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I just took 2 hits of weed and had the most useful, contemplative and one of the most clarity sessions in my life I think it's highly, highly under-appreciated here, I might be considering to take it 1x week as a tool

Of the 4, I liked 3 the best. It sounds like it has good insights in it compared to the other ones because it points to an insight that will help with shyness in all areas of your life.

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Hmm okay. I use it when I want some life changing insights. I can get some deep insights and get out my journal and write some really profound stuff done. It's super easy access for me than psychedelics which is why I do it. I definitely want to try some LSD soon though

"Surround yourself with the dreamers, the thinkers, and the doers, the believers and thinkers, but most of all, surround yourself with those who see greatness within you, even when you don't see it yourself" - Edmund Lee ?

https://www.actualized.org/insights/profound-quotes-004 here's a take

https://www.actualized.org/insights/going-full-autodidact college is such a waste of time jesus the idea is nuanced, there are cases when it's not sorry if this wasn't helpful lol. basically, what you want to do can be accomplished without college for cheaper, more fun, more aligned, more potential, and more efficient you just need to work hard like leo says

Get good at socializing Get good at flirting Get good at connecting with others Build a strong network

Living consciously to me means... Observation!!!! mind boggle boggle boggle all problems that occur in your life seem to be something that i manifested

Sooo the spiral actually shows up differently per individual. An empath would display green qualities more powerfully and more commonly than a sociopath, who probably can't even display many green qualities Thank you Leo ? For teaching me how to contemplate for myself and not trusting science blindly forging my ability to understand things through insight and direct experience <3

Imagine trying to do math without any starting theory lol

Consciousness stems day 4/5 Did it while driving in my mind. Is that fine?? Probably not. But at least I kept it up Consciousness stems day 5/5 Probably my best session yet. Clarity, competence Combination of feeling loved + lion's mane + good sleep + listening and reading some inspiring PD + eating normally Excited to see my potential !!! ??? Ken Wilber's Stages vs States P.S. I went to a consciousness meeting today where they are going to discuss wilber's No Boundary (next time) It's a synthesis of PD, seems like a great book to read

@Karla Haha thanks for the suggestion though. How I'm doing it is if I write it mechanically, I don't count it as a stem and I compensate by writing an extra one. Hence, occasional repeats Cool, glad you like it. Hope it's having a positive influence on you guys

Have fun but keep your long-term vision in your mind. Most of your friends don't have goals or visions (if they do, seldom worked towards) What's most important to you? Your values? Where do you want to be in 1, 2, 5 years? Center your life around that

What's your long-term vision?

Hm? [Journaling] Contemplation / Read to spark some directions / Good discussions with people = All can spark change Smoking weed + contemplation has been huge for me Spending time in nature / long periods without any social media to contemplate Contemplate that very question that you have I heard you can learn things through consciousness. Still trying to understand what that means exactly

3/13 Day 3/7 Consciousness Stems (Completed). I had a nice insightful session today with my coach Who encouraged me to contemplate the ideas: When is someone worthy? What determines worth? -> I will be doing in this in my journal later And she gently reminded me that: - Concepts are nice, but it's in the practice of the concept does the actual change occur. "Do the practices and you will see the results". No growth without training aye Leo? - Other people are your mirror. Judgements towards others are judgements you have on yourself. See your triggers as a gift to explore in your consciousness. - Tasks for today: Focus on being high leverage & working in an enjoyable relaxed manner (lower your tension!) Goal setting! Tasks/Finished tasks sheet Contemplate questions that you had with your coach Bonus: Finish BJ organization Part of my 6 pillars: Living consciously to me means: Bringing awareness to your current being Being aware of your actions Being aware of your triggers and self-deceptions Having deeper understanding of reality Being more aware in a situation Operating from a deeper understanding Being calm, stable, peaceful, detached Having awareness, not mechanicalness Following your heart Living conscious to what is the most purposeful thing Being aware of your distractions Shining awareness and operating from a progressively higher level of understanding

3/12 - Day 2 of 7 - Consciousness stems So, self-esteem exercises can be focused towards certain areas of my life. For example, increasing my consciousness in a certain area of my life, or assertiveness in a certain relationship, or increasing my responsibility in a relationship, area where I'm being victim in Hmm... so self-esteem increases by making a healthy decision in a certain area of your life These stems always take me 20+ minutes jesus. NB says should be less than 10. But I put in my sweet time to contemplate. Maybe I'll get fast later Living consciously to me means: - bringing awareness to situations - being aware of my self-deceptions - being more aware of my trigger points - in relationships, being aware of my blaming and anger - being aware of my inner desires - being aware of my mechanical-ness - being more aware overall - living from my higher self - living more present-ly - operating from a higher level of understanding? - operating from my higher self - my higher-self is the self that my inner intuition more desires and guides me to Fears of contemplating The hard thing about staying fully conscious here is: - the strong feeling in my stomach - uncertain if I can do it - uncertainty causes strong feelings in my stomach - uncertain if it's working or not. uncertainty = fear - fear that i might be fucking shit up - getting lost and my fear spiking - pleasure and escape just feels so good - strong ass fucking resistance to the thought of feeling the fear, lots of body tension and stress The good thing about not being fully conscious here is: - I don't have to face the fear or uncertainty - don't have to feel deserving - don't have to feel fear - can remain certain - don't have the fact that somethign might be wrong with me. hmm there's resistance to somethign being wrong with me - not wanting to live my best life - can be distracted and don't have to face reality - distractions feel better than feeling and fear If I were to stay more conscious here: - i'd just feel completely - i notice that sticking until the end despite the fear will help me boldly just realized that applying consciousness to an area of my life despite the massive discomfort gives me loads of gains - i would be able to think freely - i speculate that a lot of my problems will be solved faster - i'd be a lot more confident, have higher-self esteem and efficacy in my life - i'd have to stick with the fear, feel the fear and be detached and observant of thoughts If I were to experiment with raising my consciousness 5% in this area: - I would observe the fears and uncertainty - I would notice and try to detach from my thoughts a little bit and observe them - I would slowly get better at contemplating and eventually develop 100% consciousness ? - I would notice the deeper link between "is somethign wrong with me" and thinking/contemplating - I would try to contemplate and notice the link better - I would feel the feelings and try to pay attention to my thoughts - I'd be making a step forward

@Karla Yep, in my mind the second time I wrote it I wrote it with more depth and meaning Nope. Haha. It looks super juicy but my plate is so full right now D: So many books and projects but only so much energy and time

I've been doing it for 6 months I recommend reading the whole book first and getting an understanding of what self-esteem is, and why you really want it Then just follow the program of 10 minutes a day. I usually skim/read the chapter before I do each stem because it energizes and excites me to do the stem.

Okay let's see how this goes. I think this will really help me be more accountable in general I'm realizing that I need to get my work done earlier in the day. The longer I wait to get my stuff done and the more distractions that come along, it's harder to work. My energy and motivation gets a lot lower. If I finish earlier, I feel confident, competent and more alive. I had an awesome day yesterday, but today started off really late. It's okay, I'm just human. 3/11: Tasks to complete today: I have my coaching program tomorrow, so I need to finish all the work by tomorrow so that I'm fucking prepared for once. Cleaning up my sentence stems: +1 to sentence stems: Focusing on consciousness until Sunday, then will change it up How will 6 pillars sentence stems help me? I've notice it helps direct consciousness towards certain areas, helps me be more confident, helps me bring more self-acceptance as well as contemplate self-esteem which in turn provides me more self-esteem because of the insight I get from it. Contemplation is so key here. Q: Randomly curious: How can I learn directly from consciousness? Consciousness being my teacher. What does that mean? Living consciously to me means: - Bringing awareness to situations - Living your life with more awareness - Living your life with awareness - Being a lot more present with my work - Bringing my best self to situations - Observing - Living from my higher-self - Operating from my higher-self and with deeper understanding Whenever I try to consciously contemplate, it ignites my OCD causing lots of fears to erupt -> The hard thing about staying fully conscious here is: - The discomfort is insane - the fear is insane - I get self-esteem thoughts saying "am i good enough", i'm unsure how to respond to - the feeling in my stomach is strong - don't feel like i deserve it - i really don't know if it's working, it's hard to tell if it's good for me. but i guess that is a distraction from being conscious of the feelings and thoughts The good thing about not being fully conscious here is: - i don't have to feel and i can escape - i don't have to change or confront my demons - i can enjoy delusion and comfort - i don't have to face the fear that something might be wrong with me - i don't have to face the discomfort of being conscious - i can sit in my comfort zone If I were to stay more conscious here: - i notice i will feel alive and at peace and much more conscious/aware - i notice that i feel like i don't deserve growth - i notice that i have to get deeper and tackle root causes of self-esteem issues. - i would feel completely until the very end - i would tackle it from start to end and just feel, regardless of how it feels - i would allow the discomfort fully and just be observant of the screaming thoughts of escape If I were to experiment with raising my consciousness 5% in this area: - i would pay attention to the thoughts a bit more - i would pay attention to the connection between thinking and feeling - I would observe the feelings - I would be a bit closer to becoming fully conscious - I would be taking a step towards growth - I would be observant of the resistance to feel and notice the desire to escape - Start to pay attention to all of the thoughts that occur

@Karla I didn't really see much value in posting publicly anymore. Initially, I wanted to help people. But I wasn't sure anyone was reading or cared about my work because my insights weren't so advanced as Leo's. also sometimes my entries just feel so personal - it's hard to share it with everyone here But I think that will change now, thanks for bringing it to my attention. I'll use it as an opportunity to work on my writing and communication skills Haha yeah, part of the point of that post was to try to quell people's fear to not use other's struggle as a sign of things not being possible. it just means they are early in a timeline. Glad it made you think though ooo i will try to emulate that. btw, love your youtube videos. keep it up, i want to do something similar

We are controlled by the messages we send to the universe. I asked the universe to have someone out of my life and she left it

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