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It is rare since it takes effort

Or a reputation point. See that's even better

1. rather die 2. And 3. Hard work 4.yes big time 5.yes 6.yes yes yes I'm fuckd up. End of the story

Meditation? A month. A concentration practice of 3 minutes. I know it's too little but keeping simple and focusing on improving consistency

Quite unproductive with just boring mundane work. Working on it. Got a meditation and visualisation practice ( visualising abt studying). That's it

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Have a genuine interest in studying, exploring and enjoying life, learning about life. University student Have subjects that I believe i'm genuinely interested in can't sit on my ass to study though; I'm able to understand what i am studying, able to excite myself but it only lasts for 30 min and then is gone this isn't just with academics but in general, say reading a self help book. what is the possible problem here? me not able to put the effort? sit on my ass? or fear? or fooling myself into thinking that i have the interest in the subjects? I did some contemplation and the rock bottom was that i genuinely want to learn and read but when it comes to practical work, Action, i ain't able to. I feel boredom and lethargic. anyone got any idea?

@Arnie I didn't know about DPRD before you mentioned it. I googled it and now I'm scared to be honest. I was already in a dilemma if I should be pursuing self inquiry and now I'm absolutely scared. Well I'll take are off that later but yea I've to get my basics handled first. Thank you all. This stuff was pretty helpful

@Natasha I have this fear that if I practice spiritual enlightenment I will become a yogi cuz I've seen people lose their passion for life in the sense losing passion for fame and fortune after pursuing self inquiry. Most of them are like we don't want success or money everything is an illusion blah blaH ps. It's hard to keep calm when you have your final year in high school and you can't focus. You feel like an idiot and teachers are pathetic, your friends, even worse. im sorry I'm acting like a baby who can't take the responsibility but every time I DO take the responsibility I screw things up, for myself and sometimes for others too @Ayla how do I do that? How do I love myself with all this shit in me never agreeing to leave me @Draconis Chaser thanks man that was pretty motivating the problem I REALLY face is consistency with good stuff and when I'm not able to stay consistent, I get depressed and angry at the same time. How do I deal with that? @Man in the Mirror trying too many stuff at the same time is my biggest problem as I'm not able to stay consistent with them but yours are pretty good point. Thanks

Will keep it short might look like i'm complaining but this is the last place where I feel I really can get some REAL, TRUE advice i'm a teenage can't focus- tried meditation for almost a month and every time I just sleep most of the time- anxious, worried, depressed, sad, angry losing my passion doubting my passion neurotic family, society, friends self doubt, negative talk want to do so much but can't do anything at all hooked to PMO. It's killing me but i'm not interested in relationships at this point no sleep schedule over thinker not interested in gossiping, partying, social status, food, people's opinion on me, drugs/alcohol i have hope and i don't have hope get it? if you have some genuine advice to share, i'm greatly indebted to you for it. ps. I have watched leo's videos on related topic and they are pretty helpful but I feel i'm missing something on my part at soul level or whatever