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Well, i guess its time for me to get on that path too. Will come back to this post later for sure, to remind myself of the gold that is written.

I think you just changed my life Just watched Matt Khan's Feel Good Now video and it was absolutely mindblowingly good. It really felt like he taught me something that I had forgotten long ago. Not to mention I laughed and cried my ass off :') So yea thanks for that! I feel refreshed. I guess everything comes when the time is right.

I was talking out of my ass. Mixed up getting clean with being clean and jus wanted to argue.

We should all appreciate the joy that breathing, drinking water and eating healthy brings to us... It looks so simple. White american males must be too much in their stories.. The only reason i see for suicide is being tired of life because of not having enough for food/ water/shelter, so you cant keep your energy up. All madness is caused by the lack of resource. Otherwise you just need to start paying attention how good it feels to just breathe... Even if you've been bullied by someone etc or raped or whatever. Shame... Who cares, look how good it feels to breathe my ego loves to breathe too. Its reasonable.

Im sure the heroin addicts idea of pleasure is heroin, tthats the reason he does it. To get that pleasure. If it was pleasure to the addict to libe clean, it would be as easy to him to live clean as it was for him to start crack. Everything else is a fairytale they tell themselves and others to feel good about being victims. I have/had an addiction to smoking, and yes its tough, you want your pleasure, your fix. Not saying at all that its easy to break addiction. Just saying its not pleasure to live clean. Its the opposite.

During any of my meditations my legs start hurting after about 20 minutes. How ie sds different from any type of meditation? Im doing them cross-legged and simply the natural flow of blood gets blocked and my feet feel like they are crushed by the ground even with my yoga mat.. Then its even tough for me to regain the control of my feet, if i continue too long... Doing something wrong?

I think your problem is of the variety of problems a spoilt kid in a candy shop has. You have a lot of choice in men and you cant find the right one.. Many people have trouble finding even one person that is attracted to them and they have to make it work or accept reality. You seem to think that you deserve the perfect candy... Sometimes, if you stay long enough with someone and get to know them, you realize the sexual desires and performance in bed are just as important as getting high on weed. Ie not important, but fun little extra highs you can get to fill the void. Ps: Dont want a guy to look at you as a piece of meat - go for a geek and make him the man you want.

I did feel once, on weed,an experience so grand, that i thought to myself. Now i can die and it doesnt even matter. That is all i wanted and could ever want. And it was worth the pain after it. But now, i dont even remember what it was, let alone the feeling, all i know it included a rose and itfelt like it was in me and i reached it and fwlt like love i guess - there was also some epic music . Life does go on, and if i dont remember it, its like it didnt happen,because now is all that matters. But i would definitely want to feel that way constantly... Or even half that.

Wheres the problem in taking it and feeling awesome constantly. Sounds like buddah state of constant bliss. If i can sustain it i would

I will read the book again soon. The first time i read it i wasnt even interested in spirituality that much. I agree, the film cannot compare. Especially the socrates character was a big letdown for me. I expected someone more Zen.

Well his work helped me greatly and introduced me to the spiritual path. His teachings made me realize important things in a simple language. I dont agree with your opinions, but whatever. Its just your ego, its not who you are Anyway, I would give the book 10/10, but i would give his videos on youtube 1000/10, because they are free and you can start practising the teachings while listening to his calm voice. Its beautiful.

Thats like the whole thing we trying to get sneaky right answers

Mayb because hedonists also want to minimise pain tho. Its simple, want only pleasure and for a long time. Heroin can be a part but not end goal, because it isnt sustainable and consistent. If we take a monks pleasure average and a drug addicts full life average, i think the monk will win by miles.

If we had good enough medicine to repair anything, there wouldnt be amy issue in taking heroin. Then heroin suddenly isnt bad. Until then, dont touch. Also if we had better system so everyone lives in abundance of everything.

I might try this game. I used to be addicted to online games such as starcraft, dota, hearthstone, which i still play from time to time. Also poker, which is such a rollercoaster and a time eating/grinding experience. So mentally tiring and addicting too.. Ive had many breakdowns, but i have to thank poker too, because i found the spiritual path because i was having a mental breakdown, wrote something on youtube like how to be happy or something, then i saw a comment about ekhart tolle and the rest as they say is #history# the present moment. But this here seems like a different fruit and also you can easily fight against gaming addiction if you are into spiritual work... I mean just meditate lol. I dont have a ps4 however so i will be sad if it doesnt have a pc version PS: i do have friends which are still addicted to gaming, as we used to game together all the time before amd became online friends. We chat on skype every day, and every day they game - allday, when they dont have work. Ive tried to introduce thwm to leos videos and meditation /spiritual work, but they close their eyes and years because they want to do their preya. Its kind of sad, but i was recently the same way, until i realized constant instant gratification costs dearly in the long run. Time can be used so much better than moving some pixels around. Ofcourse nothing is bad if it doesn't become an addiction. Even instant gratification.

Problem is when ive watched in the past she takes it as me wanting something, or sucking up or something. Because its not natural to me. Maybe i really need to take interest inthem. As in, trying to understand what she likes about them so much. Thanks for the response. Maybe i should watch some in secret and then amaze her with drama knowledge

In my dreams i often, if not always nowadays, after i jumped on the self actualisation path, feel like i am enlightened in them. By that i mean that when i remember the dream i am very confused because i remember being everyone and everything within the dream, even though there was usually a story around me as myself, but i didnt feel that me any more myself as anything else in the dream. Now is that something like a hint from my subconscious, which is way wiser than my concious self, to show me that life is the dream of the one conciousness and we are all parts of that dream, but since the conciousness dreams me, that would mean that i am that dreaming conciousness as much as the me i dream is me. Also ive realised that in dreams, since the logical part of the brain is asleep more or less, i never question what is happening and never sit down to contemplate what just happened. I just move on and dont analyze. I also dont think about what is going to happen, like a present moment guru, my dream self seems to always be effortlessly in that present moment, without judging it even when "sick shit" happens. There was one dream of mine where i was being chased by some big organisation, trying to kill me, and i managed somehow to be calm and happy, but without trying to, and without knowing its a dream, while at the same time i was doing things to prevent it. Like the effortlessness amazes me, and it seems that the problem and the main suspect for the ego, the root, must be the logical mind. Because it keeps digging. And digging... So, am i feeling real enlightenment in my dreams? Even if i dont get those benefits in wakeful life..

I need to have a good posture for kundalini, right? How do I go about "getting kundalini" I am really not educated on that matter.

How to let go of the i thought? I am that which sees the i thought? Welp i guess i cant respond with words cause u alrdy said that anything i say would be wrong Im continually contemplating on what you wrote

Yeah oops sorry i got enlightened just now and burnt all my cash cuz my enlightenment told me so and i dont need low conciousness dosh anymore! Ps i burnt my electronic money too, as being enlightened now i have all these new superpowers and stuff.

Can you deliver before i pay?

You can buy enlightenment now? Let me guess, from you right? You selling? Give paypal details omg xD.. Is there maybe an amazon link, i would like next day delivery on my enlightenment please

So beyond the I am thought, there is the unmanifested nothingness surrounding it, that the i feeds itself new thoughts from? And if the i thought becomes aware of itself and starts looking in the darkness conciously, it shines its light on the darkness, like a ray of light? Is the I the light of this world as Jesus puts it?

The I Am claims ownership, doesnt it? If i didnt know the label brain, it would just be a sensation, yes. I could imagine its a big cristal ball if i didnt know how it looks like also. But i link the sensation in between my skull as the proof that i have a brain in my direct experience, which was your question. Im a bit puzzled and maybe i should be. Aftet all im thinking logically.

Well, during my dreams i dont feel enlightened, its only when i awake and remember,then i think about what was that and think enlightenment might be an explanation. My thoughts and sensations are mine, because i am experiencing them. I.e. I suffer or i experience joy through them. In my direct experience my brain exists, because i can sense it. During my sleep, i have never even had a thought related to my brain. Because that's something the logical mind does. The subconscious definitely exists and it has shown that during my dreams the most, because i can get lost in it, or even interact with it. I can even be lucid in it, very rarely. Maybe the subconscious feeds me my actual thoights. I dont know, its all mental orgasms now, but i can definitely sense my brain, by breathing deep and feeling even pleasure like sensation when i dont think. Or think that i dont think.