14/01/2025
My first ever post, just got registered. I have been watching and making notes from actualized channel. Having a hard time to dissolve my ego. Now knowledge is one thing and applying it is something entirely different. Ego and the resistance sometimes get very hard to deal with. But one good practice which I have adopted is of meditating regularly. It has really calmed my overthinking brain although I still overthink in order to distract myself from my real path but back then it was a much bigger problem can say that since now I can see it happening and not identify myself with it.
Current problem (my ego) : i identify myself as someone who can't study and get good score in exams I failed most of my life because of my ego the same inner belief/identify. The cycle keeps on repeating itself. Often times find myself just laying on my bed scrolling through the phone mindlessly. Ego is keeping me safe but I know I m gonna suffer if I keep living this way. I need to be more patient and assertive.
