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For long I felt like awareness is an entity which I am, and which is aware, and that I had to focus on awareness to raise my consciousness. :)) I was soo wrong. I don't know if you are in the same trap right now. Awareness is the most effortless "activity" that exists. Awareness is simply what is happening from your perspective in the here and now. It cannot be more effortless than this. Awareness is simply everything what is happening! And you are awareness, so you are everything what is happening and what already is! You cannot lose awareness once you realize this. How could you lose what is happening? :))

If you know it, then why do you need friends? :)) So they can tell you that "Yes, you are on the right path, we like that you are so spiritual, and we respect your desire for enlightenment."? Don't you see that every individual is just an ego? Your friends are egos who strengthen your spiritual ego. Egos are just God's imagination. Every individual is just an individual imagination. Including me! There is only One who is imagining all this. Don't you want to see that?! I mean it's fun for me to talk with people, and play my role as an individual, but it doesn't help. Only an energetic shock helps to experience Infinity. This is what the 5-MeO gives you.

What can be greater wisdom then knowing that everything is one, everything is you? I'm not saying that everything is your distant relative. I'm telling you that everything is as you as your own thoughts! You see the diversity of things everyday. If you once realize that it's all just a play, all just illusion and it's YOUR illusion and YOUR play, then how can it be taken seriously? Please, tell me this "huge wisdom" in the illusion!

After reading this thread, I think everybody will come to the same realization while coming back from a 5-MeO trip. I wonder why nobody posted a trip report like this before.

“You need power only to do something harmful. Otherwise love is enough, compassion is enough.” ~ Osho In other words: Only those need power, who live in fear. For others the power comes in form of love. The media and the politicians are powerful only because their target group is easily scared. But it's alright, it's part of the joke.

You didn't really use your mind answering my questions, did you? :))

How can you hurt anything if you realize that you are everything? What could be the purpose of doing harm, if you know, that nothing is real?

I don't know how to relate to drama anymore. It just doesn't matter. Nothing matters. Everybody can die in the next second, and it just doesn't matter. People could think "How can you say something like that? You have no sympathy at all!". But the whole existence is just God's funny imagination, there is nothing serious about it. Yes, you can feel pain, you can suffer, but there is no such thing as unbearable pain. Pain and suffering are nothing compared to the Infinity what we all are.

@John Flores Who are you? What is the essence of your being? If you think that your essence is less then Infinity, then you are deluding yourself. If you think that your essence is Infinity itself, God itself, then you know that you cannot be harmed by anything. Suffering cannot touch you. You are infinite for God's sake!

You're just playing "poor little me". Come off it! This is not who you are.

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@cetus56, maybe you've exceeded your upload limit.

I have no idea how can I adapt this to ordinary life. But it just doesn't matter anymore. Why would it matter?

The suffering IS the joke! Earth is is nothing else, but God thinking: "Hmmm, what would it be like, if I were 7 billion ignorant people simultaneously, not knowing that I am God?". He imagined that, so here we are, and God is laughing and laughing... :)) Don't you understand? YOU ARE GOD! There are no persons, no entities. Entities don't exist, just God, playing that he doesn't know who he is.

Try lim( f(n) ) limit function, because this is an infinite joke.

I thought about writing books about 5-MeO, but there are so many already! I was thinking about working with people in one-on-one meetings, I made a thread about it in this forum, but nobody is interested.

Having believes and not having beliefs, and "I should not have any beliefs" is still a joke! Believing that "existence is a joke", is a joke in itself! :))

When I was coming back from my 5-MeO trip my ego was busy reconstructing itself. It was hilarious! :))

You can cut your leg off, you can suffer for eternity in Hell, and it's still a joke! There are no entities in existence that suffer. You are not an entity! We are all God, the WHOLE existence is just imagination. YOUR imagination! It's the best joke ever! :))

And everybody is trying to find the meaning of life. It's like trying to find the moral lesson of a joke!

How do you plan to involve other people? Because this is my goal as well.

According to Martin Ball, when you are on 5-MeO, it's really easy to see if you are still in your ego, or not. Ask your guru, if your body was in a symmetrical position when you said that. If your body was not symmetric when you said that, then it was only your ego on drugs. However, if your body was symmetric, then, my friend, what has spoken from you was God (Infinity, Source) itself. And then you were right, your guru was not enlightened, and nobody has the right to hush God. It maybe seems a little bit far fetched, that God can speak from you, but after a few trips, you will remember what you were (and are right now), which is Infinity/God itself. I just finished reading "Being Infinite" by Martin Ball. Try it, maybe it helps you to understand the experience.

I just read some chapters of the book which were relevant to me right now. It helped me to understand my 5-MeO experience. I really recommend it if you have some psychedelic experience to process. The chapters relevant to me were Chapter One and from Chapter Eight until the end.

Hi, everyone! Yesterday I had a breakthrough on 5-MeO-DMT. I'm gonna share it with you, and I will try to be as precise as possible. I thought about it, and I think I can give you a picture without over intellectualizing it. But don't take it as the actual thing. Take it as a pointer. What I am trying to explain is Infinity itself. First phase First, when you took the hit, it's like going in, or like going deep. It's like when you do self inquiry, and you ask yourself "Am I aware? Am I aware of being aware? Am I aware that I am aware of being aware? And am I aware of that? And am I aware of that? And that? And that?..." It feels like reality is starting to fold into you. At this point your body might shake like it has never shaken before. Second phase The thought appears: "What did I just do to myself? It's too intense! It's unbearable!" Say bye-bye to your vision, because the only thing you see at this point is just whitish-gold light. Say bye-bye to your hearing, because all you hear is a high frequency sound. And say bye-bye to your body, because it feels like it is evaporating. (This is all I remember from previous trips, but yesterday I have finally gone deeper.) Third phase You start to feel, that the light you see is Infinity itself. It is all that exist. It is infinitely "strong". But not strong in a physical sense. And not like it is infinitely bright. More like it's infinitely hot. And it's like it radiates infinite amount of information which you cannot process. This is why your mind silences itself: because any thought would be just a piece of the infinite amount of information that is going through you. This is also why you don't feel emotions, because that would be also just a piece of information in the infinite flow. And you don't feel the hotness of the light on your body, because remember, your body already evaporated, you don't have a body anymore. You are the infinite light itself. And there is only you. And you are infinite. So if there is one thing to take away from this report, it would be the following: If someone calls you ugly, remember, that deep down you are infinitely hot.

If you know, that you are infinite, you are not afraid of some emotions and fears.