Natura Sonoris

@Sarah_Flagg Sorry for delay, but i had to do smt yesterday anyway. Anyway, you got your answer already. People are used to see you in one way and their egos cant deal with it. They are losing control over you and that scares them, and they will just try to pull you back in. One good example that i can remember now is when my friend kept pushing that we order pizza from local fast food. I said no thanks, i will eat at my place since it is 2 mins walk plus i will eat raw veggies which are far better than pizza. Then he said : oh just order veggie pizza thats same shit. I said nah, thats bullshit in any way possible plus i aint paying 4 euros for 2 mins walk home LOL. After some time i just stopped talking since after 3,4 points i realized it is a brick wall. But anyway, best advice is not taking anything personally even if you are closely related to the person. Be aware that in these situations, your ego will swing here into emotions and it will pull that "defence" mode. Then you will get in arguments, victim mode etc. and thats just waste if energy. Try to be aware when it happens. When it does happen, just sit down and see what happened there on your part (ego talking to its self his own bullshit xD)

Hello i am doing enquiry for some time now and there is no single day i do not ask the question : Who am i ? For what ''i know'' is this (P.S This is observation, not theory) : Both sounds and visuals that seems outside us and inside us are all one experience. When i close my eyes and remain still, this obsevation is soo damn obvious so there is no need to question is it not true. But interesting question comes when i open my eyes is : What is the experience ? What is this thing that appears to be nowhere that gives illusion that there is computer screen in front of us. If i try to touch what i think am i and i can see that all there is just that ''screen'' in front and there is .......no observer ? Wait... is this it ?

@Ayla Ye, i am aware of that. But still good insight.

@Sarah_Flagg I will come soon to reply on this.

Let me tell you what happened to me yesterday. It is gonna be a long post but it i think it will be worth it. I apologise for grammar and typos upfront, but when i write posts, my mind is too fast at processing stuff so i cant focus so much on writting (and i dont have Google spell checker here but i will edit the post when i sit on my other device) For the last 2 years i am working on my passion and that is becoming music producer. Three days ago i made big step forward because i realized i can do something that i struggled to do for some time. Anyway, i went outside to meet with my friends to grab some drinks and we were talking what going on in everyones lifes and i mentioned how some cool stuff regarding my music project have happened. After that we sat on the table to eat and they sat in front of me. They were chatting and I got lost in some thoughts. While i was eating i was listening to music in background and i tapped my fingers on the table rhytmicly (for no reason, it is just thing you do from time to time unconsciously when you produce music) . At that moment, i overheard : Oh he thinks he thinks he is sooo cool because he is making music. I pretended that i did not hear it but i started to become aware what was going on inside me. As i observed i saw that my ego was being hurt by the fact they dont show support for what i do. Anyway, at that moment, i remembered Leo's video : ''How to stop caring what people think about you''. The most important part in the video : How they see you is just a thought. You will let thought in someone elses head guide your life ? Now the big conclusion and the point of this post is this : The fact my ego is being hurt shows lack of my self esteem in myself. I know how to recongnise it because everytime my ego is being hurt in any way possible, the core of it is lack of self esteem and fear. At the moment, i improved it so much that now i rarely get involed in any conflicts .My friend knows that i used to lack self esteem since we are friends for 7 years now and i know he lacks too since i know a lot of about his internal issues etc. Second point is this one : If thoughts of other people (your owns as well) are being triggered by negative emotions, it is a sign that their ego cant accept the reality. The be more precise, their ego is strugling to deal with certain parts of their personality. So people around you are probably having strugles with parts of their personality that they see thru you (because everything we see is being processed by internal filters that we made since we are born). They just cant accept the reality that you changed and as for your husband, i think he fears about losing control over you.My friend hs his own issues and I am aware of that and i know why his ego could not deal with me doing some good stuff for me. But be aware that your ego here will also have need to reason to prove its point. And i think this is why you made this topic People here will support your ego because it wants to reason with itself to see other people as stuck and ''they just dont get me.'' But what is really going on is : Hey my reality is different then yours so it must be true which is root cause of all conflcits. Good thing i remembered now where this comes from as i type (i just developed my ow model inside my head) : This is from Leo's video : How to control Anger : http://actualized.org/articles/how-to-control-anger You have a certain model of reality. You have a certain thought process and belief process about how reality should be. You have certain ideals. Maybe one of your ideals is being honest. Maybe another ideal of yours is performing work well. Maybe another ideal of yours is being very creative. Maybe another ideal of yours is being humorous. What happens is, we all have these ideals, for each person’s a little bit different. What happens is, we have these ideals and when we see other people not fulfilling those ideals, which are ours, they might not be those person’s ideals, then we get angry at it. For example, we see somebody lying, we catch someone in a lie, and we say “Ah! You’re lying! You shouldn’t be doing that. You should be honouring honesty.” We get angry at that person, even though if we go and do a search, we can find cases where we ourselves have done similar things in the past. Or it could be with humour. I had one client at one time who was really into humour. He loved to do comedy, he loved to do improv. One of the things that was really high on his list of values was humour. One of the things he really didn’t like were humourless people. Why is that? Because he has this value of humour, of joy, of funniness, and when he doesn’t perceive it in others, then he doesn’t like that. It rubs him the wrong way. We’re going to get into the deeper reasons of why that is in a second. I hope this clears up a lot of things

Please watch some of Leo videos before you post something like this

It is next on my list after i read some books i ordered. So any suggestions ?

I can not believe it just happened like this ahahahahah. It is so fucking obvious

Funny thing is i just opened topic here 5 mins ago I was typing and while i was typing, i was doing the stuff that i was typing.When i finished the last word, it hit me ahahahaha. It is so fucking obvious.

@Trucesea_kr Music is just music and nothing more. it is up to you how you label it. For me, melodic techno classical music and some alternative bands is something i find myself in. Music itself can not overcome problems if you understand what music actually is. Just seeking for music is emotional need on its own but you are just not aware of it (because ego masks it as being something different and that it is - being true which is not)

I think it all comes from seeking emotional comfort. I would suggest you to do same thing as i did it and that is question why you value music so much. You can start just from being aware what is going on when you listen to music. When you figure out what is going on there (track your thoughts and emotions), start doing deep questioning why you need to do it in first place. Why your ego ''requires'' specific stimuli that triggers certain processes that you first need to be aware of in order to question them. I boiled down to emotional comfort. That is reason why people listen to music. For example, you and your loved one had a favorite song, and you ego would label experience of that song as something ''pleasant'' , ''wonderful'' etc. Along with that, all events that may happened during the playback with that song are also being stored into those labels. When you break up, your ego fill its voids with seeking some experiences that can fill that void. This does not mean that you are missing someone or anything similar, but you have some emotional need to listen to it. However, music is something that is kinda build it in humanity for many thousands of years so there is probably some deeper science behind it, but i still think that fact has no massive effect on why certain individuals listen more to music than rest of people. As i said, seek for what is true and honest and be totally aware of what is going on and you will find your answer

Hmm, it is a kinda of surprise for me, but anyway, follow my tips and you will get more clarity (at least more than you probably have now). There are many useful books on this subject, but for me personally the major improvement happened when i really questioned how i value relationships and more important how those values were created in first place. I realized that some of those values were coming from some negative experiences from the past that created a void in me that needed to be fulfilled. Those events were not something traumatic or anything like that, but for me personally, most honest answers for myself came when i questioned those hidden sneaky stuff that many people take as ''unnecessary.'' One huge insight that i got when i questioned all my values and beliefs in general is that we have a certain need to use them in every day life to fulfill our self-image. We have certain emotions that drive us to do that every second and we are not aware of them at all (if you do meditation, you know how our mind if fucked up). Our beliefs change if there is some external phenomenon with specific structure that can break our mental web and this results in creating even more complex webs. The problem is that sometimes our mind takes a lot of negative emotional garbage and tries to make balance by forcing some sneaky bullshit in order to feel ''happy.'' But if you really question it, it is just deception and bullshit. If theoretically you found the perfect one, you would not be any happier. Last point i will mention is your need to even post this ''problem'' on forum. First of all, i can see it has some dreamy structure to it since it seeks for some ''perfect'' man. Other reason it is presented in really vague fashion so best thing to do is also have a deep look what happened there when you were opening this topic. Your mind forced you to do it and there is nothing wrong with it, but be aware of every action like this you do. You might get more clarity just from observing the need for doing it than other peoples' points of view. As i mentioned, this is really direct and hardcore approach for some people, but for me it gave me huge improvements in life. Cheers

I ll keep it short as possible. If you are truly working on yourself, you should know enough what is ''good'' and ''bad'' for you ? Also you should not take any relationship too personally. Of course, if you can get many honest stuff about yourself when you take a better look after break up, you can get wiser and wiser about what you want in relationship. If you get into bad relationships, it is only your fault why you are doing it. Everything is mostly romantic bullshit.If you take this as honest answer and contemplate it for a while, you will see it is true. You have certain ego voids you are trying to fill with those persons and they are most likely coming from your insecurities. If you work hard on digging them up, you will see there is pattern happening. If you read Six pillars of self-esteem, you will find a chapter on very beginning of the book who talks about man or woman ruining her relationships because they had some hidden problems. Best question to ask yourself : Why i even need that person in my life ? After that write down those reasons and keep asking : Why i think i need to get xx from that specific person in order to be fulfilled ? Keep doing this for a while and you will discover some really great stuff on which you can work on and then you will attract someone who is on same level as you. Along with that, you will start to notice what you really don't want. Just doing contemplation about my previous relationship, i discovered some really fucked up stuff about me. It was nothing serious in general, but for my ego it was shocking. And now i am happy i am always to be as honest as possible with myself. Everything else is just lies and bullshits packed in really nice box that looks charming for yourself. So ask yourself ; Do you want someone who will keep giving you nice little boxes packed with bullshit or you want someone who is being as honest with themselves and maybe that can grow to be something beyond yourselves. I am being harsh, but i prefer it like this myself so don't take it as me judging you or something similar Btw, i kinda assume you are quite young, am i correct ?

@Skenderberg Ableton is just a start. If you want to do music Live, start buying some hardware synths. You can start with Korg Volca series because they are cheap and really sound good. Also consider getting Roland AIRA stuff. About mixing and mastering,there is idea that you can do mixing wherever you want, but for mastering you need 2x 3000,4000 euro speakers and acoustically treated room. Then you need good AD converters and of course some really clean analog hardware. I had privilege to be in some of best studios in whole world, for example Metropolis studio (where you can find Freddy Mercury's piano) and i was in all their mixing and mastering rooms and i realized that the home bedroom myth mastering is broken.There are many things you just cant hear with normal studio monitors. But still it all goes to level you want reach with your production. I am technological and music freak, i will soon take some piano lessons and i have many goals that i want to reach in next couple of years such as releasing more high quality music, making my own modular synthesizer, programming visuals for my live show to change when i do midi effects etc. So music world is huge so i really advice you to give your best shot. If you can afford 10-20k euros per year, go to audio production schools (you can find also for less in some other countries in europe,for example 5k for year). If not, internet courses are your best option. Also you can message me if you need some help or advice.

Hello I am kind of person who dwelled in this dilemma for long period of time, so i can give you some good and practical advices.First let's talk about music : - I have BA in Audio Engineering and Recording Arts and I can for myself that I know quite a lot of stuff about it. As you can see, in my degree there is no word music in it. The reason behind is because the general idea about producing music is that you have an artist, studio guy and then you have final product. Sad thing is that these two ''worlds'' are kinda separated. I had luck to go to university where my professor wanted to blend these two worlds into unity so you can develop both sides and some really awesome stuff start to happen. On top of that, he is really successful guy and he really inspired me to keep improving myself in all areas of life. The reason why i am telling you all this is because i want to share my vision with you : If you come from music side of music science ( by that, i mean playing instruments etc) you discovered just one little piece. For example, recording music is art of itself and for example microphones and recording desks can be instruments of their own. Mixing and doing final masters can be considered also an art. The technology you use for that opens the world of signal manipulation which can sound very musical for getting specific harmonic content. That technology can take you into exploring analog modular synthesizers and synthesis itself which is process of making music that is really unique. Just imagine using this to make music The step after this is doing sounds for movies etc. So really expand yourself on what is possible today in this world and how far you can develop yourself. And most important advice when it comes to music is this one : Do not listen to lazy slobs that say : Oh you can make money out of music etc. Remember that is just a thought in their head that was formed by social conditions and that's why they will keep sitting in their bubbles. About psychology : - When i found Leo's chanel, i found out that there are a lot of things that are missing on their life and just ignore the stuff that can ACTUALLY HELP because it is easier to bitch and moan. That path led me to really get a deep sence of what i am and what should i do with my life. So being that person kinda pulled me into being type of person that wants to help people because i can see how they are being stuck. But like i said, it is easier to bitch and moan. I came to conclusion that if they need help from me or anyone else, they will ask for it. Nevertheless, you can take my vision for music world i gave you and apply it for psychology, maybe you get something deeper than i can. Really good advice is to buy Leo's Life Purpose Course and also read books from his book list. Those books are ''a must read'' for every person because they can really plant a seed in you that will grow and as it grows , your life will get better. The only problem is feeding that plant and watering it

I suggest you get a Eben Pagan's and Wyatt Woodsmall's program called ''Master Map For Success.''

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Could you share some of those recipes because i find it hard to organize my diet as vegetarian. I am mostly eating fish with raw veggies.

I kinda don't understand what you said. What difference does it make if you spiritual type of person ? If you mother has epilepsy, you should find ways to help her. If she takes some medication, she will be fine. Those medications are not really so bad for you. I have epilepsy and taking meds helped me to not get a seizure. If you are searching for alternative, you may find a lot of research on internet or trying to find someone with similar type of epilepsy as your mother. On top of that, she should have a healthy life. About being spiritual, i am not consider myself a spiritual person since i know would be just a belief that i took as ''valid.'' I would just continue to structure other beliefs that will help enforce my self image of being spiritual person. Anyway, in my personal case i took medication for being a 'valid'' answer.

I am currently researching this topic since i want to put some ''positive'' and less ''negative'' habits in my life for which i consider that your day goes smoother. What i came across are next things : - Having Good Sleep This is a must do if you want a good morning routine. If you wake up feeling tired, it is less likely that you will do your morning routine. - Drinking Water When You Wake Up You should drink at least half liter of water because when you wake up, your body is dehydrated. You can warm it up and even add some lemon to it. Trust me, your body will thank you. - Eating Good Meal I did not do much research on nutrition, but for what i know, you need energy in the morning and good balanced meal. The breakfast is most important meal of the day since it mostly dictates what is your next meal going to be. If you do not eat good in the morning, you next meal will not probably be good. First thing i eat is 3-4 quail eggs with little honey and mix it with small amount of almond milk. Then i wait around 30 minutes and eat my salad with raw fresh veggies ( there is always aprx. at least 6,7 different veggies inside it) with tuna and little olive oil. -Some Other Stuff Between 30 min break from meals, i pour hot water in the bowl in front of me and sip few drops of peppermint oil and i take deep breaths. After that i take other bowl and more hot water mixed with sea salt and pour it in my noise to clear the sinuses ( i don't have any problem with them but it is really good habit ). During sleep your nose gets filled up with some nasty stuff so you want that out in order to breath better. Soon i will implant some morning exercises and probably move my meditation habit in the morning. During the rest of the day, i take good shower (plus it is good thing to do in order to clear your thoughts a bit) and more healthy meals during the day. I mostly eat fish and veggies but i am working on eating more different stuff. Unfortunately i still don't have a good reading habit because i am not really organized when it comes in doing some other stuff like my projects etc. but i am working on it. My advice is also cut next things: Any strong addictions (cigarettes/alcohol/drugs) , don't eat junk food and find some better alternatives. Cut social media as much as you can and internet. I calculated that i usually spend 3,4 hours on FB and it feels like it passed only 1 hour.The content on FB is getting shorter and shorter in length. For example we can take Vine videos that last for 7 seconds and when you watch them few times a day, it piles up a lot without having a clue about time. I am currently working now to limit myself on FB. I just need FB to check few pages that i need for my projects so i will probably just put mobile notifications of those pages and read them if i find them important (so in the end, i will not open FB myself just to scroll homepage). If someone needs me, there will be messenger app. Anyway i think this is good way to limit yourself from FB and slowly cutting it off permanently. Just think about what you can do with those 3,4 hours. Just reading a book for example is sufficient benefit in your life.

Kinda offtopic, but this thing is bugging me for really long time. I want develop my daily routine where i wake up early in morning (lets say 8-9am) and go to sleep around 12pm-1am and during the day, i am doing my music project stuff and keeping the healthy life. My problems are (and first ones are most important) - Irregular sleeping patterns. I am trying to develop good sleeping habit that will give me enough time and energy to work during the day.I cant stand anymore to go to sleep at 4 am just because i cant fall asleep properly. I have to take melatonin supplement in order to fall asleep that me makes wake up really late. So any good advices on that ? - Heathy diet. I am currently suffering from brain tumor/cancer (small percentage might be cancerous) that came back 3rd time now. I am not stressed about it as many people are when it comes to this stuff even tho i might suffer from some form of disability. Anyway, i want to keep up improving my diet so i minimize risk of all kinds of diseases in the future. I am currently in vegeterian phase (Leo made me do it hah) and i can proudly say i am eating healthy for 7,8 months now. But i think i could improve my diet even more. - Are there some productive techniques that i should know about ? I am doing the creative work so i need my mind to be focused. I am doing meditation but i am not getting as much clarity and focus as i should. This all combined is one part of it. To sum things up, i want to create some order from semi-chaos i am currently in, but i can't create order from chaotic state without some step by step process or guide. I am 23 years old and i am in financial situation where i do not have to spend time doing 9-5 job so i want to use this free gap to develop my project to the point it can sustain me. For this, i need stuff from above. So advices would be great.

I do daily focused meditations with ''observing'' what is in my awareness. I had some really hard breaking points where some really weird stuff was going on (btw this happens after 30 mins into meditation). I am carefully observing what is really going on and i am trying to find true experience but i it always turns into really hard tension like state when i feel my mind is vibrating. If someone had some similar experience, it would be most helpful. Anyway, i will probably open new topic about this, because this can turn into offtopic. I would like to see other people insights regarding meditation and enlightenment. @Sarah_Flagg Interesting experience. Well, like i said, i will open new topic for this. I think it would be nice to discuss it.

Just curious, how many of you had honest experience of no-self/not-knowing/emptiness ? Because many folks here talk a lot of stuff about ego, but i do not know if some of them are biased by Leo videos. I find myself biased a lot and i am ''looking'' for insights he talks about and i am honest to realize that. But on the other hand, maybe that is my distraction from doing ''pure' enlightenment work (i will find out when i am there i guess). But still, i would like to have honest discussions with all of you and not something you ''kinda'' figured out. Anyone here with some sort of understanding on logical level can talk about ego as illusion (personaly i could write an essay on it ) but in order to keep discussions on forum more ''interesting'' ( i can not find better word for it), it would be really helpful to see where each one of us is. I kinda agree with Rayko, this place should be more about everybody growing into something beyond ourselves. Leo is just here to make it possible by setting the foundations and possibly collect info that will help him turn Actualized.org into something even better for the future. Just imagine what this community can be in 10 years if we all together follow our paths and share our ''golden nuggets''.

Hello everyone, My name is Alex, I am 23 years old and I live in Belgrade, Serbia. My occupation is Audio Engineering/Sound Design/Music Production.I am not married nor i have kids. I started doing personal development around 2 years ago when stumbled upon one of Leo's videos. I noticed the interesting approach he had while discussing the topic so i checked out the website. From that point on, my life completely changed. I had a clear look from above how stuck i was and I knew that if I did not check out Actualized.org, my quality of life would decline in really bad direction. Personal changes i overcame : - Worked and still working on my victim mentality i adopted due to many factors i could not control. I was born in wealthy family and i got really spoiled by my mother and lived inside a bubble that needed to burst.That resulted in really bad social life . Now I behave more like responsible and mature person and I really pay attention when I do same bull***t from time to time. And of course, i am taking 100% responsibility when i can ( when i am acting from awareness) - Worked so much on my self esteem that kinda ruined my previous relationship and now i kinda feel like i can deal with certain issues that i face. - There are many more stuff but i like to keep things short Now i am focused on my music project and doing Enlightenment work. And my next goal is to work more on my dating life. There are many things i plan for next 10 years but one at the time.