Just a tip. Whenever you can't enter a website, just go to the site... 
=> downforeveryoneorjustme and then enter the address of Actualized.org minus forum. Like https://www.actualized.org... And click submit and it will tell you if the website is down or not. Mostly when server issue happens I immediately check it on this site and it tells me that Actualized.org is down. So it's not my device or internet. It's the website server.
I hope you got it. 
 
 
 

So I finally figured out the reason the site is crashing is because ya'll are downloading too many of my audio files on iTunes and Spotify.
I need to buy a second server just to feed you greedy monkeys audio files.
In the meantime, no new iTunes and Spotify releases.
Jesus, this issue has been driving me crazy for months. You use up so much bandwidth it clogs the datacenter pipes.
This is you guys:
 

"Most men lead lives of quiet desperation" - Thoreau
"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." - Eleanor Roosevelt
"Every kick in the ass is a move forward " - Unknown 
“Try not. Do or do not. There is no try.” —Yoda, Star Wars Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back
“Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.” —Yoda, Revenge Of The Sith
 

Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier. -Mother Teresa
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When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on. -Franklin D. Roosevelt
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Always remember that you are absolutely unique. Just like everyone else. -Margaret Mead
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Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant. -Robert Louis Stevenson
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The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. -Eleanor Roosevelt
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Tell me and I forget. Teach me and I remember. Involve me and I learn. -Benjamin Franklin
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The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched — they must be felt with the heart. -Helen Keller
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It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light. -Aristotle
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Whoever is happy will make others happy too. -Anne Frank
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Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
 

The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall. -Nelson Mandela
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The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing. -Walt Disney
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Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people's thinking. -Steve Jobs
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If life were predictable it would cease to be life, and be without flavor. -Eleanor Roosevelt
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If you look at what you have in life, you'll always have more. If you look at what you don't have in life, you'll never have enough. -Oprah Winfrey
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If you set your goals ridiculously high and it's a failure, you will fail above everyone else's success. -James Cameron
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Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans. -John Lennon
 

I was reading the comments section of a YouTube video (and it made me so mad...) 
 
It's about UFC fighters (who are lesbians) Raquel Pennington and Tecia Torres. They married and had a daughter through IVF. 
And EVERYONE was writing, "poor child", "child abuse", and other such bullshit. 
They don't have the right to judge anybody, especially in their personal matters. 
This is child abuse?
Two lesbians are raising a daughter. And if this retarded society doesn't shame her. What's the problem? This girl doesn't know she needs a male father. There are no such rules that "you must have two parents" or "you must have a male father". 
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Comments sections show the reality of the world. 📉

Search "George Carlin and bullshit".
He's got some great examples of social bullshit.
But of course that's just the obvious tip of the ice berg.
 

Game is being a fun social person where ever you go. Eventually someone will want to sleep with you or date you. That's it.
Then just get their number (or make a move) when you notice. That's the entire dating and pickup coaching industry in a nutshell. 

Pick up is way of how you gonna use tactics to get women in the bed as soon as possible,where focus is women and manipulation.
Game is complete focus on yourself where authentic you is number 1 over the sleeping with women,based on your rootedness in self you maximaze your authentic value to position yourself to why women should be with you, not you manipulating them to go in your bed.

For most of human history people have been fucking from the point of sexual maturity, which is like 12-14 years old.
And even younger when you consider that most marriages were arranged and lifespans were low.
Now people will call me a pedophile, but those are just some basic facts of human biology and history.
People take for granted how strong cultural and moral norms are and how much they have shifted over time.
I am not making any prescriptions here.
But debating the morality of pedophilia is a very poor choice of topic for a Spiral Wizard type. You are not going to win that game because it's way too loaded.
It's like: "Hey guys, let me introduce you to stage Yellow, where you develop empathy for pedophiles! Who's eager to join me?!"
But overall what this guy gets right is that reality is Perfection/Love, so hating and criticizing others is a form of stupidity. He doesn't yet comprehend how deep the Love goes. There is literally no difference between a pedophile and a saint. But good luck convincing Vaush and his audience of that.
Debates about morality are stupid because badness simply doesn't exist. It's just a relative survival bias. And this is not understood by people who debate morality.

I don't know, man, I mean this is kinda creepy too:
 

Don't kid yourself.

I've been seeing a lot of needless drama, in-fighting, and toxic communication on this forum of late. This makes the whole ecosystem unpleasant for the majority of members who are decent, respectful, and follow the rules.
I've already banned a handful of the worst offenders and will continue to ban others who are consistently dragging down the discussions here with personal attacks, demonization, shameless bias, projection, gaslighting, and drama.
Thanks to those who don't engage in such activity, I appreciate you.

This was a fascinating lecture I watched about the link between Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD), and criminality.
The basics of this lecture was how those with ASD might be more susceptible to criminality due to impaired empathy and theory of mind.  Theory of mind (ToM) is the ability to understand that other people have mental states, like beliefs, knowledge, and intentions. It's a cognitive ability that allows people to make predictions about others' behaviors and explain why they act in certain ways. 
ToM is basically the ability to build accurate mental models of other people's minds, specifically to understand their intentions and how they are feeling. A person with ASD has difficulty doing these things, hence has difficulty socializing, which can lead to social isolation.
Background videos:
 
Main video:
 

It's hard to get inside the mind of those who experience reality fundamentally differently than you.
And then on top of that you've got self-bias from needing men or women to satisfy your survival needs.

You can get a hole-in-one on your first shot. That doesn't make you a good golfer. Only a fool would confuse one for the other.

People who criticize Lex are like people who criticize white bread.
Lex has his vanilla style and he does fine work overall. His job is not to grill people.

@Leo Gura Hi Leo! This is SoonHei's sister using his account trying to find out why he took the step that he did. I can confirm that he did in fact die on May 3rd by jumping off of a bridge.
His message to his wife was: "Oh I was never ending it. I was just continuing it. I just wanted to jump. Love you all. See you soon."
Similar message to what he sent to the person who started this thread (first post).
Now most important, SoonHei asked NAHM very directly before committing this act. I really wish NAHM had guided him better. SoonHei could not have been clearer. I will attach screenshots of their conversation in my next post.
If someone can tell us what he was trying to do, please do.
We cannot explain to you the shock of his death. We cannot wrap our heads around why he would do this. SoonHei was someone who has literally saved others from depression and suicide. We keep hearing stories from people that he helped in their darkest hour. I can tell you for a fact that he did not suffer from any mental illness or depression. Sunny was SO SO full of life.
He has left behind a 3 month old and a 20 month old. It is hard to even look at his 27-yr-old wife who was barely out of the post-partum phase with her baby. SoonHei was a very central part of our family. The most kind-hearted soul. An amazing son, a wonderful husband, the most supportive brother, and above all, a one-in-a-million father.
I feel like our whole family will go into depression...

Can you hear the sound of silence. I can. It sounds like a very quiet screeching sound. Like small insects far away chirping but right in your space. That's the best way I can describe it. Like a very quiet whistling sound that penetrates the room you're in. If the room is quiet and there is no noise like the tv or music on, I can hear it. Like dead silence. That's when it's more pronounced; that's the only time it becomes audible to me.
I don't hear it all the time, though. Once, when I remembered, I was sitting in my room in dead silence and was listening for it but I couldn't hear it. I'm sitting here now and it is very loud. Not loud as in loud, because it's still silent, but loud enough to notice. I hear it more times than when I don't. It's like if you had on a silent sound from like a sleep app with rain falling or something, only this sounds like a very screeching sound like insects chirping in the air.
Anyone else ever hear this silence. It's very soothing. It's not coming from anywhere. It's just silently penetrating the room. 
No I don't have tinnitus or an ear infection. This sound is coming from outside the ears, more like up in the ceiling if I was to pinpoint a specific location but it's not really coming from anywhere. No, I don't have crickets in the attic either.
 
 
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Unfortunately what I found after 7 years of running this forum is that toxic people never make behavioral adjustments, and actually get worse and worse over time. And if you politely tell them to shape up, they take it personally, develop a grudge against you, and start behaving like monsters.

Yes, it's challenging to rewire your motivations. At deep levels of consciousness you realize that everything is pointless, valueless, and meaningless. So there's really no reason to do anything. And this can feel depressing and demotivating for a while. But that's true detachment. You just have to give yourself time and find ways to ground yourself. You can build up some healthy ambitions over time which are based on a higher purpose, even though you know purpose is an invention.
It can be tricky. Make sure you give yourself time. Don't make any rash decisions or actions. And trust that if you're in a depressive funk, that will not last forever. You will pull out of it with time.
The biggest mistake people make when they are depressed is that they assume this depression will last forever. It will not.
I think the way this problem is overcome in a tradition such as Zen is through rigorous habits and discipline. After enlightenment, the laundry. It's a grounding exercise.

The core challenge of being God is that you are forced to accept everything, Infinity. And there are many parts of Infinity which are too horrific for you to accept.
That's what LOVE is about.

I am motivated by visualization. 
I am motivated by the idea that I don't want an average life. 
I want to work for social causes close to my heart. I want people to see me as a Messiah. 
I am motivated by music, beauty, love, values, etc. 
I am motivated when I see unlimited possibilities and potential in this world and in my mind. There are so many great things to do. 
I am motivated by my tools, weapons, gifts, treasures, etc. Like Subconscious Mind. 
I am motivated by powerful self help concepts like keeping your commitments, awareness alone is curative, pushing your limits, focusing on what matters the most, etc. 
I am motivated by the desire to achieve mastery in something. 
I am motivated by the statement, "You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help other people get what they want." by Zig Ziglar.
I am motivated by my emotions. I am emotional when I see other people's suffering. 
I am motivated by MMA fighters. Especially Khabib Nurmagomedov. Because he is not a normal MMA fighter. 
And many more things are there to motivate me. 
 

These shootings are an expected phenomena of a hyper materialistic society. As stage Orange runs its course, the limitations of Blue/Orange will become more and more apparent in the form of these kinds of ego backlashes. But this shines collective awareness on the problem, which will ultimately lead to its resolution and a transition into a stage Green society.
Banning guns will not be enough to resolve this. What's necessary is to make society more fair and to provide more opportunities and social support for alienated people.
It's an alienation problem. Alienated, nihilistic, depressed, angry, impoverished, poorly-socialized, and sexually frustrated people adopt radical and violent ideologies. Same as in the Middle East.
As stage Orange becomes more and more excessive and unhealthy, alienation will increase, violence and radicalism will increase.
When people lack a proper spiritual connection to life, they become hopeless and turn to drugs, sex, exploitation of others, and nationalist ideologies.
This is why it's important to foster a sense of community and to help those who are in bad shape. Because if they are not helped, they will not simply suffer silently by themselves, they will lash out at the world. These shootings are really a cry for help. Society is failing not only the victims of these shootings, but the shooters especially. The shooters are lashing out because they don't have proper channels for getting the love they want in healthy ways.
And of course Trump is pouring gasoline on this problem because he epitomizes toxic Orange while goading on Blue and demonizing Green.