Shaun

So basically when Leo talks about looking at reality and situations from different perspectives, he's talking shit? There is only my perspective as you say, so why bother? I just don't get it. Maybe a strong mushroom trip is the only way I'm ever going to see.

I also have the feeling that something big is coming, something far more significant and life changing than being abducted by aliens.

It's in the list of enlightenment exercises

I still don't get why Leo tells us in self inquiry to notice that there are no other people and that they are only imagined so we don't feel lonely. He tells me to see that what I am experiencing is absolutely all that there is, there is nothing behind the scenes and that's it. This is making self inquiry difficult for me because what if he might be wrong? I could end up, going totally insane and deluding myself into solipsism.

There is absolutely no other way for me to know anything other than through sense perceptions and thought. Awareness or consciousness is the only thing that is none of these. I can't focus my attention on it because it has no qualities yet it is so evident to me. Still, I feel separate from everything else. It's absurd.

I can't experience what another person experiences, so I feel separated from them in some way. I can close my eyes, walk across a room and there is a time delay before the sensation of walking into a wall arises. The illusion of separation is still pretty strong for me.

It is like I am a camera looking out at everything and it goes wherever this body goes. That's the only way I feel separate.

Yes, I was meaning actually happened in addition to being filmed.

For several years I have had the ability to make large parts of my body, the spine especially, feel as if there is large amounts of energy moving through them just by willing it. It isn't exactly a tingling sensation, but that's the best way I can describe it Can anyone else do this or does anyone know what this is?

The thing that really scares me about dreams is the possibility that they are totally identical to the waking state. Like if I witnessed a murder in my dream, did the person being murdered suffer just like they would if it happened in the waking state?

I agree with you partially, these substances are very dangerous to your mental health if not used responsibly. When used properly, they can be beneficial.

Is it true that I will experience everything without exception? I will be a rapist, murderer etc?

The truth is horrifying. Once it is attained, you get bored and start the cycle of torture and misery again, and this cycle continues infinitely.

I have proven the law of attraction false in my experience. All through my life I have had positive and negative outlooks, moods and attitudes, yet outward circumstances remain shitty regardless of what my inner state is.

When I do it, there is never a visual component. If I make it too intense or focus too much, I will actually feel sick. @seeking_brilliance I'm not buying the book list just yet, so I was thinking of starting with this book and moving on to more advanced stuff if necessary.

Could you please point me to the guide book? I am currently following this routine but don't know if its the ideal one.

I've just started but don't know which routine is best.

If you open your anal sphincter, you'll shit yourself.

It's possible that karma is real, and no gain in consciousness is lost, your subsequent lives will be higher and higher consciousness until you eventually reach nirvana. I could be wrong though.

I've been doing some of the self inquiry exercises and the one where other people don't exist raises a few questions. If they don't exist and are only just perceptions and my perceptual field being all that there is, then why would one spread love and try to awaken the world? All you would be doing is creating the appearance of awakened people but you wouldn't actually be making any positive difference as they are not actually really experiencing. I'm not upset or scared of this so much anymore, I am past that stage. I now feel like I am just talking to myself in some sort way now and just feel mostly empty.

I know that. All experience will vanish at death, but I remain.

The whole experience of being me, so I'm identified with my experience.

I'm not really sure what i'm identified with, I can't grasp it, it has no obvious qualities other than it usually feels like it's in my head but sometimes it's like it's my whole body.

It is often said that waking and dreaming are exactly the same. Why is it then that in dreams, all the laws of physics we are used to get violated and other random unexplainable stuff happens?

So if someone commits suicide in an attempt to escape suffering, does that mean they are in for some serious shit?