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You patronizing me like I don't care about God when I do and have had 2 awakenings/spiritual experiences that rocked my world, one of solipsism and one of God. I've cared about truth all my life, and especially since age 16 when I started to philosophically deconstruct my materalist reductionist worldview thanks to your early videos. I've already "concerned myself with God" my entire life. I know God and truth is for me, I care about it deeply. You're not getting what I'm saying. There is no "basic self help" and success and good feelings for me anymore. I'm basically about to end it because I've went through all the options. I'm asking what is the point, if you're really hardcore about truth, and if the human form is only a limitation to your ability to see truth, why not end the human form at all? I'm already close to it due to wanting to end suffering, and if in truth seeking there is only benefit in shedding the human form, what's the issue? I'm asking you also, do you think there are any karma points to sticking through it all, or is that all fantasy? Why would infinite intelligence go through so much pain if there is no reason to cut it short to get to truth? My entire point is that there are no solutions anymore to my worldly problems, so can I see that as an opportunity to go towards the real gold? I'm not a little boy anymore, I went through this shit for the last 4 years and there are no solutions anymore. I'm fucking ready for a monk life, but what is the point? why meditate with discipline when all human form clouds truth even when you meditate, and I don't want to live human life in this fashion anymore anyway?

But why would you then take upon that stance of not caring about climate change simply because you're pessismistic about it Plenty of climate change activists are pessimist about the situation yet still stand for what they believe in and nudge the world 0.0001% towards climate action Why would you change your ideals when you're pessimist about them, that seems silly, the whole idea of ideals is that ideals is what you want, not what is there now

But the pigs are the ones who are to be convinced, right? do you really wanna convince some new agers, or go for the true priest class of today, namely the hardcore materialists like Dave? Why would that be a mistake? if you can convince him, you can convince anybody, so wouldn't that be "shoot for the stars and aim for the moon"?

Why are you framing it like anyone can just choose to have money sex and fame? I am basically situated in life that all of the devils fools gold is not available to me anymore I basically can't talk anymore and have constant inflammation of the face, tongue and jaw all day and it'll never go away All of survivals goodies are locked away from me Tbh I'm ready to die, I lost my job a year ago bc of my conditions and am just scraping by off benefits Creating a career in my passions seems impossible since you need to be able to communicate with others properly plus why would i even have the motivation to pursue it, even if I had 10 million dollars and success with life purpose, I couldn't even talk to a girl or kiss her, it's literally almost physically impossible and hurts, talking and moving my tongue hurts Leo, how do I give my life to God? Life has basically forced me to give up wordly desires, even though I still desire them deeply, like human love I care about truth deeply, but on the other hand, truth doesn't feel that urgent, or to say it better, wanting to know the truth makes me wanna end my self even more, since i'll get the end of suffering + truth? I feel so limited as a human to reach truth, I feel like I pollute anything anyway, and since Consciousness is immortal, truth will be reached anyway once I'm freed of the human form Be honest, is there even a real, tangible reason to not end myself or is it all morality that I imagined myself? Since others won't even miss me, what's the point? Is there a real point in going through the suffering? is it just consciousness going through the hardcore motions? do you get karma points for not ending yourself and holding on or is that all imagined? There seems no empirical proof for any of this, yet it then also feels pointless that people would go through pointless pain, and it doesn't make sense that infinite intelligence would do something in a pointless fashion. You say that truth is reached anyway upon death. So then I don't even get what the point is of being human and living for truth if you're only limited by your human form to see truth properly. How do I give my life to God? I can probably live of benefits my entire life but I hate my human self since i'm pointless and have so much desire that I can't fulfill, like I'm in a wheelchair or in jail Just do hardcore meditation all day everyday to try and permanently lose the ego self and awaken and thats it? it feels like hell even thinking about it, but maybe that's the point.

I hope you wlil position the style and tone in such a way for it to be the best rebuttal of materialist metaphysics, so that it is basically meant as something to be read by a professor Dave or his ilk.

Stop dangerously spreading disinformation to your audience. You haven't researched this properly and you're not a medical expert or researcher at all. There is no way you can know this. It's shocking to see how bad you treat your epistemology, and spout false conclusions to your thousands of followers. furthermore, the arrogance of saying "No one will ever understand how fundamental genetics are to everything." , as if you are the only one who magically found this out, while others are in denial about it or simply haven't seen the truth of it, is astounding. You really think you're the only who "knows" this? it's not even possible to know it because you can't figure out the cause of things with precision and look inside people's genes. You're doing your silly yet dangerous game of playing this edgelord, truth-revealer character again, Leo. feeling special because you are the one magically dropping all these truth bombs that others don't want to hear. When the reality is many of those "truths" are not possible to know at all by an individual like you, and many are also relative, like saying all men equate sex with hot women with hotter sex and that there are no other factors that a woman has that can make sex with a woman hotter or less hot. and you make that blanket statement about all men. many of your dropped "truths" are either not true at all, dangerously simplified, or things that are impossible for you to know, like knowing the amount of stars in the universe. And it's clear you're doing it in this perverted, edgelord manner to shock people and "destroy their fantasies", and make yourself feel superior by being the only one who is able to stomach these truths or even look for them. when the facts are that you don't know what you're talking about. You're not some polymath knowledgeable in things like health and genetics. stick to your metaphysical epistemology, because your epistemology in the relative world is not at all on an even acceptable level. You're really crossing the line, and treading into dangerous territory.

Well, EU countries literally don't have borders, except for the countries on the perimeter. If people are let in at those countries, they can travel to any EU country freely, which caused many problems. That's not worse than the US?

do you think it's ever possible to break out of such negative views permanently in this life? Are there even people on this world without such pathologies?

yeah. I just had so much inner resistance to the entire field for so long.

Thank you for your words of support, it's greatly appreciated. I've been putting it off - for financial reasons partly, but mostly because they already gave my cousin euthanasia for psychological reasons, (medically assisted dying for depression). She was the same age as me. Imagine being depressed for years and telling psych doctors that you want to die and eventually they actually help you do it by sticking a needle in your arm. This is why I have so much resistance and hate the west also, and a different part of me wants to tell these doctors that I want to die as well and have em give me the shot, which is why i'm afraid to go there. But it's no excuse indeed. I'm also afraid to tell them my dark side. I'll have to do it i guess.

which is exactly why religion pushes back against such debauchery; to offset the hypergamy and even the playing field. You bitch and whine about the lack of epistemology and contemplation and the corruption of people's mind, but take clubbing and hookup culture completely for granted like society can't function any other way, when it's exactly this type of society that causes people to go; "hey, why the fuck would i sit in my room and contemplate when i could be out here making money in evil ways and acting like a roided out rat to get sex with all these dolled up girls on the streets?" The collective FOMO and hyper-competitiveness is what drives men to completely abandon morals, spirituality and epistemology. There have been civilizations where this wasn't the case. Our current society is simply designed by large capital to drive people in to this divided, competitive madness, where epistemology and spirituality becomes a privilege only for the select few.

The irony is that the first time I was exposed to something from spirituality it was by watching an Owen video where he went to an Eckhart Tolle retreat.

On a side note, how is it even possible that above average guys still have relatively low success with women? if hypergamy is true all the women should be catered to the top but it seems like even that isn't true anymore. why do good looking women not even go for good looking guys anymore? is there a market failure, are good looking women also not getting laid? Guys that should be on the top girlswise also have problems. I feel like it has to do with nothing being local anymore. every local area used to be its own arena. now with travel and apps it became an incredibly greedy market (especially because of womens increasingly high standards and mens decline in sociability and ability to shine online) - and a large portion of the market just failed and isn't getting laid anymore on both sides. That has to be the explanation, what else could it be?

This post really did something and hit me right in the heart I repressed my situation for so long, making myself believe that I didn't have it that hard or wasn't traumatised so hard and that I should man up because others have it so much worse But I basically dont believe i have a shot anymore at women for various reasons, mostly medical This post did something to me because I am one of those fantasizing about suicide and hurting women, basically everyday Been reading blackpill stuff since 18 in 2018, got off it at times but it always came back, especially after my medical issues started arising and i lost all hope I guess it's obvious that I am bottom of the barrel if I read this post and what kind of people are like this I've been repressing the pain and desperation with hate I'm afraid to die alone sometimes I am afraid that I would go through with hurting myself or others Like I shared in a previous post, I even got involved in nazi ideology and jihadi ideology, like i literally thought about joining *SIS - suicidal thoughts got me thinking about hell and jihadi thought says, you can die in battle and go to heaven and have all the girls you ever wanted, but if you kill yourself you go to hell forever And I just hate society and wanted to lash out With love of Truth and epistemology i pulled myself out mentally and actually see the world for what it is now mostly, even though that's a lot more blackpilling than normie worldview or even radicalised worldview, can't blame anything anymore Just nihilism but the remnants of hate remain even though and I feel a satanic identity growing, powered by nihilism and rage I'm pretty much at my wits end sometimes I feel like going on an endless pelgrimage, not committing suicide but just giving up on life, not planning anything, and just walking and die somewhere in nature, whether its in weeks, months, years or decades Like Gautama Buddha did, just give up on everything, including life, but not Truth, in a sense it's such a liberating and even cosmically spiritual idea Because life in this society doesn't feel liveable anymore Or turn into a devil and wreak havoc on this world, I won't lie, I fantasize about it I'm not sure who to talk to about this The thought of life being a dream and nihlism is so weird, like could I really just kill myself and be done with it and have my next life be how i want it? or would i go to hell? suicide feels wrong, like you're running away from the challenge, but is that even a real objection? does God even care if you hold on through it all? is there a reward for that? ============== The "funny" thing is, I was stuck in the mud from a young age, but fought and things got better, and my stats like height and looks are not even bad, just average, if not slightly above average, and got better over time, like i used to be really fat but im not now and even though i went through a lot of shit , even mental health shit and addiction shit from 2019-2022 i kept fighting and in the start of 2023 I felt better than ever, mentally and physically, and really felt like this is my time, blackpill wasn't on my mind at all "I'm going to get money, develop myself, talk to a lot of girls and get better at it!" And If it'd all happened that way I would have had major success by now probably, even though by compensating with money and fitness for my average looks, who cares but in june 2023 I got hit with medical complications hitting my face, facial nerves, tongue, jaw, from a festering tooth infection, and now inflammation on one side of my face is just constant and I have semiconstant dysarthria (unable to talk normally at most times), salvia coming, cramps in the face, nerve system issues including panic (not panic attacks but more a lingering panic and confusion), and just constant pain and inflammation I look like a fool and can't socialize and feel extremely ashamed only drugs like cocaine fix it temporarily(nerve system stimulants) but i'm not gonna be on fucking cocaine, and it doesn't fix all the issues, like I was with a girl 1.5 years ago on cocaine and she was the first girl in years i had a chance with and i tried to kiss her and my fucking tongue just couldn't stick out properly been to doctors who can't find anything, even though they don't really seem to care Ever since been getting back into blackpill and how women just care about looks and if you're a strong socializer and networker, and just having very negative views about women and my looks and my personality I don't even wanna die but it feels like I have nothing to live for atp except not dying for my family Sometimes solipsism, which I basically know is true, makes this super hard to live for others even though I know solipsism doesn't work that way, from a human sense nothing changes Looking back on it getting into those radical ideologies was just escaping from nihilism and solipsism because it felt like it was leading to my suicide, and religious thought gives you a reason to live even if you're in constant pain I feel like just walking indefinitely and give up Why are women so fucking beautiful man, their beauty hits like nothing else, like an angel of death Sean Kingston wasn't lying Somehow I am getting stronger one hand, quit weed and cigarettes for 5 months now and never looked back and working out regularly but it also feels like i'm just letting go of the cope and just facing my suicide IDK anymore man

Although I tend to agree with some leftist points on racism, I also think DEI is at least going way too far. I recommend you to watch the PF Jung - FD Signifier conversation I shared earlier. DEI is also not designed by actual leftists to solve racism but by corporate rats to further their agendas. contemplate why and how they do this.

Don't accuse me of such obvious bullshit. It's a historical fact MLK moved further left and was disillusioned. I'll post sources of it tomorrow since im too tired to look it up. Stop spreading disinformation

Your point assumes a large amount of individualism that western liberal society has made the default - but this is not at all how people have dealt with such things throughout history, and it subconsciously still doesn't even in liberal society. I know a black person IRL who doesn't believe in systemic racism, etc. Yet I know that he's still part of the black collective even if he doesn't want to see it this way. Other people put you in that collective even if you don't see it that way. The same goes for white people. You might believe you're not responsible for what white people collectively did to other people, and of course in one sense you're totally not. in another sense white people still have a responsibility to man up and fix the collective karma, which is what this rampant individualism and colorblindness is stagnating. Many right-wing, even far right people believe this, like Christian nationalists, Charlie Kirk and the like. Think of Candace Owens, black herself. She uses this notion of colorblindness, "equality" or "quality" as you call it to basically berate any kind of action against racism or systemic racism which doesn't even exist in her mind. Not only does she and the other Christian nationalists do this on the surface only, but also use the quality notion to further agendas of white supremacy, moving quality into quantity; "see, we're all equal in principle, but blacks have lower iq, so lets just accept that they're gonna be doctors less". You get the point. It's always done extremely disingenuous by the right to fool the centrist, liberal, colorblind people to move further right.

You left out the part where MLK became disillusioned basically right after his "I have a dream" speech because of the lack of results, and started becoming an advocate for more radical socialist and leftist politics. American history likes to leave that part out for obvious reasons. White liberals started to believe that race doesn't exist because the American elite fed those ideas to them, to obfuscate the real racial inequality that was still going strong. When minorities, from their position try to then point out "whiteness", which is obvious to them, liberal Whites suddenly feel attacked ; "We don't even believe in race! why attack us for it?" The above conversation that I posted goes deeper into those dynamics, and how as a white person becoming more "race conscious" shouldn't be either white supremacist or self-hating guilt identity, but just a healthy raising of consciousness to do whats best. Just become conscious of the dynamics without adding all the bullshit to it.

Well said. Whites many times don't see, or want to see that the fact that whites are on top in the "current meta" changes the way you look at racial things. I highly advice everyone struggling with these to watch this conversation between a black socialist and a white centrist about these topics. it's basically woke antiracism versus liberal colorblindness without all the annoying whining and antagonism. These kind of honest conversations between different viewpoints don't come up commonly and its a shame. this is how you actually advance collective consciousness.

Yes, this was an absolutely genius explication.

Never did I demonize Satan in my post. Assumption You simply have no clue about Satanic realities just like I don't have experience with the Alien. Although if you did, you'd realize not demonizing Satan is not such an easy undertaking as you make it out to be. All humanity ends in an infernal state of mind.

You haven't yet seen the reality of Satanic things. You have no clue. Don't speak of things you have no clue about, but stick to your own domain.

quite belittling of us as an audience to act like we don't seek truth like you and dont ask serious questions often many questions you evade because you deem them unserious or "dumb" are often times subtle realities that you haven't found out yet You're not yet into the deepest levels of absolute logic yet for example, and it surprised me that it took you 100+ trips to realize that logic is absolute I realized it after one realization of the oneness of reality I explicated some points about it to you, but you always waved them off, even though you brought them up months later in your work, such as the question of "always returning" in neoplatonism, just an example It just goes to show there's a lot you also don't understand and can learn from others, just like others probably have never gone through Alien stuff like you Yet you never seem to be openminded on the topics of metaphysics, you think you've figured it out and nobody can say anything to you about it The fact you spend hours on this forum each day where you're basically the leader is also a bit of a red flag You're a very compassionate person and I respect you for it But this idea that nobody is serious except you is an ego trip It's no different than Muhammad Ali saying he's the greatest

You've dismissed many of my non-materialist takes as well, especially ones that were more critical of you. I agree that this dude basically has no idea of what he's talking about, but the idea that you often evade points and criticisms when it comes to metaphysics is not entirely unfounded.

I advise you to stop thinking about "game" and women in this degenerate frame at all. Stop PUA and all that. It's unspiritual. Why do you think Leo's teachings are not about the heart and core of life, but only about the stage orange values of seeking truth and fulfilling potential? This will shoot you in the foot later on. Marry a woman and don't indulge in these filthy games and frames. Even though women, in their current form of depravity might be a lot more scarce in the "pure market" than in game, the pure way is the best for all people.