Norbert Somogyi

A bit late to the party, but how are things going? As said before nature and deepening emotional connection can go a long way, if she is open to that. However if you find yourself at a wall, the question of sustainability comes up.

I have a huge list of conditions set towards myself, a future relationship and security of existence in case I were to have children. Doesn't feel like I will reach there in the next 5 years, but it is not out of the question.

This is overly simplistic, but yeah. We will gravitate towards certain women and certain women will gravitate towards us (this does not always match up), depending on numerous factors such as culture, personality, upbringing environment and corresponding traumatic patterns. This can change over time, especially if you are successfully healing your traumas and self-actualizing. In such relationships your partner will be triggering the hell out of you without intention. Handle it well and you will develop as a person. In case you are secure, then more conscious factors come into play. The thought of 'no one likes me' comes from trauma and feels like a self-sustaining and perpetuating reality which is hard to break out of. In this case the realization that some people like me is not a hard reality to face, but a sign of evolution and development. This situation is also interesting that we tend to spend so much time thinking about what others think of us, but essentially it signals that we are rather selfish and see ourselves as the center of the world. For some this realization can add oil to the fire, while for others this can be a free-ing recontextualization. In case of the thought of 'everyone likes me' it seems to me to be either a facade to maintain control stemming from fear of lack of it, or if it's genuine it can be a disorder like psychopathy or narcissism. I'm not sure if the latter can be healed or cured, but yeah in case of the earlier it can be a painful grounding experience to realize. Just my two cents.

@Javfly33 I find them attractive, I just don't come across them very often. They don't blip on my radar, unlike conflicted ones (which for some reason I find myself more attracted to and seems to be vice viersa, maybe because they are similar and we attract alike). Someone commented recently that girls give us back what they receive (our subconscious beliefs), which I resonate with.

If they are truly open, a controlled psychedelic trip could open the doors for them. In a sense they could experience a sense of Unity and Love which otherwise would be an outlandish fantasy to them. I also second the notion of leading by example. Becoming the very essence of Love can indeed open them up just by being in your presence.

For a long time I was thinking I am experiencing the same, however I realized I find myself with emotionally conflicted girls because I myself am one (disorganized attachment). Girls of that sort I ended up being attracted to (or attracting), while with more secure and emotionally mature girls I just don't feel it clicking (even if they seem to be interested).

Pretty deep. Back when I was a teenager and jumped into spirituality (was not mature enough to handle it) and sat down for an hour each day, I ended up having a glimpse into what I think was infinity. The curtain was pulled back, the structure of my ego just disappeared and all I could see and feel was unity and the abyss. It felt like seconds but could have been minutes, but I was an awe and struggled for a long time to find the words to properly explain it. Someone I consider knowledgable told me it most likely was a Satori experience.

I just found this on Android - YTDLnis. One of the only ones I found to be able to easily convert even lengthy videos (3+ hours) on youtube. On desktop (Windows) I used to use IDM (Internet Download Manager - although it has a 30 day trial). I see a lot of recommendations for YT-DLP (it is a command-line based software, but there are supposedly GUI versions as well). Y2Mate is often recommended too, avoiding the hassle of downloading software let alone tinkering with CMD.

Interesting how I've been thinking about this lately, realizing more and more how guilty I am of this. I've come across a reddit post listing a few foundational books which I find suitable for myself to begin this endeavor (which I've been putting off for years, self-deception is a bitch). You can find it here There are also a couple such books on Leo's book list as well as videos. Videos such as this or this. Finally journaling and contemplating can be really helpful tools as well.

One time as I was travelling on a subway a guy in his late 30s (who seemed completely ordinary from the outside) sat in front of me. I just couldn't get my eyes off of him (I'm also a guy, straight), something was definitely there but I wouldn't be sure it was awakening (I am most certainly not awake). It was an interesting experience, keep in mind I was spiritually bypassing at the time (tons of meditation).

I think I get what you mean, but the mathematical (necessarily exclusionary by your words) infinities you seem to be referring to are merely finitely infinite if you get what I mean. On the other hand judging by the words of Leo and all the discussion (constructive or not) regarding awakening, that the infinity you get to experience is totally infinite and has no bounds whatsoever. Therefore even talking about it is reductive in a sense, since words can not make you grasp infinity by their design alone. Then again it can be useful to determine what degree of awakening we are trying to define (there goes the infinity I guess), and can such degrees even be mapped through our current toolkit of understanding. Furthermore, what about human biology? Doesn't that kind of impose a limit to the degree of infinity you can experience?

I don't have a direct awakening experience so I am a little hesitant to respond here, but here is my take. The word de-fine can be used to mark the boundaries of something (amongst other things). This is like the antithesis of the infinitude of awakening, kind of like an impossible request. Isn't it?

Things become mundane as we grow during childhood because we are slowly adapting to the environment we live in. Developing a sense of self different from the world around us through mimicking others, picking up roles and forming our personality etc. Unfortunately the society we live in has created an environment that is largely unnatural to us from an evolutionary perspective (it is still catching up), furthermore technology has been doing nothing but killing our attention-span. However it is still possible to rediscover this sense of wonder. Just look at Sadhguru with his crazy beard. The dude's content 24/7! The initial question is, what are you distracting yourself from in the present moment? (I'd say it is not the present moment that is at fault here, something is blocking you from experiencing it as it is). Fear? Pain? Anxiety? Take a look at them and see what you find. You can also watch Leo's video on happiness to start with:

AI is incapable of experiencing human emotions (imitating a shallow version of them at best), furthermore that perfection is not relatable. Killing the possibility of forming a genuine relationship with an AI (rightly so). Also as others have said before, as long as the AI has no choice but to be with you, it becomes a property. Which ends up resurfacing some twisted (albeit somewhat familiar) power dynamics. Just no.

Exercise (if done well) tends to increase my capacity to feel my body, making me more susceptible to feel what makes me feel good and what does not. Making me want to feel and live healthier and cleaner, which results in me being able to spend more moments in my life enjoying/living instead of suffering. Being able to spend more moments living instead of suffering can be considered a form of living longer. Chronologically I may go earlier, but that would no longer be the priority (nor would I mind).

Sounds like you may benefit a lot from IFS Therapy. Regarding the way you view your self-acceptance (as some kind of accomplishment or trophy you could use to get validation from the external world) seems to be a rather big obstacle. In my mind the more you accept yourself the less validation you tend to seek from the outside. The strength and the light start to shine from within.

I experience more vivid dreams during the active part of the chelating process (Cutler, ALA, 25mg at the moment), however they don't include gory or nightmarish parts (almost) at all. Furthermore they seem to decrease in vividness during the passive phase. I am just speculating, but I could think of this as your brain's mechanism of processing toxins moving within tissue (hopefully not redistribution), just like how your dreams tend to become more vivid during/after emotional processing. Like your brain structure is being altered, and as a result and it is adapting.

Beautiful, thank you for sharing!

I've just begun chelating with ALA in cooperation with a holistic health practicioner (who is doing it on himself as well as helping others with it and through other methods), had my first round with 12,5 mg per capsule taken every 3 hours (4 hours at night). The results so far are great, increased well-being with more mental clarity and sexual energy. No issues besides a minor head ache that is easily manageable. What I've done beforehand was a supplement course over 8 weeks in order to prepare my body for chelation. Can't say much about DSMA or zeolite, no personal experience.

While I was addicted to porn it made me lose great amounts of energy, mental clarity and motivation. Some of it was mental (punishing myself for failing), some of it may have been physical (and perhaps some placebo). It no longer seems to be the case, granted I've been improving my life & health since. You all may be interested in the following personal research fellow actualized member @tezk has been doing.

I'm trying it out this year as well. Good luck on your journey! What I think matters is that it facilitates growth for some (if not most), while makes others stressful & agitated. POIS is also a thing, but ultimately what this boils down to imo is doing something meaningful & productive with all the additional energy you acquire (aka energy transmutation).

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Lots of gems and amazing people to be found here, on the other hand the noise may be even stronger. In case it is truly your intuition, trust it and follow it through! Disconnect and see what happens, who knows what kind of adventure you could have if you follow your intuition all the time. This forum can be a great place, but it is not necessary to lead an authentic & fulfilling life. Leo's videos and numerous other sources can help you with that, potentially even more (if we stay on the internet as a domain).

It can easily be a distraction, just as it have been for me in my teens. Spiritual bypassing is a pretty common thing, still in the process of climbing out of it and making sense of the world after the experience (may or may not have been what is commonly referred to as satori) I had. I have always been under the impression that it is ideal to balance things out. It's better to focus on the relative domain (healing your traumas, climbing up the spiral step by step, building genuine connections with oneself and others, burning through karma etc.) with just a touch of spirituality. The desire to seek transcendence may come sooner or later, or not at all and that is also alright.