Shaun

Fife, Scotland

That's good because the chances of me getting sex are extremely small. Transcend the need and there's no problem.

So the practice of mindful dying must be applied.

I have always wondered how monks overcome the blue balls syndrome. Maybe someone can answer?

By not approaching women, you can help yourself to suffer much less.

I think cameras prove the existence of an outside world. They aren't even alive and yet they can still see. That would suggest to me that there might be an outside world but the outside world is fundamentally consciousness based. That fits in with atoms and molecules being less and less like matter the more scientists deconstruct them.

I understand all of this mostly conceptually which isn't ideal. Going by Rupert Spira's teachings I am actually enlightened but no, I don't think so. He tries to mainstream enlightenment but there is deeper to go.

Take Conrad's advice and don't look too deeply into it on a conceptual level. People have went insane over it and some have even killed themselves. Just continue meditation, self inquiry and any others that work for you.

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The difference with the sleeping dream is that the other characters in it are not having their own experience but in the waking state, they are. That's what Rupert Spira says about it anyway.

Sleep never really begins or ends because consciousness always is. Deep sleep is just awareness without objects. @seeking_brilliance Leo said in one of his videos that it's a matrix within a matrix for infinity.

Your journey down the rabbit hole begins.

In the waking state, I go to bed and then a dream begins. I don't go to bed in my wacky fucked up dream and wake up to normal life, the dream just ends. In the dream state I am almost never aware of being aware like I am in the waking state. If I fall off a cliff in the dream, I wake up unharmed. Could you please talk about your false awakenings? They might be helpful.

Exactly, unless on the rare occasion I become lucid. @Robi Steel Yes, I know the laws of physics are just humans trying to describe how the dream works. I still just don't understand why dreams behave so differently from the so called waking state.

If she is so judgemental of others then it may be time to reevaluate who your friends are. Basing happiness and success solely on appearance and amount of money is absurd.

My terror of becoming one with god is really holding me back, the mindfuck may be too much to cope with and I might go psychotic. I have wanted to try 5 meo but I think there is some paradox in there. From the perspective of the person taking the substance, they never come back to their life and are stuck for eternity. From the perspective of anyone observing the person, they do come back.

Yes, probably because I would be dead.

@Leo Gura I read today in one of Rupert Spiras books, "Enlightenment or awakening is not a particular experience or state of mind that may be achieved by practising hard enough or meditating long enough. It is the recognition of the very nature of the mind." Do you think that Rupert doesn't realise that there is far deeper to go and is perhaps at stage green or yellow?

It's not entirely away and I think a small amount of mushrooms or a breakthrough in meditation is the only way to fix this. The problem with mushrooms is all the terrifying visual shit that comes up and in some cases there is a feeling of total meaninglessness after the trip is over. I have never tried any large amount of any psychedelic apart from a sub breakthrough dose of DMT which hit me hard and showed me nothing but fear and perfect beautiful patterns.

Life can't actually have a purpose as a purpose would already have to be in manifestation before the creation. The godhead transcends purpose, time and any other concept you can come up with. That's how I understand it.

That is very reassuring.

Yes, it is a mindfuck, but it wasn't in vain. Recently my mind has been bamboozled and fried into silence, it has been oddly nice and maybe that's what leo is trying to do. Ideas like reality disappearing when I fall asleep too are quite unsettling and that throws me into solipsism. Hopefully it is just disappearing from my limited perspective. Anyway, I think I've hijacked enough threads.

To phone your friend and realise that you are just talking to yourself does sound like solipsism. @Serotoninluv @Zerolsinfinity I sure hope I am wrong and will do the practices for the rest of my life.

I definitely hope so. Have you watched Leo's videos? They are pure solipsism, especially the newest ones.

The sensation of being hit by the chair, as well as the rest of the room was generated entirely by the students mind. This can't really be proven right or wrong and that's why Paul92 nearly killed himself, and why I went mad. The way people talk on here is extremely solipsistic. I do not agree with solipsism, and I hope someday It can be proven wrong.