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You're trying to do something that goes against everything you've done in this life. I think the concept you bring up is to be used more as inspiration. In your present state of consciousness, it probably is incomprehensible. You can understand what it means by what Skypanther said but this is only the brain trying to understand itself within the limits of the brain. In order to experience it you need to start transcending limits of the human mind, which can take a lot of work over a long time, but with consistent practice its almost inevitable. I feel like its rare for a person to even ponder the possibility of consisting of nothingness, if you can do this, which you have, you've already cleared the first hurdle. I think trying to understand that you're nothing while being a human being can take a lot of passion out of living. Be careful not to use this as an excuse to be depressed! If you don't become depressed while accepting a truth you don't fully understand, then you may find an abundance of passion and purpose for this existence. I hope you can find it on your journey.

In a field like physics a degree and the resources available at universities can be valuable and worth the downsides. I left school a few years ago but plan on returning in the future just to study physics. Maybe you can lessen your course load so you can accomplish what your professors expect of you at the same time as doing your personal research & studies. How important is it to you to work or study in this field? If you have no desire to make it a career then leave as soon as you can and just study on your own. Are you able to afford it? In the moment it does feel like dropping out will solve problems and make you feel better, maybe put you on the right path. But it's by no means easier! I accepted that it would be more difficult, but I was rudely awoken. It really depends on how far into it you are, but in your case I do believe it would be worth the negative aspects to continue.

It sounds like you need to remove beliefs you have of sex and relationships. Most likely what you were taught were limiting beliefs and behavior appealing to lower consciousness. This area forces you to learn a lot about yourself you make not like so much. I would suggest researching more regarding psychology, sex, opposite sex, healthy dating, unhealthy habits. Looking through your other posts, it looks like you have a lot of uncomfortable work to do in order to overcome what you're feeling. Good energy, praying, support might make you feel cozy but it won't help. The good news is, acknowledging this and having the desire to fix these issues now will save you so much wasted time and frustration in the future.

I encourage you to keep studying atheism, for it is not the answer nor the end. It may give you more passion for life for a little while, but it is nothing more than another label. In my experience, atheism was a step for me to become more open minded and distance myself from traditional religion. It wasn't until I continued further that I found my true passion for this existence I describe above.

Every dawn right around sunset, I have around 3-5 dreams that I desperately try to catch up with. (While asleep) It feels like the world around me is going 100mph in every direction. It feels like I've been falling in and out of reality for days at a time. All I can do is observe while unaware of any time, space or physical phenomena. I wake up and try to remember all I just saw. Before opening my eyes I begin to contemplate all of the details I can remember from the place I found most fascinating, which usually takes me back after a few minutes. While all of this is happening, my body doesn't exist, the world doesn't exist. So many times I've woken up with a huge gasp for air and it feels like the most amazing thing in the world. I wake up to feel a breath fill up my mouth and lungs. Imagine someone holding you under water, drowning you, until the last second before you die, when they pull you up in an instant and you breathe in again filling yourself back up with life. That's why I wake up in the morning. To feel the beat of my heart, the warmth of my body. To look out the window and see what happened while I was gone. To feel how incredible the ache of hunger is. To bathe my body in cold water and feel it fill my warm stomach. I'm alive.

It seems like almost every relationship I see is two people who sort of unload everything on each other. They depend on each other to clear their emotions, to make them happy and to remove the stress of life. I feel all of this is a quick and impulsive sense of peace that people are striving to accomplish. It "removes" certain feelings of loneliness, fear, depression. Only to be taken all away when one of the two chooses to take a separate course. No wonder why breakups can be so nasty. Why is this the collective ultimate goal in most people's lives? To achieve that perfect prince charming or model girl who will ease all your troubles away? What are characteristics of a healthy and balanced relationship that enables growth in both partners without developing dependency?

-How old is your body & How exactly would you describe your present consciousness? -What did you overcome to get here? -What was absolutely instrumental in your progress? -What's next?

@GeorgeLawson couldn't be more true. its interesting to know its similar for you. I was about 17 when I first learned lucid dreaming and meditation, I was so excited that it was all I talked about with my mom and dad. My mind is blown regularly, but one thing that I will never be able to understand is how my two parents are 54 years old and have never experienced a minute of meditation or minute or awareness in a dream. Even further, they have no interest in even trying. Ugh!

Sounds like you are taking all the right steps! There is a ton of great advice here. All of this will help you to live a much more meaningful life WAY earlier than most people can. It is so worth it. Just out of curiosity, do you bring any thing of this topic up with your parent(s)? Do they support you or just sort of let you do your own thing? Mine are pretty closed-minded about this, so I usually keep my progress to myself, unfortunately.

I have a hard time disinguishing what's real and what's not. Does it really make a difference? Is it real to you? Your experience?

Hi @Hristi , I'm 21 now but I can tell you a whole lot of things I wish I was able to do at 16. It's great that you want to pursue a more meaningful life. Don't be afraid to do what you know is healthy and positive for yourself. My friends always made fun of me for "acting like a seventy year old man" because I would decline partying or doing drugs, and meditate and go to bed early. Know that the truth you know is inside, don't let other's limiting beliefs hold you back. Don't think you must date or have sex before you feel the need and/or are ready to. Be aware of all of the "traps" people fall into (some mentioned above) . What I'm saying is, you will save much time by just staying true to yourself and not falling for negative acts appealing to lower conciousness. So many teenagers fall victim to all of this, and it takes that much longer to get out of it. Find subjects that fascinate you, whether it involve spirituality, science, anything, and do everything you can in the name of growth and development. Most importantly, have fun! I'd recommend developing a simple meditation practice to get in touch with your mind on a deeper level. Don't feel the need to go all out in search of self actualizing. Keep things simple and have fun exploring consciousness and the world around you! Just take time to detach from electronics daily. Get more in touch with your dreams. By doing this for only the last six months, I have found a huge passion for this life that excites me more than anything. I hope you find the same for the journey ahead of you! PS: life never stops. When you reach a new awareness, you might have mixed feelings. My first awakening lead me into a deep depression because I stopped there. The journey is endless and if you become depressed know there is always something more to improve and love.

21 years, I found Leo and realized what I liked about him was what everyone around me was not. its so difficult to connect to someone like Leo face to face, because people like him are so rare! I love the Internet.

@charlie2dogs , I'd like to say that I am one of those, mentioned, coming to this site to find help and inspiration. Your words were the simplicity I so desperately search for. Complicated problems don't require complicated solutions. I thought it was well written and straight to the point, of which many people are too busy "searching" to notice. How much of this simplicity, or enlightenment, have you experienced? Do you live long term in the state you described above? Thank you for your post.

I like @cetus56 's response. Consciousness is nothingness, pure and perfect as is. You can experience this without looking at your wife as a big blob of nothing

I've reached a meditative state while running on a forest trail. It is a great and surreal experience. It felt like a hyper-real dream. I was able to take in everything I was experiencing around me. I think it has to do with what you hope to get out of your meditating session. If you're mainly looking for relaxation you should take time to "slow down" your body. If you're looking for blissful and surreal experiences, or "lucid living" you can experiment with back to back exercise and meditation or a combination of the two. I don't think its possible to ruin either. I do however think that if you are doing the two back to back just to get them in everyday, or you rush just to get them done with, the experience won't be nearly as enjoyable/productive.

Neither being alone or being with your friends is the answer. Sure, you shouldn't spend all of your time submerged in negativity, but there is probably a lot you can learn from them. A way that you can go a little deeper within yourself is to try to remain completely aware of the situation you're in, the people you're around, and realize the bliss of the moment. I think a good balance between solitude and socializing (no matter who it is) is necessary, as with anything. It's almost like two realties at once. Your inner reality where you are content and aware with everything happening around you and open to new experience, and the outer reality of your environment where your oblivious friends are playing in. I find that when I categorize people as negative, I'm cutting myself off from experience that I need. Keep in mind, I say negative as in people who aren't aware as you, or have bad mental habits. If they are engaging in illegal or detrimental acts, by all means stay far away. I too have no friends who I consider aware, but that has no effect on my own awareness. I continue to grow myself regardless of the people around me. I know it may be impossible with some people, but maybe suggest doing something with your friends like spending time in nature, or slowly introduce them to subjects (psychological, spiritual, scientific etc.) that might help them to get on the same path as you.