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How much more entire threads are you gonna make just for some spiritual vagueposting?

It just dawned upon me that even the existence of a place or state of being where there is no stress, pain or fear is becoming questionable to me. My life is so void of positive experience and involuntary inertia that even the idea of it existing or happening to me, even after I die seems more strange and fantasy like every day. My life is filled with suffering of physical and mental health conditions, failures, dissapointments, being a dissapointment, failure and a burden on my loved ones, being incel for forever, being loveless from the opposite sex for 9 years now, and it feels like everything is just constantly worsening. I see friends and other people advance in life and I am stuck in inertia and getting order without development. It makes me hate myself that there is something wrong with me. My prime mission in life for a few years now has been to not kill myself before I bury my parents so they don't have to go through that suffering. If they died already I'm pretty sure I'd kill myself. But even the thought of death bringing relief is now becoming more strange and unbelievable to me. My experience of life is so paradoxical because I am very sensitive in seeing the beauty in everything, the perfect design of the universe, the beauty in nature, art, beautiful women, just their existence sometimes makes my eyes water. But that makes it all the more absurd and painful to be looking at it from a distance, forever on the bench, forever locked away, and knowing this body is basically a genetic failure. If I could return to this earth in a healthy and genetically better form I would play the game of life over and over again. I'm not against going through pain but right now I am just in inertia and meaningless suffering without rhyme or reason. I am entering pure nihilism where even the self created meaning is becoming totally absurd. But I know at least one thing for sure, that Consciousness is immortal. I am just getting more and more paranoid about it never coming to a resolution even after death. Even though this life feels like an absolute prison, I am afraid death is not release. There is no rationality behind this because all I know is Consciousness is eternal, nothing more. What happens after death is a complete mystery. Is it a good idea to have faith in a state of resolution? that one day the prison doors will open? Am I really God and did I create this dream for myself? Or is the dreamfield God and is there no rhyme or reason behind the next dream? Will I ever wrap around and understand what is happening to me? Will God ever understand all the dreams or is even God oblivious to what happens and exist in them?

So I guess the entire "how to get laid" series from Actualized.org was a misleading cope as well.

"exceptional genetics" lol lol. you'd say that shit about top level athletes not some pretty boy. he has genetics to be pretty thats it.

From now on, stop the overuse of capitalization of words, especially the all caps "GOD". It's pretentious, misleading and doesn't do justice to the seriousness of this work here.

This is where you are losing intelligence again and making incorrect findings based on your adherence to spiral dynamics. new age hippieism is so often not green but tied to far-right stuff oh so often, especially in Europe. He's not an anomaly in this, there is a pattern behind this that you can not see through spiral dynamics because it is flawed in this way. SD does not understand stages above orange and the linear pattern starts to break down above it. "green" is not understood at all by SD, only a strawman of it.

@Leo Gura Not to sound like a total party pooper, but for you to support watching this crap is contradicting your stance against conformity. Its not only conformity but the glorification of the biggest narcissist idiots of our time. It's literally moving society in a direction against consciousness on a mass scale. The ego of people like Memphis Depay is on the level of Trump.

"France" "Netherlands" What a joke of a time we're living in

Leo is right, anyone who has a problem with the word God hasn't realized why denying the application of that word is utter falsehood. For people who have had even glimpses of God like myself, where you are shocked to awe, tears and terror upon seeing the infinite power of Consciousness, its invincibility, its all encompassing nature, that all is created within it, by it, but it is totally One, it is a Being, it is alive, it is life itself. Yet no kudos to Leo for worsening the case by weird antics like without explanation capitalizing the entire word GOD, almost to further separate himself from the "dumb crowds", like the word God doesn't do justice in itself. Not good for the cause.

And yes, these concerns as well OP, you sound very non-careful There are ghouls in these streets

Dude, just make it absolutely clear to them via contract that they cant use your voice or name, just your story Also make sure you can't get doxxed through the forum Tate and his ghouls might go after you if you're not careful They are horrible people And those documentary makers dont give a fuck, they just want to make their doc Don't thread lightly on these manners, only do it if you're safe There are doxxed people who have their lives ruined Think before you act

This is a question that troubles me a lot as well. I know that the answer lies in the deepest ontological levels, concerning what suffering is on a metaphysical level. Suffering comes in many forms, and in that way it is irrelevant whether it is suffering in the form of a child in Gaza or any other form of suffering; In the end it boils down to Consciousness having an experience of suffering. All experiences of suffering, all have in common that they are Consciousness having the experience of suffering, since all beings are ultimately that: an experience in Consciousness. The question then becomes; what are the limits of suffering? Is there an end to it, or none at all? If consciousness is limitless in its imagination of experiences, much deeper suffering is possible than any human situation on earth. And if consciousness is eternal/immortal, is it bound to loop over massive amounts of suffering? Or can it permanently cease suffering for itself by ceasing imagination forever? Would that not contradict the attribute of eternality/immortality of Consciousness? One of the hardest questions. At times it makes me curse Consciousness for being immortal. Why did it dream up all this shit in the first place if there is so much suffering that may never end? At times it makes me want to escape through death, although I have seen the indestructibility of Consciousness, there is no true death. The question is religious, and many religions have tried to answer it. But I can't figure out the answer myself. All these Neo-advaitist answers in this thread don't take into account that the "illusion" of suffering is reality through Consciousness dreaming it up. Whatever illusion is dreamt up is real. The suffering lies in the delusion of a world and body, but while in the delusion, it is a real experience, that is the definition of delusion. I struggle with living my life knowing I am simply Consciousness and all endeavors of trying to not suffer by going after my ego's needs are simply useless. I am the homeless man dying on the street, I am the child having its family blown apart by bombs. I am that same consciousness and will experience the same things - if there is no escape from the eternal cycle of Samsara and dreaming, that is. I pray to God but get no answers.

How can a distinct entity like "Seth" be non-physical, if the non-physical is without form, and any distinct entity postulates form, since there is no distinction in formlessness?

What drugs are people pushing for lucid dreaming?

Very high quality documentary about the insane corruption of Trump and his cronies' crypto grifts.