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You should break up! The society won't change in two years, you are young but that doesn't mean you have time to waste, you will not be abe to convert as long as religion is not important to you, could you lie to her that you believe in God, how often, for how long? honesty is required if you intend to be happy . Marriage beetween people that are not open minded to the point they ask you to convert to their beliefs is the worst thing that could happen to you! Who am I to tell you this? Somebody who hoped for 5 years that her lover will stop asking to convert, I care about my caracter and honesty is highly important to me, I never lied him about this, I have tried in vain to believe his dogma, tortured my mind and soul with questions about" his" God but I couldn't believe....in a relationship spiritual growth should be possible, doors should be opened, don't waste your life in a religious spiritual cage , grow....

I was wandering what do you people think about meditation music, I came across Kip Mazuy music two years ago and I like it a lot, it helps me to calm down very quickly. I have started a program of 90 days of meditation and I want to do it correctly, has anyone tryed meditation while listening to this kind of music? Is it just a distraction for the mind or does it really work?

Hi there, listen to Leo's video on self esteem and DO the exercices, it helps a lot then try to find your passion in life and stick to it, the most powerfull feeling that I ever experienced and brought me confidence was when I knew my work was very well done , so try to become the best at whatever you do.... I just started to get serious about personal developement, I'm not the best to give advices but I know that meditation cures anxiety , try it!

Tkanks!

@piotr thank you for Eckhart Tolle video, I came across his videos many times but I just couldn't listen, I guess I was not ready for the kind of content he's teaching, now I have discovered a source of great information. @Kevin Dunlop the brand I work on is called OMENs Paris . good news: I've decided to give it a new try so I start working on a new collection, this time I hope I will share the work with my friend/associate.

Hey, thank you! Oau that's a positive reply! It's not that easy to be proud of myself, there has passed more than 8 years since I came to Paris to do something with my life, and I have not realised a thing, my situation now shows total incapacity , and I hate that because I allways did my best. I have the feeling that I only did stupid choices like studying philosophy , and design, maybe I should have gone to the business school instead, I was never rich to aford studies that only bring plesure and no money !I look around and see that everybody advances, get better jobs and start a familly, I can't even afford to be in a relationship, who would ever want to be with me, I have constant money problems since I'm never sure when I get payed in freelance....I have nothing to offer... I definitely need a change, a mindset change, I just started to do sport again, I used to be quite good in gymnastics as a kid, maybe I'll regain confidence if I take some time for myself,I had enaugh of being depressed! Imagine how stupid I am! at my last job interview I said that there is nothing that I am good at, they still gave me work because they liked my portofolio but that should never happen again. I should do things, insted of complaining and here I am doing exactly what I know I should not do!

thank you, indeed fashion industry is dysfunctional. I am a stylist but in freelance I work mainly in tailoring , as it is my passion I love everything about it, the design part but also the technical, the construction and the making, plus embroydery and decoration...I'll try to keep up and find a way to make a living out of it, some friend suggested that I should give sewing lessons to begginers, I'm not an expert but I'll try that too.

hello! thanks for reading and sorry for my bad English! My name is Ana I am 27 and I doubt a lot whether to continue my path or not, let me explain why. I came to Paris when I was 19 to study philosophy because I came from a remote religious place in east Europe, I really loved my studies and graduated from Sorbonne in 2011, then I decided to do something with my life and prepared for a business school, after months of preparation for entry contest I gave up because it wasn't something I wanted to do . I did some introspection and realised that when I was a kid I loved to design clothes but I thought this was not a smart job so not for me...haha, yes I was stupid but now it's even worse.... I passed an exam and got to a private fashion school, sometimes I belive this is the biggest mistake of my life because I got a huge study loan to pay the course. I love to study and school was always my best friend so I graduated as a major of my promotion, even without the slightest talent on drawing...the proof that passion is all you need. School offered me a free postgraduate year to explore my style and learn more technicals skills , wich of course I couldn't refuse; but that year wasn't a succes, I was tired and had no money, I was working in the same time evenings and weekends in a restaurant, school work was enormours and fournitures used were really expensive. I finished school with good marks and critics from a professional jury but I know my work wasn't very good. I was ashamed because i felt I dissapointed the people that believed in me and gaved me the opportunity to study for free one year....I did many internships for big fashion houses where I learned a lot but hiring was not a possibility. I worked in freelance for small brands ever since and I cannot get a real job in this field, my study loan is a heavy burden I feel I've lost my freedom. I did not knew there are so few jobs in fashion design when I decided to go to that school... I even tried to do my own brand with a friend that invested some money, For months I worked like crazy (once I have counted 105 hours a week) to do the freelance and my own project. I did a nice collection but I had no time or energy to do the marketing as well and my friend didn't help at all , so we didn't sell anything, in the end I've lost money and energy for nothing.... I have many passions I wish I could start over and do something else like study nutrition and help other people, but I can't do it because I have to work to pay that study loan and freelance is not well paid, I can only survive, besides I have to work extra hours to survive and i had enaugh I did that for two years now. Depression and suicidal thoughts are present daily ... what should I do? I can get a job in a restaurant or something like that to feel more secure but that means to give up on my passion for design...I can't do it. l could ask my teachers to help me find a job (they do that often for students) but I can't go school because I'm ashamed of my last year failure .... i really did my best in school , in my freelance jobs and in my brand project , i never get a chance to get out and live...work is the only thing I know and without any results. maybe someone can see things more clear then I do, where is my fault? why I can't find a job? I am not the best but I can do things, I'm a hard worker and I always do more than requested. is life unfair or am I very stupid ?i try to stay positive and say to myself that's ok you continue the freelance, get more experience, but when you have not even the money to buy good food for yorself it's not that easy...the loan is for 5 more years...can I wait to start life again in 5 years?!