Dodo

I am having a continuous spiritual experience after practising Mooji's clear seeing technique. Everything that is, will always be surrounded and grounded in Nothingness. It's a simple fact. You can always zoom out. Nobody has seen the nothingness, because it is outside of existence, it contains existence. Existence is a bubble in Nothingness. I am grounded in Nothingness and shine within nothingness as nothingness. Everything that is will always be ungrounded. It's not form that is holding this together. It's absolute nothingness and it's who I am, that's why I speak with such conviction! Actually there is a self, it's just no self. But truth is that the self is! Always, no matter what!

Well if everything is nothing, then something is nothing too. I don't know if everything is nothing, I know nothing, John Snow.

Nothing, because there is no death. I am here, now, always.

Let me rephrase the question : Is my nothingness the same as your nothingness? Sounds silly!

All due respect, dear Gurdjieff, but dead forever means nothing, since who is there to experience "dead forever". Why should one fear being "dead forever" - I have never gotten that. It's obviously not going to be a restful sleep or anything of that kind, because there is simply no you there to experience that. However, probability and maths are on the side of Dodoster here. Why? Because it happened once that Dodoster would exist (now). This means that the chance of Dodoster's existence is bigger than 0%. Dodoster has infinite amount of time to be "dead", however, if the chance of Dodoster's existence is proven to be more than 0% because of the current happenings, this means that Dodoster will be born again and again in infinity. So everyone will have infinite amount of tries to get enlightened anyway. But yeah, better get it on this iteration, you're already far enough in. If creating soul means finding the true nature... "And I would like to tell you that Gurdjieff was just using a device. It is not true. Everybody is born with a soul. But what to do with people who have been using truths as consolations? A great master sometimes has to lie – and only a great master has the right to lie – just to pull you out of your sleep." I like this addition by Osho. But still I don't think it's a good tactic to bring fear into the equation by Gurdjieff.

I'm good now, but now I am not forced to go into mind by my environment. When I am at work, that's when the problems start, because I am forced to think past and future and I am supposed to think, like a lot. I almost hate referring to past and future nowadays, because I know that repetition reinforces the wrong beliefs. So it's better not to speak about things that are not real, because we are building our prison ourselves. Maybe should stop saying I as well. Refer to myself in third person. Because what's the point of saying "I" if it's a lie? If practical purposes require the use of false beliefs and concepts, then isn't it a false existence? False practicality to be removed. Example: I am writing this post. This is a lie, is it not? At the same time it is true based on our practical beliefs. It's more correct to say some clusterfuck is happening and I am aware of all that I am aware of. Lol.

Thanks! But Mooji point me to the spiritual door in the present. I mean that's the only thing worth talking about when talking about spirituality anyway right? The thing is, my life situation is crap, probably exactly for the reason to let me accept even more. Like bringing in level 2 of the game or something. As Matt Kahn likes to say, I'm acing it, even when I seem to be failing. I just found this, the questioner here seems to come in with exactly my problem Such a coincidence!

Posting this as an answer to myself. I'm definitely lacking wisdom, I've watched so many of these, but still drop through the cracks. It's just tough when action is required, but... Maybe it's not required though. I am sitting here, accepting the unacceptable (Ekhart Tolle TM). I love how in this video Mooji says that we are both the placeless place (awareness) and the dynamic expression (human being). This resonates much better for my truth seeking Ego.

@Joseph Maynor Letting go, that's exactly what I'm doing. I feel like I've lost my mind and I cannot think anymore. I thought it's progress, but it's making me unable to function. Ok there is no me to do anything, let the events pass, but this means that next week I decide to eat rat poison and I just let it be... Since I am not the body anyway... What is the difference between eating rat poison and not eating rat poison - why would one be egoic action and the other not.

At least playing poker is effortless. Also I've done it so much it might be my only saving grace in this consumerist society. I know for a fact that all I need to be happy is enough money. The only thing that is causing me suffering is not death, it's being forced to work to live. People who say money doesn't buy happiness are weird to me. Whenever I had money, I've been happy. Whenever I see that money will end, I'm unhappy. I guess I'm the devil. I just find it incomprehensible that this would be a dream in infinite potential and we get this struggle? For what reason? Why am I not blissing out every second? The only thing I find blissful about this existence is going to bed - and this is representation of escaping this existence. Oh yeah, like I daydream all the time that a bomb would just drop now. Where are the damn terrorists? They are giving me terrors by not attacking me.

@Loreena I just want to be, I don't want to do! It seems like my Ego wants to be as Awareness, since awareness only is and never does. But if Ego acts as Awareness, it's considered a lazy Ego. Oh well.. I mean how am I so fucking retarded if I don't know who I am... I mean for reals... How can this be happening... Why is awareness retarded? I guess you can say that I'm a perfectionist. If something is the truth, if I am supposedly Awareness, this HAS to be my experience. how am I awareness, if I am these other things too? At the very least I am not only Awareness. That I'd buy. If the truth is not true always, then better drop it

I agree with what you're saying. Perhaps the path for me is to drop all that makes me unhappy and see what happens. No need to continue climbing trees while being a fish. It's just super hard for me to make decisions. I usually just let it be the way it wants to be. I would be perfectly happy and at peace if only I were free. Unfortunately the system is made for someones and not for nobodies. Maybe it's time for me to move in India and live on the streets.

Thanks Nahm, you are awesomer tho! God is emptiness

Yes, see? It's the same, but on another level. Since basically everything is created by the mind, all this is imaginary, the stuff that dreams are made of. God is dreaming this. Existence is dreaming and begins to awaken! The thing that is writing is just as real as empty space. There the imaginary is void - Ego becomes no Ego. Where there is just eternal peace and beauty. Deepening into emptiness.

The Ego definitely is an Illusion however, so it is not real. Therefore it is imagination, fairytale land. It means having two selves. It means being Schizophrenic (yeah, the symptoms are 100% the same). It has to be the first thing anyone should do as foundation. The whole reality is a hallucination, we're living in our own imagination, God's imagination. To truly grasp this we need to kill the illusion of having a separate self. We need to simply deepen into oneness. At once!

While I don't know what the subtle body really is, I'd like to add that the Ego is also an illusion. There is no separate self. If the subtle body is a separate self (aka Soul), then it is illusion I agree!

Well, you are in the right place with these types of questions! Creating space within is what finding your true self is. Mooji in this video points once more to that place of freedom, no further than where you are now.

From Make sure to read this document again and again, I always find myself returning and doing some. Practise is most important.

Huge progress. I believe I've kicked them. But I now know that I should never say it's over, because the moment I do, life shows me it's not. I am talking about cigarette addiction. I was offered a cigarette in my dream and I refused it! Wow, feeling so good about this.

Changed my avatar to the statue of David *khm* That's very interesting hmm. You could try going to sleep with intention of remembering your dreams or starting a dream journal, or reading a book on dreaming (for example one by dream guru Charlie Morley). Dreams work like magic in my experience. It's like having the intent / actively doing something while awake that show respect to dreaming makes them come back. (First entries of the journal could be: "Today I didn't remember my dream." At least shows commitment For me abusing drugs keep me away from remembering dreams.

You really never remembered a dream in your life? Wow, how is it possible? PS: Wait, I just notice I took same avatar as you I will be changing it sorry for copy pasta

"Truth is absolutely relative. So relative, that it is absolutely so" - Leo Gura (from latest video on understanding infinity)

Until then you cannot be? Who am I to know anything... hehe. I don't know anything, to the point that everyone else looks like a cyborg.

@Max_V upon reading the title, together with my mild depression level I went : "Well fuck..." :-D