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It means you are in illusion land.

When you run out of things to say its because you have a filter blocking the conversation. Notice how your mind cant ever shut up? So there is really an over-abundance of sentences and words in your mind. When you stop conversation with someone its because you think you dont have anything worthwile to say. Like you feel that the other person might judge what you are saying, or you yourself might judge it. So get rid of these filters. And release all the needs you have The need for validation from your conversation partner (placing too much weight on their reaction) The need to be in control of what is happening (always trying to say the perfect things) The need to be protected (being afraid someone could abandon or attack you) Bonus: If you've done that you will never worry about what to say or running out of things to say. BUT you still might want to improve your communication skills! Be funny. Watch Leos video on "How to become funny", you can get yourself into a fun mode and fill hours of time just by being a bit silly and childish. Like goofing around laughing and just enjoying your company. Common block to being funny is being too serious. Learn storytelling. Basically describe a story in detail by going through each seperate moment experientially. Tell what you saw, heared, smelled or thought. Make gestures, use dynamic loudness and tonality. Build up tension, dont tell everything right away. Make your listener come up with his own questions. Have a strong beginning and ending of your story in mind. Be interested in how the other person sees the world and how they feel. Share yours. Words are not the important part of a conversation. Instead focus on your intention. When you are at work your intention might be to get a task done or share concise information. A lot of guys have this mentality that communication has to be an exchange of information. This will not make for good conversations, instead set the intention to having a good time, building trust and making each other feel more comfortable. Have an interesting life that you can talk about. Have a purpose, dreams and vision in your life. Play with different roles and identities. Change things up and try new things from time to time. Ask for help, people like to share their expertise and give you advice. Do activities together. Collaborate on a project or go see something together.

How reliable are these numbers? For Deaths, they are getting tracked at the hospital. Id think they are somewhat correct but definitely some are left out (example people who died at home) and some might be included but the cause of death wasnt the virus. Where it gets tricky is the infection rate. Some countries dont do as much tests, so you might have 1 million people infected but if you only test 20.000 you will end up with an infection rate much lower then that. For example in the US I'd expect the infection numbers to be around 3-10times higher than reported. Because they test so little. Germany tests a lot, so their numbers are more representative. I'd say maybe the real number of infected is only up to 2 times higher. Now for the fatality rate, look up the case fatality rate (CFR). These numbers seem about right to me (divided by age group) Age 0-9: 0.0094% Age 10-19: 0.022% Age 20-29: 0.091% Age 30-39: 0.18% Age 40-49: 0.4% Age 50-59: 1.3% Age 60-69: 4.6% (range 3.8-5.4) Age 70-79: 9.8% (range 8.2-12) Age 80+: 18% (range 14-22) CFR should represent the number of deaths from all people who have the virus (weak, mild or critical cases). Whereas your numbers only represent death from people who where tested positive (likely skewed towards critical cases & excluding people who didnt get tested). Note: All numbers are only estimates

There is one minor thing that could be an obstacle. By growing spirtually you might come in a position where you accept every situation as it is and are less bothered by things happening in your life. In turn you might loosen your boundaries. Instead of fixing things (e.g. behaviour of girls) on the outside by setting strict rules for yourself you might prefer to go inwards and look at the root cause that is bothering you. Something inside of you. So you do inner work. Girls dont see that you do this, so they might interpret your behaviour as a weakness. What helps is setting more rules even for minor things that dont really bother you. Basically you have to really zoom in on your feelings. If you sense something even a nuance off, you set a boundary for that. It helps to focus on your partner as well. Set the rules more for her well-being than yours.

Maybe find a more engaging job?

Notice how you didnt like communication to end or worsen. Everyone is like that. For people who struggle with this I suggest to practice "letting go" in their lifes. When you go deeper into awareness you'll notice how its all an illusion anyways.

Just sit. Enjoy your beingness. Can you see that all there is, is you? Right now? Take a deep breath, slowly. Acknowledge that there is no past, no future. When that series made you happy, the happyness came from inside of you. You dont need anything right now. This moment has everything. Everything is perfect as it is. This is reality, wake up. Can you feel the love that runs through everything? Including you. Can you see the unlimited potential in you? Take a look.

Right on. This is the missing ingredient. You can only put on a mask and a facade for so long. As long as you are having accumulated emotions stuck in your body you are gonna have a hard time in life. Releasing these emotions will set you free.

In general by increasing your awareness all problems will disappear. For special situations that tends to make you feel sad, notice the thoughts that arise in these. How you think about something will determine how you feel about it.

Punctuation, dude. To clarify, what exactly is the problem you have with her materialistic worldview? Whats your take on materialism and on what scale do you see her on it? Is she scientific? You say she is not boring, what else do you value in your relationship?

Is that the guy that threatend a detroit auto worker and cant even form sentences? This guy cant compete with trump on so many levels. Well lets hope for the best...

Mostly neutral. We are not on complete lockdown but work and activities are highly limited. Work related its not optimal because I want to get stuff done, but I take the time for preparing and education. I could do that probably for a year or so. Socially I miss going to events and meeting new people and just having more options. Thats said, potential is everywhere we just have to look for it

Nice start. Definitely its not about what you say but how you say it. What is also great to have is -taking interest in how the other person sees the world. In general being interested. -being non-needy, not thirsty for getting their validation. Already at peace -being respectful (also having respect for yourself) -be a little childish, in a way that you are not so serious -a smile -a willingness to share and open up after a while

Instead of doing you are more grounded in being. You do stuff but you dont think about it. So you either do take action or dont but you are not constantly thinking about it. When a situation arises your beingness takes care of it. For example, lets say you accomplish something. Maybe you went to the gym, made money or got a very good rate at an exam in school. Now what the ego like to do is to take credit for that achievement. You are thinking "Ah I did so good, I deserved that. This now mine, no one should take it away from me. Next time Im expecting the same or better result because this what I deserve. I worked hard for that". Notice how this is not actually the case. What really happend was, that this situation or success developed through you. When you realize this you will find it easier to get into flow.

That last sentence cought my attention. Are you serious? I mean either you are really serious about not becoming like her, in a very hardcore way or you are blaming her for your situation. Either way, its good to get the power back. You are responsible for everything happening in your life right now. You can choose to be however you want. You spend probably quite some decades focusing on your mother. Thats enough now. Make the next decades about you. You are a wonderful person and you are here to share the most powerful gift there is in the world: love. Start with loving yourself and then conquer the world.

You are not in a real relationship. Go on, mingle with the others. He probably does the same. It seems like you are really young (under 18) so its allright. You will find the right one. Or maybe its not the right time right now. But what you are describing is not a real romantic relationship to me. If it was you would not be here asking these questions, you would be working on your dreams together and thinking about ways to deepen your relationship. What does he want, what are his needs (and he would think the same). In your mind you already decided that this is not the right guy for you, he is not your man. He is a man who is nice and all but there are so many out there who are also nice and funny and you like them as well.

@PlayTheGame He has his own style, maybe he will change it in the future or not. Some people resonate with his direct way of communicating, others prefer a more indirect or more friendly way of learning things. If you dont understand something, there is so much stuff on his youtube channel. Start there.

Just saw a nice video about it on youtube from someone who tried it for 2 weeks, really interesting. Anyone who has experience with it. Im interested how lucid dreaming could help with somekind of goal or problem. How could you overcome barriers or struggles from waking life in a lucid dream?

We have been non-God for a long time now, dont you think its time to move on? Tell more about your experiences, didnt you like them? I mean its funny, you have on this forum a lot of people who have a hard time with the idea that they have to live with people who seem to be lower on the awareness scale. And then there are some who think the evolution goes to fast.

Allright, so you are pretty young. And you already have a big list of useful stuff to do. Id say enjoy your time and read a book or two. The knowledge in these books is truly something else. Integrate the knowledge in the coming years and you have a nice head start for when you are older. Maybe you already have some great books lying around or you purchased Leos booklist. If not Id recommend books like "Power of now", "How to think and grow rich" or "How to win friends and influence people". Depending on which field your most interested in. Edit: Oh and read the book. Not the audiobooks.

Some of your questions get answered in this video

Why do your repress the masculine energy? On what ground and in which occasion? Start with the exercise from this video

Do you want to create video games as well?

... Going along with @Spiral what have you done yet in order to get a date?

Are you sure the life purpose stuff is not just an excuse? How is your social life in general, what does your day to day look like.