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Who would be better off? You know this dance, we can do it all night. Sure its a cry for validation. How insightful. Thanks now i know. Who knows? I

Look pls don't be dissing my ego. It's not spiritual it's completely egoic ego . I thought we on this forum are on one wavelength and we like to share with like minded people. God knows I have nobody else to talk to on these things. I wasn't fishing for it, I was just being myself. I have been contemplating this problem of what to say, when someone asks me stuff like that, without lying. I'm also not taking it seriously and having fun with this shit. Excuse moi It's funny, all of us on this forum by now know that the ego is an illusion. Like even if you havent eradicated the illusion yet, it's pretty clear that you cannot find this I ( the ego ) no matter how far you look. It is nothing. A thought at best. The Ego is an expression, part of the flower called human. An illusory scent w/e. The thing im getting at is, that you are speaking to a human being right now. And that human being with or without ego (doesnt matter because ultimately ego doesn't exist) is aware of itself (You are aware of the ego -> illusion -> nothing or your true self -> awareness itself -> nothing). Any human being with or without ego is aware of itself. Therefore I was stating a fact there, and if you speak truth / fact, how is that ego? Just some neurons firing, ppl, where's that ego you are talking about SHOW ME MY EGO!!! 1+1 = 2 Mathematical ego? That's the simplest shit ever. I just thought the conversation was funny tbh, I wont bother you in future w/e

So this basically saying that nothing doesnt need anything to be aware - making it conciousness aka that which is aware of itself. So this makes the bottom line not nothing, but conciousness therefore everything is consciousness proved? That's radically good result! Let's dance

Cheers man, I just understood it wrongly. My bad. But yeah, I dont really see how saying what I did makes me look any better lol. How is nothing better than any thing

Bro I watched this video this morning. It's far from what's happening here Didn't you read what OrdinaryAwareness say? The realization that you are awareness is nothing special. Although I would not say it this way, I would say yeah, it's pretty easy to be aware that you are aware. And since you can't find yourself, you're nothing (no ego) - so what do you want me to lie that nothingness is not aware of itself? Im just saying the truth, where is the spiritual ego Just following my experience here, but you are judging me based on your biased mind.

Well in my point of view thhe purpose of life is to enjoy. And also the opportunity of ending the cycles of rebirth aka realizing true nature or whateva. But dont jump me (ordinaryawareness) its my own /relative/ view

Thats a good answer to your question too. You are arguing with yourself. In so many levels

the point of life was?

Are you OK bud. You are your own guru.

Hi to whoever is reading. I will be writing my dreams out here whenever I dream something worthwhile to put on. I think last night's dream qualified. Note - the dreams written are usually not the whole thing, because sometimes there are details that are too subtle to explain, or i dont remember bits, or it is somewhat irrelevant in my view. The Dream: ... Stuff about playing football with a colleague and talking to some doctor guy telling him all the supplements i take (most of those are the ones leo has a video on) he looked at me funny, while i was remembering the actual names of each one within the dream. Interesting bits started later. I was at home, there was a dvd player infront of me and an old TV. I suddenly got the in-dream realisation that i can put anything in that dvd and relive it. The dvds were full of footage from my family's past. My main idea was to see what my father was like, because hes been gone since 2001. I could actually get in this footage just like harry potter stuff. Next thing i am kicked out of that, and im on a ship ? That ship was somehow England. Dont ask. America declared war on England. I was on this ship with a girl, i knew her very well within the dream, but now i cant remember who she was. So war started and it was grand. The ship where i was, was hit, and somehow i was both the air and myself. My girl ran towards the room i was in to help me. She had two pets, one mouse and one bunny, so we grabbed their cages before we left running. I thought to myself - good thing im not attached to any stuff, i can run freely. Then we escaped the ship and we were on land, but the main feeling was fear, because we were, i thought, in danger. We ran past a corn field and i said: lets get some corn to eat later. Oh wait, we cant cook it, nevermind. So we went on. Suddenly bolders started falling from the sky in our direction - it was like a meteor shower. We tried to dodge, i even pushed one away but it hit her, and i thought i had killed her, but thankfully she was alright. After a while we managed to survive... And i suddenly realized wait... This is a dream... And i felt the sudden release of fear. I felt so good. And i told my girl - you know what this means? We're not in danger! Look, i can even fly! And i raised off the ground. It felt like both a lucid dream but at the same time i was not directly in control. So i asked her: if this is true, does this mean you are also dreaming this and we are having the same dream? And you will be able to remember when you wake up??? Then she smiled and said, still from the ground: No.. This is all you. Epicness

Wtf? Why are you setting sepatate time for self enquiry, i just do it all day long... Why make separate practise, shouldn't you be asking yourself this while you are talking to people or when an i thought pops up, or while you are pooping, eating, having a meditation session, having desires, feeling tired, feeling lonely anf so on. Who is teh one feelin lonely bro

Oh it just popped into my mind. You can definitely use this suicidal thoughts to your advantage. I mean instead of acting on them, use your desire to die to help you dive the deepest you can into this conciousness subject. Because you are ready to die, that will make you a better warrior. You will not be afraid to go where others would turn back from because of fear ? .

Or no form, please say no form also,senpai

They are just objects of knowing for you, the observer. But you r nothing and everything also. Gosh im confused when i think about that stuff. Thats why me loves no mind. I am nothing. Giving up yourself is definitely something good tho, whatever that means to you. Im also mental Cheers ?

Ive always been a mindless dodo bird, this just helps me be myself more fully <3 but thanks for the words and the salt we are one after all love you because i love myself ?

Well ive been suicidal, but for me poker made me suicidal, and lack of money, so i was tired and didnt see why i should go on with this. I also was only looking in one direction, i didnt want to let go of poker. So before i was bout to jump, i decided wouldnt it be better to do this die before you die thing. So i sat in meditation and sat there foe longer than ever, even when i was feeling so much pain i continued. I felt my insides become hardened, rebelling. I thought maybe i will die this way, i guess its a more pleasant and clean way than jumping. Then when i finally finished, because i was so tired. I was so relieved that i could only go to bed and sleep, and it was awesome. I felt so awesome in my body and thought, why would i want to get rid of this, i love it. (when i didnt think about external circumstances) Ithink even till this day, sleep is the best part of life for me. Dreams are awesome. They are kinda worth struggling for. Your life is a triangle ? waking, dream and deep sleep. Non duality says this triangle is a dot actually and everything else is a projection. You go to death every night in deep sleep. Its the bottom left point of the triangle. In other words, suicide wont do anything for you. You are already that point always. By suicide you would not achieve peace. Go for enlightenment instead! Ps: watch videos of Ira, Rupert Spira and Ramana Maharshi. I like those contents best for non duality.

Didnt Ramana Maharshi, the greatest teacher, say something along the lines of 'everything that will happen, will happen - try and stop it. Therefore the best course of action is silence.' I saw the truth in those words, so i am doing that the best i can. Like a newbie level Ramana, cause he was way more radical in doing nothing.

I like this, gonna use this technique to keep it more fun. Been whoamiing for days

But if i became enlightened, i wouldnt have problem with my job? Its not all that bad, but the thing is it requires me to think and right now im practising not thinking and i just want to sit and do nothing

Wont i die a painful death by hunger? Would be no problem if i could eat sunlight, but i am currently a prisoner of needs. Also i love watermelon ?

But its sexier!

Nice try, but i said go not walk. Also it doesnt only have to mean nothingness. If one is supposedly enlightened and knows that he is everything, there are definitely particles or whatevers that go through walls.

What bout my problem? Me as a human, not as conciousness, want to do nothing and dont enjoy my work, but i need to go to feed myself. I get frustrated that i cant just do nothing and live. Man i wish i was a plant.

Is enlightenment not just the recognition that whatever you are seeing and experiencing is inside of yourself? Rupert gets the listener there so effortlessly through the vortex of the mind. Its like the dog and the human. The bubble inside the dogs head is what he sees feels etc without labeling them. For human, the bubble has become thoughts and labels... So isnt enlightenment seeing for example the street while you are walking and knowing that all this is happening within you. Like having a thought ? bubble containing what you see and not thinking about this or that or about future and past? And realizing all you feel as to sensations and smells are all already within you, hence realizing you are at least a 4d being and not the human you were mistaking yourself for? Asking cause confused ?

Whatever helps you sleep at night man. Im already doing the questioning. Thats exactly what the gurus are saying, or are you blind