This is my experience of spiritual awakening and psychedelics, solipsism is an idea/concept used to describe experience/consciousness

I recommend Leo's Infinity of Gods awakening video
 
 

One of the deepest things that motivates me is high level big picture understanding 
and at this point i've spent so much time studying various kinds of models of how life works how mankind works how society 
works how consciousness works and all of this that i have a lot of different maps and models and i've shared many of 
those with you like spiral dynamics for example but sometimes it just gets a little bit too complicated and you kind of get lost 
in the in the weeds in the minutia of it in all the details and sometimes what we need is we kind of 
zoom out and just have a nutshell encapsulation of what we're 
trying to understand and in this case i was really trying to crack this nut of 
what is mankind about as a whole what's really going on with mankind 
how do we explain what mankind is doing what society is doing what most of human life is about 
and so i sat down one day on my living room floor just thinking 
about this and then suddenly it just popped into my mind as if out of nowhere 
a little epiphany and it was very profound and very illuminating and very explanatory and what struck me 
about this insight was that it was so simple just like so simple but its explanatory power is enormous and so i 
want to share that insight with you here but before i do um let me just uh 
issue a little disclaimer here i'm going to use some vulgar language and i might go into a bit of a rant and 
uh don't get distracted by this because what's being said here is not 
just a rant it's not just me venting and being vulgar something very profound and powerful is being said here 
and actually you're gonna have to listen to it several times to fully understand 
the profundity of this very simple insight and the simple 
insight is that mankind is basically full of shit..... 

that's what's really going on everywhere and this pretty much explains 
everything but we need to elaborate we need to expand 
upon this because it's too simple for you to be able to use it 
so what i mean is religion is full of shit..... churches are full of shit..... holy books are 
full of shit..... christians are full of shit..... muslims are full of shit..... jews are full of shit..... hindus are full of 
shit..... buddhists are full of shit..... mormons are full of shit..... people who pray are full of shit..... 
preachers and priests are full of shit..... theologians are full of shit..... 
moralists are full of shit..... creationists are full of shit..... darwinists are full of shit..... academics 
are full of shit..... phds are full of shit..... scientists are full of shit..... professors are full of shit..... public 
intellectuals are full of shit..... rationalists are full of shit..... skeptics are full of shit..... 
debunkers are full of shit..... atheists are full of shit..... materialists are full of shit..... reductionists are full of shit..... 
positivists are full of shit..... agnostics are full of shit..... nihilists are full of shit..... cynics are 
full of shit..... misanthropes are full of shit..... reason is full of shit..... logic is full of shit..... evidence is full of shit..... 
debates are full of shit..... proofs are full of shit..... statistics are full of shit..... researchers are full of shit..... physicists 
are full of shit..... teachers are full of shit..... historians are full of shit..... philosophers are full of 
shit..... psychologists are full of shit..... psychiatrists and therapists are full of shit..... mathematicians are full of shit..... 
logicians are full of shit..... scientific theories are full of shit..... research studies are full of shit..... 
neuroscience is full of shit..... economists are full of shit..... textbooks are full of shit..... schools are 
full of shit..... universities are full of shit..... the ivy league is full of shit..... iq tests and sat tests and other 
assessments are full of shit..... books are full of shit..... conspiracy theorists are full of shit..... 
flat earthers are full of shit..... cults are full of shit..... government is full of shit..... dictators are 
full of shit..... presidents are full of shit..... bureaucrats are full of shit..... politicians are full of shit..... 
political parties are full of shit..... extremists are full of shit..... moderates are full of shit..... the 
establishment is full of shit..... the military is full of shit..... law enforcement is full of shit..... intelligence agencies are full of shit..... 
socialists are full of shit..... patriots are full of shit..... nationalists are full of shit..... anarchists are full of shit..... libertarians 
are full of shit..... conservatives are full of shit..... liberals are full of shit..... capitalists are full of shit..... communists 
are full of shit..... free speech defenders are full of shit..... revolutionaries are full of shit..... terrorists are full of shit..... 
anti-terrorists are full of shit..... pundits are full of shit..... think tanks are full of shit..... lobbyist 
groups are full of shit..... journalists are full of shit..... news anchors are full of shit..... 
talk show hosts are full of shit..... the legal system is full of shit..... courtrooms are full of shit..... judges are 
full of shit..... lawyers are full of shit..... plaintiffs are full of shit..... defendants are full of shit..... 
the constitution is full of shit..... the war on drugs is full of shit..... corporations are full of shit..... business 
people are full of shit..... executives and ceos are full of shit..... entrepreneurs are full of shit..... 
venture capitalists are full of shit..... millionaires are full of shit..... billionaires are full of shit..... the entire 
economy is filled with shit..... sales and marketing and advertising is full of shit..... 
salespeople are full of shit..... hr people are full of shit..... receptionists are full of shit..... phone operators are full of shit..... 
billboards are full of shit..... commercials are full of shit..... contracts are full of shit..... pricing 
is full of shit..... credit card offers are full of shit..... stock brokers are full of shit..... wall street is full of shit..... bankers are 
full of shit..... landlords are full of shit..... philanthropists are full of shit..... email is full of shit..... coupons are full 
of shit..... newsletters are full of shit..... press releases are full of shit..... terms of service are full of shit..... 
disclaimers are full of shit..... doctors are full of shit..... hospitals are full of shit..... insurance 
companies are full of shit..... media is full of shit..... tv is full of shit..... radio is full of shit..... 
entertainment is full of shit..... celebrities are full of shit..... actors are full of shit..... musicians are 
full of shit..... rock stars are full of shit..... comedians are full of shit..... the internet 
is full of shit..... twitter is full of shit..... facebook is full of shit..... instagram is full of shit..... 
youtube is full of shit..... youtube comments are full of shit..... online forums are full of shit..... bloggers 
are full of shit..... amazon reviews are full of shit..... magazines are full of shit..... pop culture is full of shit..... 
fashion is full of shit..... sports teams are full of shit..... sports fans are full of shit..... athletes are full of shit..... weight lifters 
are full of shit..... language is full of shit..... small talk is full of shit..... public speakers are full of shit..... 
ted talks are full of shit..... leaders are full of shit..... followers are full of shit..... bosses are 
full of shit..... employees are full of shit..... restaurants are full of shit..... food is full of shit..... water is full of shit..... 
food packaging is full of shit..... young people are full of shit..... old people are full of shit..... modern 
people are full of shit..... ancient people are full of shit..... first world countries are full of shit..... third world countries are full of shit..... 
men are full of shit..... women are full of shit..... dating is full of shit..... pickup is full of shit..... relationships are full of shit..... 
marriage is full of shit..... monogamous people are full of shit..... polyamorous people are full of shit..... 
polygamous people are full of shit..... family is full of shit..... friendships are full of shit..... social gatherings are full of shit..... 
parties are full of shit..... nightclubs are full of shit..... weddings are full of shit..... funerals are full of shit..... 
family and high school reunions are full of shit..... graduation ceremonies are full of shit..... 
ceremonies of all kinds and any kinds are full of shit..... national anthems are full of shit..... 
holidays are full of shit..... support groups are full of shit..... fraternities are full of shit..... sororities 
are full of shit..... country clubs are especially full of shit..... 
and golfers are full of shit..... awards trophies and medals are full of shit..... tradition and customs 
are full of shit..... charities are full of shit..... nonprofit organizations are full of shit..... apologies are full of shit..... conversations 
are full of shit..... the poor is full of shit..... the rich is full of shit..... the middle class is full of shit..... 
successful people are full of shit..... losers are full of shit..... mothers are full of shit..... fathers are full of shit..... sisters and brothers are 
full of shit..... children are full of shit..... teenagers are full of shit..... adults are full of shit..... aunts and uncles 
are full of shit..... grandparents are full of shit..... seniors are full of shit..... city people are full of shit..... 
country people are full of shit..... white people are full of shit..... black people are full of shit..... brown people are full of shit..... asian people are 
full of shit..... bad people are full of shit..... good people are full of shit..... criminals are full of shit..... 
law-abiding people are full of shit..... people who say they love you are full of shit..... critics are full of 
shit..... victims are full of shit..... judgmental people are full of shit..... angry people are full of shit..... violent 
people are full of shit..... depressed people are full of shit..... suicidal people are full of shit..... fearful people are full of shit..... arrogant 
people are full of shit..... outraged and offended people are full of shit..... introverts are full of shit..... 
extroverts are full of shit..... honest people are full of shit..... optimists are full of shit..... 
pessimists are full of shit..... new age people are full of shit..... communes are full of shit..... meditators are 
full of shit..... yogi's are full of shit..... gurus are full of shit..... neo advice are full of shit..... 
life coaches are full of shit..... the entire self-help industry is full of shit..... artists are full of shit..... 
hippies are full of shit..... people who dress their dogs are especially 
full of shit..... straight people are full of shit..... gay people are full of shit..... trans people 
are full of shit..... thoughts are full of shit..... emotions are 
full of shit..... every identity every culture and every subculture is full of shit..... and every institution 
that has ever existed is full of shit..... and all of human history 
is full of shit..... and you are full of shit..... 
and of course i am full of shit..... and of course anyone who insists that they are not 
full of shit..... is especially full of shit..... 
now that's some insight that's a profound insight 
is to see this to understand this and to understand how this game of shit..... is played 
this is a very sophisticated game 
we're saying something very precise here we're not just bad mouthing people in 
general we're saying something very precise 
and the trouble with this game is the way that it's played is like this everyone sees the shit..... of everyone 
else except the shit..... that they themselves spin and then they make exceptions and excuses for 
their own shit..... and it goes something like this leo okay i agree with you you said a lot of 
stuff that i agree with i agree with some of the things you said about religion or some of the things you 
said about business people or about the insurance industry or about stock brokers 
but leo this thing here my thing the thing that 
i like that thing that's not full of shit..... 
and what i want to tell you is that thing right there is especially full of shit..... 
you see this is how the shit..... game is played 
everyone denies their own shit..... 
in the same way that it's hard to smell your own farts 
and then we all act surprised when we look around the world and we see all this chaos 
and all this shit..... floating around out there well why do you think it's there where do you think it came from 
it came from people just like you denying that they're full of shit..... 
this is not just a mindless rant this is a deep explanation 
of all of human existence all of society all of culture all of 
business all of religion all of spirituality all of science all of language 
everything everything that mankind mankind has created 
is filled with shit..... have you noticed this i mean like you gotta notice it you gotta see 
it and it's easy to see it in certain circumstances like you probably know that wall 
street's full of shit..... you probably know the doctors are full of shit..... and the lawyers are full of shit..... and this sort of stuff 
but but do you see like the ubiquity of this do you see the larger dynamic 
so this should make you start to think of like well why would this be the case why would there be so much shit..... and 
why would it be so omnipresent and that's because mankind is 
the bullshitting animal that's our forte that's what we're the best at out of all 
the species we're the ones who figured out how to shit..... each other and upon this 
all of human society is built the human mind itself is a shit..... 
machine and that's because the ego is full of 
shit..... fundamentally existentially and anything that the ego comes into 
contact with gets corrupted and turned into shit..... 
and if you notice corruption is not just something that happens within politics corruption is omnipresent there is not a 
single domain of human endeavor 
which is not tainted with corruption and shit..... and that's fundamentally what corruption 
is this is it's egos shit..... in whatever domain 
and in fact the more important the domain the greater the amount of shit..... you 
will find in that domain this is like a general principle 
of how humans operate now why would that be the case 
well maybe there's a correlation and a deep connection between importance and 
shit..... and in fact there is because what does importance mean 
really importance isn't some absolute standard a thing or a domain 
is important only to the extent that it serves your survival 
that's really what the word importance means that means it's important to your living if it doesn't affect your life 
it ain't important by definition see and of course that means that 
importance is a relative notion because what's important to you might 
not be what's important to me because what helps me live my life might actually hurt you 
living yours and vice versa 
so the reason we shit..... so much is because fundamentally what we're all concerned about is 
our own survival and we will shit..... our way 
through any situation which is fundamental and integral to our survival the more 
impact it has on my survival the more likely i am to shit..... about it precisely because if i don't i have too 
much to lose see this is the ego's game this is 
all that the ego cares about is survival 
survival in all the different ways that survival happens that doesn't just mean having a shelter 
and having food and water it means everything it means sex it means reproduction it means status it means celebrity it 
means fame it means money it means all of that all of that is just a function of your survival 
that's why you pursue any of that stuff that's why that stuff has any importance to you if it does 
every human institution is a house of cards glued together with shit..... 
and if you were to stop bullshitting this house of cards would collapse 
and that would tangibly affect your survival 
now it's important you don't misunderstand what i'm saying here very easy to misinterpret what i'm 
saying here i am not saying that you should be 
cynical and nihilistic and disillusioned with life it might sound that way because you hear 
this and you say oh well leo so yeah so i mean i guess you're right i guess everyone is full of shit..... and so what am i going to do about it i 
guess i got nothing to do but just to be sitting around and being depressed about it for the rest of my life 
no that's not what's being said here all we're saying here is we're just 
making an accurate assessment of mankind's condition we're not trying to 
judge it we're not trying to say if it's good or bad we're just making an accurate observational statement mankind is full 
of shit..... and if you disagree with me or even if you want to tend to agree with 
me and just to believe me because this sounds appealing to you um actually what i 
would encourage you is i would encourage you to actually empirically validate this in your own experience 
don't just believe what i'm saying go out there and check check if what i'm saying is true is it 
true that courtrooms are full of shit..... go look is it true that celebrities are 
full of shit..... go look is it true that scientists are full of shit..... go look go 
go investigate you see this is this is an empirical inquiry 
this is not just a rant this is not just some philosophy that i came up with because 
it sounded interesting to me this is something that comes from carefully observing how people and how 
institutions work and it's important to see 
how and why this idea that mankind is full of shit..... 
how it's true in in all of its uh details and all the different domains where it applies 
because we don't want to just paint stuff with a broad brush we need to really sit down and double check and that's what i did when i came up 
with this list because i i sat down and i double checked and i asked myself is it true that advertising is full of shit..... 
yes okay then it belongs on this list is it true that doctors are full of shit..... absolutely then it belongs on this list 
and so that's something i encourage you to do with this list listen to it again 
and really think about what's being said here don't just nod your head and agree as if something minor was being some 
something very major is being said here right so appreciate what's being said 
also don't make the mistake of thinking that what i'm saying is that everyone is equally full of shit..... 
i did not say that there's a whole spectrum many degrees of 
bullshittery that mankind is capable of some folks 
are relatively decent on this scale and some folks are really terrible so again it would be a big mistake to 
say that well leo fine everyone is just full of shit..... the problem is that when you say everyone is just full of equally full of 
shit..... then you can't really do anything with that insight 
see it's too crude it's too simplistic too black and white 
what you need to do is you need to become a good student of appraising shit..... in others and of course in 
yourself we'll get to that in a minute but a good student of appraising shit..... and various degrees of shit..... because very rarely 
will you find a person who is completely free of shit..... 
but you still have to operate in this environment it does no good to just be depressed and 
sit at home and whine and complain how everyone is full of shit..... that does you no good what you need to 
do is you need to develop a very discriminating sort of radar for 
for shit..... and this will serve you very well in life if you're able to do this and that means 
recognizing that not everyone is equally full of shit..... some people are a lot more full of shit..... than others 
also don't make this mistake don't think that everything i've said somehow 
means that you cannot attain truth goodness or that development is hopeless 
and that the pursuit of truth and goodness is hopeless not at all in fact to pursue truth 
goodness and development you have to start here you have to start 
by honestly appraising the situation that you find yourself in and that mankind finds itself in and so 
that's what we're doing the number one skill that you need to be 
successful in human society is the ability to create 
tolerate and deny shit..... 
the people most full of shit..... don't know that they're full of shit..... 
and this is something that i call aggressive ignorance it's not just that people are ignorant 
they're aggressively ignorant they double down on their ignorance they're arrogant about their ignorance 
they flaunt their ignorance as if it's the ultimate highest truth 
this is a tool of the devil of course and the way that the devil 
preserves falsehood and selfishness and ignorance is by 
being bold about it the devil is not meek the devil will just come out there 
and deliver a bold-faced lie to you as if it were the highest truth 
without an ounce of regret or guilt or remorse or second thought or doubt 
and then the devil will defend that ignorant position with aggression with passion 
in fact the higher the ignorance usually the more the aggression the more the passion because it's a 
compensation mechanism you see in fact that's what 
aggressiveness is about it's about falsehood and it's about ignorance 
we as a species are collectively drowning in our own shit..... have you noticed this what does this 
mean this means that all of our so-called problems war and genocide and abuse and drug 
addiction and problems in the education systems 
problems in the political system problems with government problems with uh environment pollution and all what is 
all this where's all this coming from this is us collectively drowning in our own 
shit..... all of it is coming from shit..... fundamentally 
of course the details can vary as to how this shit..... gets manifested 
you know the shit..... gets manifested in the pharmaceutical industry in one way in the legal system in 
another way in politics in some other way in relationships in another way in family life in another way but you 
got to look past the individual differences and see the commonalities right because we're looking for 
big big picture patterns here about how the human mind works and how 
as a result society works the quality of your life is going to be 
inversely proportional to the degree to which you are full of shit..... which means that if you want to improve 
the quality of your life significantly then you need to start to take shit..... very seriously 
and of course hear what we're talking about is your own shit..... 
and so the more you let go of the more you uncover and surrender your own shit..... 
the higher quality your life will get that's a very general principle 
of human psychology and of happiness you might say this is a law of happiness 
and the reason that most people are so unhappy so sad so depressed and miserable and frustrated 
and all this is because their life is based on a big pile of shit..... 
it's not grounded in anything true and so they're spinning their wheels 
in this shit..... and are not able to get any kind of traction in their life and they're stuck 
and they're drowning in it and it's smelly but of course because everyone has 
become so good at denying their own shit..... that they don't even realize that this 
is their fundamental problem because they've become blind to their own shit..... they can't smell it they 
can't see it they think the problem is out there somewhere in the world 
so is there anyone who's not full of shit..... actually there is your cat 
your dog if you go outside and look at the birds the ants crawling on the ground the 
trees look at them they're not full of shit..... at 
all they go about living their life doing their thing 
without bullshitting so really it's mankind who is the bullshitting animal 
and also when you look at these animals other animals and plants and so forth you start to see 
that you know somehow they're surviving without being full of shit..... maybe i can take some lessons from them 
because at least we know you know if my cat can do it if my dog can do it then then maybe i can do it too maybe i can work towards 
it and that's what i'm telling you i'm not saying that you're doomed to be always full of shit..... forever that would 
be a very hopeless message actually i'm delivering a positive message here 
you're not doomed to be full of shit..... so long as you're honest about how much you shit..... 
and then you decide to actually work to overcome that then you can seriously improve your 
situation now i don't know if you'll ever be entirely free of shit..... but you can certainly make great progress 
and the more you do the better your life will become 
so you might wonder at this point well lee okay so but what do i do with this it seems very abstract and philosophical 
actually not at all really what we're saying here is that you need to become a lot more vigilant 
about your own shit..... sit down and investigate just how full 
of shit..... you are and how you point your finger at everyone else except yourself 
how you are in denial about your own bullshitting in all the different facets 
of your life you see you shit..... everywhere you shit..... in your family you shit..... in your relationships you shit..... about sex 
you shit..... about uh food you shit..... about your career you 
shit..... about um politics and government 
and gender identity and i mean you shit..... about everything 
so there's a lot there to uncover don't think that you're just gonna sit down and in five minutes you're gonna 
figure out all the shit..... that you've concocted your whole life these bullshitting habits are deeply ingrained 
in you you see from a very early age almost from the point where you were 
conscious as a toddler you started bullshitting and the reason you did is because 
it was important to your survival and those habits those bullshitting habits have become ingrained now 
inside your brain and in your mind such that now anytime some situation 
comes up at work or in your relationship or with your family or whatever you've just got a knee-jerk reaction 
shit..... response already cued up see so we gotta become conscious of those first then we 
gotta start to unwire them to change them and that can be tricky because again 
remember what we said from the beginning is that this affects your survival that's why you shit..... so of course 
you're not going to want to give up your bullshitting habits because certain of those habits for 
example pay your mortgage certain of those habits get you your girlfriend or your 
boyfriend and maintain that certain of your habits um maintain all 
of your friendships your bullshitting habits and so forth right so for a lot of people whose entire life is built on 
shit..... when we start to excavate some of this shit..... and let 
it go it's a real problem with letting it go because then you say to yourself well but leo i can't let this go if i let go of this 
my whole life will collapse or this giant important facet of my life 
will collect like my career will collapse i won't know how to feed myself and my my children 
and that's right it's a serious problem i'm not saying this is a light easy fix it could take you years 
for example to extricate yourself from the shit..... 
corner that you've painted yourself in with your career or with your family or with your wife and your husband or your 
children or whatever else see 
and you're gonna be in denial about it the more it aids your survival the more in denial 
you're gonna be it's not gonna seem like shit..... to you it's gonna seem like the truth it's 
gonna seem good it's gonna seem important it's gonna seem like reality it's gonna seem like a fact 
it's gonna seem like it couldn't be any other way like it can't be changed like leo i can't 
change this this part of my life what are you talking about 
that's where the work needs to happen so towards that end i have a little exercise for you several questions go 
ahead and write these down because you're going to be working with these over the next week and beyond that these are powerful questions 
that you're going to contemplate and journal about using some pen and paper 
first question is how am i full of shit..... 
and if you want you can break that one down to be more specific about the different categories of your life 
like how am i full of shit..... in my spirituality how am i full of shit..... when it comes to science 
how am i full of shit..... when it comes to politics how am i full of shit..... when it comes to family how am i full of shit..... when it comes to 
sexuality how am i full of shit..... when it comes to emotions how am i full of shit..... when it comes to health and nutrition 
and etc 
another powerful question is how am i a hypocrite 
hypocrisy is directly linked to bullshittery 
and make no mistake about it you are a hypocrite everyone is a hypocrite in fact anyone who denies that they're a hypocrite 
is being a hypocrite 
a third question for you is how do i make excuses for my shit..... 
because everyone who shit..... makes excuses for their shit..... so that to them their shit..... doesn't 
seem like shit..... 
another powerful question is whose shit..... do i complain about 
to distract from looking at my own shit..... 
this is fundamentally why people shit..... and moan complain judge criticize and demonize 
others this is why the reason is is because if they weren't busy doing that 
they would have to contend and become aware of their own shit..... which is difficult painful and 
unpleasant so instead what people do is they go find a youtube channel 
that shit..... and moans about their favorite enemy and then they watch that 
and that takes up all of their time so that they never have to self-reflect 
and the last question for you here is how am i in denial about my own shit..... 
those are powerful questions use those for the rest of your life don't just do this exercise once 
and by the way you know the first time you sit down and do this you might sit down for a whole hour and just come up with list after list page after page 
after page of shit..... and all of your excuses and even when you get done with doing all of 
that you still have only scratched the surface right because the deepest shit..... that 
you do in your life sits very deep it happens at a subconscious level at an automatic habitual level you don't even know that 
you do it yet it might take you five years to realize oh my god that thing leo was talking about five 
years ago oh it only now clicks for me five years later 
that that's what's going on in my relationship here and that's why my relationship sucks or that's why i can't attract women 
or that's why i uh keep getting into relationships with abusive men over and over again it's my shit..... but 
i didn't know it was shit..... until you know five years later after a lot of introspection keep keep 
applying these questions these are evergreen questions that will work for the rest of your life in many different domains 
so don't think of this is just a one-time exercise 
there cannot be health happiness decency or effective governance without 
truthfulness honesty and authenticity 
the majority of human history culture business and governance has been the manufacture packaging and 
distribution of shit..... and also very importantly the denial and 
suppression of anti-bullshit so what is anti-bullshit 
anti-bullshit you might call what we're doing here in this episode we're calling out the shit..... we're 
trying to shed light on the shit..... so that very process of course must be denied 
rejected suppressed and avoided all costs in order to maintain 
the shit..... status quo see and that's why you see a lot of 
people who leave comments under my various kinds of episodes you know the more advanced the 
episode the more controversial the insight 
the more shit..... there is around it the the deeper the inside is the closer it is to truth 
therefore of course the devil needs to keep more and more shit..... on top of that to mask the truth so of course then 
people get very defensive about various kinds of things that i say about enlightenment or 
god or about spirituality or about metaphysics or about consciousness or about intelligence or about 
um emotions or any of this kind of stuff 
right because only one of two things is going to happen when you when you listen to someone telling you a deep profound 
truth about yourself and about life you'll either hear it 
and start to agree with it and start to say oh yeah this is a this is an important insight and it 
rings true or you're gonna deny it 
and when you deny it you're gonna have to deny it with aggressive ignorance see because why the aggressive ignorance 
because you have to convince yourself that the truth that was just spoken to 
you isn't really the truth so when you get aggressive about something that i say when you get 
triggered by get emotional about it you leave a little comment a little nasty snarky comment or something like this 
all that is is that's just you convincing yourself it's not about me it's not about convincing me convincing other people 
it's always about convincing you that's what you're always doing when you think you're convincing other 
people of your position what you're really doing is you're actually just convincing yourself 
the reason you want to convince other people of your position of your truth of your ideology of your religion of your 
scientific principles of evolution of of logic of reason of any of whatever 
is because the more people agree with you the more people you can persuade to agree with your shit..... 
the less you will feel like your shit..... is shit..... and the more you will feel like it's reality 
see this is fundamentally why all religious people 
be compassionate for the most part i mean not all religious people but but many religious people become very 
passionate about proselytizing their religion preaching it converting others becoming missionaries 
and this is one of the one of the highest ideals of many religions whether it's 
you know christian missionaries evangelicals catholics mormons 
um even certain buddhist traditions the hari krishnas various kinds of cults and 
so forth one of their highest ideals is to 
be a missionary and to proselytize the the gospel to somebody else 
why it's just a defense mechanism it's just projection 
you see it's a smoke screen against having to admit that what you've got is you've got a big 
steaming pile of shit..... of course this is true in politics very 
obviously as well the reason people get so animated about politics and want to convince others want to debate others and win debates 
decimate people in debates eviscerate people in debates so so and so eviscerates this person 
such and such a liberal eviscerates that conservative this conservative is that liberal all this what is all this that you see going on on youtube 
and in the media this is all just 
people creating some smoke screens for their own shit..... they're really always just trying to convince 
themselves because you know what when you've got the real solid truth 
you have no need to preach it to anyone 
it's a very sort of stable solid 
thing that actually makes you detached and dispassionate in a sense in a good way 
the only solution to this shit..... problem is personal direct experience 
independent contemplation lots of diverse research 
looking and exploring looking at and exploring many diverse perspectives 
and personal investigation into all of the most important aspects 
of reality and of life if something is important to you whether it's in your career 
or with your family or about your health and nutrition or about sexuality or about 
metaphysics and philosophy and spirituality and religion if something is truly important to you 
then you owe it to yourself to do a deep personal investigation to contemplate 
about this subject as independently as possible free from the influences of other people 
and of various kinds of group think and social dynamics if politics is important 
to you then you're going to study history you're going to study human psychology and not just buy into 
some ideology that somebody is spewing in some video see because it's only through 
personal independent investigation that you will be able to weed through the shit..... 
if you are too lazy to do personal investigation then what you will end up with is 
shit..... shit..... is the default condition you have to work really hard 
and you're going to have to be very discriminating and careful in your study of life to be able to come 
out of this thing um not uh you know 
chest deep and shit..... because there's so much of it and it's 
been fed to you from the very beginning starting with your family 
but then in school and college and at your job and everywhere else 
so what's the point of calling everything shit..... um the point is simply to get you to 
really understand the importance of personal investigation of independent questioning you see most 
people they don't really question anything they just take stuff for granted 
they just take the distinctions and categories that their teachers give them for granted or that their politicians or their 
political leaders give them or that the news gives them right you just sort of buy into the narrative 
whatever the narrative tends to be the prevailing narrative of your culture you just buy into it you don't question it 
and in fact of course what many of these 
schools of thought try to teach you is not to question 
religion teaches you not to question but of course not just religion politics 
culture language and even science and rationality 
really they don't encourage you to question there's a a false fake front that 
scientifically-minded people and rationally-minded people like to put up as though they are the ones who have assumed the positions of the ones who 
are independent thinkers and who question everything for themselves this is almost never the case it's 
complete shit..... it's just an additional layer of meta shit..... 
the scientifically minded people and rationally-minded people the skeptically minded people are the ones who are the most full of 
shit..... sometimes even more so than the religious people 
see so the reason we're talking about this in such great length and detail with such 
emphasis is because i really want you to understand the importance of personal investigation personal 
questioning and that's what actualized.org is fundamentally about 
this is not an ideology here we are laying down principles 
for self-experimentation and personal investigation of reality 
with the expectation that if we personally 
investigate things this will be highly worthwhile because it'll allow us to sort through a lot of shit..... and really 
what other option do you have when you find yourself in this uh situation that we're in this house of 
cards cemented with shit..... then your only option is either to buy into it and just to go along with it 
or to start to question because it's only through questioning that you sort the wheat from the chaff so to 
speak only through exploring lots and lots and lots of diverse perspectives 
will you be able to successfully navigate this maze which is why i always emphasize 
exploring and integrating many diverse perspectives and not getting stuck on anyone 
because that's how shit..... gets made 
alright that's it for me i'm outta here please remember to click that like button if you like the video 
and come check out actualize.org that's my website on there you will find various kinds of exclusive resources 
i've been posting a lot of good material on my blog lately various kinds of 
exclusive videos documentaries and miscellaneous insights that i can't really 
share via the videos uh come check out the actualized forum where you can talk with people about 
this stuff like-minded people check out the life purpose course check out my book list the book list gives you 
a lot of great book ideas that you won't find almost anywhere else for starting to sort the wheat from the 
chaff and stay with me as we explore more 
diverse perspectives going forward i really want to warn you not to get 
stuck on anyone perspective sometimes people think that well but surely leo yoga that must be 
the ultimate or zen that must be the ultimate or 
spiral dynamics that must be the ultimate they get a good perspective you know some of these perspectives of 
course are much better than others not all perspectives are equal and the perspectives that i tend to present tend to be the highest quality 
ones but even then it's still only one perspective and you want to be careful because if 
you're just gonna buy in full bore into zen or into yoga or into spiral dynamics i'm warning you 
you're going to make mistakes you're going to get caught up in shit..... 
because that's what a perspective in a sense is right a perspective is coming from some kind of like origin point 
that's what it means to be a perspective is to look at something from one point and not another point 
which is fundamentally partial incomplete and not absolute it's 
relative relative to that point of view and of course it's tainted by ego because usually the point of view you're 
looking at is someone's ego either an individual legal ego or a collective ego 
which has a hidden agenda it has survival needs that it's trying 
to satisfy so this perspective is is built from the very beginning to satisfy the very 
basic survival needs of this point that the perspective is coming from see 
so the way that we ensure that we don't delude ourselves in this work is by continually 
opening ourselves up to new and diverse perspectives and the with the idea being that by 
looking at hundreds of perspectives and cross-referencing all of them we get rid of the blind spots because 
every perspective has some value to it but usually not total value usually it's 
just it's going to give you a lopsided view of life so you want to look from that perspective but you want to you want to 
take the good stuff leave the bad stuff and then do the same with a bunch of other perspectives and then what you get 
is you get a sort of a meta perspective and this is how we ensure that we don't delude ourselves in this work 
people sometimes ask me like leo well how do you know psychedelics are true how do you know that meditation is true 
how do you know your enlightenment insights are true because i cross-reference literally 
hundreds of perspectives hundreds of sources from other people that that i respect 
and that are credible uh but then also with my own direct experiences and it's through this 
massive cross-referencing project that then we can develop um some semblance of um 
of truthfulness and even then it's not guaranteed that you won't make mistakes 
right you always have to be vigilant against your own shit..... against your own biases against your own 
self-deception mechanisms um but um you know this is my 
overarching like meta strategy for how i run actualize that organ for how i 
gather all of my insights and knowledge and how how i make sure that i don't delude myself i take this very seriously 
some people they watch my content and they see me mouthing off or ranting about this topic or that topic and they think oh well leo's just one of these 
people who just buys into something just buys into spirituality just buys into enlightenment just buys into non-dollar it just buys into cycle 
no no no no you don't understand what goes on behind the scenes how much i i doubt everything 
double triple quadruple doubt everything cross-reference everything check every angle you know come back 
years later and just rethink about am i wrong about this am i wrong about that what could i be missing there 
you know that's what the process looks like behind the scenes you don't really see it so much happening in the material that i teach 
because here i'm just presenting you know uh insights 
uh in a limited amount of time there's no real purpose for me to start to doubt myself here on camera 
but you better believe that i doubt everything i'm the greatest doubter there is 
there's nobody who doubts more than me believe that or not and that's how you 
got to approach life too right you got to be so skeptical that 
you understand that no one perspective is going to solve this epistemic 
bind that we're in including skepticism itself so you can be skeptical at times but 
then other times you have to say wait a minute i've been skeptical for the last two years why don't i stop being skeptical 
for for the next year and why don't i do the opposite and see where i get and then i'll compare my perspectives i'll look 
at how how much progress i got when i was skeptical how much i got when i wasn't skeptical 
right because even skepticism is still one perspective it's one method it's one lens through which to look at 
the world and so is rationality so is science 
which is why you can't take them too seriously you can't take any one perspective too seriously 
but to do this to succeed in in this endeavor you have to be extremely flexible extremely open-minded 
and very good at dealing with contradictions apparent paradoxes 
and simply confusion and not knowing what this means is you have a bunch of different perspectives a bunch of 
different lenses and models and maps and and and explanations and they won't all 
fit together perfectly but that actually shows you the complexity of this thing that we're 
exploring called life called the universe right 
it's a complicated thing it's not easy to explain there's no one simple explanation for everything and what i 
gave you here this lens of of shit..... that i gave you the lens of looking at everything as 
though it was shit..... that's just one lens right so again don't get attached to it don't get hooked on it 
don't now go around for the rest of your life saying that everything is shit..... it's one perspective and next time i'll 
give you some more perspective and maybe it'll be uh the opposite perspective of this 
and you got to be able to to deal with that to reconcile that in your mind right like people sometimes 
criticize me for giving contradictory advice or giving contradictory information 
that's just because what we're covering is recovering a very very wide territory from a very big 
picture level perspective which very few people actually do attempt to do therefore they can get away with very consistent 
explanations you see it's very easy to come with a consistent explanation of something when you're covering a little subdomain 
that's this small not when you're explaining all of reality as a whole in all the different domains of reality how 
they all interconnect if you want to explain all that is you're going to have very messy explanations and not only that but you're going to have different 
explanations entirely different maps it's sort of like you can have one map of the united states 
which will be a topographical map it'll show you various like elevation in the terrain another map is not going 
to have that information it's going to be a map of let's say the different uh 
water water levels in the in the earth that's going to be another kind of map and then a third 
kind of map might show you where the power grids are across the us and then a fourth map will 
show you where the like um where the trees and forests are and that will be giving you additional 
layer of information you got all these layers and you got to be able to like sift through these maps and use 
different maps for different purposes right so if you're going to dig a well you need the water map and if you're going 
to like go uh uh hiking through a forest you need a forest map and so forth 
and so that's kind of what we're doing it's a little bit messy but that's just the nature of the beast 
don't fall for simplistic explanations 
but then again sometimes we can distill something down to just a little nugget like mankind is full of shit..... and that's 
powerful it's so simple it's powerful so memorable you can remember that for the rest of your life you can use that that can help you in 
business that can help you in relationships that can help you with your own emotions and understanding your own victim mentality and how that's 
full of shit..... and so on you see but again just don't get hooked on it stick around and we'll explore more 
perspectives to come 
you 

Don't read it so literally. 20 is not necessary. 20 is just a loose stand-in for lots of experience. What's necessary is lots of experience.
Then again, you could just settle down with 1 girl. But then you won't have the skills to get more girls if she leaves you.
It's a question of whether you want the skills. If you don't want the skills then you can always settle down with 1 girl. But that is quite risky. Which is why skills are stressed. You will lose many girls but you will never lose your skills.

Use Chat GPT 4. 

Here's the prompt: 'Can you summarize (book name) by (author)? Summarize each chapter individually with multiple bullet points.'
I find this quite handy for the more intellectual and self-helpy books. But stuff like Carlos Casteneda's work are still best read properly.
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You could do this with your college textbooks, research papers, whatever. I find amount of time you can save by using chat gpt beats missing any specific details from the books. You can even ask it follow up questions...

Great video to understanding human attraction on the Spiritual level.

I relate very heavily i have been sickly and toxicly obsessed with girls and ex's. forget em fully dont go there/interact

Very sorry and hopefully there's a destiny where u meet sm1 cool

Do forgt them tho and feel ok gettin them out ur mind. ur better than that
 
Sorry for ur circumstance (and mine i guess)

Post your most creative AI crocodile pics.

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I use an oculus quest 2, vr porn and a pocket pussy. My goal is to save up enough money to buy a blue alien sex doll, I’ll name her lucy and be able to recreate the first orgasm I ever had.
This setup leads to some really cool moments, like taking off the headset and realizing that none of it was real.

𝕊 = Shame (internal inadequacy) 𝕀 = Insistence (assertion of value as a response) 𝔹 = Bragging (outward compensation for insecurity) 𝕆 = Overcompensation (exaggeration of worth) 𝔽 = Fitting (desire to conform to societal standards) 𝕍ₑₓₜ = External value (social status, recognition) 𝕍ᵢₙₜ = Internal value (intrinsic self-worth) These variables interact within a feedback loop that shapes self-worth (W). The equation of self-worth can be expressed as a combination of intrinsic and extrinsic factors, with the influence of shame and compensatory behaviors contributing to distortions.
𝕎 = (𝕍ᵢₙₜ + α𝕍ₑₓₜ) − (𝕊 + β𝕀 + γ𝔹 + δ𝕆) + ε𝔽
Breakdown of Terms:
𝕎 (Self-Worth) = Overall self-perception of value. 𝕍ᵢₙₜ (Intrinsic Value) = Core self-worth based on authentic internal qualities (e.g., values, integrity, emotional resilience). 𝕍ₑₓₜ = Value derived from social status, recognition, achievements (subject to social metrics). α: The weight of external validation (higher if self-worth is overly dependent on social status). 𝕊 (Shame) = Internal sense of inadequacy or unworthiness. 𝕀 (Insistence) = Effort to assert or demand recognition of value, increasing as shame grows. β: The degree to which insistence reduces or masks shame. 𝔹 (Bragging) = Expression of overinflated worth, driven by shame. γ: The extent of distortion in self-worth due to bragging (can either inflate self-perception or reflect insecurity). 𝕆 (Overcompensation) = The degree to which an individual overstates their value to counteract shame. δ: Amplifies the disconnection between intrinsic self-worth and the exaggerated projection of value. 𝔽 (Fitting) = The drive to conform to social standards or fit in. It can either elevate self-worth by enhancing social cohesion or lead to further disconnection from intrinsic value. ε: Represents the influence of social conformity on the balance between external and internal self-worth. Observations:
High Shame (𝕊) increases the need for Insistence (𝕀), Bragging (𝔹), and Overcompensation (𝕆), which distorts self-worth by shifting the focus toward external validation. The balance between Intrinsic Value (𝕍ᵢₙₜ) and External Value (𝕍ₑₓₜ) determines the stability of self-worth. When external validation (𝕍ₑₓₜ) is overly weighted (high α), self-worth becomes fragile and more dependent on social metrics. The drive to Fit (𝔽) can either mitigate shame or exacerbate it, depending on whether it leads to genuine social connection or a superficial adherence to societal expectations.

I only masturbate with my feet and brillo pads.

I wish that were the case for me. I am only attracted to like 1% of women.

I love porn and I've never been violent.

Morality is a social construct, however, raping someone is still a low consciousness thing to do.

That too is low consciousness.
Which is why I don't use a girl with big tits to sell my life purpose course.

Too try-hard.
Gotta learn to chill the fuck out. Where are you running to when there's nowhere to go?
He reminds me of a hamster in a wheel on meth.

David Goggins feels like a meme.

Hey everyone, I’m really struggling and could use some advice or direction.
For as long as I can remember, I've had a hard time focusing. In high school, it was a mess, I was struggling to get through. Now, in university, it’s still hard. I’ve tried so many things to be productive, like motivating myself with fear (which is super harsh on me), but nothing seems to stick long term. I’m constantly feeling like I’m trying so hard but getting nowhere, and it's really messing with my confidence. 
On top of that, I’m super impulsive. When I get angry, I sometimes break things, which just makes me feel even worse afterward. I know it’s not healthy, and I need to get this under control, but I don’t even know where to start.
I’ve been thinking it might be ADHD, but I really don’t want to self-diagnose and end up relying on medication if that’s not the real issue. On the other hand, when a lot of ADHDers describe how they feel, it feels exactly the same. A battle uphill.  
It’s also crossed my mind that this could be something else entirely, like heavy metal poisoning or some other underlying cause. But how do I even know the difference, I can get tested but that takes money and time, so does getting professional help for ADHD. What should I start with?
I’m looking for advice on how to find the right professional help or resources that could point me in the right direction. I need a real plan of action that works, not just more tips on organizing my life.
How do I get proper professional help?
Should I first check for heavy metals or go to a professional?
How do I make sure im not mis-diagnosed? I don't want to take meds unnecessarily. 
What should I do in the mean time? 
Any useful websites or forums you know dedicated with ADHD?
Please help, I would appreciate it.

It's hard to get inside the mind of those who experience reality fundamentally differently than you.
And then on top of that you've got self-bias from needing men or women to satisfy your survival needs.