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I have taken responsibility of every moment of life

Hello My Actualized.org family hope you are doing fine and enjoying peace . I want to discuss few things ,1.recently i have increase my meditation time ,but i had leg numbness ( what do you guys do to prevent it?) I had severe headache ( pressure like feelings ) today Blessings

I quit meditation in past because of that reason , that time no one told me what mediation can do for you in long run , I wished I never quit, Leo video's helped me changed my mind that it is life time process, the journey is not easy at all These days I am getting opposite results too , I would say ,why to give up now when reached too far already , stop expecting from meditation ,Just do it

truly beautiful

just watching over sky from my balcony I realised the sky is so still and calm yet beautiful ,watching it from earth looks like clouds are part of sky, but that is not reality , dark and white clouds are passing by , But the only thing which doesnot change is stillness in sky, Clouds are superficial and temporary sometimes we have clear sky Is it same we can learn ?,when we try to compare us with sky and our thoughts and feelings with clouds, doesnot it apply to us as well ???? some one can change words for me please ,Sorry for my English

@charlie2dogs how to maintain meditative state while working ? I rephrase what I mean , sorry I sometimes do not know how to mention

take your time , blessings

@charlie2dogs for example ,I am reading which is doing and at this stage I am working to be deliberately ? did you get what i want to say .?

I have a question , i am also doing for example any work or ( any work from mind eg reading ) and I am also practising to be ( which right now is deliberate action) .? did you get what i want to say here ? Please help me learn it thanks

@charlie2dogs I am grateful

Thank you

I am getting the essence of what happened to me during meditation ,true I felt moment of love I dont wanna label it my healing now, I am just not labelling it anything

I’ve been looking for a long, long time, for this thing called love, I’ve ridden comets across the sky,and I’ve looked below and above. Then one day I looked inside myself,and this is what I found, A golden sun residing there,beaming forth God’s light and sound. -Rumi-

I have to work deliberately to conscious awareness, If thoughts and feelings are rising , I just let them be ? is it like trying be in meditative state all the time of wakefulness ?

@charlie2dogs thank you , I appreciate this help

I want to read between the lines you have written, I can read them , but when will I understand this ,I want to be core of my Being what is required ?

That's what I am striving for, I wont give up on me at that part , Meditation is reality ,rest is illusion

@JustinS I just came from my meditation , I am peaceful thanks , next time i will use awareness of developing these thoughts beginning , meditation is POWER

My father will call me , start taunting me and scold me, Sometimes i can tolerate and I become mindful, but sometimes I lose all my control and burst into tears, even if he is not around, i get phobia of getting insulted and then my defence mechanism start , I need help, I want to be fearless and no matter what is gonna happen, I wanna be fine with me please some one help me, right now i am little bit in urgency mood,( is it related with PMS) i m not sure?? but i have really bad PMS every month

true , I overgeneralize ,i am not failure , Its me projecting it , I will keep working no matter what , accepting myself in all aspects gave me some courage thanks you are right, I will thanks

I was working on myself lately my addictions ,when figuring out my certain behaviors and addictions ,I come to know my pattern ,but the video itself is blessing ,when leo mentioned about just be aware of pattern , I realised the statement is so powerful Some how I got addicted the website here ,but after certain awareness , I realise ,the website has helped me building my inner guidance system ( as i learnt about it from here) I have improved some part of my neurosis not full ,I wish i can just predict ,how much more time is required to be aware fully ?

@vizual True ! pretty nasty ,but I am taking this into account of awareness , ( I need to work on deeply rooted insecurties and deprivation)

hello eveyone !!! I am working on my emotions lately , very recent I worked on fear not alone but with help of master , Hatred is something has taken enough space in my soul ,I am using Its ok technique , accepting my hatred is painful too , ( i resist it as well) Discussion is welcome

make sense thanks @Saarah

I felt hatred ( intense) towards a person , which I want to change towards behavior , I have done some inner work on that , trying to accept the way it is , it will take time and patience