Candle

Hahaha. 😄 Exactly !!!!

Note 56. Limerence is a bitch. My name is Ranveer. I want only real and meaningful things in my life. No superficial or pointless things, that cause only wastage of mental resources. Try to meet strangers with a sense of detachment. You don't know them. They don't know you. Everything is anonymous. So no need to take anything personally. Attachment with an online person isn't the problem. Attachment "in general" is the problem. When I get attached to the forum or Instagram or YouTube, it creates the same type of problem. (fomo, wastage of mental resources).

Ya I know. I post daily 20 and hit my limits daily. 20 is the limit for newbies. In one month, limit will increase. I followed 250 members who had 1000+ posts. Then I mass unfollowed everyone (except few). By multiple selection. Bcz I got a lot of notifications from 250 members. But I am gonna follow you again.

I have this problem. I get triggered a lot.. Kindness spreads slower than lies. Lies spread like a wildfire.

Candle's Journal Page 1. Motivation Commitment 1 Videos for neurotic behaviours. Attraction concepts. Unity is strength. Stop being a people pleaser. Random thoughts (Note 5). Why study female psychology? Random thoughts (Note 7 & 8). Commitment 2. Reminder. Page 2. My story. Parenting license. Sometimes I forget that trauma/violence. On relationships. Neurotic perfectionism. Chatgpt. Fave pics. Commitment 3. (A big decision). Whenever you react, you do a lot of bs. Changing dp frequently. Page 3. Note 19 (what to do exactly?) [Plan] I have ADHD. I welcome feedbacks in my journals. Remembrance. Remembered sth. Got suicidal. Either freedom or death. Be a little conscious before doing sh't. Random thoughts (Note 30) Inspiring story from "See You At The Top". What is cringe? No one will read your long posts. Good members. Page 4. My ultimate goals. Reasons to survive. Don't take personally. Current goals. Identity level change. Kindness. Loneliness. Leaving toxic family (non-negotiable). Understanding. Hugging. Neurotic behaviours list. Sacrifice. Don't be a perfectionist. My coping mechanism (self love). Creativity by Leo. Sex trafficking survivor video. Page 5. What sex trafficking looks like? Trauma bonds. Stockholm syndrome. Loneliness. Attachments. Validation. Is love always one-sided? Crush Limerence PSR. Self doubt. Some of the most imp. posts ❤️ of my life. Note 55. Some imp. thoughts. Limerence is a bitch. Make a list of real problems & issues. Figure out what to do. Level of stupidity (peace and surrender). Some videos (Sky Boschen, etc.)

Indexing all my journals and important forum threads for quick reference.

Note 55. IMPORTANT THOUGHTS. ❤️ Bad news : I ruined my great conversations. Someone was writing good things to me, being helpful and I ruined it with my wierd comment. Good news : I got to know some truth about the other person's mind and my own flaws. Came out of my illusion that "everything is okay". ❤️ I react impulsively. My vibes may not be that good or harmonious. I have to learn from my past experiences, forget that past, and make myself better. I need to recognize and remove all my flaws and I have to be very good in my personality, behaviours, conversations, vibes, and everything. I have to achieve mastery in the social domain. (Reminder!!) 📌 ❤️ I'm in panic due to my exams. I'm afraid something horrible might happen in my family or life. I allow myself to fully feel the fear and anxiety. And I overcome this with immense self love. If I love myself deeply and have high self esteem, i feel very good and complete, and not lonely at all. Whatever has messed up (in academics), let it go. I have to focus on things that are still in my control. I have to focus on my work with self love. ❤️ Real life vs Online : Real life is sooo amazing !!! I want some real life friends and experiences, rather than online. I crave real life things like travel, business, friendships, networking, events, filmmaking, shopping malls, etc. I'm waiting for such good things to come. I crave freedom. I'm sort of confined in my home for a long time. It's painful. That's why I get so attached to so many people and things online. I'm getting fed up with "online" stuff. I saw a girl writing about her extreme online attachment with a guy (so much that she had physical symptoms of discomfort and needed therapy), and I feel relieved cz it's very relatable and I feel like I am not alone in this. ❤️ Remember this : Cherish the small beautiful moments because your life is uncertain and short. ❤️ Also this : ❤️

@Sugarcoat can you do a quick pm to me, I just have to ask one small question. I can't start the PM with you bcz I'm a newbie.

@youngonce It was Xonas Pitfall's post, not mine. Hehe. I quoted that here. Thanks for the comment. Yes, do something about it. There are videos and therapists that you can see. You'll definitely overcome this. Best wishes !!

Loved these posts. ♥️ Thank you so much Xonas. It's very helpful for me. It's life changing. ♥️ ♥️♥️

Note 54. I edit my posts 50 times due to my neurotic self doubt. I'm fed up with this behaviour. I'll see a therapist later. For all my mental issues. What to do? Write posts with proper thinking and once u have posted it, leave it as it is. Don't be neurotic about it. It's not good for your brain 🧠. Edit only when needed. I got to learn a lot of things today. (related to online attachments, etc.) Attachment is 99% pain and 1% pleasure. I have saved some videos to my watch later. I've to watch them. Edit : Watch this too :

Note 53. Things to do : Solve loneliness problem. Get rid of validation seeking behaviours. Learn how to deal with attachments. Both online and in real life. Get rid of them. I have to solve all the issues that bother me. Including anxiety and all my mental issues. I want freedom and all good things like self esteem, confidence, peace, etc. ♥️

Wow, did you create a game !! What happened to it? How is it now? Did u make money out of it?

Does a woman find it uncomfortable to hug a guy bcz her breasts press against him while hugging? Should you ask permission before hugging someone of the opposite sex? Should you avoid hugs in professional settings altogether? Can hugging someone in distress ever be seen as inappropriate? How can you determine someone’s comfort level with hugs? Can a simple hug ever be perceived as flirtatious? Is there a “proper” way to hug someone of the opposite sex?

I'm sorry for speaking that way. Love ❤️.

Note 52. Very important video for me. Trauma bonds meaning :

Thanks a lot for sharing the video. I am writing it in points so that people get to know what's being said in the video. By chatgpt. Also watch this :

Note 51. I became emotional watching this video. Watched the full video. Explanation by chatgpt : (wow !!) Watch later : What sex trafficking looks like? (This was a very important video for me).

Note 50. Creativity brings profound joy, but most people barely tap into their potential, neglecting a vital part of their nature. Life is like an infinite sandbox where you can create anything. While nothing ultimately matters in a cosmic sense, what matters is how you live—your principles, awareness, and intention. Embracing life as a creative challenge is hard work, but it’s what gives life meaning.

Doc Snipes. [A licensed therapist] Every video of Doc Snipes is great. She has videos on all types of mental issues. https://m.youtube.com/@DocSnipes/playlists I wanna watch 100s of her videos. They are so insightful. Some playlists I have to watch : Playlist 1 (ADHD) Playlist 2 (Anxiety) Playlist 3 (Life Skills) And many others.

Rare youtubers (Good, but small youtubers). Rare personalities. Rare websites. Etc. You can add yours too !!!

Thewizardliz Yes I knew her . Very good. Watch her most popular videos. I liked her video on Laziness. You can discover great youtubers in this journal of mine. Leo is already very cute. More than a female. I don't want him to be replaced. Lemme tell you about Fit tuber. https://youtube.com/@fittuber?feature=shared He gives authentic information about health and fitness in every video. 8 million subscribers. Indian. Speaks English.

Bro. I found it out using browser search. I didn't do any hard work. I had read about it on the first day of joining, so I knew that. I just searched using my "find in page" feature of browser. Searched "source" Not "ai". Bcz it would gimme too many results.

@Carl-Richard @NoSelfSelf @integral Do all mods have to use laptops necessarily , can they login through mobile phones? Does @Leo Gura use the forum through his smartphone ever? I knew this already . I didn't remember this Ctrl + f. I have used windows.

Read my edits too. I know many shortcuts. I didn't remember this.