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@I_Like_Thing Though she said that it has been 15 months since she had orgasm so I do not think she is addicted to it.

175th day: Mood Everything is passing away so quickly I am not really angry at school or anything though often in my thoughts I like to say huge amount of bad words about everything. Friend I was skyping with a friend of mine the other day. Very interesting I am looking forward to meet him again when I get back to Czech. He really is growing in interesting ways and there is so much that I can learn from him. Good privilige to have him as a friend (inside joke ). Walking When summer holidays start I want to walk a long distance again as I walked the last summer, it is great. I have been running today too. Concentration I would like to concentrate right before my meditation, I did that today for 2 minutes. Stuff I found another great piece of music today: Dark Oath - When Fire Engulfs The Earth I loaned 3 juggling balls and can juggle quite well now. Today I did some physics and math and I will make new paper lessons from problems in International Astronomical Olympiad that I also learn from. Tommorow I will finish derivatives on Khan Academy I am quite sure about that. I finished german book and can now read stuff from my school again. Dragallur

Yes it is called like that .. you are getting grades for oral participation so oral grades I guess. Also congratulation to your good grades! I think she is more attracted to somebody who will listen then any way around.

1) 2) Where is the freedom Solemnly fought for Throughout the vast it will last It doesn't depend on any thing It surrounds every thing Every one A foundation of none Some day Like to day No more searching Anymore See (the thing is) it is bound For the time it is a round The lessons the swing Forth and back The responsibility is there And here Not a game for the weak A sanity to seek 3) Enlightenment

168th day: Year Wow I am not writing much here... well it has been a whole year since I started to self-actualize! My first meditation session since I decided not to break the streak and since I made my first routine (which I am not doing for a long time now) 1st of March.. I have not quit in the entire time and I am very glad for it now. Alright since I have made again my statistics for meditation I can even share that here: Together all meditation sessions and things towards enlightenment (like self-inquiry or neti-neti) took me: 563.7 hours From that 319.5 hours was do-nothing and SDS and most of the rest was self-inquiry. I started self-inquiry after like 4 months though. Thats about it, 1/20 of 10000 hours so not really much. Of course the next year should be better since I am already on track, but hey the quality is anyway better than quantity. Mindfulness I thought I would start today mindfulness challenge. I was doing well until I started to work on something intelectual like writing post. I actually do not understand how mindfulness should work at that point. It seems quite natural to just let the flow guide me and let me really soak in the thing I am doing.. is that being mindful? If I am not being lost in the stories my mind makes up? I will try to continue tommorow. Cold showers And only cold showers. Its quite easy I have to say. I just go into this state of self-inquiry, tell myself that it is not actually cold and than it is kind of easy. The only problem that I have is not the coldness immediately but when my hands start to hurt physically because they are cold. It takes few minutes though. Music I have backslided here a bit but also found a great piece: Melodeath is gold. The Grand Project I have not forgotten! Not at all! I was learning some math though I have to read a lot for school and am working basically from morning since I get into train where I read, through entire school and into the evening when I go to sleep.. this whole process feels very satisfying though today I am going to watch episode of Vikings. I have realised that I can help the Project in the future if I work on my blog which can serve as a part of the Project. Right now somehow I am starting to get likes on my facebook page from some random people which is cool.. I do not have much time to really upgrade it, hopefully in the future. Feel free to leave like on Science and Rationality facebook page Random Cutting wood is so much fun. Venus looks great. (I love her ) Moon is amazing, rises after Sun sets and sets a bit before Sun rises, thats not going to happen in few days I guess. Somehow I find more and more girls simply beautiful, before I go back to Czech I want to tell one of them that she is really nice. All food tastes amazing. [insert something smart] Dragallur ... wow this was long

Alright I finished my first version of vision board:

My first version:

160th day: Return So. Yesterday I returned from my seminar with YFU. It was cool. I did some socializing but was not really so succesful. When I was sitting in a corner and kind of "meditating" I got what I now call "charity" by one girl who thought I am lonely or something. It was nice from her and she started some normal conversation and then I started to talk about Spiral Dynamics. I do not know how much she really was interested but I think that it was a good that I gave it a shot. I learned lot and lot of other stuff but I can not really write about it since some I consider too personal for the people there and think it should stay between us. Also I am becoming more and more humble about what I know.. sometimes I just get so freakin crushed, especially when I realise how much I do not know about normal teenager behavior. I think that often people think that teenagers are kind of stupid, especially people here (I mean normal teenagers).. I do not think that is true, sometimes it surprises me how much better they are in something than me. Meditation etc. I did all self inquiry and meditaiton on the seminar but it was really worst quality. I want to do again some mindfulness meditation in the close future. Music I became there more tolerant of other music again. The people of course listened to lot of pop rap and such. It does not really stress me anymore though I find it funny that nobody listening to that kind of music asks others if it is ok to play it (I would say of course yes partially because of not wanting to cause problems) but if I would try to play metal music they would stone me to death... which also means that people listening to not mainstream music need to be more tolerant in average. Books I slipped back a lot. I hope I will be able to catch up. Also now I have to read a whole book in German which will be very hard. Dragallur

@JKG Good text, I can somehow understand your written German better than the one in school, cool!

153rd day: I wanted to say this for long time Venus is fucking amazing these weeks. It is really "far" away from Sun so you can see it very easily. I am not surprised that they named the planet after goddess of love and beauty. Check out night sky anyway.. you might die soon. Seminar I wont write probably anything for the next week since I am on the seminar. I am really looking forward to it. I wont be able to jog I guess and my dental hygiene will not hopefully suffer from lack of time. Today Today I was cutting wood for like 3.5 hours. It was fun, I did self-inquiry partially during it too. Friday Killer day. I did the diabolo show without a single mistake two times out of two times! It was cool and I am really happy that I did not step back from it. I also had some interesting situations like when my shorts got ripped during sports class Vision board It is not finished.. almost, when I return I will do it, it looks cool. I found a great song, the lyrics are amazing (they are in the description of the video): Dragallur

Democracy certainly has some flaws though I would say that they are getting more smoothed out the more educated society it. I have to admit that this epistocracy sounds quite interesting but it would be very hard to implement it into today's world..

@Marc Schinkel Great post Marc! I am going to create ectra google account I guess! Also, check out singluarity in artificial intelligence, for example the work of Eliezer Yudkowski (he is really good rationalist) Check out Age of Em - book. You can hear about it on Baeysian Conspiracy podcast in one of their interviews. This is really interesting subject, I am looking forward to your next post. I can see you follow CGP Grey too

150th day: Enlightenment work I am doing self-inquiry quite often throughout the day. Otherwise I keep the normal 1SDS1SI (units in hours) Random thought: I find it extremely funny that astronomers or physicists in research and such, set speed of light to 1 in their equation so when you check it out you do not see it anywhere Books I need to read those 23 books in about half a year, plus now for example for Theater class I have to read other book. For Czech I already finished Pride and Prejudice. I kind of liked it which is funny because it is only about love, marriage and relationships.. the message of the whole thing is about prejudice and I find it cool. Now I read The Black Tulip by Alexandr Dumas. I signed up for Sciencium project by Derek Miller. The probability that he will choose me is extremely small but I wanted to try it out. Not lying I will write about this maybe separate post on the forum, I had some pretty interesting experiences with lying and honesty. Sometimes my existence seems to me as the most random thing ever. MMM is not really succesful but still will try, I forgot about it for some time. I like the question Who Are You? way more than Who Am I? .. it kind of sets the mood on whole different level. Basically no time for physics. Did I already wrote that I was on Chess Tournament? Oh and tommorow I am giving small show to some small kids in my school (with diabolo). I was inspired by @JKG aka quantum () to make a vision board. I will work on it during weekend or friday. I am not here the whole next week because I am going to seminar with my organization to Münich. Already 4 days in a row I woke up at 5AM! FInally, it took me some time. One time in the morning I went running too. Well, I guess thats about it, my random thoughts! Dragallur

I have seen the movie like 3 or 4 times along with Cloud Atlas (check it out if you did not see it yet).

145th day: Insight I would not be writing today if not what happened few minutes ago. I was doing self-inquiry. Thinking about my touch and how my body actually does not belong to me, how could it right? And then it came slowly, I started smiling more and more when I basically came to the realisation that I am reality. Now I was normally thinking at that point but it was kind of funny because I was trying to delve deeper into it by asking stuff but the thoughts/me could not make sense of it. It did not make a fucking sense! Anybody could argue with me and destroy it! I was taking reality as all of my perceptions plus thoughts and what I see etc., thats the point where I stand right now. I was also thinking what it means when I meet someone and that I am basically them and so on. It was amazing. Right now I have more of a lingering feeling and can not really "identify" with it though tommorow I will dive into it again. Amazing. Books I need to read books for my school when I return to Czech. One book a week. It is kind of classic but I do not have much of a problem with that. Right now I am reading Pride and Prejudice which is very interesting book. Today I learned that at one point it may hurt you to learn to say no. When you have no problem of saying no you might leave out good opportunities to learn something new. I spent most of today on work with vacuum tubes with my host brother, I learned quite few new things. On friday I was on chess tournament. I lost 2 games and gave remise on the first one. I could have won extremely easily but then I did stupid mistake . I like chess quite a lot these days. I am also preparing for "show" for little kids with diabolo. That will be interesting and quite hard since I am not so good yet. Also, I would not believe that I would ever hear my favorite metal group singing about black holes : Dragallur

Good idea, that always keeps me from doing complete shit and next day I start on better place.

141st day: School I am just quickly writing here. Interesting stuff is happening but it is hard to put it all in words since I do not keep the track of it throughout the day. I wish teachers would stop abusing mobile usage in my school. Today I was reading a book in school as many times and I got pretty mad two teachers at least. Luckily there is so many of them that it is unlikely to happen that one would saw me two times in a day, then I would be in trouble. I came up with a great analogy, I feel like Rosa Parks who refused to stand up in a bus just because she is black. I do hide the phone after they tell me though, every single time I tell them what I am doing: reading book, learning geography, learning math.. they never listen or say that it does not matter, we are in a fucking school during a pause! Well, if student bulies you it is quite "ok" since you can just go to teacher who has almost ultimate authority (in serious case it wont help of course) but if you have a problem with teacher you can not turn to other teacher since they are colleagues and most of them agree on not being allowed to have phone out even during breaks even for educational purposes. I could try to change the rule that says it but in the moment that seems a bit crazy, I bet I will get in a bad argument with some teacher pretty soon.. but I am quite good in that, got some experience already . It is only partially about the phone. More of principles of course. I do not have a big problem just sitting and being mindful but I like to read too. One thing that Germans learned me, I need to study the 20th century. It is so fuckin important. Especially 2nd WW and Holocaust and Hitler.. it is basically my duty. Oh, I do not have at all now. Last friday exploded. I many things that I need to take care of and that I promised to do so no extra physics for some time or extra meditation. I feel like I might start lucid dreaming again but that is just a quick thought, first I need to get my sleeping schedule back in order! Dragallur

135th day: What was going on Ok so 8 days ago I wrote that (intuition approved) I want to go for one week without computer. I was not really sure I would do that at that point but then I did. I still used phone but the computer was turned off the whole time. It was cool. I did not have any back lash when I stopped suddenly using it and was pretty calm. All the days except today I did 1 hour SDS, 1 hour self-inquiry and 1 hour Neti-Neti.. that was also kind of cool. I went running few times and also set a new record! I have to admit that it was more easy then I expected actually not really a challenge so next time I would have to go without all of internet or something like that, still it was cool and I had more free time! Mindfulness OH... YEAH MAN! It is rockin'! I am mindful longer and more often. I could not say the time throughout the day but compared to when I struggled some weeks ago! I am doing self-inquiry in classes quite often. I do not have any problem in paying attention throughout whole 90 minute lesson (I do drift to monkey mind).. I am not feeling sleepy at all which is amazing. I have been also trying to set up new sleeping schedule, I will be working on that now. I somehow caused me to have many dreams so I wrote some down. I also want to investigate something I call now MMM - Micro Morning Meditation. I will mention it if I have any success with it. I am reading Book of Not Knowing again. Wow I just noticed how many times "I" is here, uhh . Right now I am trying to use as much time as possible during the school pauses to study physics and when I am at home I spend time by meditating. I have finally finished the first chapter in the Introduction to Modern Astronomy book. Soon I read the next one about celestial mechanics. This time it will take longer time to catch up, I will need to do some research on vectors and integrals which they use of course This means more Khan Academy when I have computer access again. Alright, I have to go to bed now. Dragallur

@Raf_vd Can you refer to something particular? It seemed he wrote really many books and such but I am not planning to read about Holocaust denial and co.

Love this sentence

@Wisdoom Somebody correctly stated that conspiracy thoeries are not allowed here as guidelines say, nonetheless if you or any other at least a bit sane person use a bit of google one will find that 9/11 did happen, this of course stands on the assumption that internet is not completely manipulated you do not live in some kind of weird simulation and huge groups of people are not doing very strange decisions (and many random more).

@quantum Wow, your plan for life purpose is really grandiouse, I would love to see something like that but it is something on whole another level, I wish you luck on this vision!

@quantum Though Peter Ralston for example as he was getting better in PD he got way better in Judo and both of these things were helping each other. I was also thinking about this since science seems to be further away from PD then Judo but I have this nagging feeling that maybe if one gets good in science then she/he can connect these things.. I dunno how but if it is possible than it is necessary.

Thanks for the tips.. this morning was not an option, I slept a little bit longer and had 8 minutes to get out of house

127th day: Enlightenment work I did 90 min SDS. 1 hour Self-Inquiry and Neti-Neti two times in a row because we had extra free days from school. Tommorow I am back though... oh well. Sometimes it gets quite deep during these sessions, I watched all of the psychedelics videos. It was good, it sounds really fascinating. Today I created a thread about living ecologically but it is not very thriving, oh well, maybe someone will implement the stuff. Intuition I want to do 7 days no computer challenge starting tommorow. I will still have access to my phone but there is much harder to waste time. Sadly I did not write my blog post for next Monday so I will turn on the computer for a short time if I decide to do it.. this of course means no journaling for one week. Insights People who build up good humor are amazing manipulators, I just came to observe it today. When you eat salad and you use dressing you basically screw it up completely. I learned to take a little bit of dressing here but stopped now. Salad needs to be much bigger than normal meal. DIaboling is quite fun after you do some difficult work like after some physics or so. Which reminds me that I really moved quite a bit with my astronomy. Today I kinda finished the first chapter problems and tommorow I will probably read the next one and then slowly work on the problems again.. the stuff is difficult but the way I do it I understand it in the end. I went running two times since my last post. Today was kind of lazy but still surprisingly fast. Cold shower is must, I wonder if I will crush with it since I did not take it as a new habit at all but simply started, it is definitely easier now also because of self-inquiry work. Finally I bough Listerine as a mouthwash. It is totally chemical piece of shit, at least it seems so.. more of a reason to save more energy and be more ecological. Also I will probably chew gum more times a day because I am slightly worried about a fissure (molars sometimes have deep "cracks" that can catch food easily and are hard to clean) on one of my teeth. When I was at the dentist they said that they checked other teeth as well so I think they saw it and decided that it does not need treatment now. It is cool to balance during do-nothing some thing on your head, that way it wont drift to other position, diabolo is great in this I want to change my breakfast a bit because everyday I eat oats with raisins and some other stuff without taste that they add in, I think the oats are not exactly best but I will have to check out few resources to find it out. Dragallur