Dodo

Thanks, very informative

Thanks for the reply. I have already come to terms really that I will never be with her. If the opposite happens, it will be a surprise for me that I'm not expecting. Expectations are a losing game, because I'm not in control here. I'm letting go and trying to use this energy for self growth and improvement, so I can wow her when we meet in 10-20-30 years time. Yeahh... Even when she is old and grey :)) Unfortunately I wont be sending her ccat videos, as that would mean I overstep my boundaries. She wants no contact. She will phone me if she so desires. I don't have control and don't really want to manipulate her. I am taking the selfless route, yesterday I cleaned up the beer cans from the place where they hang out with her bf. It was full of candles and beercans, so I wanted to improve the atmosphere a bit for their next time. To be honest, guy with guitar ? will make her happier than a guy who is in process if letting go of egoic identity. Bro!! I am two 14 year old selves glued together, don't do it!! ?

Words are inadequate... I have been talking to my stage red friend about things like this and it just doesn't pass I've tried so hard to explain these things in an experiential way, but my friend just keeps being in his head and weaving theories.

But it was reciprocal. For the short time we were together we were very drawn to each other and very close... Its not that black and white. She might be afraid to go with the zoro character she just met in the park. Sometimes strong feelings can also scare us. She shared with me she is in deep depression and she drinks a lot.

Enlightenment is not a peak experience, these experiences are perhaps like side effects of not identifying with something you are not. This waking reality is so normalised by humanity that it is no longer mystical by default, so once something mystical happens "OOOOH SHIT!!! aM i EnLigHteNed nOw?" NO! You are enlightened when you realise all experience is mystical experience, all experience is known by the one enlightenment.

I think this is actually wrong.. I've had interest in the past on the so called "pickup" and there are techniques to make even those who don't look the part to be attractive to women. Most I took from the book I read on this was just confidence and push-pull technique. Rather than just giving compliments like a horny bitch, you want to give "Negs" which is to say the opposite of a compliment first and then hit her with a compliment. This dynamic is likely to make her more chill and attracted - they say it's a science. Example of neg would be to ask a girl if her hair is actually real or a wig for example. Or to say that you like how her nose wiggles when she talks (some girls dont like their nose)

So you're saying I should become her gay best friend basically

Btw I am not 14, I was just joking with the other user so that he doesnt pull the trigger I'm double that. But since we sleep half our life I am pretty much 14 yeah... Yeah of course you see neediness, because it's there. If you were there in my shoes you would know how perfect we were together, we were so complementary to each other. The missing piece to my puzzle as a male (not as awareness). My male identity is the needy one, the wider awareness is still there observing that one also, so it's not like I don't have space from that neediness. PS: I have let go and given her the space she wants. But that doesn't stop thoughts about her to flood my awareness constantly, and also these strong feelings I have for her,even the negative ones about not being able to meet her, I use to fuel activities throughout the day. These help me push myself to the next level and do things I would not be able to before. This girl is like a superpower

1st step: Make him go crazy for you (easier in person) 2nd step: Ignore his texts, make him super needy. 3rd step: Send small text few and far between, make him feel like a dog chasing a cookie. The rush when he sees a text from you will be there. 4th step: Now you have him. Tell him to stop texting or calling you, because he's being totally obsessed and creepy. 5th step: Call him out of the blue at night and tell him you've really enjoyed the attention he's given you and you were just trying to see if he will respect your space. Now this push pull has made him want you even more than originally

Thanks, I understand what you're saying, but for now I haven't met anyone like her. Except maybe the 4 year long girlfriend I had, who had the same green eyes as her and we were closer than close until she cheated This girl now felt like an upgraded version of my earlier very serious girlfriend that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Maybe she was also my tf, but the thing is they are rare jewels. I think the universe is giving me a reason to improve my life situation, because I've been ignoring many things. Smart Universe, it worked. I went on a natural nofap after meeting this girl, while usually I was pretty addicted to sexual release, this girl made me not desire this meaningless release and actually save my sexual energy. Now I'm listening to one guy - Gabe Dawg who is absolutely amazing... Resonates very well with me. He is a bit like Leo and I really see what the benefits of semen retention would bring into my life. But this girl basically made me do it before even having the research on the matter. And like this nofap thing really has some serious effects, I had one other girl try to hook up with me almost instantly as I stopped ejaculating. I didn't know that I was doing it, like I wasnt nofapping to get this effect, but it just happened. Wish it was my TF though, altho this other girl claims she is born on the same date as me, but I think it's just a trick to get in my pants - she didn't verify

I think she is the woman for me, and love doesnt always have to show in the form where we are together. The universe is teaching me true Love, the love where you have to let go, rather than grasp at something. I am a very clingy person in relationships usually, when I really have feelings for a girl, I sometimes even treat them as objects, very prized possession... The universe is teaching me lessons, I let it happen. She is my twin flame, just because she was made for me, doesnt mean I will end up with her. Or I might end up with her when we are 40-50.. Nobody knows

I don't know if people here that are handwaving away twin flames are just those who haven't yet met them, but I can say with a high degree of certainty that when you meet your twin flame you will know. Even that one meeting with her was such a powerful event, it has made me look at my life from a whole different perspective and things are just flowing. the lessons are coming left and right I am learning so much as a result of meeting this angel. Definitely the Universe put this in place to help with my spiritual evolution and to make me sort out some things in my life that are destructive / spiritual leaks

I am 14, but interested in the timeless. Please don't pull the trigger! Time is an illusion, it's about how you feel

She thinks Im a psychopath, so I guess she is the runner now lol But anyway Russel Brand got my back as well with this new video

We both felt that we know each other for a long time. Like almost as if we were know each other from before we were born on Earth. Can't explain. It was like we met in the eternal space outside of time, rather than in a small section on the timeline like it seems from the human perspective.

Thanks I agree. In meditation, using Leo's techniques, I reach states where I really let go, allow and surrender. It feels like I'm flying and all sensations are just there, I am not even human then. But I find it hard to reconcile this state of utter not-giving-a-fuckery and the state when I re-appear as a human with my wants and desires. Especially this deep desire to be with my twin flame, which I can't even consider egoic. She makes me want to be a better being and has already supercharged my practice and waking up process. My meditations really go deeper now, because it's like she increased my fire by meeting me and touching me, that one time. I guess reality is Oneness, so I shouldn't expect to see her twice? Heh

By being all of reality - all sensations, sounds, sights, thoughts and feelings . Not really doing anything, but noticing it is already done. Noticing how all these different aspects of the human are connected by your field of existence.

When you lock the thread before moderators. Such a pro move ?

I agree, but seeing it as an illusion without getting rid of it is enlightened game

Joke's on you, because you're me ?

God, please use smaller paragraphs, so the text is easier to digest. You speak high level things and it would reach more people if you structure it better. Didn't mean to judge, just want to help since I am you too. But maybe its just me lol

One has to stop sometimes and smell the flowers. Hug a tree, love and laugh. Nature loves being noticed.

You are always in meditation as awareness. For me meditation practice helps with alligning with that ultimate truth of reality. You are always still as Awareness. And always awake. Enlightenment is not added on to you, it is noticed when the clouds of the mind become transparent. So yeah, formal practice would be specifically to calm the mind and so the waves slow down and you experience the depth of the ocean. Which you always are, even when there are waves.

Have you maybe approached this the wrong way? I know some like the harcore work method, but really, these contemplations and practices are best done in a loving way and without forcing it. Just relax dude, do the letting go meditation on Leo's youtube channel. It's the best for having a break from the mind consistently.