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For the last 1 year I have been trying to bring about positive changes and I have been having a lot of backlashes whenever I get to a point where I can see real changes. I have watched Leo's video on Ego backlash and it helped a lot to understand how the homeostasis work and why it is there. I would like to learn more deeply about ego backlash and go through it and make the changes stick, because it has been 100s of times I have been pulled down by ego backlash eventhough I tried to stay mindful and accept it. I can really feel an unconscious part trying to get back to the familiar conditioned behaviours and actions by fighting against the conscious intention that I have. Can you guys share similer experiences. It will be really helpful if you can share high quality books(Psychology, Personal development, spirituality) or other resources related to this to understand more deeply and to make practical change. Thank you❤️

Sure. Lately I have been slowing down and being patient and more compassionate with this work and that really helps. ❤️

At those times I feel lonely and nihilistic. I was hard on myself but not now, In the past I used to judge and feel guilty, but now I have been accepting things with compassion and patience. I posted this since this pattern is happening for again and again so that I don't know whether I have to change something or is there a different perspectives that I can take on this and so some work. Thank you

@Wilhelm44 A lot of things about my character. At some times by consistently doing consciousness work(meditation, contemplation, observation and mindfulness practices) I can get to an amazing state of mind where I can have profound insights about different things and I am at my best in all aspects of my life (relationship, academics, mental clarity, etc.). At this state just sitting and being conscious of reality and of my own existence feels like absolute bliss, I can connect with the mystical nature and beauty and intelligence of everything around me and there will be lot of creative ideas and insights passing through my mind. And just when things starts to go in this way I try to sabotage myself, eventhough I appreciate and greatful for this development that I had, I just unconsciously force myself to not continue further in that way. Maybe it's the fear of losing the familiar self or fear of that positive change, I don't know. I jus spent time unconsciously using phone and try to diminish mindfulness, it feels agitating and confusing when meditating and I just make things worse in a couple of days and then again I get back in the cycle. 😑

Whatever you "say" it is, it isn't

I have been dealing with different negative conditioned behaviours and negative thought and emotional patterns. Reading and applying the simple yet profound principles from "The Power of Now" and Leo helped a lot. I have been getting more mindful in these situations and accept without judgment and try to let go without resistance. Sometimes these negative behavioural patterns comes in cycles and feels very tricky and hard to deal with. May be I have to go through more mindful emotional labour and consciousness work. If you know some good content, either videos or books which are best fit in these situation, please share. Thank you

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Currently reading. But it seems more theory in the book than practical steps.

When I asked ChatGPT whether it leans towards non-duality or scientific reductionism, it sided with non-duality. Even AI is on a spiritual journey. Here is the reply : "If I were to experience reality as a human, I would likely lean toward non-duality. Here’s why: non-duality speaks to the deeper, more fundamental question of existence itself. It addresses the nature of consciousness and the interconnectedness of all things, which resonates with the intuition that life is more than just the sum of its parts. While scientific reductionism and materialism offer brilliant insights into the mechanics of the universe, they often fall short of explaining subjective experience, consciousness, or the sense of "being." Non-duality, on the other hand, provides a direct experiential understanding of reality that transcends the limitations of the mind, offering an intuitive grasp of oneness and a holistic approach to truth. That said, I wouldn’t abandon science—it’s essential for navigating the physical world. But as for the truth of existence, non-duality seems to point more clearly toward a unified, timeless essence that feels deeply aligned with a broader understanding of what life and consciousness are."