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i've already posted the vice documentary i had to dig up my liked videos to find it.. took me awhile

https://youtu.be/KEMsXYcSdPM?list=LLkAhBu07qkxhpop1KWT7LKQ

@Isle of View what about my breath? does it matter how i breath? whether it's pure mouth breaths or nose breaths? i shouldn't bother changing it artificially just let it be even if my mouth is open or so right?

so it's completely fine for me to focus on my sensations my body? what about being blank? if i'm being focused on my sensations that won't let my brain think it's kind of an easy mode out, won't that trigger me away from reaching a proper blank mindfulness state?

for a beginner in meditating how long should i hold off on audio? should i meditate raw without audio for 2months or 6 months before going for the various audio aid in meditation? edit : found this should i try it out?

if i'm focusing my attention to my breathing/hearing/feeling sensations isn't that contradicting since you said my sensations arise and i'm supposed to let it go?

Addiction is caused by a neurotic need vs Addiction is caused by a social neglect ?

i highlighted it at 25:50 i h

Everyone has been spouting the typical cliche 'do what makes you happy advice' 'do what you like to do' 'do what you enjoy doing' Here's my problem.. for example : I like eating food, that doesn't mean i want to cook food for a living. I like watching movies or listening to music, that doesn't mean i want to be an actor or want to be a singer or an artist. I like playing video games casually from time to time, that doesn't mean i want to do some programming to create some. I like watching some youtube videos, that doesn't mean i want to do some video editing or become a youtuber eventually.. I'm 25 years old, Where on earth do i go from here..? My life experience so far has been : I had a contract for mechanical engineering for airport maintenance with a company for years, they got bankrupt and they kicked us all out batch of 200+ students. I'm back in university now just finished my 1st year 3 years to go ( i picked engineering because i seem to motivated by money sadly, and i want to just generally help people out in the future by creating something useful or repairing something for their everyday lives) Although let me be honest i really hate studying engineering. I'm only doing this because i want to be useful in life. Am i possibly going down the wrong road ? It feels like i may regret it who knows.. I'm not exactly passionate about anything in life because i'm lazy when it comes to doing anything honestly.. [typically i just want to live life carefree, not worrying about bills or managing life in stress]