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You are standing on truth. There is nothing but truth to see. Truth meaning what is actually there. You can live a life of ignorance, but it will be a life of ignorance, because, again, you are standing on truth. Truth is the foundation. Everything else emerges from it. To be ignorant means to direct your attention on a by-product of truth. Of course it is "fun", "adventurous", it is all a creation. It is a miracle. It doesn't end when you become directly conscious of truth. It continues. You are asking from a place of ignorance. You can't know what you haven't experienced yet. You can only open yourself and immerse yourself in that which is unknown, and it comes very easily if you don't grab on a "way of being". Of course, this is a decision. You can make the decision to live a life full inauthenticity, full of things which are actually not yours but borrowed from your surroundings. Ideas that have no substance whatsoever borrowed from the "external" (no substance whatsoever) to create a self (with no substance whatsoever). Or you can gradually open yourself by refusing to be located in neither paradigms/tiers.

You can't know spirituality without knowing your journey. Taking psychedelics is of course part of the journey of the one who takes it. How it will unfold, will it lead to ultimate enlightenment? What is the intention behind taking psychedelics? Everyone has their path. Many people can speak wisdom, but the "ultimate" are they still after it? And what is that anyway? Everything needs to be surrendered and vanished. Everything that has to do with a self, with a reality, with a personality. You take psychedelics because? You wanna escape something, discover, know, understand, or it is for wisdom? It can be healing. But that doesn't have anything to do with that which is above all. Blabbering wisdom is the same as blabbering nonsense. One should go for the ultimate. If psychedelics jumps in one's path, then it can only be followed. Taking psychedelics may be a turning point in your life, a big eye opener. Even more than that. But it is just a part of your life's course.

I feel the energy from the logo. When i first enter the site I immediately see the logo and reminds me of what I am after after all Whatever I am doing. Walking in that which I call my home, my life, or problems, trauma, healing from the past I enter the site and I see the logo and reminds me of that which is even upper than that. The healing methods (which work), the traumas that get rediscovered and felt, these are all good things that are happening right now in my life, they strip me rapidly. But it's even upper than this. It is beyond the reality of oneself, reality which includes trauma and healing altogether. The seeing of the logo perpetuates this Truth that i am seeing/feeling/being these days it just happens that I've became very attuned to my path. i am more concentrated. only find high consciousness/frequency things, from music to poetry, books etc. then it happens to enter the site... and i must use the word "synchronicity" here, because this is what happens to me. i am in a continuum of finding/stumbling into only things that reminds me of that which is beyond, and the logo is no exception. i wanted to share this also as a feedback. i also think the "self improvement forum" should be changed. it must be more than just that.

Would you need someone's support for facing/surviving ultimate death/enlightenment? Not just ego death but also death of the body? Nobody knows what awakening/enlightenment is, death, terror or how will it manifest. For "ultimate enlightenment" do you need a master/teacher? In order for you to remain in this "reality" afterwards and not die "forever" so to say.

You can't realize it by force. You need to have some kind of maturity in you that will only grow in time. And even when you "mature enough" you still won't know when you'll awaken. You can take whatever psychedelics you want, it won't guarantee your awakening. You can do whatever you want, it won't guarantee anything. You can do nothing and awaken. It has to do with something else.

You can only sit on truth. Whether you are using words like "pursuing" or not it doesn't really matter. You are pursuing and experiencing it even when you are "taking a break from it". You can not take breaks. Even when you are sitting on your couch watching TV you are still doing something. You are still pursuing it somehow. Numbing the feeling of aliveness is still par for the course. Breaks do not exist. When you sleep you do not take a break. When you eat you do not take a break. When you are not thinking about it you don't take a break. When you feel demotivated you are not taking a break. You see it as dual. You are either pursuing "it" (and this is where your imagination/delusion comes in) or not. It's not like that. And "it" is much trickier than the common dual-thinking.

You should recognize that these are your reactions, which you are associating with "them" (and a hundred of other things). It is perfectly fine to feel "anger". It means you are not directly proportional with the reality of things. You are decorating your experience. You are reacting. You can not see clearly what is there. What is there has nothing to do with a "you". Thoughts, emotions, sensations are lying to you. Start breaking the cycle of reacting. There is no "absolute". Everything you experience is falsehood. Be interested in only experiencing "what is real". Feel whatever you wanna feel. But ask yourself in that moment, every time, "is this really true? As the sensation, emotion, reaction is telling me?" You may find that you are reacting to nothing. No substance whatsoever.

You can't love it forcefully. You can only come to that conclusion. It is actually the "foundation". The Truth. You are trying to see clearly what you have in front of your eyes. But you can't, because the layers of illusion are still standing too heavy on you. If you don't have it [love], it means you are still deluded somehow, you still have "layers" of illusions that doesn't let you feel it. Love is pure "truth energy", life energy. Don't force yourself to love. Know that love is the conclusion. Know, with the help of this information, that when you hate, you are actually deluding yourself. Keep this information in your mind, to guide yourself in your direct experience, in your personal path. But you must reach the direct experience of what Love really is. By hating you are only perpetuating the chaos, the illusion. You are perpetuating a "self", an identity. Do not "love" either. If you don't understand what that is don't do it. Love will come naturally, when you start breaking the cycle of always reacting. You can only have ups and downs. Hate, suffer, cry, have mental breakdowns. Then be happy again, feel again freed somehow. Believe it or not, this is all drama and illusion. Whether it is something "negative" or "positive". It is something perpetuated by you and maintained by you. Break the cycle of always reacting. See what is really there with awareness when you are standing in front of the "bad guys", and see the simplicity of it all. To see the simplicity you must renounce the "decorations" you willfully are putting on the people that wronged you. It is all between you and yourself. This is the only battle.

It is chaos that you have until you awaken. You can only have chaos before you awaken. Because that's how you awaken. By learning the lessons that chaos brings, whatever that is for you personally. You can only embrace chaos, or run from it. But if you run from it you also run from awakening/Truth. And the only way you can achieve this love and integrity is by getting past the chaos, the illusion. You don't really have right now love and integrity. You can think of it, but you don't actually have it, in your veins. You can only have it by learning the lessons. The lessons are right in front of your eyes. It is your direct experience. --> is it full of objects you react to or is it "full" of One? (unity, truth)

Congratulations

Where have you found information about mystics and clairvoyants? I tried to find some for the "mystics" category but to no avail. Do you have some resources?

@Matt8800 Thank you.

@Matt8800 Hey I am experiencing a massive blockage regarding creativity and connecting myself to the Absolute and I would like to know if you can help me with some insight. It is a pretty important problem to me because I always had the ability to do this and for 2 years now I am experiencing this blockage that makes my life very miserable and unspontaneous. You said that there is something called in occult as "mistics". You said you are one yourself. I am new to this subject. The thing is that I can identify myself with the description of this word. I always had mystical experiences throughout imagination. I always imagined stories in my head from as early as childhood and gathered many insights and things that I couldn't experience in real life through it. In combination with music I was experiencing the power of the absolute and the power of creativity and there was insane amounts of spontaneity where characters in my imagination just started acting themselves out. It was like I was transitioning to another reality. I was gathering information and became wiser through what was happening there. (What was happening in my head was devoid of any trivial, "earthily" day-to-day, things. I always imagined characters and ways of life of a very high consciousness/frequency) It was magical. It was meditation. It was actual Paradise for me. I didn't existed as the small i. I knew what I was actually, and it was a power that I cannot put into words, but experenced there fully. Now I am very miserable and what I could do one day, I find that I cannot do it in the present because fear always comes up. And I don't know why. Because in the past I wasn't afraid of it, of imagination, of the power it revealed to me, of the insane spontaneity and feeling of ecstatic joy. Now I always block the spontaneity voluntarily because I can not bear the fear. I can not bear what comes after letting go. Even if it's joy to what I let myself go. I just blocked myself out. I blocked myself from what I was naturally doing from the beginning of childhood. I can not let myself go anymore. I can not enjoy the process. The flow cannot come anymore because I block myself before it can begin, reveal itself. I always remain in the "reality" now. I can not make the "transition" anymore and let go into the imagination and music and the atmosphere and mystical power it creates. The thing is, this also has impacted negatively my everyday life. It's like I became retarded. My insights (which I have them everyday) turned into shit. There is not 100 flow, just 50 or less. I cannot talk anymore with people like I used to (there was always some kind of a power. Now it's like everything that I say is always half heartedly and robotic). There is apathy in me, there is doubt. It hugely affected my ability to say things. Write or speak. Everytime there comes high frequency energy in me, it is always somehow blocked so as to not be fully expressed and experienced. I am very miserable. Everything that I do is done like my spirit doesn't exist anymore. I am always backing off somehow. Even if the energy is there and wants to come out. I always back off. I always put a "Stop". Do you know what this is? Sorry for the long post. Edit: there is also no concentration. Distractions are everywhere and I can not center myself anymore. I can not feel only myself anymore and the power that comes with this concentration.

Love furthers you to the elimination of yourself. It furthers your bigger picture. Your "seeing things from above". People who didn't discover "love" yet are still biased, still getting deluded, not understanding the illusion around them. I am talking about love teaching you a very important lesson. Do you know how hard it is for me to love the people that did me wrong? How hard it is for me to love the people that abused me? How hard it is for me to accept and tolerate those people? It is hard, but this is exactly what I need to do. And I don't want to. I want to hate, even if I understand fully the perspective of my abusers. Because everything is understood. If you do not understand, it is because you do not have the capability to see the bigger picture of what's happening. You are too deeply immersed in the "content". But as soon as you understand the other's perspective, as soon as you can put yourself in the other's shoes, the lack of love that you feel becomes a conscious decision which you are maintaining. It is a matter of ego here. That's why love is important. If you can really accept it and open your heart, open yourself to everything, becoming vulnerable, it furthers your liberation. You feel freedom I had this experience of feeling love for everyone. I can understand what Leo is referring to by "love". In one degree or another. It is a love for everything and everyone. Everything that happened and will happen. And in that love you see the absolute. It is not just "love", it is also an absolute sense of freedom. You are not only realizing love. All your problems are vanishing away. Love vanishes them. All your hatred and resentments are vanishing away. There will be a very great clarity of what is happening. What is your life, who are your abusers, who are actually the "bad" people. Everything is being understood and accepted. Why? Because it can be understood, and maintaining hatred instead of love is just that, a decision of maintaining, which has to do with you, being caught up in the sand, in the content. You are not seeing things from above. Everything ultimately can be understood, that's why evil doesn't exist. Evil is a construction, here, on "Earth". It is constructed in the illusion. It is not something truly real. Just get your head out of the sand. Do that everytime, and love will just come. But yes, it will be pretty hard, to do the counter-intuitive thing.

If a Truth exists then why I don't see it right in front of me? If there is a "matrix" why am I not simply aware of it? Why there are steps to "realization"? Why is it that "Good always wins"? Why do you say imagination is real?

@Leo Gura Do you think people with spiritual giftedness can regress and change their brain chemistry? Can they block their gift as to lose it? Can you make permanent damages and not be able to access it anymore? What they've been able to do one day, not being able to do it ever again? Or can you voluntarily block it, reject it, and therefore lose it? Or some of its power. Or it is actually impossible lose the "foundation"? I am talking more exactly about neuroplasticity.

What is it more exactly that the camera is taking pictures of?

Thank you all for your answers. I was not asking about the technical aspects of a camera nor I was asking about the creativity of a human, which with the use of a camera can create art. I am not speaking about a camera in relation with another "object" (a person). Just the camera itself. If everything is a hallucination and perception doesn't exist. If everything is made up, if the inside is the outside and vice versa and there is no duality. Then an object (a camera) what is actually seeing? What is that image that has just been captured? Is that "reality"? What is that? Is a capture of some fantasy? For some people, the camera capturing something, is proof for an immediate, material reality. So what is the camera capturing? Yeah... Dreams within dreams. I think the camera is actually taking a picture of itself. It's actually a "strange loop". Welp... I think I found the answer = )

this is a really important point that you make actually, in order to reach "Real" love. you can not get past survival if you can not recognize what that is in the first place. unconditional love is nothing that a mere normal day-to-day human can imagine. and it is a bitter pill to take, the knowing of the fact that your "pure" love for your partner, is actually an egotistical, selfish delusion that you tell to yourself, in order for you to get your needs completely satisfied. love is actually just giving, not taking. and it's a really complex matter that can't be elaborated in just a forum's post.

You are getting lost in thought. You need to understand that thought is thought and reality is reality. And when you feel sad, then be "sad" and if in the next minutes you don't feel sad anymore then you won't be sad anymore. Everything just is as it is. Let everything flow. Do not cling, do not attach. Everything must be accepted as it is. Yes, you have thoughts, stories. Let them be. Nothing wrong with that. But the mistake you make is that you are not aware/conscious that you perpetuate them. You make dramas that doesn't help you with anything. The mistake is you not being aware of You. You identify with the thoughts. You learn/become more conscious by not attaching, and observing that everything comes suddenly and will go suddenly if you do not cling to the stories. You think the stories are important, that they need to stay, but you have no decision in that, because thoughts are thoughts. They're not You. Let everything be. Does it help you thinking about all these things? Does this thoughts have some practicality in them? Or are just rubbish? You need to make these decisions and then let go of what is futile. But you won't be able to do this if you are not aware that you are not them. Yes, what you think may become true one day. But again, thought is thought and immediate reality is immediate reality. Nothing wrong with imagination or thoughts, there is something wrong when you get into a sort of "trance". When you get lost in them. When you don't understand what is the thing that is aware of everything. When you don't understand what You are. What are you?

Stay in silence.

it will help you on that, but not on how to actually start a business.

let go of labels and desires. just do what you wanna do. (on a side note: that's actually how you find your purpose)

Being conscious in every moment. Every time I find myself in a "trance", I just get back into the immediate reality. It is actually meditation.

Exactly, you are just a blind person until you start meditating and experience. Until you experience you will have nothing, just "thoughts" aka assumptions, projections etc. Thoughts exist with a reason. Nothing is a mistake. Thought can be used correctly and intelligently. But not until you understand that thoughts are not you and they don't say anything about you, just about an "identity".