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HAs anyone done this one already? Well here goes: I am enlightened

If i could be stoned all the time, i wont lie to you, I would be. It gives me the biggest highs, I feel like absolutely nothing needs to be added in such times, nothing needs to be thought learnt or changed. At the same time, sometimes it makes me active, doing happens, spontenaity etc, because it is an amplifier. Decisions that I would never make unless on the substance. I even walk around the streets talking to myself and others, even though I am super shy individual. Its like i change completely, I even saw myself and my girlfriend as not human but as a lizard entity or another time a blob of paint, part of the painting, whuch felt awesomely relaxing and my entire body was just Happy. I could switch paradigms and enjoy different ways of seeing the same reality. But it doesn't stick. I've become inlove by the picture my eyes see, especially when I do it in the park with nature. I've felt everything I see as God, the best painting there can ever be, and it can only be seen from exactly this angle if I was there at that moment looking, which gave me a sense of infinitely strong purpose, because I allowed such beauty to be - at such moments I dont think of it as illusion or truth- i just thoroughly enjoy it. I would stare at the grass or trees, and the sheer hd-ness of the picture blows my mind away. Also it felt like with every movement and action, i was rearranging the painting in infinitely big way. I would move a little tiny stone from one place to another and feel like ive created a masterpiece. I would draw on the grass with my feet. I felt like a true artist just by looking at the ordinary scenary, but it looked anything but ordinary. I wondered how did I not see this before, it was right infront ofof my eyes. When i completely let go and become still, ive even become completely aware of my imagination gone wild. Its like I became my imagination and saw inner movies of my own imagination without full control, but with the power of directing it (best way to explain) Like a conductor doesn't control the orchestra, but the orchestra flows with the conductor's lead. Many many many experiences, HIGHS, but the highs come with a price. SO now i am trying to lay it off. Not trying even, laying it off. If I am to find piece I cannot look for it in highs, because they are not permanent. Mental abilities are deeply impacted by the use. Stay fresh and off drugs kids Highs will be worth it, but when they pass, you wont even remember what it was like, but the negative impacts will be with you. Ohh and forgot to mention - dreams are so much better when you're clean. They are my natural highs.

Agreed, but we gotta take into consideration the conditioning and how expression is linked to that. Its a gradual process. Also the need might not be there to do such things, but that doesnt mean they should not happen. Just like you dont have need for that ice-cream, it doesnt mean it can't be eaten. Aware has stated to me that his test is a game, and I played - it was an experience Otherwise fully agree Ps: There is such a thing as freedom of speech and i believe it to be a very important thing for humanity. Sticks and stones might break me, but words.. etc - harmless.

All the time boss! Ever since Leo's Neti Neti vid. It's kind of what leads to I am (blank), because any thing that I am aware of cannot be me.

Writing this post to share with you my current simple understanding, which calms this mind and lets this heart spring forward. I use it constantly as a breaker of unverified beliefs. Who am I? I am. What is my purpose? To be. I am fulfilling my prime purpose and I always have. How wonderful. We are all different individuals, but the root of us all is this, so one can use this to break all beliefs that don't serve. After long self enquiry through the mind, I have now switched to self enquiry through my entire being, so the self enquiry process is automatically running in the background sort of speak during day to day ordinary life, which I found was always the case, but the mind was unaware. Not looking for a conceptual truth of who I am, but I am getting more aware of who I am experientially, my beliefs, attitudes,appearant errors and so on. Who is getting more aware of this existence? Whoever thefuck I am ? Peace if mind comes, when mind recognise "it's" most precious I is following it's primary purpose. We are all doing it, congrats

Thanks, good luck in life to you too

There are many different valid ways to answer something and just because you dont like what was said does not make it invalid. Also you dont know the circumstances around me typing those things. It was not the full focus of attention (I was at work), so I couldn't give the most indepth answers I could have, obviously. Im trying to make it simple. But that is also a happening not under my control. The feeling of free will is there, but it is only just that - a feeling. It is to be transcended like all other beliefs based on a whim. Only you can transcend your beliefs, because only you can be concious of them. This is the ultimate You, which is the I am conciousness (to put that fancy word out there for some spiritual street cred) Anyway, I dont consider this as non duality war, but it might look like one and Leo has posted against it, I think we need to stop our little conversation, even though it is very enjoyable to be part of it. Maybe we continue in private messages

Your image of me is attached.

The answer is, i am not the buddha. I am not a teacher. I am, period. Take it or leave it, it's God's will. People who would go indepth will also just be a happening. Spiritual advanced people are still part of the illusion/happening . Ramana Maharshi did not do, God did. When you get there's nothing to get, you will get.

Realising you are not the doer experientially leads to non resistance. The mind stops resisting, the Ego stops resisting, when it is not energised in the direction of resistance. Ego and mind are illusory, because I am only I am. Everything beyond I am, even the words I am are up to interpretation. Thats how the game is played. I dont know if you are resisting and you dont know if i am resisting, because those are projections based on reading pixels on a screen. Or if it was face to face conversation, you could ever only be judging an image of me, not the reality of I am, which is undeniable. DONT WORRY, YOU ALSO ARE. You just think you also Do. It's the belief that will cause you suffering. Whatever i am saying is not ultimate truth, because the ultimate truth is the actual I am. These are not beliefs, this is a happening.

You think Jesus on the cross didn't feel anything? It's a different kind of suffering we are talking about here, lets not confuse. We are talking about ordinary day to day living. Not if we will feel pain if someone cuts off our genitals. But im sure Jesus didnt have inner resistance to the happening, nor judgement towards those who were doing the torturing. His understanding was compplete. Forgive them they know not what they do.

The problem here is simple, because it doesn't exist. The realisation is there that I am not the doer and it is experiential. Investigation happened, realisation happened, this post happened, all along there is the full understanding that there is no doer, it is a happening. The understanding that what you wrote also is a happening and there was no doer is also there. I am nothing. Nothing = 0 - what is left is I am. I am is 1. 1 in infinity is 0. I am nothing. Therefore I am. It's a loop. Judging the happening for not giving you the answers/things/actions you wanted is exactly how the chain of suffering begins. So here's your answe to what is ego: Everything on top of I am is Ego. Not saying its bad. Its quite necessary for life.

To all the what is questions, the answer i have is the same : they are words, concepts and ? ideas. Do we have free will? No. From my investigation of reality I conclude I do not control even thoughts that come to my awareness let alone all the processes in the body, the genes and conditioning. We do have the feeling of free will however. What causes suffering? Not fully realising that one is not the doer.

Woo So I think I get it, its like judging your own art haha. Better to accept your art then judge it, and accept it as art showing just a small part of the other. Like one over infinity small part because everyone'sas deep as source. Like Trump is one of the best targets for such contemplation, because so many people judge him

One word: Powerful Thank you <3

Unenlightened is enjoyer, enlightened is a super enjoyer I agree fully with your post and want to add that people should lighten up about enlightenment. It's not candy, it is simply the noticing in any experience of the thing that is always there and can never not be there, which should bring joy. It's there even when the mind is saying it doesn't get it or that it is not there. This is only another belief/doubt to become conscious of and let go of.

But both the easy walking and falling 1000 feet down into a deep ocean are experiences - what we are after here is the only thing which is not experience and is everywhere no matter what. So it is neither the walk, nor the high dive, it's behind both, so it can be accessed from deep or shallow, it's your choice when and where (or is it).

What I mean by enlightenment is Buddha's definition - end of suffering. The knowledge needed is out there and we have the opportunity to get guided there by thousands of years of work cummulated up to this moment, made by the wisest of the wise ti aid us. Ofcourse its easy.

Yeah as is everyone else. This is the game hellooo?

Enlightenment is hard only because of the belief. This is the true dogma and is sad that minds will never let go of the idea its super hard. If You expect enlightenment to mean you are superhuman you will most likely never get there. Its for absolutely everyone. But here comes the problem with words. Maybe what you mean by enlightenment is different than my definition

Self enquiry also engulfs shadow work. So you can do shadow work obviously and as i said, self enquiry doesnt stop you from doing what you're doing, it only detaches you from illusion. It can only help the healing process. But sure i will apply for the jobb you recommended if i find any offers in this economy

If it's so, i dont see why you are telling yourself that you cant yet do self enquiry....

That's what im telling you, its a misconception that you have, you can self enquire from any point of the flow of life. Its self destructive only if you take yourself for illusion. What is true cannot be destroyed, so there is absolutely nothing to worry about. Who you are cannot be destroyed. It's an amazing process, you dont need to repress anything, let all of your bodymind and ego come forward and you see its not that big of a deal. You are always beyond it ane allowing it to be. Let your bodymind be as it is and exactly as it is at the moment, you'll just be observing from the strategic hidden position of the true self that can never be hurt by life's happening. That way you can allow yourself to experience emotions fully and trully understand that thought and emotion can never hurt you, because they are just happenings inside you. You realize its just a happening, all of it, and you dont need to label it, then you're free. But you decide, i might be talking complete crap, it just makes a lot of sense to me personally.

Emotions should be dealt with the same way as thought. They should not be any more important in my opinion. Sepf enquiry doesn't only need to be a who am I. Every thought and emotion is helpful for self enquiry, as one can ask, who is the one experiencing this emotion/thought. Which is equivalent to asking who am i. This is true self enquiry and i only say this to you because you said you havent got much experience with serious self enquiry. What im trying to get at is, that its not self enquiry s fault and its not a reason to stop it if ego is weak. Problem comes when not doing it the right way (when one does it mechanically and not during the flow of life)

This is purified ego, still illusion. But I agree, continuous unbroken peace of mind due to the deepest and simplest understanding (Enlightenment) eventually lead to the outcomes you specified. One can struggle to achieve them or let go to the truth that is already here now. You really need self enquiry its the most important to get the self enquiry realisations and to be able to nourish them and let your ego remember it is unreal. Thats one of the ways to permanently detatch from it i guess, and only when you detach from it comes the true peace of mind which allows that ego to transform and purify by the will of God.