I started meditating about 2 years ago just with the aim of improving my concentration.After about 6 months I started doing open awareness sessions and I also started researching meditation as a spiritual tool. By the end of the year I was meditating for 30 to 50 minutes a day, one concentration session in the morning and one where I was trying to "observe observation" in the evening.
Unfortunately I wasn't able to maintain the habit with such high volume but I continued anyway and a few months ago I began to have experiences with a particular meditative state that I called "layer of awareness".
When I try to observe the observation I have an instant where I can observe it and what I was observing seems to "move away". But immediately afterwards I realize that the observation to the observation is something to be observed and because of that I can not be it, so I observe it and the same thing happens: it goes into the "background" (that's why I call them layers). But then I realize that observation to observation is something to be observed and the cycle continues. It usually takes less than a second to create another layer.
What I call layer is similar to when you have an emotion or pain but, due to a high level of concentration and consciousness, a detachment is created between what you are experiencing and you
The problem is that even if I keep chasing the observation of the observation I never find it.
Has this ever happened to anyone? I'm becoming more and more interested in the concept of awakening and I'm curious whether this could be a sign of being on the right path or not.
Thanks for any advice <3.
