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I had thoughts of determinism since I was 13, but a decade later I decided to search it on youtube. I found Leo talking about it and understood that I am not crazy and I am not the only person that is deeply curious about reality (cause most people don't care at all about reality). That made me watch other videos of his. I definitely didn't know that my life will change forever after that, mostly in very good ways.

Reality seems like a paradox, so how can you be so sure that you are not wrong about determinism? Personally I think determinism is true and I like it that way, free will (randomness) seems very scary to me, but sometimes I wonder, if reality seems so paradoxical and illogical , how can I be so sure that determinism follows logic then? maybe reality is so illogical that it is random and not deterministic. I am so confused. (This question is mostly for Leo, but if anyone else wants to answer, you are more than welcome to answer)

I thought I understood all of reality thousand times before, and although I was wrong every single time, I felt a sense of accomplishment, zero confusion, and I felt everything made sense, and for 10 seconds I felt awesome but after that it became mundane. Even if I understood reality correctly , I think the result would be the same feelings. So I wonder , is it worth to try to understand reality, probably for 40+ years, just to have a tiny chance to understand it, only to feel great for 10 seconds? or if you understand reality correctly the benefits are more? Does anything extraordinary happen after you understand all reality? Do you feel awesome every time you remember how everything happens? I just remembered Leo has a video ''how awakening feels like'' which I am going to see right now, but in case it doesn't answer my question, I wanted to make this question here.

like in art for example, should someone that can't draw from imagination practice for years, or it's futile and he will never do it? or like Jordan Peterson says, only 2% of people are creative and the rest should not even try?

They made me feel amazing, but I can't find anything close to it ever since.

I feel the same way about the meaningless thing and I am 30. I don't know if this will help you or will help me but I think I am going to engage in art (novel writing and some drawing mostly) and maybe this will give me the dopamine and serotonin I want and actually live a happy life. But I suspect it takes time to be good at it to achieve very good results that will make you happy. I feel the same as about the novelty. One amazing film is Agora for example, I don't think I will ever see a film like that again, or video game Assasin's Creed Odyssey, such an immersive artistic video game, I don't think I will ever feel the same feelings at anything ever again although I hope.... Could art be the answer? I don't know, give it a try. For the last 30 years I used to philosophize a lot, but now I no longer find it enjoyable, it seems I no longer discover insights about life that make me feel amazing like I used to. And when I think some people have way worse than me it feels so hopeless. Whatever, consume and create art, that's the next thing I try and hope it works and it helps and hope if you try the same that it works and it helps.

@ted73104It's true that my life has been destroyed for many reasons and those traumatic events are big ones. Yes it's a miracle, but it's mostly just finding things that make me happy while forgeting all my trauma. That's how most people try to find their way when their lives were traumatic (at least I hope they do that which is healthy, instead of doing unhealthy stuff to cope). It will definitely be tough for me to be independent, but I will make it. Objectively speaking, I am not a very bright person in most cognitive aspects (although there are some exceptions that I am really good at, I would say above average, that make me confident), but many people that aren't very bright have make it. Greece is definitely in a very good place compared to most places in the world, but it's still very bad. I don't think France can be compared to Greece, they are way more advanced than Greece. Also historicaly France put a lot of emphasis in the protection of individual human rights and freedom and I hope this is still engraved in the culture. Who knows if it will be better or not? It will be a good barrier against people that want to harm me. But to be honest only time will tell and it will take time for me to learn the language so it won't happen too fast. Thank you for your answer! Sometimes some support and encouragement is all we humans need and you provided me with that! I will never give up, even if they have to destroy me completely to stop me!

This is just a hypothetical question. The war could be anything. You could be invaded, you could be the one that invades or it could be a revolution. Anything that has to do with war. I didn't know in what thread to put this, I think it belongs in this thread.

@Razedo you think they will help an adult male? Will they give me information? Also do you think they are not going to call cops because they think I am insane and need to be put to the psych ward again? My experience tells me that people don't believe you are sane after being put to psych ward (I think it stems from the fact that they believe authorities wouldn't put you there in the first place , like they are not corrupt authorities or evil people in authority position or just incapable people in those positions). So I wonder if I can make an anonymous call and stay anonymous.... Thank you all for your replies

@Schizophoniain that sense, no one can prove you that he is sane. And honestly how many people are sane and are ''treated'' for being insane, and how would they prove that they are sane then? About the construction of my sentences there are many reasons that they simply suck. First of all I don't speak good English, the fact I know this low level of English is already a miracle. Second if I was to explain everything in the situation no one would read it so I had to make it short. Lastly , I had written this post to other forums before I write it here, so I was getting exchausted and was mentally fatigued to explain the sentences well. Imagine Leo trying to explain to any ''normal'' person that his experiences with psychedelics if they are not valid they still have some validity. They simply would tell him he is insane and put him to the psych hospital. In my country if you said what Leo said you would definitely being put in a psych hospital, so you have to understand that not all countries are healthy to live in. Some societies are inhuman and I believe my society (country) is one of those countries. So it's basically the same thing, I can't explain to anyone that I am sane for the simple reason most people aren't familiar with the situations I am in, and the reason for that is because these situations are complex and very rare (not so rare as many people think they are though). I have found that most people that believe I am sane are the same people that have gone through similar experiences, and sadly these people are very rare and also not many people believe they are sane after being put to the hospital. btw, I had gone to previous district attorneys myself , and they were all by my side before they found this one. They were by my side but just didn't do anything to help. They even told my abusers that they shouldn't beat me especially when I was a child. @shree@ted73104I just reacted to their decades of abuse, like when they started invading my space ,screaming on my ears or beat me, I did something similar to protect myself, and BOOM, just like that I was the abuser and they were the victims. I don't want anything to do with them, I just want to leave and be sure they won't harass me again with legal or illegal ways. The truth is that abusers always make themselves look like victims and the victims like abusers. And when you say that they are abusers they say that's what the abuser would say. Which is true, both the victim and the abuser says that the other person is the abuser. @Schizophonia it just occured to me. If I had psychosis or anything, wouldn't they write it on the diagnosis? Not that I would believe the diagnosis of those people that say they beat children, but still they didn't even do that. They supposedely found probable asperger which may be true or may not be true. Even the diagnosis asperger is no longer used in psychiatric diagnoses, they just call it spectrum of autism. Seriously, my abusers just wanted to ''win me'' and to become submissive to them, which happened. And sadly in my country a lot of authorities are abusers themselves so you can't just help yourself in any way in those situations, they just punish the victim. But sooner or later I am outta here

I (30 male) want to escape my abusers. I am thinking of going to another country that is in the EU like I am in a country in the EU. Here is the problem, when I went my abusers to the district attorney 5 years ago, the district attorney just didn't care of the abuse, said to me ''you have to learn respect'' and put me in psych ward(after talking secretively with my abusers). My country is so backwards so generally you can't be a victim if you are an adult child. So I am thinking of going to France, I am from Greece, I just started to learn the language. But I am scared they will trace me with the help of authorities (if authorities didn't help back then but further abused me, why they won't do it again?) . They will find where I live and start abusing me and stalking me and screaming and hiting me again as they always do. Why I haven't left all those years? because I was scared that they are going to destroy me. I am still scared but I won't live this miserable life any longer even if they succeed destroying me. I am on welfare for psychological anxienty (that was caused by my abusers) but in 1,5 years it stops and I won't be given welfare any longer cause I no longer have anxienty (although I have anger living with my abusers). How do I know that they won't use this against me? ''he was on welfare so he can't take care of himself he is danger to himself, put him in ward'' or ''he has asperger put him in ward'' (they diagnosed me with asperger I doubt I have it but maybe I do) or ''he was in hospital in the past, that means he is unstable'' (although the authorities, my abusers(that poisoned cats among other things), and the psychiatrists were the unstable ones, I remember the main psychiatrist in particular that told me ''we all beat our children, it's normal'' ). How do I know it won't happen also in France? How do I fight this? Will I be able to do it or I am stuck to live this hell in this lifetime? I think going to France will be my freedom but that doesn't mean they won't actually trace me. Anyway, any thoughts? Also any site I can write this for additional help and venting?

or they are just illusions that have explanations?

How much can contemplation make you realise what reality is? In which subjects should someone use contemplation and in which subjects should someone use other methods and what are these other methods? Personaly I believe the formula for a good life is : 1)contemplation(for hours) 2)action (taking feedback for that action) 3) repeat Bonus question: Why contemplation has limits?

That means if he harms others in order to gain something, then he is not going to be punished by his conscience or by other people. He doesn't have to be psychopath, it just could be any person that doesn't feel the pain of others and doesn't feel inspired by doing any good to others (I think that's called a psychopath though anyway) So how do you convience this person using logic and/or emotion to be moral, not to cause harm to others for his own gain, to do good... ? Can it even happen? this is not a very serious question about changing society or anything, it's just an interesting topic (at least interesting to me , I hope it's intriguing to you too) and I want to hear other people's opinions for fun. I didn't know any other thread to put it.... Remember, if the argument is: 1)that he should do good cause he will gain more than if he didn't do good, then this is not being moral for the sake of morality, but it's for more personal gain. 2)he will feel bad, then that's not the case cause he can't feel bad 3)he is going to be punished by others, hypotheticaly he can't be caught doing something wrong for his gain

My eating disorder has gone out of control. It seems that I take back all the weight I lost. The reason of my addiction is boredom but I can't replace it with anything. Therapists can't help me, I already see one. Could it be that focusing on my breath will make my mind not being focused on the addiction? I post this here because the problem is more about the addiction than the awakening meditation topic. Although I wouldn't mind to know anything mystical that could come out of meditation. Thank you