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Your explanation feels so perfect that it's ridiculous. :)) You are not an everyday human being. Did you start to teach yet?

Thank you! Thank you for all of you!

Wow. Silence. Your words made my mind silent. I think now I understand what they mean when they say that you have to play a role if you want to play the social game. Communication is not possible if you don't have a standpoint, an identity. At least it's not possible for me. You explained it so clearly, where did you learn it from?

@SOUL I am actually learning from you. I don't understand one thing though. What do you mean by self when you say this:

@zazed Thank you, I think you are right. I cannot even imagine raw reality without mind because imagination itself is mind. I feel awareness more clearly now, but I don't act or speak from awareness, I speak from mind. I speak from the love of my mind. And it's okay now. I love the mind. Or at least I'm learning to love it.

@SOUL This is beautiful. I didn't think of it this way. Thank you! I thought about ego as the identification with the body and you widened it to identification with anything. I think you are right. I think identification with presence is good enough for me now. One step at a time. No rush. Thank you for your clarification!

Thank you for being here, I love you all. Or at least I'm learning to.

I am reality. At least my reality. All the suffering I see in the world is part of me, part of my reality. So I'm offering my answers for a selfish reason. I want all of you to be happy, because you are part of me, and I want myself to be a happy reality. Does this make sense?

Thank you for endorsing my credibility. :))

I feel like sharing, so instead of giving you a raw summary as an answer, I will give you my brief consciousness journey. I was first introduced to meditation when I was 13 or 14. But it was energy meditation with Sanskrit symbols. My consciousness work began a few years later when I read the Stillness Speaks from Eckhart Tolle (I still can't spell his name without looking it up first ). Then I read the Power of Now and the New Earth from him. I've also read The Ancient Secret of The Flower of Life Vol 1 so I'm interested in sacred geometry. Then I became more interested in startups and the idea of having my own business, but I didn't do it, I started my master's instead. So there was a break from reading, but I watched youtube videos instead. This was the period when I got familiar with spiritual masters on youtube. Then in September my whole life purpose changed. There were two important factors in this change. The first was that I started the Trinfinity Academy, so I started doing consciousness work daily. I had not done meditative consciousness work before, except reading and watching videos, so the Trinfinity Academy was a huge help for me in this. It teaches contemplating 10-20 minute meditations and 2-5 second mini meditations. I try to do a mini meditation every half an hour, it keeps me in a "happy state" during the day. The second important factor was that I watched Leo's video about 5meo so I wanted to experience it more than anything. After I started to regularly trip on 5meo I became more sensitive to other consciousness altering tools like weed, binaural beats and sleep, these were very useful for processing the 5meo experiences. I also started to meditate spontaneously during the day, without planning, simply because it feels really good and relaxing. I am not doing any meditation technique. I simply sit with closed eyes, mostly motionless, and I just feel my body and the present moment. If thoughts arise I let them arise. I have also read Martin Ball's Being Infinite and Being Human books to help me understand this substance. While reading these books I started reading in parallel The Ra Material, I'm still reading it, almost finished it, I really like this book. And then I found Matt Kahn last week. One can understand a lot doing consciousness work, but to really feel its truth, love is needed. I didn't realize how much love is missing from my life until I started to listen to his videos. This man is amazing. I started reading his Beginning Your Love Revolution book and I'm planning to read his bigger book as well. And now let's get back to your other questions. I feel a lot calmer since yesterday. Thoughts are part of the present moment, just like anything else. Thank you for your questions, I really enjoyed answering it!

Update: the emotional high disappeared while I slept, but the intellectual understanding remained. Sorry, if it's not fun for you anymore. I have memory, I'm a normal human being. I don't "feel" the unity as strong as I felt yesterday. My intellect says that I am "the experiencing", the movie itself. Whatever appears, if I ask "where is it?" the answer is " it is in me". It's like lucid dreaming, when you suddenly realize that you are dreaming and everything is in your head. The difference is that now I don't conceptualize the "container of my dream". And I see that the only thing I've ever experienced is my own awareness, my own presence. Right now I identify with all of my experience. The experience of the body is one experience among many others. I think the identification with the body forms only because we feel like the body influences a lot of our experiences. For example, if the body feels pain that could become the center of our attention and therefore the center of our reality. I think this is where the identification with the body comes from. However, now I see that I am all of my experiences and the awareness of it. It's like a paradigm shift. I shifted from the belief that "I am the body" to the belief that "Why would I be the body? The body is inside the experiencing, inside me." If you feel like you are the mind then be the mind. Try it out. Be aaall your mind. Isn't everything in your mind? Isn't the present moment forming itself in your mind? Feel that all what you are aware of is in your mind. Feel it now! And realize that the belief of the brain is just a thought. The thought of the brain is an experience just like all the other experiences. The truth is that you don't know where all of this is happening, but now you could have the feeling that all of it is inside you whether you consider the "container" the brain or consciousness. I am everything and that everything includes my own limits. I don't feel enlightened, the emotional high disappeared so nothing keeps me on the level where I was yesterday. 5meo was a spoiler to this experience. Yesterday it was like "yeah, it's just openness, I've already seen it". I think the 5meo experiences are what keep my ego in check, because I know that there are a lot more intense ecstasies to experience. Thank you for all of your questions!

Everything is in me. Everything. I cannot comprehend my magnitude. Everybody has a whole world inside them, it's a miracle that we can interact with each other. I don't know anything, I cannot think clearly about a goal. Time is a thought, therefore it is part of my presence. I love it as I love myself. The whole structure of the ego is here. It is part of my presence. I will try to jump into it after I answered these questions. I feel like God can be "experienced" at the borderline of awareness. And it feels like awareness is infinite. God already experiences everything. But it's not our level. On our level the only reasonable thing to "do" is to be happy. Now the question is, how can you be the happiest when everything is understood and felt to be you?

It's like it's opening to let in the sensations. For example I feel the sounds in my chest, if it makes any sense...

No new thoughts. Why?

Not that kind of love :))

I feel self-love. I had similar but more intense experiences on 5meo. But this is the first while being completely sober. But I don't feel sober...

I asked myself "How can I love this person?". And then I said to myself "I let you to love him through me". After this I felt the space around me. I realized that I am the space of the presence and everything is in me. But it's not just in me. It is me. What else could I be other then the present? I don't feel suffering. I don't know what happiness is. There is a pleasant sensation in my chest that makes me smile.

This was, I think, the first video I've ever seen from Mooji. This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing it.

So far my favorite video from Matt Kahn:

I have a question for this experienced group: How do you go deep in meditation? I just meditated and a short conversation took place in me: - Do you want to go deep? - Yes! - Then why don't you take some 5meo? - It's too intense. - Then what do you mean by deep? And the thought in my head was right. I cannot go deep in meditation because I'm afraid of the intensity... So what are your excuses? If you want to meditate deeply then why don't you take some 5meo? And if you do, how do you convince yourself?

Why don't I see any Matt Kahn here? Do you know anybody else who tastes like him? (This last sentence sounds surprisingly gay :))

@Shin, sorry for hijacking your thread. I tried the impossible and I failed. Btw, thank you for the sound you shared, I listened to that two days ago and it really helped me to reach a deep meditative state.

@John Flores you are lost in beliefs and paradigms. Thank you for being here. You will learn a lot if you pay attention.