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Thank you. I want to give rep but the new bookmark is on top and I cant press it on my phone. Managed to do it, superpower I guess! :-D

I am the god damn screen, how come therr are things not relevant to me? There's a lot of back and forth on this. One time I am the screen, the other time I am the monkey on the screen. I dont have evidence of a screen, only of the monkey. So I know for sure the monkey is there, even if it's not me. How could I do awareness right and how can I do it wrong? Isn't it what I am no matter what? Isn't it effortless? It really turns out awareness is just a sedative. No real value but to take another monkey out by making it fearless. Fearless monkeys do dumb shit. Trusting in a higher power.. Total crap. Have to make everything yourself. Logical mind only. Fuck God. Fuck spirituality. I am calm while saying this, i am a monkey on spiritual sedatives ready to be amusement for the real Gods. Which the monkey says "fuck you" to,because it is full of spiritual seditives and doesn't care.

I have a blanket. meditation is one of the few things I will be able to do! It's like hitting the spiritual lottery, what a lucky guy I am

I want death! Please please please! I dont fear death, I fear pain. (pain such as being inadequate in society, pain like sleeping on the cold during the winter, pain like that, non of the psychological pain that is the easiest thing to beat - poor rich sufferers out there, poor souls, life is so hard, oh depression for no reason! Shut up and eat your sandwich, which you have money to buy) I often walk around wishing some terrorist will pop up and end my miserable existence. Trully enlightened can only be the dead. You know, the ones who cant type in a forum, because they trully have no self. I want to be like that, but no. Terrorists never want to fulfill my dream. All they want is bomb other people who dont want it. Total injustice and bullshit! Come terror me you sons of bitches.

I have tried already to make money appear out of thin air, in fact I havent been able to perform any miracle. What good is it being a God when I can't do anything Godly? I'm not a God at all, just a bunch of atoms and the uneventful awareness aware of them. What can awareness do when you're really in trouble? Nothing, it just allows and accepts it. I'm still going to be on the street. Sure, I can have a good state of mind about it and be peaceful about it, but what's the point? I can't do shit. The shittiest type of God I am, if I am one at all. Looks more like I'm just a monkey.

@AleksM please make me disappear. I've had enough! Btw I'll be living on the streets soon, much time to meditate. Great plans from God for this body, amazing plans. Very well played.

Hell is a place where the pain is continuous. It doesn't have to be egoic pain, it can be continuous excruciating physical pain. Even if you are enlightened you will suffer, because this is not self created pain that turns into suffering, no. Continuous pain is suffering, and even if you are enlightened and don't create psychological pain on top, you would still suffer - be in hell, while you're in hell. You think a state can be reached in which someone plucking out your nails, teeth and eyeballs will not cause you suffering / hell?

Very interesting read! I had this joke with my sister when I was young that we are living in sims 10

That's incredible, just yesterday I was walking the streets and thought about how to tell people not to eat chicken, because I've had roosters as pets before and they are the sweetest pets ever! They are peaceful creatures and if you have them from when they are young, they will not fear you. (If you give them love) This thought particularly made me sad: "I want to buy a pet chicken, but they only sell dead ones... Who needs a dead chicken? No love can be given, no love can be received..."

I'm still unconsciously killing wolves at the starting area thinking that if I gain +1xp enough times I will succeed! At least I'm safe, the wolves are too weak to kill me

I want to be special, because truth already is whether I am special or not, so I want the nice addon!

I was having a dream last night where I don't remember exactly what happened, but I remember I was incredibly angry and annoyed - it was some sort of injustice/something horribly unlucky happening to *me*. I was so unhappy, that even when I woke up from the dream, this feeling continued and I felt annoyed that I was hard done by. I had the strong feeling of "Nothing that can happen can fix this", but then I learned that my dream character lacked the most valuable insight - that it is not real. That remedied the situation pretty quick. Few more seconds were needed for me to realise these emotions over a completely fictional character are completely out of place and I wondered how I could have been fooled like that. Suddenly "Nothing can fix this" turned into "There was never a problem to begin with" lol! I want to get there in waking life too. I know intellectually that this is a dream, and intellectual knowing for me is like the compass that will lead the way to experiential understanding one day, which let's say is Enlightenment.

This night I had an experience of recognizing that I am that which is aware of deep sleep. It was a very peaceful experience and nice to recognise you are there while there is absolutely no content. My memory of the event is something like static. Im not even sure it happened exactly as I say or if it was just in a dream phase. All I know is my subconscious is continuing the inquiry during night time. Sweet!

@egoless I have linked this video from the 14th minute. These words directly answer to your worries here.

The voice of Ego is one of urgency and doubt. Listen to the silence of your body right now. Can you focus on it with no thought? If you can't you have no control over your thoughts and I am speaking to an Ego called Egoless (perfect disguise!). Has the stillness ever lied to you @egoless, has the isness ever lied? The only one that can lie is thought, the Ego. Isness cannot lie, it is simply true. Being is truth. It's absolutely continuous. Can silence lie to you? Sound can lie, silence cannot lie. Look for the silence, not for the noise!! You're nurturing the Noise! Sometimes me too - like now.

Who cares? It's all subjective. What's important is the experience, not how you label it.

I see it differently. The way I see it is that those who do not suffer, are happy. There is no higher state than happiness. Those that are happy have already arrived. But for how long? Enlightenment is about the transmutation of pain into Gold. No need to transform the Gold (pleasure) into Gold, it is already it. My take Given this view, it is even good to seek for the pain sometimes. To dive in with courage. To test your Enlightenment (transmutational power)

There is a rumour that any progress on the path of Enlightenment is continued into your new incarnation, if you hadn't quite 'gotten' it, but your search was honest.

Thoughts about past and future are like seeds people throw at you. If your soil is not nurturing these types of seeds, no matter how many are thrown at you, only the seeds of now will be nurtured to grow. <3 You change your soil by meditating! (As Nahm suggested)

This is one of the best parts about Enlightenment. When shit hits the fan, I am always 10 times more determined in my spiritual work than when things are going fine in my outer life. I take more risks when I am in a slump, it's like the fire that motivates you to go deeper. When things are going great I don't want to die! When things are going aweful, I am all for it! Come on Ego death LOL!

Today I stumbled upon a gem. I woke up at 5am and decided to put on some binaural beats for healing. I decided to treat my smoking addiction, so put this on: I lied on top of my sheets and on my back - I don't know if this makes a difference, but mentioning it anyway. So all of a sudden, I was experiencing being in the same bed, but fighting with the pillows, as if someone was pushing on the other side. I even fell from the bed, only to discover afterwards that it was all just in my head when I woke up. It was so realistic. After a few tussles like that I knew it is time for reality checks. Because the dream states I experienced while listening to this were some of the most realistic and interesting dreams ever. Sure as 1,2,3 the next dream, I just looked at my hand (this is the best way to know if you're dreaming!!!!) and my hands looked like they were joint with some skin between the fingers - like a fish creature - that's how I knew it's a dream. From there - LUCID DREAMING BABY. No journaling, no stress. Just some beats and looking at your hand. Please try it out and report with results. This is exciting. Next, I will do some meditation in there. I flew out of my old apartment just now (6 story high) FeelsGood @Nahm Tagging you in because I know you wanted to be lucid, maybe try this out. TLDR Let's put the steps: 1) Wake up 2 hours before you actually should wake up. 2) Put this on with headphones 3) Lay on your back 4) When you experience anything no matter how real it looks, take a second or two to look at your hand a couple times from both sides - It is 99.999% sure that if you're dreaming your hand will not look like a normal hand. 5) You are lucid 6) :))))))))))

It was a straight forward answer, how do you know I'm not going to do exactly that? I love you, but you're cheating on the present moment. Don't do it for too long for the present moment is God. I have only experiences with weed and I can say that under the influence I am still the same me. Only the content changes, it becomes a higher frequency and I simply bask in that light. My whole body energy rejoices and I have nothing but love and happiness in my entire energy field. I don't own a car. I believe cars are a polluting the clean air mother Earth ? provides through trees. That's why I spend a lot of time in the park, meditating in clean air, no matter how cold. @doronshadmi Peace and love, brother, we are both having the human experience. It's hard. It's unfair. We have to find the Truth ourselves. I hope you read the whole thing and feel and fill your heart and pour emptiness in the mind.

Yes, I'm going to light a candle and pray that you get out of the past and future and recognize the isness

I already told you I am not going to tell the parents anything. Your inability to register my answer is a point set and match proof that you are stuck in some egoic pattern and don't want to let go. You think that this question is very deep? No it's not. I will say nothing to them. This is the answer. Silence is the language of God.