Barna

I understood all this intellectually. But I cannot feel it on a physical level. All my cells should explode in ecstasy by every single experience of the present moment. But they don't. Nasty little cells...! So I started listening to Matt Kahn talks. And I started to read his free book. And now I feel better than ever before.

@John Flores, isn't Enki's power and weapon hate? And isn't God's power and weapon love? If you hate Enki, doesn't it mean that he already has you on his side? You cannot win this war with hate, now you see it, don't you? I think the only reason you've chosen hate is because no one taught you how powerful love is and how to use it. Let me show you how powerful love is against hate: Love all your hate within you. Love the hate in you so much that you fully penetrate it. Get inside hate, feel it from the inside, feel it fully. Fully become hate itself. And love this feeling! Do it now! As soon as you do it, hate disappears. This is how powerful love is. This is the way to fight Enki. Love it to death. Love won't intensify it's negative pole. Love will make it disappear.

@cetus56 you are tripping, aren't you? :))

The statement "I am God" has the same meaning as "I am one with everything". Ego comes when God is thought to be an omnipotent "person". Btw, have you noticed this? If you add two letters to "God" and change three, you will get "Barna". Coincidence? I don't think so...

Thank you!

In my opinion it is the most profound experience that any human have ever experienced. In the experience you are one with everything. I think many people who haven't tried it underestimate this statement. You don't "feel connected". You are ONE! And you are infinite. It cannot be imagined with a sober mind. I am surprised every time I get into this state. Infinity is so overwhelming that the mind just gives up, so there is no analyzing just pure experience. I think the miracle is not that we can experience it. The real miracle is that we can come back from this experience.

You are Enki.

All is one. Once you have this experience you cannot purposely not love something or someone.

Yep, multiple times. My breakthrough dose is 20mg vaporized.

@john5170, for me 5meo was the first psychedelic I have ever tried. I survived it... It changed my life in the sense that now I kind of know my goal and now I understand what spiritual teachers are talking about when they talk about oneness or God. Be aware that 5meo has a long term "side effect". It makes you more sensitive. I use this sensitivity to go deeper while I'm smoking weed, listening to binaural beats, meditating, drinking coffee, about to sleep, etc. (Side note: I don't drink coffee every day, but when I do it's amazing how differently I see the world when I'm full with energy. For example yesterday I realized that people need sleep for healing and the more one loves life the less healing he needs. )

Did you read Kahn's book?

He didn't go to these heights in the Trinfinity Academy, but I haven't checked his other videos yet. Thanks!

Yep, you were right @Martin123. This guy teaches on a pretty high level. Do you know any other teachers with this or higher level of teachings? Here is another short video I found:

Thank you! Do you have other powerful videos? Please share them!

I am not even sure anymore if it was because of the shamanic drums from last night or the kundalini sounds this morning. So I will just describe everything briefly in chronological order. Last night I listened to these sounds I posted here: This felt like the drums are raping my brain. :)) The buzzing in my head was so intense it almost hurt. And my mouth and tongue started slowly moving, but there were no sounds. My whole body felt like it was full of energy but the body was completely motionless. It felt like the energy had a weak paralyzing effect on my body. Then this morning I listened to these kundalini sounds: It didn't feel that intense. A little bit of sexual arousal, and I also felt something in my chest. Then I drank cup of cold coffee from the previous day and I started studying with the "Focus" iDoser dose (these are binaural beats). And suddenly these binaural beats felt too much. Energy started to flow through my body, and I felt sadness. A lot of sadness. I stopped listening to the beats, I just lied down on my bed and I wanted to die. I think I never wanted to die this much. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. My mouth started to move again like last night, and my body started to shake for like 3-5 mins. Then I pulled myself together, went to the kitchen and forced into myself a slice of pizza, but I didn't have any hunger and the pizza felt disgusting, although there was nothing wrong with it. I throw away the rest of the pizza. I drank a black tea and I started to feel emotionally unstable again. I went back to my room and tried to force myself to study with the "Focus" binaural beats in my ear, but I just couldn't. I lied down, and I started to feel a rush of energy moving through me. Any movement felt uncomfortable, so I just lied completely motionless while feeling the energy rushing through my whole body. It lasted for two and a half hours. After it was over I was able to study with no problems, I felt good and full of energy. While studying I think I've got a permanent realization. I don't identify myself with the "wanting" in me. I see the "wanting" or desire as part of the presence, but it's not the essence of myself anymore.

The same happened to me today. I called it "spiritual hangover" on an other thread. I did a very simple thing: I lied down on my bed and just felt the energy moving through me. I lied completely motionless. It was a two and a half hour motionless meditation. After I felt that it was less intense I got up and I felt normal afterwards. Later on this afternoon a disidentification happened from the emotions. I don't identify myself with the "wanting" entity anymore.

Something happened. I think I was the "wanting". I don't know who am I anymore, but this state is peaceful. This video really did something to me.

After listening I couldn't sleep last night, I was full of energy. These shamanic drums are really powerful. I had a "spiritual hangover" today.

I realized that I cannot get enlightened today because I have an exam tomorrow. So I postponed enlightenment a day. No rush.

A "joke" about God

Btw, those of you who have tried 5meo, don't underestimate the humble cannabis. That thing can make you trip really hard now.

One afternoon I have gone there 4 times in a row. That was a crazy nap. I was doing a motionless meditation lying on my bed focusing on awareness.

20 mg vaporized is a breakthrough for me. It enhances other psychedelics. Even weed. Even Binaural beats. It enhances EVEN sleeping. Once you experience it, it becomes easier to get close to that experience again with other methods as well. For example you can get close to the 5meo experience while sleeping.

So all this drama, just because Eve discovered God's browsing history...?