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I tried so hard to make art using my imagination. But the only thing I can is to copy things from life or internet pictures (and I am not good enough in that either). I really wanted to become an artist but nature didn't give me the right genes. I am talented in informatics (I don't know informatics, we did informatics in high school and I just was really talented at it), the only thing that I am talented in. But I don't like informatics just cause I am good at it. I like art. I really wish I was someone else. Not a low IQ autistic uncreative guy. I am powerless, when others get creative ideas my own mind is just blank. I had no meaning in life, art became my meaning. But I am not good at it. So I have no meaning in life now that I am going to do drawing just for a hobby. All I can think is Leo's video The radical implications of Oneness in which he said ''in another life you will be mentally retarded''. This is the life he was talking about, and I can't do anything to change this situation... why am I even living? Can I do anything at all to change this situation?

I decided to do psychedelics. My reasons, I have autism , inferiority complex, existential curiosity, internet addiction, too many desires and many other things, so I want to overcome these problems (yeah I know autism can't be cured, but I think it can be helped). I want to ask : In what country are they legal? are they expensive? what magic mushrooms or other psychedelics should I do? Where to find them (legally)? How many times should I try them and how long till i try them every new time? Will they help my problems? can i travel alone and do them? how much dose? What should i think or do while I am under their influence? Any other thing I should be worried about? Thank you in advance

relative to me that my brain is low IQ, everyone seems like he/she has superpowers. That being said I really think some people like 1 in 15 are so smart they have superpowers relative to other people. It really depends how you mean it.

As someone that has been physical being bullied for 3 years from 13-16, it's really disturbing that the other 13 year old that destroyed my life didn't go to prison, cause ''these are just kids''. I don't care if you are 8 or 13, if you destroy people you deserve to go to prison, I don't care if it helps them or not. That being said, I am really scared of authorities abusing their power and sending innocent 13+ year old teens to prison. I don't trust the system. Metaphysical speaking, if they are me I am just punishing myself.

@YimpaI can't find psychedelics in my country. Plus they are illegal. I am also to autistic and dependent to travel alone. Honestly if I had psychedelics I would definitely try them. They have offered me some here but I can't risk doing something illegal in my country that doesn't respect human rights that much , so they wouldn't understand. Do you believe psychedelics can change someone so much? and if yes what to do when I try them (how should I act?)? Also how many times should I try them to reach the things I am missing? Lastly I live with my parents, if I were to try them, could I do it in my room without them knowing? Also do you think I can travel and try them abroad?

1. more people = more taxes 2. Demographic problems (again more people more taxes). 3. cheap labor (locals don't do the hard low paying jobs) both sides have racists by the way. The idea that immigrants can't be racists is mostly left wing ideological idea and the idea that locals can't be racists is mostly a right wing ideological idea. I am local and have been physicaly bullied tremendously both by immigrants and locals, bad and good people are everywhere, in every country so it's lauhable when people deny that.

i got diagnosed with asperger too. It's no longer called asperger though. Yeah it's lonely, cause I feel stupid and cognitively powerless. It's sad that other people got ''powers'' that I have not.

My father became a gambler these past , I don't know, maybe 8 months. We just learned yesterday as a family that he has lost a huge fortune of money that was in common bank account with my mum. My sister is going to give birth in few days and she is thinking of leaving the house faster than she would. The whole family and the husband of my sister told him to stop playing these games, I said to him to go to a center that helps gamblers. All my father said was that he will stop he just wants to play one last time, which is ridiculous. You don't play one time, if you play one time you play again and again. He doesn't want to go to a center or to a psychologist or psychiatrist, he thinks he doesn't have a problem. My mother made her own bank account cause we know that gamblers may steal money , in some sense he already did that with the common bank account. You have to be really low IQ not to know that you can't win in gambling and yet he thinks he can make money. I can't see my father anymore it's too painful, he is addicted, I can't see an addicted person that doesn't want to help himself and he may end up homeless some day. He lost a ridiculous amount of money. I have a million problems in my life like being autistic, this is the last thing I imagined I would have. What can I do?

I feel the same, I want to take my life but then again what's the point of taking my life, if reincarnation is true then I am going to be back here again maybe as an ant or something and not a human. Plus it would hurt my family. What keeps me alive is having goals (learning a language, learning to draw), journaling and imagining that I am with the girl i love (she doesn't like me at all which makes me want to take my life even more so I just fantasize about her and me being together). It's the goals for me, some day my life will be better when I will learn a language and know how to draw, when I will become thin. I had a rough childhood and teen years and even later, too. But I try to forget my traumas as suggested in Leo's videos about trauma. I don't know how to help you but maybe if you set goals and try to use your imagination to feel better it will help. To be honest the best thing you can do is talk to a psychologist/psychiatrist. I mentioned I want to take my own life to my psychologist and she tried to help me, also she told me to try being grateful for the things I have cause it helps.

I know a guy that I would describe him as sociopathic sadistic criminal. He tried to bully me sometimes even showed me a hammer and I and my father called him on the phone and told him that we would go to the police if he bothers me again. He agreed and told us that he would stop bothering me. Some days ago after 6 months from the hammer incindent I saw him and he did a quick ironic laugh. That was enough to trigger a panic attack although I tried not to show it. I doubt I can go to the police or a district attorney and tell them that this criminal laughs ironicaly when I am near him, especially in my country that doesn't bother that much protecting citizens unless it's clear that very bad things have happened. Not only that but this question isn't a legal question, it's about how do I relax, it's like I have PTSD from him and from my past bullying experiences as a teenager. I try meditation but it doesn't seem like great solution in this instance. I am really scared of this criminal, I think about mma moves all the time just in case he tries something. I live in a small town so I am definitely going to see him again some day and although I am planning to move abroad it will take years (I won't move abroad cause of him). We have talked to a police man and told us if he bothers me then I we should go to a district attorney and show them my diagnosis that I have mental problems like autism cause it helps with the situation if he ever tries to do anything. I have 2 appointments in 8 days with my psychologist and my psychiatrist and I am going to tell them, but till then I don't want to bother them. I told my mother and she told me that unless he does something worse then ignore him. How do I relax? How not to let obssesive thoughts and PTSD take over my mind. I understand this forum isn't about talking about these stuff so I understand if this question gets deleted but I hope it doesn't. What to do to cut these obssesive PTSD thoughts, how do i relax? Thanks in advance.

I just learned something really scary. After you lose a lot of weight (like I do), your body increase hunger and make you less satisfied in order to go back to the weight you started, maybe even more. And it takes a lot of time till the body gets used to your new weight as the normal. So what can someone do in order not to regain the weight he lost, since the hunger is going to be very strong....?

I am ashamed of writing this but I hope this community won't judge me. I don't like my role as a man. I don't want to die at wars, protect, provide. I don't want to fight other men for stupid reasons. I want to have fun. I want to be cared and yes even protected. I want to have fun like women do. Even sexually I am very submissive. I don't know what's wrong with me but I feel if I pretend that I don't want all these things I actually am not real to myself and if I try to act as a man I dysfunction. I am straight and have some masculine traits but not many. I am more of a woman than a man. I swear if I could switch my gender I would do it but with current technology we can't do that completely so there is no way I will become a trans (I am not saying trans women aren't women but that's my personal opinion). How do I live in this harsh world that doesn't understand men like me. Most people try to shame me for not being a manly man and the rest don't care. I mean it's good they don't care , it's their choice, but what do I do? Does any other man feel like me or I am an exception? I have never heard of any other man say stuff like this even online, so I don't know how this will be percieved, I am kinda anxious posting this. I am even ashamed to talk like this to my psychologist, but I will probably take the step and do it.

I have an asocial brain(, probably autistic if the psychiatrists that examined me were right), I am slow thinker, non creative, not smart, not good memory, I am super great at analyzation as far as I can tell but that's all I am good at. All these have serious implications like not being able to relate or talk to others, not having humour, being humiliated in social interactions if a bully disrespect you and don't know how to act. And generally not being able to think quick solutions in daily matters that require fast flexibility. I am short, I can't work cause of autism (i am on welfare that is super low money, although I am greatful for it of course). I was bullied and now I can't function properly (i don't want to remember the painful trauma details). I am also super short 167 cm (5'6 I think). I asked how to have a girlfriend on this forum months ago, I lost a lot of weight although I have a long way to go, but I start to slowly realize that I am not going to have a girlfriend. Hope and encourangement is good but some people just weren't meant to have relationships. I mean, it's a neurological problem, not a matter of self fufiling prophecy and lack of trying. Today I saw my crush with another guy and I felt both relief and sadness. If everyone is ONE then some lifetimes were meant to live this situation. When you have a ton of things to communicate to a person, my non creative mind is blank, it literaly can't find anything to talk about. It's not anxiety or lack of skills, it's an innate biological blank brain. I like drawing and I can't even imagine anything to draw, I don't have aphantasia but it's pretty close to it I think. I don't think I will ever find a girlfriend and that's ok if you know how to cope, but I don't know how to cope that well, I need help. I am kind of embarassed to talk to that to my psychologist but I may will talk about it, but other people's opinions is a good thing. ''Just practice'' doesn't work to me, I know people that give that advice have good intentions and I appreciate their advice but this is not a typical situation. So... how to live without romantic love?

You make your own meaning. Ok. So what's your meaning. What's the point of life for every person? It must be something more than eating bananas or watching the sunset. These things are wonderful but they aren't really enough, are they? What are some possible meanings in life, what's the point of it? Socialization, making a family, helping others, art, hobbies? I can't think of something else. Is this it?

I am desperate for a relationship with a woman. But it doesn't seem that women feel the same way for men. I always believe that truth is better long term than lies so I want to know the truth. Maybe it's a me thing, so other men aren't desperate, but let me tell you , as a man that never had a girlfriend, there is an emotional need to be connected with the opposite sex, to be desired, to come with contact. But all I see on the internet is women don't need men, don't like men, and they definitely mock men's issues or completely ignore them. So I have suspicions that women weren't meant by evolution to feel deep love for men like men do, they were meant to be independent when survival meets were met, while men were made by evolution to need a woman in order to feel very beautiful feelings. I am ready to accept the truth even if it hurts, I finally want to know even though I was afraid to know the answer. If the answer is that they actually do love and need men the same way men love and need women, that's awesome, if not I am ready to accept the reality I denied. There is no reason to point that no one ''needs'' anyone. Yes the word need isn't exactly right but to be fair it feels like an emotional need even if you can survive without the love of the opposite sex. You still feel bad without this need met even if you can survive.

It doesn't matter if it is 1%, 10%, or 30%. The point is there is a myth (or a fact) that women are only genuinely attracted to a minority of men and they only settle for the rest, even make families with them. Is this true or not? I belong to the bottom 5% according to my estimation (maybe even less) in terms of attractiveness so I really have no clue what's true or false.

@Opulence i see what you are saying. Don't you think that romance is the best thing ever though? I am beginning to think I will focus on art instead of relationships since no woman likes me. But I doubt art will be better than relationships. Maybe I am wrong.

@CARDOZZOI can't be funny and learn social skills. I am autistic. I am sorry for being pessimistic but it's true. All I can do is become 10% body fat and it will take some time (years). It worked before, I hope it works now. Well I can become better at social stuff but there is not much improvement cause of autism, I definitely will try though, thank you!

@CARDOZZOI can't do looksmax, I am 167cm (5'6 i think). All I can do is become 10% body fat which will take many years. When I was a teen and was thin many women couldn't take their eyes off me or approached me to talk about something irrelevant and stuff like that. Some were (way) taller too. But that is the past, i don't know if the same will happen when (and if) i reach 10% body fat.

@Tenebrosoif what you say is true then I don't want to be with a relationship with a woman. I mean, I want, but there is no point since I am not 1%. I am really confused. Is this red pill myth or normies not accepting a truth. It could be both, how do i know? I just can't understand it. I am so confused .

I don't like my life anymore. I have very low IQ, I don't want to live like that anymore. My life is a series of failures. I want to go to the next life. Does such thing exist? Are we eternal beings with eternal reincarnations? Shouldn't people like me try to go to the next life? This is all hypothetical, so please don't delete this question, I really NEED information.

I saw an anime called ''ghost in the shell'' and it made me think that we are not different than a machine yet we can feel and it can't. What's the difference between a machine and a human? The human can feel cause of electrical impluses (of course metaphysicaly that's wrong but to the relative world it's real) but the machine can't? why not? we have hormones, so if you put hormones that become electrical impluses in a machine why it can't feel? What I am trying to say is we don't know how conscioussness works. I am not saying AI robots can feel, I am saying who knows, maybe they do or they may will in the future. Or maybe not, I am open to both possibilities.

I don't know if it's abuse or not but I do know that it was a very bad situation for my life. I wasted decades of my life believing things that made my life worse than it would have been. On the other hand religion gave me some hidden advantages so it's not all black and white. When I was religious my life had so much meaning, but also it surpress every natural emotion and you can't communicate with others cause you are living in a different world than them. Also Christianity says things like turn the other cheek, forgive your enemies and have empathy for them, or don't do any sin cause you are going to hell, don't masturbate, pray instead of solving problems and the list goes on and on. That's really bad things to say to kids. I remember I couldn't sleep cause I was scared of devil and when I slept I saw horrific nightmares, that's too much for a kid. My mum is still christian but I don't believe in any religion any more. Not even hinduism or buddism although I tend to believe that reincarnation is real

What romantic animes you like the most?

@Osaid @caspex @LastThursday Thank you all, I didn't expect so much understanding and acceptance. Thank you.