Dragallur

@Principium Nexus So you say unlimited? Personally if I had unlimited money I would hire bunch of smart people and together we would stop poverty, wars etc. after that I would concentrate on myself. If you mean "unlimited" then I would invest in myself and experiment more because I would not fear of going bankrupt or so.

232nd day: Alright (there is a lack of sub titles in my head) Often I get uneasy about my german skill. Its because I came here to learn german and one could assume that it was "waste" of time if I did not learn it enough. Now when I realise it more and more I try to get more german in my day. I listen to some radio and YouTube channel called LeFloid, that I do when I practice with diabolo for example. This is the biggest thing where I am attached to other people's opinions. I know that when I return to Czech they will expect me to speak very good german and I fear I wont be able to fulfill it. 8 hour meditation Yesterday I did 8 hours of meditation without big breaks though with changing positions. For some reason when I was sitting on my knees I always turned by ninety degrees the next time I did it. I started facing east, then north, west and south... interesting! Life lessons Today and yesterday evening I realised that there are some life lessons that you probably can not really speed up with actualization or any other stuff. There are things that you learn only by actually being in the situation and that can happen at any time, actualization though prepares you to interpret the lesson the right way. And then there are things you can not prepare for. Mindfulness I created a great technique to be mindfull more easily. It really helps me if I start to be mindfull and then tell myself how much new the sensations are. "I just really never felt this and this at the same time" "I never realised how much deepness is in this sound" "I have actually never seen these kids run this way, its completely new experience!" etc. CZC () I will try something, not sure what yet but I will figure out some challenge. This song is pure art: When the cold wind blows Sending shivers down your spine There is none so blind As those who do not listen Sleep of reason produces monsters Dragallur

Take it easy, start with only one small thing and do it consistently for a month.

@Who_Am_I So how did yours went? You are probably finished for some time unless you extended it. Alright guys. I finished the fucking 8 hours. What the hell.. I changed positions in what I call rotations now. One rotation consists of sitting cross legged as I normally do. Then sitting on knees, that is way harder because I do not do it normally. Then sitting on my butt with legs half stretched. Thats one rotation. I did four of those and then for 5 minutes 5th one. About what I would expect. Three times I went on toilet and did one like 5 minute stretching. Whole was shit ton of monkey mind though I have one important insight (I kind of knew it before): I do not control my thoughts. I did not expect to do be able to do it. @ShinGood luck tommorow, its helluva of meditation!

@Barna Sounds interesting, I will try it some other time. Alright I will start in 17 minutes, goog luck to anyone joining or already meditating!

@Barna I would fall asleep, as Leo says, its best to meditate when you are full of energy. I could maybe stretch it till 00:00 but not much longer.

@Sevi Its this saturday, which means today in less than 6 hours for me... today.

Good I will start at 12:00AM/PM GMT.

Linux?

@Clayman Other people have quite good general points for you. If you really have the time to speak with the person dont even mention spirituality. From what you describe they are quite far away from that. First you can try to show them the better side of rationality that is no longer about just doing debating. Good rationalist wont be doing what you described, it might feel good for them because they will know that they are getting better at something that they have been doing the whole time. That process might make them a little bit more tolerant and at some point they might crack and you will be able to talk about spirituality etc. But this is hard process and people are probably not ready to do teachers until much later on.

Generally if you want to start learning something new then: Khan Academy if you are above that level, buy college level text book.

229th day: Challenge (76 days) I got better in side split and simply touching my toes. I am far away from touching my knees with head. I love it though. Its a thing where one can see some difference in matter of weeks, its also physical stuff. After I finish the challenge I want to set another one, I already have ideas as to what I could practice next. Today in yoga class my teacher was so happy. I have not seen anyone so happy before, it was totally shining from her. As she was just sitting and looking around the other people and smiling I just started to laugh, it was great! It would be cool comfort zone challenge to ask her if she knows about enlightenment. Comfort Zone Challenge So @Gabriel Antonio talked with me about CZC... what could I do else than lie down on the street then? I decided to do it today during pause for lunch. I went outside into the city to get away from the people from my school, it would not really help if they thought that I am weirder than they think right now. I stood for a minute on sidewalk of one of the main streets. There were lot of course and some people walking though no directly next to me. Then I lied down and as though I was chilling just left my feet over each other and closed eyes because sun was directly hitting my eyes. I counted 30 seconds and walked away, what would one expect, I did not think that it would be hard and it was not, though I have to admit that my pulse was somewhat higher! Humboldt I just found this quote shared by my mother: "The most dangerous worldview is the worldview of those who have not viewed the world." - Alexandr von Humboldt I was even considering to put it as my signature.. Its great and reminds me that I have not seen the world and no matter how I do not like the view so many adults live or how they take care of their kids, they have more experience than I do, thats a fact and I should be very conservative about all of my "theories" and the ways things are, othwerise I might be surprised by some nasty paradigm shift. The cool thing is how many times this idea already worked for me, its really cool and humbling. It also reminds of overconfidence bias, a concept I learned about from rationalist community (yes this was written like this to invoke emotions against rational community and not make people read it or read it biased which is why I am writing this sentence.. there are great tests for overconfidence bias. The link teaches some quite valuable skills.) The trend of making new journals is growing, but nahh, I will stick with this one for now though the "lucid dreaming" in the name does not really fit. Physics I did a lot of physics over last weekend. It made me quite tired but I moved a bit with the crazy book about astrophysics. I learned about u-substitution in integration. I saw a video about why one science YouTuber is not scientist. He said that he would enjoy the results but could not go through the process and that he thinks that it is important to choose the work where you like the process itself and not only the results (note to self: Veritasium2: Why I am not scientist). Leo Leo's last videos were so amazing. (Did I said it already?) Oh well... Concetration Since the release of the video I did first 2 minutes and now for quite some time 5 minutes per day. I quite like it now though I want to do it two times a day because otherwise I can not ever move to 10 minutes, lot of monkey mind. Dragallur Note: I am thinking of changing my name here and my profile picture since this is exactly the same as I use on my blog and I write here quite personal stuff and as Azrael noted, it would not be so good if somebody connected it together, though its not my true name so..

@Sevi Alright i have no idea what this means!

@Who_Am_I Yeah, I do not think that anybody will finish without breaking it up

@Who_Am_I @Sevi I do not need babysitter, thats not the case for me I will try my best.. but I do not think that we can start at the same time, mine is GMT +2 hoursso I can not start much later than 14:00. In the morning is also quite tricky because lunch is quite important here so I will try to start right after it. In three weeks is also possible. Btw. has anyone here meditated half of that? I personally did 140 minutes once though I changed positions.

@Dodoster @Sevi I have people in the house who will want something from me so I definitely wont be able to do such a long sitting in one.

@Dodoster @Sevi do you mean this saturday? 13th of May.

Do you authentically want that, or do you just want that because I told it to you? This is hilarious. @Gabriel Antonio I should probably train that a bit after today!

226th day: The Grand Project I have been very creative today. I have ton of ideas mainly inspired after Leo's last video which was amazing with all the 11 extra videos. I realised that I really, really do not want to be stuck on 9-5 job so I have been busy in thinking of way to avoid it. I brought launching the site a bit closer though I can not do that in Germany nor during summer holidays because I wont have enough time, after that I could maybe even have prepared something to immediately post and have enough knowledge around. I realised that I can for example make a basic course about derivations simply because I understand it very well. I have been researching on how big the market would be for what I want to do and it seemed to be bit questionable but there are definitely people who manage it. I will look into it more in the future. The idea that I would at some point become financially independent is thrilling, and even more so if I could manage with something so beautiful like TGP. I have set up provisionaly Patreon page and I am wondering if I should try to grow my blog again instead of just blind posting once a week. Its late. Dragallur

@Meretagh Personally when I go "hardcore mode" then I would go with eyesight model if I understand correctly what you mean by it. I do not really believe that there is anything like 3D in the present moment because the only way how we "know" that there is depth is by looking on shadows and by knowing that things in the distance are smaller, but those are based on memories.. even your retina is just 2D and can not take depth into account.

@Sevi I am in too.

@Shin I just wrote 18:00 GMT.

Meditation this saturday and/or this sunday? Usual GMT 18:00...

Insights: At some point in the work of inquiry and meditation one gets an insight. What to do with it? Insights also seem to fade, should I try to gain the same one? Are there any trap insights? What to do at the moment of insight? Could you make a video about talking with other people about spirituality and personal development? I would like to mention it to some people close around me but its difficult issue.

222nd day: Challenge (83 days) Going very well. I was on yoga today and we did side split there too. I can do couple more centimeters on the standing and reaching exercise but thats not a surprise, you can get quite stretchy in short amount of time. Self-Inquiry I... dont have anything to say really... its all so weird. I find it funny how quickly I can jump into normal mode of unconsciou living which is so similar and yet so different from conscious way. Its just that nothing really changes, its just the point of view, nothing more. Who is getting attached to "I"? There is noone there! What the hell I am so alone, its just this voice, there is really nothing else happening, its so alone, it speaks to itself for hours and hours without realising anything. There is no "I" that would control it to prove it you would make only circular reasoning anyway, its like saying that Bible is true because Bible says that Bible is true. I am I because I am I says the I, there is noone else. Dragallur