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The above two youtubers are very calm and composed. This one too : Bailey Schildbach. https://youtube.com/@bailey.schildbach?feature=shared

days !!!

Yan https://youtube.com/@kristinethevideo?feature=shared Most popular video on this channel :

Sarah Alqhwaizi Personal growth, authenticity, mindset, etc. (335 subscribers today). https://youtube.com/@healingingrace?feature=shared How I discovered her? Once YouTube had recommended me this :

Note 35. Fact is the fact. No one will read your long posts, unless someone is interested in it due to some xyz reason. If possible, cut many lines from your posts, summarize it, format it for readability, etc. In most of the cases, it's quite possible to remove lines.

Thanks for understanding. Do advanced search to find out such things. Someone has asked this earlier.

No I was just saying that edits are private. Even Leo can't see them. Sorry for unconsciously writing shit earlier. Hehe. @Buck Edwards everyone makes mistakes.

So this was ur secret? So small. No one pays attention on view count. You can unhide it.... cz you'll be able to see who viewed your profile. It's needed for me. It's cool.

Ya ya tell me . Curious.....

You can also search for a specific word in this particular thread. In a particular sub forum. Etc. try it yourself.

That I made in ur journal. These writings... O my god, you don't know this gold mine !!!!! You can get so much treasure here. You can search by words (of a member). Like search "xyz word" by "sugarcoat". All results appear. Member search too. So many more options are there.

All rules are not written. I found out using advanced search. About posting limits, edits privacy, hiding, etc. do u have posting limits per day, how much? I may clean the clutter here by editing if u wish.

An example? What did u experience?

Like this. Yeah know such secrets. I am such a person I don't want any rules to be hidden from me. Especially when it's related to my rights or privacy. I didn't want to be stupid. So I found out all the rules of the forum. (Imagine someone is reading your shit and you don't even know). Your posts are relatable (some points). What did u hide? Don't get offended by anything btw. I had a funny mood that day. I have zero warning points. I was also close to one point that day.

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Note 34. Source : ChatGPT.

Note 33. An inspiring story from "See You At The Top". Especially for those who are suicidal. This makes me crazy and gives me strength in suicidal situations. Quote : A famous painting shows the Devil across a chess board with a young man. The Devil has just made his move and the young man’s king appears to be checkmate. Total defeat and despair are registered on the young man’s face. One day the great chess genius, Paul Mercer, stood looking at that painting. He carefully studied the positions on the board and suddenly his face lighted up as he shouted to the young man in the painting, “Don’t give up, you still have a move.” You too will always have “one more move”.

Note 32. I constantly weed out irrelevant or unnecessary posts.

Note 31. I don't know whether I'll survive my problems or not.

Note 30. Random thoughts at this moment : MInd amplifies small issues, unfortunately. Stop living in a bubble 💭. See things clearly without self deception. Get rid of biases. It's so hard to see your own bullshit. Both ups and downs are parts of life. Both highs and lows. At one moment, your mind feels so high.......and just 15 minutes later, it might feel so low..... it's surprising. But overall my mental health is pathetic (for many years). Seeing constant abuse and trauma has retarded my brain. I feel as if I have lost some mental abilities and my brain has become sluggish. Also, when you don't use an ability or a power (my brain, in this case), it diminishes. Similarity, when you don't do anything, your body doesn't manufacture energy. Reality has shocked me a lot with its coincidences and mysteries. Oh my goodness, how's that possible. Wow....But that's true. I'm feeling intimidated.

Note 29. Reminder : Where have you lost ur maturity, kindness, and understanding now? Why on earth did you forget your understanding? Be a little conscious before doing sh't. Cz you don't want to lose your dignity in your own eyes, by hurting innocent humans. How bad does it feel to you afterwards when you make such mistakes?

Note 28. A few hours ago : A sexual assault scene popped into my mind out of nowhere. I don't know why. It was quite disturbing for a while. Quite disturbing.... I haven't experienced or witnessed anything like this in my life. Still....

So how did you cope with it? I saw some sweet and friendly members on the forum.

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Note 26. I'll try to leave my family as soon as possible. If possible, I may do it next week or month.