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Just don't take the ethics and concepts seriously. The truth probably lies within yourself not within the theories. Don't mix them up.

I am a 16 year old student from Germany on the path to enlightenment. Here I want to summarise my few insights I have in my meditations. Who is conscious? I asked that myself today while meditating. I went through my body and looked what there really is. Is there a conscious being in the body? I began with the lower body and torso. There is definitely no conscious being, just many sensations. As I went up it became harder. In normal life I feel that there in my throat and head might be something controlling me. This feeling of breathing in and out makes me fell this and thoughts arising from the centre of my brain. Today I looked and came to the conclusion that there still is nothing other than sensation in my whole body. When I concentrate on the sensations it feels like there is no body, only points of sensations. As if there are points in a three-dimensional coordinate system, and the middle of my head is around the origin. But then when I open my eyes there comes another coordinate system into play. Like a 3d flat screen in front of this three-dimensional coordinate system. And then also sound and weird thoughts. So there are many coordinate systems on one another but nothing that is conscious of it. I got some thoughts that maybe the conscious being of those sensation is the space around the coordinate systems. Is this what is called awareness / mindfulness?

In the last days I had not that much time to meditate properly because of school stuff. Today I managed to meditate normally. Where am I? What am I? This thing behind my eyes, in my skull feels like an 'I'. There all the thinking goes on. But 'I' could also be in my throat. This feeling of breathing feels also like an 'I'. The thing I think 'I' am is definitely somewhere around my head. But all of this are just sensations. Am 'I' a sensation? Am 'I' this sensation of thinking in my upper brain? or what? I have no idea. Then my mind started to create concepts: If 'I' am a sensation, and a sensation is energy / consciousness, 'I' am just energy and consciousness. In normal life the 'I' is centred inside the head. All the sensations and different ideas / thoughts (which are essentially also sensations) come together and create the illusion of the 'I'.

Cold Shower: twice Eating only once snacks (one hand full of raisins, dried fruits or nuts): done Eating no "oatmeal crunchies": done Stretching: done Working on my side split: done Watching no useless videos: done Exercise: done, running 6.5km Learning for diver licence: done, three questionnaires Hearing less music: done, almost no music, only 10 minutes Doing something different: done, participating a lot in music class 30min+ meditation: done, 50min I didn't wake up on time, so I had to skip the meditation in the morning. But that was no problem, I had time to meditate in the afternoon. I never wanted it to become a competition. Last summer I had a phase where I wrote myself everyday a very very long to do list. I ended up doing stuff I didn't want to do, just because they were on the to do list. For example I sat inside programming while I rather wanted to be outside in the sun, doing sports and playing on my slack line. I overcame this and learned from it. I want those things to become a habit, not a challenge. I want to do those things because I naturally want to do them, because I enjoy them, they have a higher value. Just in the first week it is for me a challenge, after that I love it. Through meditation and self love I naturally stay compassionate towards myself. But I'll do more of this love stuff, because I somehow do a bit to less. Through Matt Kahn I already learned so much about the importance of love. And because I will only slowly implement new habits it won't be so hard for me to stay consistent. Thanks for the reminder

Where do you live? This looks so amazing. Last year I also tried to grow some plants on my own. But because I didn't worked enough in my little patch snails and rabbits ate a lot of the salad, beet roots and carrots. This year I will definitely care more about my plants. I have a dream of growing all my food on my own and living autarkic. But I think that might be very time consuming. Maybe I'll enjoy gardening this year so much, that I will spend more time doing it. How much time do you spend in the garden?

When do you usually go to sleep? I would still try to wake up at 6am. After a few days I will be tired early and it won't be a problem anymore. I go to bed at 9:30 and wake up at 6:00. Some days I sleep until 7am and feel like a god with 9h+ of sleep. But your way might also be fine.

@The Alchemist I watch yours also every day

soon 17, I discovered Leo probably 1.5 years ago

Cold Shower: twice, in the morning and after my workout. I felt so great afterwords Eating no raisins: done Eating no cashews: done Eating no "oatmeal crunchies": no Stretching: in the morning Working on my side split: quickly Watching no useless videos: only three useless videos Exercise: done. A full body workout outside Learning for diver licence: done Hearing less music: done Doing something different: done I watched another video from Matt Kahn today. I like this guy, he blows my mind every time. He introduced me to the concept that circulating energy is very important, and you let your energy circulate through making little changes each day towards higher values (I didn't watch the video to the very end yet). I think that is basically changing your habits and that's what I am trying to do there. I always have to stay in motion and not stagnate, like I did it in the last months. I am so motivated to become the greatest version of myself. But I feel that it will be very uncomfortable to change so much. The ego likes to stagnate and to do everything in the same way. It is used to the daily routine and knows that it will survive. A habit of changing habits would be the best thing ever. Incidentally I did very much different today than normally. I had a cold shower in the morning and established my new morning routine. I participated more in school, was outside in the afternoon, rode my longboard and was the first time at driving school. It was a very good day. My new morning routine will be looking like this: staying up at 6:00 going to the bathroom drinking 0,5l water meditating till 6:45 stretching and a quick workout (handstand, headstand, squats, pushups) quick cold shower getting dressed and cleaning my room visualisation, powerposes and figuring out my values... getting ready for school

@The Alchemist Ok, challenge accepted, every day a cold shower. I'll do this now every morning before school. I did it today and felt so much better. I came to school fresh, awake and happy, while everybody else was sleepy and unmotivated like everyday. I even participated more in the lessons the whole day.

Cold Shower: no, I didn't shower today Eating no raisins: done Eating no cashews: done Eating no "oatmeal crunchies": done Stretching: quickly Working on my side split: quickly Watching no useless videos: done Exercise: today is my rest day

what do you look for when answering questions like these? Sensations are probably just consciousness, energy, whatever you want to call it. You probably cannot trust your memory. It are just thoughts and images which arise. I probably cannot know where I am because you have to trust your sensations and your memory... So basically you know nothing

Today I watched a video from Matt Kahan. It was kind of mind blowing. I should have known all this stuff about relaxation already. But firstly a short story: When I was a child, maybe 8 years old, I got my first Nintendo DS. I played with it a lot, especially Pokemon and Animal Crossing for a few hours every day. I was a bit addicted to it. But with the time I got became kind of nervous. It was a disturbance inside my head. As a result I constantly had to blink with my eyes. I couldn't suppress it. I just had to blink all the time. I hated it and it was a constant strain. It is the opposite of relaxation. Somewhen I stopped playing so much games this blinking slowly stopped a few months later too. This was a great relief. But as soon as I started again playing at the Nintento DS or later being at a computer or any kind of monitor, this blinking started again. Later the blinking got replaced by other strange movements. Now I am again in a phase of strange movements, and I know that they are called tics. Currently my tics are moving my jaw, frowning, wiggling with my ears, moving my mouth, and contracting muscles in my back and neck. A few weeks ago I started to spent too many hours in front of my computer. Another trigger now is hearing too much music. Slow and gentle music is ok, but not the normal stuff in the mainstream or any kind of music which is just a bit fast. It is making me so nervous. Firstly spending less time in front of monitors is for me a remedy from the tics. Also hearing no or just relaxing music, and of course meditation. Everytime I end my meditation and go out of my room, I hear music in the house. I hate it, because it gets me out of this state of relaxation. Also my family annoys me in this time when they speak to my in a not relaxing way. Now I consciously know that relaxation brings me more in alignment, and more towards enlightenment. I should stop spending many hours with monitors, mobile phones and music around me. I love it when every device is turned of and I am just offline. I naturally want to be relaxed, my nervous unconscious mind is telling me it. I also want to start working on being more relaxed throughout my day. It might be hard in school with so many unconscious people.

Cold Shower: done Eating no raisins: done Eating no cashews: done Eating no "oatmeal crunchies": done Stretching: done, in the morning before school Working on my side split: done, just a bit too quickly Watching no useless videos: almost done Exercise: done Somehow I had no time to do anything else today

What is sight, what are sounds, what are thoughts? / What are sensations? Can I trust my memory? Where does my memory come from? How does the memory work? How can I know where I physically am?

Could you tell more about this formula? It sounds interesting.

I also like them but thats the Problem. When i eat them i eat way too much, a few hands full of them. That might be not so healthy. I have to get used to eating less of them.

Cold Shower: done Eating no raisins: done Eating no cashews: done Eating no "oatmeal crunchies": done Stretching: done Working on my side split: done Watching no useless videos: almost done

Last night my mind came up with excuses why I shouldn't meditate in the night. After an hour of strong determination sitting I quitted and slept in almost immediately. I was a little bit tiered but had no unusual experiences. It is just hard not to move while the body wants to yawn. I think having long meditations in the morning might be more effective. Waking up at 4am, having a cold shower and meditating for three hours... I will do this tomorrow morning.

You are really inspiring to me right now. You are doing all this personal development stuff while I say to myself that I don't have the time. But I could have the time. Thanks

What did Einstein got wrong? And what could happen?

I've noticed that I have a few low consciousness patterns like excessive eating although I am absolutely not hungry. I just eat a few hands full of raisins or nuts because of habit or want. Afterwords I feel physically very bad. watching useless YouTube videos like daily vlogs. It is just a waste of time I can use this time much better with high consciousness stuff like working on self-actualization / self-mastery, enlightenment, school stuff, learning etc. There are so many things I want to do but I always say to myself that I have no time for that, although there is plenty of time which I just waste.

Going out of my comfort zone https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gb0h8ZKvJW4 Afterwords I also feel refreshed and warmer And you save a bit of water and energy

I've been thinking of trying to do a late night sitting this night. I just don't go to bed and stay up for a few hours and meditate. I'll have to sacrifice a few hours of sleep, but I'll handle that. In the evening I normally get into a really relaxed and happy state. When I then meditate for more than an hour remarkable things might happen. My thoughts could stop, I could have a few insights, or surrender with reality, my surroundings, perceive the being of energy, consciousness... Normally I meditate around 5pm. At this time I am not able to relax this much, there is still noise around the house and dinner is around 6 or 7pm ready. I couldn't meditate as long as I want to. I will report my experience tomorrow.

I've been thinking about my life purpose for a while now. Sometimes I think it is this, sometimes that. I think having a life purpose is crucial for happiness. And being happy is in one way the meaning of life. So I need to find mine. Here I will report about my current thoughts what my life purpose could be.