Jonson

Hi guys, i don't know if any of you have heard of this, it's a new tiktok trend mostly among teenagers and i just discovered it. I am kind of surprised and i don't really know what to think

I am 20 in college. So yesterday i smoked some weez, i drank some cola and it was in the morning, i didn't eat yet. I got super high and i got extremely in the moment. I got weird feelings in my body. I had this fear of dying. I also had the fear of getting enlightened. So basically there is always a moment that comes and the past is a projection on the now in a sense. I was feeling very weird and feared stopping to exist. Then it got better but still it was not too good PS: I also had these extremely solipsistic thoughts and thoughts about free will and where my thoughts come from and i got super scared I felt like i will loose everything i know but at the same time i will know everything I have to just put myself together , focus on my studies, get fit, find my passion etc. i should stop bs-ing myself

I want to live a good life to be healthy and have good relationship, and i fear this stuff because i don't want to loose it , you know ? Can you maybe give me some calming advice ? thanks

Ok thank you, well that sounds scary

I have this problem of not doing anything productive. I am in the third semester at university in germany. I moved from Romania after highschool to study Media-informatics which is about creative work and tech as well. (graphic design, film production and programming). I only passed a few exams, so i have a lot to recover. I basically wasted all my time like 1 year playing League of Legends, porn, sleeping, smoking weed and constantly watching youtube videos (which isn't necesary a bad thing) and lots of anxiety and worrying about all sorts of stuff and i also don't have a job and my sisters paid for my place and college, they know that i am depressed and lazy and try to help me and it makes me sad that i failed so hard and dissapointed them ( i usually don't tell them this, they always call me and tell me to get a job, which i completely understand because university is expensive + rent , i actually didn't want them to pay me, i hoped that i would get my shit together find a part time job and chill and they could help with some money if i needed but they are literally financing everything a lot of money... and what do i do with all the money and support they give me ? i used to not respond when they asked me how i am and stuff like that because i knew i didnt do my job and i didnt want to dissapoint them, but bcs of that they think that i am careless and i dont appreciate their help which is not true, i rly appreciate everything they gave me but i kinda have trouble showing any weakness to them because they were a bit strict with me when i was younger , i think i got a bit disconnected from them ). Ps: i also have a problem with dating ( i am pretty good looking, charm, had some romantic experiences, but i never had a girlfriend and i am virgin.. i was with a girl once and we were together and i didnt have the courrage to kiss her ) I did make some friends and in the summer vacation i also went home and partied a lot with my hometown friends, i also worked on something that i am kind of proud of which is a party song , it's for fun but still it feels good that i worked on something that had an end result. When i think of what i want to do in life what comes to my mind is working on creative stuff like a song, a movie ( basically art related stuff) but not just that. I am interrested in a systemic reform of society in the sense of how can we make this big system work in sustainable way ( sustainable energy, no polution, healthy lifestyle, fitness, eliminating the cause of illnesses, self-destructive activities / companies ). I know this is very general and basic , everyone knows about this already and tries to do it but i am not sure. I think that with what i do i need to promote a healthy sustainable/ enjoyable/ fulfilling lifestyle cause what else is the point of working if not that. The thing that i also try to understand is the balance between partying (fun activities, clubs, alcohol, weed, festivals) and work ( helping humanity be more sustainable and healthy overall etc. ) For example the trap song that i made. I worked on it a lot with my friend and it was a lot of fun we learned how to produce music. but the music itself is about memes, party, rockstar, sexy girls, smoking.. stuff like that. I don't know how i can do both: How can i make society better while also having some hedonistic elements in my life Ok i think that's enough writing for now. The fact that i wrote this helped me already in reflecting on myself

@Abdelghafar Thanks to you i found this channel " Healthy Gamer GG" and it's so nice and helpful. So many people have problems that i have and i thought they make me weird . It's so cool how healing these conversations are. Relief. Thank you yeah true i feel like i learned a lot through every experience. @Hello from Russia haha hello from germany , thanks i now feel pretty good and i think everything is soo good

omg thank you very much, watching rn looks good

@Buggz haha i am now 20 and yeahhh .... now i would also tell my 16 year old self to start small, be consistent and patient ... It's so interresting looking back at this

Hello , my name's Hans and i am 16 years old. At the beginning of 2017 i visualized how i would improve my life in many areas, i didn't write down goals just visualized them ..but i also began to think on my obligations that i have so i started implementing habits : i wanted these things : 1)become social 2)healthy 3)money management 4)get a girlfriend 5)good grades 6)find passion, learn/exercise Here are the things that i already was doing : *brushing my teeth everyday *feed my dogs everyday *meditating 30 minutes everyday (i was doing other things too but randomly) i tried to implement : *Getting up everyday at 6 so i can meditate early (at 8 i have school) *Socializing everyday (cause i'm pretty shy) *Eating everyday at least 3x *Eating vegetables daily *Study / homeworks 1 hour everyday *Researching,finding my passion learning acting,photoshop,business.. *Nofap 30 days *Talking everyday about different topics in front of the camera In the first 10 days i was really concentrating on NOFAP and on socializing - i was thinking wether my productivity was caused by Nofap or by me believing so badly that i improve and saying to myself that now i do nofap so i can only be productive :)) And then when i released on day10 i became very lazy , not doing anything just the old habbits . I did the 10 days nofap 3 times this year ..it's been 2 months and a half I improved in socializing quite alot , but didn't take action in getting a girlfriend i actually never tried to get a girlfriend... i talked to many but didn't tell them i like them .. but at least this year i got close to 2 girls who i didn't know that well :)) The reasons why i didn't improve that much in the last 2 months: *** I often find myself thinking ,if the thing that i do is ok for me ? Like Nofap. One thing is for sure : Nofap gave me more energy ... but the focus , motivation , etc/ i don't know if it was because of nofap or because i believed so much that it helps me improving .. that my body eventually started working that way. What if I masturbate just before i go to sleep sometimes ? that way i'm not wasting energy *** The people that i surrounded myself with were not always inspiring,uplifting i got really disconnected from self-actualization .. i was just chilling after school with friends not doing anything . ***didn't sleep enough , had no energy , i always went to sleep like at 12 and woke up at 6. *** i begin to think about the meaning of the life , about the importance of our existence.. about our perception of reality ... and then i come to the conclusion that the life has no meaning because it is just a human concept .. then i think how i do a lot of things .. but it has no big value for the big universe .. i sometimes get really sad that we can not understand the whole universe .. and i watch all these videos of leo and i get a bit confused , like finding the balance in life .. when i think of this ... i tend to become lazy * **let's say i get a compliment from someone : a teacher .. but then someone says i'm dumb ...or last time a girl told me that i look very handsome i felt very good, but then a boy asked me why am i so pale .. then i felt sad . But then I realised that it was all just because of how i thought of myself , how i behaved , how i presented myself ...when they see that in me they feel good so they think positive.. then i noticed that different people have different oppinions of me at different times ..depending on their experience, vows, world view or mood ... just like i have different oppinions of different people at different times , but then what's the solution ? Accept that the world is constantly changing ? *** is it ok to drink beer sometimes ? is it ok to go to parties .. in order to pick up girls ? *** some say you have to work really hard .. others say that you have to work smart that you have to enjoy your life , not to be so hard on yourself ... contradicting ***How to connect with people if they see through their filters .. how they have been programmed , told .. they really stick to society .. rules.. like " learn , get a job ,get a family ,go to church " ... what if i chose that lifestyle .. would'nt i bee happpier , i wouldn't overthink so much .. *** I feel like I overthink sometimes too much *** is it ok to wake up at 6 .. i usually get sleepy at 12 ..? I just wanted to share my thaughts about my current stage ,ideas if you have anything to tell , share , recommend me smth go ahead

Hi guys ! I wanted to ask , if you could give me advice on how to structure my writings. How can I structure my content in a way that it's easy to process ? I want to make a script for a video , but I'm stuck thinking about how to structure it in a way that I keep it interesting and get the main points across clearly without wandering off . I know there are many other factors to making it interesting , but I'm only asking about the structure , the order in which you present your ideas . I'm sorry if this isn't related to self-actualization in that sense

I don't want to do anything. I am bored of college in germany. I just want to chill all day long at home in Romania. I don't want to have to work. Only when i want to. Anyways i still don't understand how life works. How and why is everything the way it is. It's frustrating and scary. The scariest thing for me is getting old or ill in some way. How terrifying can it be to slowly die from an illness ... Idk what to do right now. I just had to post this

Guys thank you for all the responses . I am very thankful

When i was 16 and discovered this actualized.org phenomenon, i thought i will become enlightened in every way and become super skilled and build the best life. I am now 19 and haven't done 10% of what i imagined i would do.

omg.. literally me with college situation. i have so many neurotic thoughts and i'm so lazy all the time. i moved from romania to germany 3 months ago to study . for holidays i'm going home and i am sooo happy ..

IDK ... 2 much systematic thinking required // i guess i put too much pressure on myself.. I should just concentrate on less .

Life feels so complex but also simple sometimes. There so many possible outcomes in every aspect of my life and sometimes i think about working out everything in the most efficient and least time wasting way. I feel like I have to build a huuge infrastructure that includes everything : every skill, every artistic expression ... i want to accumulate all of my knowledge in the most efficient way , because there are already soo many people who have figured out how to do things , i just have to do it myself and somehow put every piece in the puzzle, like everything has to be systematic , ordered in every possible way , from multiple perspectives.. etc I also want to include my chill days, my chill activities , parties , hanging out with friends in the infrastructure.. just like i want to create multiple styles of videos for youtube.. i can't put them all on one channel , they have to be organized in genres, subgenres etc.. But then when i focus too much on infrastructure it seems like i loose mistery, the unknown, the magical moments of life. What do you think guys?

Right now i am thinking of growing an audience on youtube ... i have 200 subs .. i have 1 vid with 16k views.. all my videos(5 videos) from different niches. I don't know how to organize them ... i have so many ideas .. for different types of videos .. i can't even realize so many things... I have this view in my mind of a giant infrastructure where i integrate everything ... but that will never come true :(((((((((( helpp

I have too many ideas, I can't choose what i want .

Lol . right after i read this i saw this. weird coincidence ?

I feel the same. I'm finishing high school. I am lazy, I never had a girlfriend, I feel like i know lots of things but nothing concrete. I have an upcoming exam, i've got 1 month to prepare. I said that, from today I'm going to discipline myself and do it. I was also skinny. I started to eat a lot, learned to do push ups and pull ups . Concentrate on the form and correctness. Not on speed. Idk if this helped , but i definitely feel anxious many times and I am sure a lot of people do .

Thank you ? .

I can not see any purpose for doing anything small works sometimes. I feel like I have to develope a bunch of different automated infrastructures so that i can actually impact people from planet earth. Otherwise what is the point of working on small projects that will not produce something universally useful. We need to create a lot of big infrastructures that suit all 8 billion people. Let's there is a guy that is passionate about sculpting chocolate. Why not use that energy and passion for art to sculpt something that is durable , why waste all that time . That is how i feel about people working sometimes. And i fear doing the same. There are these cycles like paying for company's shitty food then getting sick and paying for medicine. The whole process could've been nonexistent if some companies wouldn't have offered bad food . This is just an analogy, obviously there are many factors. But the main point is that there are so many complex systems that have the purpose of solving problems that other systems caused. It's a cycle that will not stop. i don't want systems that have problems solved by other systems, i want systems that solve their own problems and evolve. I don't know if I make sense .. or if I am just thinking about basic logic that you've already thought through.:))

@Jcent Holy fuck, I resonate with you a lot. I'm 18, finishing high school. When I think of business and spirituality, I try to integrate both, on a day to day basis. I want to discover my true nature through work, through the daily process of my routine, through meeting new people and of course meditation. I'm just theorizing. I myself am confused about a lot of things. Just thought I would share some thoughts ??