Salvijus

Mmm.. It can be both. When the noise of the mind subsides it's easier to become aware of the subtle phenomena, "to get in touch with reality" as they say. But at the same time your ability to perceive subtle phenomena can be cultivated and refined to a higher and higher degree evermore. Ego or your subconcious mind has many layers, now your awareness has sinked a bit deeper and revealed a new layer of the subconcious and you became aware of sadness. Now suppose there are 1000 more layers like that deep inside you. Each one brings new level of healing, wisdom, relief, expansion, freedom, liberation, radience, an increased flow of energy and vitality etc. Basicly at the end of it all you'd be glowing and beaming like Jesus. That's the path in a nutshell.

"Increased awareness" would be a better way to call it. It can increase much more tho. So you become deeper and deeper aware of what the Truth that already is. This.

If you're avoiding it, in some way it is an unpleasent experience for you. That would be my guess. Perhaps you're not good at relationships and it causes you stress and tiredness or smth. Or you're afraid of intimacy. Or... there're probably many things that could couse unpleasentness in socializing

A devil would be fun

Mountain lake in Italy. Turns out mountain lakes are quite fun.

Here's another one The only way one can serve life is if that one is in alignment with life, aka, has no will of her own, aka, one with god

Oooh. Lol. Nice.

The quality, benefit, purity and impact of one's activity in the world (life purpose) is directly related to how much of god's energy is flowing through that particular soul (level of en-Light-enment)

One who cannot dance, cannot live, because life is dance. Set the heart free and join the Cosmic Dance of God's Glory

I can send you yin yoga from echkart tolle school. It has postures for the spine and back.

Mmmm, yoga? If you like pain so much you can do yin yoga

Being able to understand math shows that one is able to make sense. And if you make lot of sense, likely someone will call you a smart person. Maybe that's why

Yeah

To love everyone fully and not to be attached to anyone. That's a quality of an enlightened Christ. If you carefully think about it, that is also the idea of polygamy at least in theory. But in practice idk, seems potentially dangerous route. You'd have to be really concious being probably to make it work.

It's just like having multiple friends but with less boundaries

I would avoid lecturing your gf aswell since it can create the atmosphere of unnecessary burden and guilt on her. Rather have an attitude that we all have our flaws and her "mistakes" is not for you to be offended by since she doesn't own you anything in the end. Nobody owns you anything so people can do their "mistakes" as much as they like. Who are you to blame them, judge them or feel offended by them? But this position is rare and hard to take. I don't expect you to actually be able to do that. It's more like food for thought.

Yes embracing the pain is the right thing to do but the problem is (in my perception) you're nowhere near the capacity to embrace the pain of such proportion. So it's a tough situation. The natural instict of the ego is going to be to kill the problem. Which is understandable. But if you're looking for a concious solution then... i think most you can do at this stage is try not to blame anyone for what happened. And if it hurts like hell, just let it hurt. I have doubts you have enough awareness and compassion to really embrace this level of pain fully but at least a little bit you can do. My guess is the pain will get buried in the subconcious and you'll forget about it after some time. And when you're more developed and ready some years later the painful memory and feelings will bubble up again and maybe then you will be able to really embrace it and forgive it and heal that wound. Normally people would start with small things first like embracing and forgiving an insult or letting go of the pain that someone ate your favorite cookies. But this is like straight out of TV show melodrama stuff lol

A more concious response would be to just experience all the pain and hurt without any resistence and not to blame anyone for what happened. And let it tear you appart. And when the pain really kills you and smothers you to the ground, a resurrected Christ will be reborn, and healing will occur.

It's working well for u

@Sugarcoat lol It's like you're on a rampage, haha. More power to you.

"Chose love over fear" as they say

It's just honesty. Embrace it. If you see a person that arauses the sexual energy just allow it to enter you without any resistence and give it total permission to be there and you will see it woll transform into appreciation and love. It will transform lust into something beautiful and pure. Just love and appreciation. Just like appreciating a flower. Like that you can appreciate another human being. And it will not be offensive then. Plus women like to be appreciated i heard.

Wow. I wish i could do something like that. Maybe it will happen one day

"What we want is the Self" but here's the trick. There is no end to the Self. The glory and love of Self can keep expanding and become more and more intense. So it becomes an endless eternal desire for more of god and beauty and love and holyness. Might aswell that desire be embraced and allowed to flow unimpeded. Well that's one option at least.

Enlightened stillness vs enlightened dinamism. There's a womb of emptyness where everything comes and goes(masculine). And inside that emptiness shakti dances, energy of love, passion, creativity (feminine). By mastering both we reach our full potential @Sugarcoat don't worry you're not an introvert. You're both. Everyone is both.