@Cesar Alba I understand your situation entirely as I too am overcoming a similar scenario. I made the decision to go with my heart which meant taking risks toward an uncertain future. As Dhana Choko said, relax and breath, try different types of meditative practice. I've heard this [relax and breath] myself many times over the years because my mind runs 1000 miles per minute like yours, and really you're *allowing unnecessary stress to subdue your potential for success. Neurosis (watch the video over and over again if you have to). Question your thoughts in reference to destroying your knowledge graph, see what's there that can be trashed, lighten the load on your mind meter. When you've decided on what your life purpose is I do encourage taking that risk. You'll feel much better about yourself and where you're going. BEGIN TRUSTING YOURSELF.