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Start building up a mindfulness meditation habit or look into some strong determination sitting.

Try looking into shadow work.

Have you tried watching Leo's video on How To Deal With Strong Negative Emotions. Here are some notes that I took away from his video. "The tendency to avoid emotional suffering is the cause of all mental illness. To lead a healthy spiritual life we must face problems directly and experience the pain involved." Process for releasing any negative emotion. I prefer doing it sitting. Relax your body Get into the present moment. Get in touch with your senses - sights, sounds, body sensations Connect with your body. Feel where the hurt is coming from on your body. Wherever you think that it's coming from. Could be a tingly sensation, body pains, aches, etc. Open yourself and fully feel it Allow. Which means you give yourself permission to feel it again. Observe with curiosity what's going through your body. Don't judge it or label it. Just notice it. Allow yourself to feel it again. Give yourself permission to FEEL the hurt. Sit on your ass and do nothing. Don't distract yourself. Profound insight: the feeling of being hurt does not actually hurt you.

Yo, have you bought Leo's book list? I find that some of the books listed there have SUBSTANTIAL inner growth results. One of my favorite books from there is The 6 Pillars of Self-Esteem by Nathaniel Brandon. Some of the exercises deal heavily with inner growth including sentence completions

One of my favorite books is Do You by Russell Simmons.

That is why I would like to supplement reading Mastery by George Leonard. I believe that the mastery process is very relevant and will be a CRUCIAL component in the enlightenment journey.

"If you really want to be a revolutionary, sit down and meditate. Discover your existential nature. Then you can be an incredible force of change in the world. Anything towards that end isn't a waste of time. The best use of time is simply sitting and literally doing nothing. Just contemplating and meditating." - Source: http://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/2647-what-isnt-a-waste-of-time/#comment-25845 Seems paradoxical. Some excellent examples I can think of are the Buddha and Jesus Christ but those were millenniums of years ago. Modern contemporary enlightened people are often low key and most plainly living in solitude. Abraham Lincoln, Martin Luther King, Gandhi, JFK, etc. were people who weren't enlightened yet they had an incredible impact on the world.