperate me is completely undone and your sense of self expands to infinity. Without this experience, all this nonduality talk is just self gaslighting.

Conciousness