Salvijus

Maybe try vipassana. It's all about letting go but in very systematic and proper way of doing. All you do here is diverting your attention, or trying to ignore or supress it. It's of no value. You have to learn to accept the reality as it is without reacting to it. I would reccomend vipassana for those who really wants to turn letting go into a life changing process. The feeling is equanimity, non-reaction, detachment, stillness, samadhi.

Nicely articulated. I think this is true

You can actually try to rise questions to make your attention to stay on awareness. Like this.

Vipassana.

As long as you have a single thought in your mind you're bias. Only perfect equanimity is not bias. Only full enlightenment is not bias. I mean full enlightenment, not that self-realization stuff.

Interesting indeed. But i don't think you need to change anything. I think enlightened teachers are aware of this and they adjust their teachings to each individual accordingly. Here's a paragrah of sadhguru saying that a guru always gives a method designed for each individual. Not just man and woman. This is also one reason why you should learn yoga through a master not a book.

Now that's a good question . But he will probably say. "Self cannot die" or something like that.

If it was me, I'd be probably be looking for some kriya master. Someone who knows human system and what to do with it. Or some ayurvedic doctor, they also have a very deep understanding of a human system. Stay Well. If it's not getting better for long you can try consulting with an ayurvedic doc. I can give you contacts of one ayurvedic doc who's also an isha hatha yoga teacher.

@winterknight do you wish to become popular spiritual teacher like echart tolle and other modern nonduality teachers?

Why are you doing this? If you had a milion dollars would you still do these things?

@Natasha he did

Just flow with it, enjoy it:) Don't believe what he says. But don't be a fool to disbelieve it either.

@Gili Trawangan this doesn't make vipassana inferior path. Every path has It's own benefits and problems. No path is for everybody.

Because in self-inquiry state of self-realization there's still cravings and aversions, attachments, still desire is very active and ego is still there. Vipassana is a higher state because it seeks to destroy the ego completly, to leave not a single spot, total purity. I heard Mooji once discribing two ways to enlightenment. One is you purify yourself more and more until you get enlightened. Another is you realize the true self, and then purity follows naturally after that slowly. I like how this guy describes this state of zero desire. Very poetic.

Yea but vipassana teachers.. For me they're like budhha statues sitting. So equanimous.. I think vipassana is not about self-realization like peter ralston. It's about purity, renunciation, dissolving attachments and ego. What you try to achieve in vipassana is a much higher and harder state to achieve then self-realization. Differerent methods, traditions have differerent qualities also. A devotee would emanate a differerent fragrance also. I'm sorry you had to see that. That's dissapointing indeed

@Dwarniel what is your idea of "fully enlightened" people?

Use this, very supportive. Buddham Sharanam Gacchami Dhammam Sharanam Gacchami Sangham Sharanam Gacchami

34.50min https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=C229acR7VSY

Why someone who's transcended all desire want to help others? What is his motivation to help other people if he has no desire left in him.

In my experience it clutters the mind and makes the quality of meditation much less.

Wow, amazing report.

I hope you get better but i feel you won't know how to do fasting properly, how to eat healthy properly, how to do all those things. It's insane science. You need a proper ayurvedic councelor. Someone who can tell you every step, every Micro element what to eat what to avoid. Many people cause much more damage by fasting or trying to be healthy because there's so much that you need to know. And every person is different. For differerent kind of disease there are differerent kind of foods and lifestyles, differerent fastings, for differerent type of body types, according to your body costitution/prakriti, your age, your current condition, your digestive fire, there're differerent treatments for everyone. Like... I really wish you get better but I would reccomended you get a consultation with an ayurvedic doctor so you could go through this process properly with a profesional guidence. I know one person who's an ayurvedic doctor and also a western medicine doctor for more then +10years in dealing with various, various patients inclusing cancer patients and she's an isha hatha yoga teacher also. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=pd9AWcU_XxI&t=3s https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Eb5MfoguWRg&t=1063s I can contact her to give you a consultation online.