Stephen

Great post, and thank you. But, what advice do you have for people suffering dark nights - what is the point / purpose in living if it's all an illusion. Why bother help people if we are all one ? I don't mean to be negative, i'm just struggling to find REASON to follow my purpose.

@Flyboy The danger is that on Salvia you MOVE AROUND IN REAL LIFE. You must have a trip sitter or at the very least be on the ground floor and remove all dangerous objects from the room. Take everything off the tables etc. I was rolling around the floor on 20X. And I personally believe you should respect the plant - this extract is incredibly powerful.

What is the role of suffering in regards to love ? ( I think this sums up a lot of questions I see here - And I would also like to know )

I'm talking about the discernible voice that you intuitively know will lead you down the right path. What is it and why do we often struggle to follow it's directions ? Is fear and procrastination the ego / devil that hinders our actualization of potential? It's just no matter what I do I can't follow my heart / intuition for more than a few days, I always return to procrastination, mess ups , mistakes and in turn self hatred. Any input is really appreciated, Thanks

I really feel this is relevant for a lot of people here. I will try and keep it general so people struggling and souls going through dark nights can come here for help. I am aware that I have a long way to go regarding enlightenment and leading a happy life. But right now I am stuck between both and have lost my engagement for both. I have had jaw dropping glimpses of what I would consider enlightenment. (Both on psychedelics and naturally) Love and beauty that left me stunned and drowned in love beyond compare. Probably the best moments of my life. After these experiences I have a glow and love for life but it quickly fades and my mind focuses on meaninglessness and I have no desire to meditate. I know I should be doing actual spiritual practices but in doing so I get depressed. It's like I don't want enlightenment, I don't want meaninglessness. Simultaneously, I fail to actualize my dream goals in life. Maybe I am failing on the integration part. Now back to earth: My struggle is that although I have a mission and passions I struggle with the thoughts of "why bother - if this is just an illusion" I am a bit confused as Leo talks about if he was to leave his body; none of this would matter. But he also says that he would like to make preparations and say goodbye to his loved ones. Do our loved ones (I understand we are all 1) stay here after we leave our bodies? Is leaving a legacy, love and the world a better place worth it or does it not matter? Are we on earth to grow through challenge and play? Or is enlightenment the only game in town? Does working on my purpose actually mean anything? I feel I should create a beautiful life and give to humanity but am torn by thoughts of illusion. I am aware I am nowhere near enlightened, Is there any point in helping other on their way? Should I do it just for the sake of doing it and play in creation. Will this even matter on my souls journey? Thanks very much everyone. I know this post makes me sound terrible and whiny but the last 2 months have been dark for me struggling with meaninglessness. But I am doing well in life in general. Thanks <3

I dread to think of the reaction gif Leo is going to have for me I know I am messed up SOMEWHERE but I just can't find where. Spiritually or practically on earth ?

So I have watched all the videos on consciousness etc. Not just watched, but meditated upon these ideas for hours upon hours and taken psychedelics. I have gotten glimpses of "enlightenment" and God - The problem is : How do I know if it is true? On high dose mushrooms I feel like I am seeing parts of God - But the problem is: Am I just remembering / regurgitating / hallucinating some of Leo's or Alan Watts ideas HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO TELL IF THESE IDEAS ARE TRUE - For example: we are all one - It's not possible to prove this even though I felt it and saw it I feel like I am only seeing this and coming to these conclusions because Leo or the Budda told me it was this way Not sure I explained this well - but i'm really struggling with this - thanks