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Thanks! But Mooji point me to the spiritual door in the present. I mean that's the only thing worth talking about when talking about spirituality anyway right? The thing is, my life situation is crap, probably exactly for the reason to let me accept even more. Like bringing in level 2 of the game or something. As Matt Kahn likes to say, I'm acing it, even when I seem to be failing. I just found this, the questioner here seems to come in with exactly my problem Such a coincidence!

Posting this as an answer to myself. I'm definitely lacking wisdom, I've watched so many of these, but still drop through the cracks. It's just tough when action is required, but... Maybe it's not required though. I am sitting here, accepting the unacceptable (Ekhart Tolle TM). I love how in this video Mooji says that we are both the placeless place (awareness) and the dynamic expression (human being). This resonates much better for my truth seeking Ego.

@Joseph Maynor Letting go, that's exactly what I'm doing. I feel like I've lost my mind and I cannot think anymore. I thought it's progress, but it's making me unable to function. Ok there is no me to do anything, let the events pass, but this means that next week I decide to eat rat poison and I just let it be... Since I am not the body anyway... What is the difference between eating rat poison and not eating rat poison - why would one be egoic action and the other not.

At least playing poker is effortless. Also I've done it so much it might be my only saving grace in this consumerist society. I know for a fact that all I need to be happy is enough money. The only thing that is causing me suffering is not death, it's being forced to work to live. People who say money doesn't buy happiness are weird to me. Whenever I had money, I've been happy. Whenever I see that money will end, I'm unhappy. I guess I'm the devil. I just find it incomprehensible that this would be a dream in infinite potential and we get this struggle? For what reason? Why am I not blissing out every second? The only thing I find blissful about this existence is going to bed - and this is representation of escaping this existence. Oh yeah, like I daydream all the time that a bomb would just drop now. Where are the damn terrorists? They are giving me terrors by not attacking me.

@Loreena I just want to be, I don't want to do! It seems like my Ego wants to be as Awareness, since awareness only is and never does. But if Ego acts as Awareness, it's considered a lazy Ego. Oh well.. I mean how am I so fucking retarded if I don't know who I am... I mean for reals... How can this be happening... Why is awareness retarded? I guess you can say that I'm a perfectionist. If something is the truth, if I am supposedly Awareness, this HAS to be my experience. how am I awareness, if I am these other things too? At the very least I am not only Awareness. That I'd buy. If the truth is not true always, then better drop it

I agree with what you're saying. Perhaps the path for me is to drop all that makes me unhappy and see what happens. No need to continue climbing trees while being a fish. It's just super hard for me to make decisions. I usually just let it be the way it wants to be. I would be perfectly happy and at peace if only I were free. Unfortunately the system is made for someones and not for nobodies. Maybe it's time for me to move in India and live on the streets.

Thanks Nahm, you are awesomer tho! God is emptiness

Yes, see? It's the same, but on another level. Since basically everything is created by the mind, all this is imaginary, the stuff that dreams are made of. God is dreaming this. Existence is dreaming and begins to awaken! The thing that is writing is just as real as empty space. There the imaginary is void - Ego becomes no Ego. Where there is just eternal peace and beauty. Deepening into emptiness.

The Ego definitely is an Illusion however, so it is not real. Therefore it is imagination, fairytale land. It means having two selves. It means being Schizophrenic (yeah, the symptoms are 100% the same). It has to be the first thing anyone should do as foundation. The whole reality is a hallucination, we're living in our own imagination, God's imagination. To truly grasp this we need to kill the illusion of having a separate self. We need to simply deepen into oneness. At once!

While I don't know what the subtle body really is, I'd like to add that the Ego is also an illusion. There is no separate self. If the subtle body is a separate self (aka Soul), then it is illusion I agree!

Well, you are in the right place with these types of questions! Creating space within is what finding your true self is. Mooji in this video points once more to that place of freedom, no further than where you are now.

From Make sure to read this document again and again, I always find myself returning and doing some. Practise is most important.

Huge progress. I believe I've kicked them. But I now know that I should never say it's over, because the moment I do, life shows me it's not. I am talking about cigarette addiction. I was offered a cigarette in my dream and I refused it! Wow, feeling so good about this.

Changed my avatar to the statue of David *khm* That's very interesting hmm. You could try going to sleep with intention of remembering your dreams or starting a dream journal, or reading a book on dreaming (for example one by dream guru Charlie Morley). Dreams work like magic in my experience. It's like having the intent / actively doing something while awake that show respect to dreaming makes them come back. (First entries of the journal could be: "Today I didn't remember my dream." At least shows commitment For me abusing drugs keep me away from remembering dreams.

You really never remembered a dream in your life? Wow, how is it possible? PS: Wait, I just notice I took same avatar as you I will be changing it sorry for copy pasta

"Truth is absolutely relative. So relative, that it is absolutely so" - Leo Gura (from latest video on understanding infinity)

Until then you cannot be? Who am I to know anything... hehe. I don't know anything, to the point that everyone else looks like a cyborg.

@Max_V upon reading the title, together with my mild depression level I went : "Well fuck..." :-D

"Nothing is the zip file for everything" ~ Leo Gura (Well he didn't exactly say this quote, but very similar!) Loved it.

Love the video tho!

I don't love my job, I already mentioned that I am highly considering quitting it. I do not enjoy not being able to do what I am supposed to do without constant help from others. I am a charity case. Only there because boss likes "The power of Now" and I had mentioned it in the interview. I already wrote about my decision to quit to the management, so the notice is supposed to be something like few weeks to a few months, not quite sure... There is a bigger talent that is refused a spot, because I am sitting there staring at the code wondering how can anyone ever know these things. It feels like all this coding business is for cyborgs. I just want to not think and be left alone in peace.

I hear ya, but I see a lot of double standard (maybe using this term inappropriately here, but you get what I mean) in spiritual community. At one time brain does not even exist and in fact you don't exist /so be radically accepting/, the next second : Don't do mega-dose, it's dangerous, you fry your brain? Can we reconcile this? Are we the body or are we not?

@Gabriel Antonio My Ego has been suicidal for some part of my life. What I mean is whenever things go against what I like in a hardcore way, I always say. Enough! Take me! Why am I eve alive!! Do you think this kind of Ego structure would be easier or harder to bring dissolutionment to? I feel like when you say existential terror, I wanna go like : I have non-existential terror : Fear of existing I mean I want to die, I just don't want the pain cause im obvs pussy. Also I have proven to myself even without direct experience that I cannot not be, so I feel like if i suicide, im entering a russian roulette with rules I dont yet understand. (My next life could be better or worse) Thats why I want enlightenment and no next life. I just wanna chill around in space as space or something like that :-D

I laughed hard on this experience that I had my dude hahahaha, one of the best written trips! "the message is clear: you have no control over anything" - Just one thing, you forgot to mention that there is infinite control, because it's fucking infinite hahahahaha!!! It's also funny that you talkes about schizophrenia too, as today I searched the definition and saw that it iis exactly the definition of Ego hahahahah (i thought it just meant split personality) "Doctors often describe schizophrenia as a type of psychosis. This means the person may not always be able to distinguish their own thoughts and ideas from reality. Symptoms of schizophrenia Symptoms of schizophrenia include: hallucinations – hearing or seeing things that don't exist delusions – unusual beliefs not based on reality muddled thoughts based on hallucinations or delusions changes in behaviour" So almost everyone on Earth is schizo but we dont know it :-D. I find this highly amusing.