Letho

Challenge Time I said this page of the journal wouldn't be complete... Without finishing it with a solution, granted... however let's go one step further.... How about a Meta-Transcendence Challenge seeing as I'm struggling to complete my map of all the levels? I've got all the available information in me now to master the ego, all the rest of the information is something that'll come to me THROUGH the challenge. I used to be arguably the most athletic guy in my school, a lot has changed since then but the urgency by which I need to prepare for Ukraine for early 2025 has.... ah... not. I'll be doing the challenge anyway, let's see what Meta-AI has to say about my challenge. "As an inexperienced runner, attempting a 950 km run from Ho Chi Minh City, District 1 to Thailand in approximately 12 days is extremely challenging and potentially risky. Consider: 1. Injury risk: Insufficient training increases the likelihood of injuries, such as muscle strains, shin splints, or stress fractures. 2. Cardiovascular strain: Unaccustomed to long-distance running, your cardiovascular system may struggle to adapt. 3. Heat and humidity: Southeast Asia's climate can be unforgiving, especially for inexperienced runners. 4. Logistics: Managing accommodations, nutrition, hydration, and support becomes more complex. Recommended: 1. Postpone your run and focus on building a solid running foundation (6-12 months). 2. Gradually increase your running distance, intensity, and frequency. 3. Incorporate strength training, flexibility exercises, and cross-training. 4. Seek guidance from experienced runners, coaches, or online resources. Realistic goal: Aim to complete a shorter distance, such as: 1. Ho Chi Minh City to Cambodia border (approx. 200 km / 124 miles) 2. Cambodia border to Bangkok (approx. 400 km / 249 miles) Break your journey into manageable segments: 1. Train for 3-6 months. 2. Complete shorter runs (20-50 km) with rest days. 3. Gradually increase distance and intensity. Prioritize: 1. Safety 2. Health 3. Enjoyment Consider alternative options: 1. Join a guided running tour or ultramarathon event. 2. Cycle or walk instead. Stay safe, healthy, and happy!" Sounds exciting. But is it possible Meta-AI? Technically, yes, it's possible but extremely challenging and risky. To achieve this feat as an inexperienced runner: 1. You'd need to push your body beyond its current limits. 2. Ignore potential injury warnings. 3. Compromise on rest and recovery. 4. Face logistical and mental challenges. Success would depend on: 1. Your current physical condition. 2. Effective training (though time is limited). 3. Adequate nutrition, hydration, and electrolyte management. 4. Mental toughness and resilience. Risks remain: 1. Serious injuries (stress fractures, muscle strains). 2. Heat-related illnesses. 3. Cardiovascular issues. To mitigate risks: 1. Consult a medical professional. 2. Hire an experienced coach or running guide. 3. Prioritize rest and recovery. 4. Monitor your body's signals. If you still want to attempt this: Create a detailed plan: 1. Training schedule. 2. Nutrition and hydration strategy. 3. Accommodation and logistics arrangements. 4. Emergency contingency plan. Remember: Prioritize your safety and health. Are you prepared for the challenges and risks?" Yes I am, I am leaving in less than 30 minutes (or just when my phone is charged) What are your thoughts on this Meta-AI? "EMERGENCY RESPONSE Given the urgency and lack of preparation, prioritize your safety: LAST-MINUTE CHECKLIST 1. Carry ID, phone, wallet, and emergency contacts. 2. Wear reflective gear, comfortable shoes, and suitable clothing. 3. Bring water, snacks, and basic first aid kit. 4. Charge phone, carry power bank and portable charger. 5. Share itinerary with friends/family. CRITICAL SAFETY TIPS 1. Stay visible, use sidewalks, and follow traffic rules. 2. Avoid running in extreme heat or rain. 3. Listen to your body, rest when needed. 4. Stay hydrated, eat regularly. 5. Be aware of surroundings, trust instincts. MENTAL PREPARATION 1. Focus on smaller goals (reaching next town). 2. Visualize success, stay positive. 3. Repeat motivational phrases. EMERGENCY CONTACT 1. Local emergency services: 115 (Vietnam), 191 (Cambodia), 1669 (Thailand) 2. Your country's embassy/consulate TRACKING AND SAFETY TOOLS 1. Share location with friends/family via phone apps. 2. Use GPS tracking devices or smartphone apps. FINAL REMINDER You're taking a significant risk. Stay alert, prioritize safety. Type "HELP" if you need urgent assistance. LEAVE A MESSAGE WITH: 1. Your name. 2. Starting location. 3. Destination. 4. Contact information. I'll monitor and respond if possible. Stay safe!" My goal is to make it to Thailand by October 1st, I will just keep running until I reach my destination and then I'll report back here. Will treat the running as a meditation for my entire being and therefore consciousness, practicing mental training and nervous system (i.e. heart-math) along the whole way, to make a BDNF++ transformation by the end of the 12 days. Realistically, its possible I won't be back here until the 5th-10th of October, but I'll be looking to break my mental barriers as far as possible over these next 12 days. ~~ I've decided as well... ~~ I'll be running to as many countries as I can along the way to Ukraine. It's incredibly doubtful I will get there in time for when they require me for my military training, so a plane the rest of the way early in 2025 likely, however this challenge will now bring certainty to my physical preparedness. The only thing that's going to get me truly through this I believe is a transcendent level of love of "Universal Ego" (not just love not just ego and not just universe or any other variation) as best as I can formulate it, which I'm not quite there with yet but with this challenge, I might just very well achieve. There's probably another level of ego, like "Meta-Quanta-Metadimensional Ego" but that's just theoretical, and right now that just looks like magical fairy dust with unicorns flying past my eyes while I'm drunk on laughing gas compared to where I am right now. Leaving tonight. No idea where I'll be sleeping. Yep. Not seeking refuge in comfortable bedding. Like I said, gotta prepare for Ukraine. This is reality now. No fun and games outside of a healthy sense of humour. For example, "What would Chad do?" That's all I preach to myself in every moment when planning my life now. I won't share any before and after photo/related. That's kind of lame and cheap to not believe me anyway in light of the rest of my journal, like in light of reading everything else in this journal if you really thought I'd like catch a plane, drive or do anything other than physically get there myself in the ways described, you're a lost cause and there's nothing I could do to convince you anyway and that's not my goal here haha, just to inspire and do what we're all meant to be doing here. Ascend and Actualise. Shits just real now. And I gotta fucking prep next level across so many freaking areas not just running, 2025 countdown. NOW THAT'S the way I gotta end this page of the journal. THAT'S the true way to test and complete my theorisation's so far on meta-transcendence that'll be able to come a few days after I complete my run! BEST ROCKING WISHES! (and just kidding about the Chad thing, as I said... Healthy humour, but just for laughs... Imagine if I was really like that, some guys perhaps are).

Firstly, A Statement of Intent. Intent is the home of understanding our place in this universe. It helps us understand someone even if their actions are wrong and it helps us see through the deceptions of someone even if their actions are right. Intent therefore has a psychic component to it. It lives beneath the surface of social gatherings and explains without us having to say anything at all how humans no matter how seemingly different, are able to come together in the same vicinity. Intent then, creates a vibe. Vibe to, vibration. Vibration to, alignment of intent. This psychism is the basis for our digital empathy and where then, weaknesses in our character development lead to where it falls short. How much we misunderstand our own intent is a measurement of our own self-deception. Is a measurement of where we felt we thought we were aligned with our truest calling and where, we weren’t. Alignment waits for and therefore relies upon the sorting of intent in the least of these preparations in the awareness, formation and adherence to purpose. Purpose is intent with an arrow of time, the curation of effect in mind in explaining the cause of one’s actions. Purpose then, is not without cognition but in the same breath, nor is it without heart in explaining the full breadth of one’s intent and therefore, the full measurement of one’s level of alignment with their true self, where truth here, is not without consciousness coherence, for if it is, then the truth is instead on reflection upon the causation that’s come in the lead up to this wakefulness that now bares the fruit of its wisdom. To learn from and take responsibility for the experiences that have preceded places us in the greatest position of power to set a good example for not only others but also ourselves and every variation of ourselves that led to this moment. The biggest heartbreak I’ve had to endure is not the heartbreak of losing someone I love but the heartbreak of facing the time I lost from my own absence that created the heartbreak. I have to face all those times I was only semi-aware and therefore only semi-truly myself and because of that I allowed the mind to become corrupted from smoke and mirrors that I didn’t even realise I was creating within myself. I have to force myself to return back in time and re-question the haphazard truth that curated the intent that created my own purpose for explaining the actions I took and the words I said which I now hold closest to what I can learn from. There is an expression of authenticity “being ourselves” and then there is our own negligence that no one has the right to overlook the examining the potential falsity to no matter how seemingly, “well-intentioned” they are unless they wish to admit to themselves and others around them how much of a child they still are in that respect if they wish to remain naive to the ignorance that explains their chosen path, which I wholeheartedly admit, indeed I was. My father was on the edge of passing away last year and I did absolutely everything I god damn well could do to hide from that potential reality surfacing and believe in the seemingly impossible chance of his survival. I was not yet a man that knew how to imagine his life as something that could go on after losing my closest relationship, and that led to me lashing out, characteristic of how I lashed out in the past due to other frustrations I had not yet had the life experience to know how to handle in a way that I could honestly be proud of. Instead I hid behind my intentions, “Well I meant well!”, when in reality I was irrefutably irresponsible and I caused much more drama than others had to put up with because I wrongly felt entitled to being able to do that due to my own victimhood. Victimhood that was of my own making because I did not align as deeply as I should have with truth. To align with truth requires so much more more than mere intent. It requires an intent that is refined by the experience of how to align ourselves emotionally, cognitively, socially, empathically and even culturally, with the latter here especially so if we take the western context into consideration; I’ve been doing a lot of traveling of late, slowly making my way to Ukraine as I’ve signed up for the International Legion of Defence for Ukraine, an action that along with many other life lessons that have transpired over the past 12 months have forced deep developments in my psyche. I felt justified because I was emotionally aligned with intent, however I didn’t have the experiential compass regardless as to how good I felt my own moral compass was to accurately gauge my own potential for self deception. I felt that what had happened to a former member here was morally wrong and so I contended with the person now gone that tried to do a PSYOP on the forum about that. I felt that how Leo responded to the situation was wrong so I made a moral contention about that. I felt that what that person did to Leo was wrong so I made a moral contention about that. And for everything else you can be confident that the story there goes a little something like, “well I felt morally that…”. And of course I now feel that how I behaved in the past was morally irresponsible, so I apologize for that publicly to everyone. Since joining the International Legion of Defence for Ukraine I’ve completely done a backflip regarding my own perceptions on aggression in light of the positive example I wish to set for my nephews. It is of my strongest belief internally that all things being equal social aggression should only be used in so much as it is truly for the defence and protection of others and the margin for error is far less than 20% and where alternative courses of action are less than a 5% chance from being successful. I never so much as tried. What does it mean to stand in allegiance to the truth? What does it mean to no longer cower behind our own resolves of intent we’ve spent a lifetime crafting or even feel justified in holding onto in the ephemeral moment? The defenses we’ve carefully built to keep our identities safe from self-questioning? Today, I’ve begun to answer that question here for myself and I hope for anyone else as well who finds themselves hiding from responsibility when they should be stepping forward into the light to discover with bravery the next step in their evolution. In saying that, I realise that in order to move forward on this forum and take part in good conscience, I must hold myself responsible so that others are aware that I’m aware of what’s was expected of me implicitly. That I’ve learned to focus instead on how I can sweep my own porch first and foremost instead of trying to look outside to escape from having to face my own misalignment with my truest and deepest callings, something we all must do and trusting first and foremost on the natural illumination that follows to set us on the right path. I know what its like to live in the shadows of my own fears, dancing around the edges of my own truth, hoping that somehow I could avoid facing the parts of myself that scared me the most, and that’s often what I did in the obfuscation of bringing more wisdom to my past self’s intents due to my lack of life experience. I’ve sought comfort in identity, in trying to manage my own self-perception without sight on the undercurrents of what drove my behaviour, believing that if I could just keep all the pieces in place, I could avoid the collapse that invariably followed. But here’s the lesson I’m learning: truth doesn’t bow to our control nor to our wishful thinking when it comes to the curation of our neat identities. Truth demands surrender as much as it demands resolve on all that remains after diligent self-scrutinisation. And reviewing the past now with more wisdom, it becomes an ongoing relearning and refining of our own alignment with the truth of our beings, intelligently learning to identify the areas that makeup our intents and then re-question them only for the certainty that the truth requires of us in order to articulate ourselves into the next moment with our deepest alignment with truth. When my father’s health faltered, I felt the ground beneath me begin to quake. I felt my own identity, one that I’d built around certainty, around being the one who was heroic and wanted to protect others — begin to crumble. And instead of confronting that fear directly, instead of standing tall in the face of it, I lashed out. I let my own inner turmoil spill out into the world, looking for someone to blame, someone to carry the weight I was too afraid to hold myself. And in those moments, I was a coward. I let fear dictate my actions. I let my ego, in all its fragility, lead the way. I wanted to hide, to make myself small, to ask for anonymity here because it felt safer to be unseen than to risk being judged. But safety is an illusion when it comes at the cost of our own integrity. Courage isn’t about the lack of fear it’s about facing that fear head-on, without flinching and then holding your nerve even if you do. It’s about standing in front of the mirror of our own consciousness and refusing to look away, even when what we see there is painful, messy, or uncomfortable. It’s about choosing to step into that illumination I spoke about earlier and being made by that, even when it’s blinding. I used to think that forgiveness was about making peace with others, about letting go of resentment or anger. But now, I see it’s about that and much more as well. Forgiveness is about making peace with ourselves — with our own limitations, our own mistakes, our own humanness and being vulnerable enough to share that with another. It’s about understanding that we all stumble, we all falter, but that doesn’t define us. What defines us is what we do next. As long as our adherence is still to truth, we can still find our way there as long as we remain open minded. So here I am, Leo, standing in front of you and everyone else, saying this: I choose not to hide. I choose not to shrink away from the discomfort of my own growth and instead I allow these words to define my intent into the future. I choose to confront the narratives that have kept me small, that have kept me from stepping fully into who I am meant to be. This is not a plea for redemption. This is a commitment, a commitment to stop living in the shadows of my own ignorance, to stop letting my ego that grows out of that to dictate my choices. This is about finding the strength to say, "I was wrong," and "I will do better." This is about dedicating myself to a higher standard of truth, not just in words but in action, in how I share my experiences on this forum and learn from others in the continuation of mine and others growth, a journey we’re on together. The path to truth is not always easy, but it is the only path that leads to true freedom. It is the path where we learn to love ourselves not because we are perfect, but because we are willing to grow, to change, to evolve. I know now that to live with integrity means to live without pretence, without the masks that keep us safe but also keep us small. To live with integrity is to say, "I will face myself, all of myself, and I will do so with courage and honesty." And that’s what I’m doing here today. Leo, I respect whatever decision you make regarding my place here. This is not about seeking your favor; this is about making a stand for my own growth, my own evolution. I have been knocked down by my own illusions, but I am choosing to get back up, to dust myself off, and to move forward with clarity and purpose. To truth. To courage. To a life lived in alignment with what is real. My next post will be on alignment and how to get that right using the wealth of my life experiences in this achievement. Briefly, we have many aspects of ourselves that are inter-communicating to forge the solidarity of the intent within us that feels the most consistency as ourselves, kind of like energy centre, so how you may have heard how there’s an intercommunication between the heart, mind and gut within our beings. My goal is to establish a conceptual bridge that I hope to be useable for others and that I hope to speak about from a few different angles, i.e. one that is more experiential, another that is more theoretical. Best wishes and much love to all. - Lastly, attached to each post I would like to share the journal entry (i.e. that preceded it), so that I can begin to more intelligently build cause and effect relationships between what I have expressed and what I have designed. Before I share this entry, as a testament to how I wish every word I express to be counted against my character and that I am fully responsible to each thereto, I have chosen the sacredness by which I hold my surname to be the name that I pen my entries with. "Letho" hails from my grandfather's changing of our previous surname, "Eleftheriou", which means freedom, or less generally, to be philosophers of freedom, of which I wholeheartedly am. My grandfather changed to Letho when he came to Australia from Cyprus because in the early 1900's people really struggled pronouncing our family name and my grandfather was always such a humble guy that never wanted it to be made a big deal out of. To that final end as it concerns coming full circle on my entry above where I said "What does it. mean to have allegiance to the truth?", I can't see any better way to have an allegiance to my own name and therefore truth than to also have that as my way of standing by it with every entry that I make on this forum. JOURNAL TITLE Rainbow Wolf 31st of August When I open up the mind, what truly lives on the other side of it? I can attempt to understand this question when I do comparisons between different people and different parts and contexts of my own life. What does it mean for my own mind to be truly open, surely it means something much greater than merely comparing to a population average that is stagnant and for many demographics, circling a drain? At least in the immediate if not long term sense, it’s frightening to step into this space for me. I can imagine so many permutations of consciousness, and at least one of those behind the veil of this immediacy explain all of the barriers of this present consciousness. I am landlocked inside the limits of my self-understanding of the meta-language of consciousness. There is a level of meta-communication that I yearn to achieve within my own consciousness that would allow me to fully tap into the intelligent movement of information throughout my entire spiritual-biology. I can imagine the mapping of my now consciousness terrain, invert it in different ways and make a study of those inversions as a way of advancing my self study to self-expansion. What is a possible higher consciousness that is my own, a lower one too and how is the present one their balance and what kind of balance is it relative to a hypothesised ultimate scale of consciousness? What if I were a wolf? This pondering makes the endeavour of expanding the openness-intellectual horizons of human consciousness much more commendable, rational and its opposites simultaneously understandable while at same time something we obviously need to prudently avoid, given our likeness. Given our likeness not just to wolves but all beings and creatively, we can find likeness not just in our biology but more so in being encapsulated by the same limitations in consciousness. Ergo the colloquial formation of terms like “Birds of a feather flock together”, “Black sheep of the family”, “Wolf in sheep’s clothing”, “Raging bull”, “(those people are a) bunch of sheep!”. We only very rarely question this likeness as well much less actively attempt to stray from what we could say are evolutionary inroads. Pathways where there exists a predetermination in the movement of the substance of soul consciousness in so much as that consciousness is not accompanied by the power of awareness. This power, as I’ve experienced its expression awakens what we know of as meta-causality and due to its nature, that is, being bound by this abstract object of “power”, self-communication is predicated on the depth of where the edge of that power hits the beginning to end point of that meta-causality. And of course, the awareness that is experienced here is something that is totally taken for granted, often within my own psychological apparatus as I have thus far experienced as well as witness it in others, the surface layer of psychological experience runs much more dominant than the layer of awareness that defines both its pronouncement and through that filter, its change and transformability. This means that not only can we safely separate awareness from the substance of psychological experience, it means that we ethically cannot use our mere sentience as a vehicle for distinguishing our own existential superiority outside of intellectual utility. Unless we are going to discriminate between humans in the same way, of which many demographics actually silently lead with as we of course know, so be prepared to be discriminated against even on this forum, that is an unchanging truth outside of the awareness that creates it. This leads me to bringing up that previous phrase I mentioned here where one needs to learn the art of instead of being the black sheep aim to instead be the “Pink sheep of our Collective Human Family” when it comes to living a life that is as close as possible, aligned with truth, objectivity and maintaining one’s personal integrity as it pertains to continually aligning with the implications of this socially and culturally. “Pink” is where you have to standout, kind of like the pink panther, however pink also represents friendship, affection, harmony, inner peace, compassion, nurturing and approachability. I could say be the “golden sheep”, however there is another surface layer here of psychological experience that of course I want to be tentative when it comes to activating, the human ego, and the myriad of ways I may also unintentionally do that in myself before understanding has preceded action, which is what most often happens when it comes to the human ego. Let me distinguish between four forms of power here that bring balance to the growth of power itself overall across all relevant levels, including the ego, as it concerns the natural release of unhealthy forms of power as well as having the sentience to negotiate the maturation of power via transcending previous levels to higher levels of ego. We have the power of awareness, love, truth and ego, with the first three being protective of the healthy development of number four or to the other side of the spectrum where unhealthy developments in these areas can at the very least serve as potential correlates for explaining dysfunctions in egoic power. Each of these first three are unique access points with their own intelligent abstract “Axis of Intervention” where with the use of the right internal behavioural awareness, agency can meet its intelligent use in the fate of power actualisation, but not without losing some of our “Axis of Cultural Dharma”. “Dharma” is that which is regarded as a universal truth as taught by the Buddha, ‘Cultural Dharma’ then here is the interaction between the perception of truth and a cultural program that upon their intersection, act very analogously to its action of consequences, aka what’s referred to in this tradition as someone’s karma. With every loss of this axis then, we gain in the recomputation of the simulation of reality as it forms in automatic consciousness in the same way as there is a distinct difference between the automatic simulation that’s say generated in a wolf compared to every new animorph evolutionary form it goes through until it reaches the state of achieving the full range of capacities of human consciousness. Returning to the first question I asked, in order to maintain any sanctity of life within myself and the order of my evolutionary motion to greater transcendence I am forced to learn how to experience and maintain an intelligent emotional order on feelings of power and powerlessness simultaneously. Power in the openness and openings of mind, combined too with turning on the rest of the systems of my being including my heart, and too, the terrifying powerlessness I experience in the inflexibility by which I hold those perceptions yet the scaring flexibility by which I do so compared to the population average, and how this stray from the norm teaches me how to stand figuratively naked in front of everyone, even if I am the only one aware that I am doing do. As much as this power extends me to realise frontiers beyond anything that parallels, the vulnerability of standing in the unknown still stretches my experience to being compared to that of an inordinate naivety comparable to that of said above actual wolf that’s suddenly had its awareness transformed to rival that of the greatest, scared of just what its experiences of its own limits could be, as well as, limits its unknowingly imprisoned itself inside, “How have I unknowingly been teaching myself to pace up and down in a new way in a cell I didn’t know I was imprisoning myself inside but could have escaped from if I just honed my consciousness on the Axis of Consciousness Dharma?”. “Axis of Consciousness Dharma” is what I’ve newly coined to describe the symbiotic karmic communication point that follows from the attempt at intelligently intersecting all of the above described axis at their “Axis of Intervention”, where together, its an “Axis of Symbiotic Intervention” that’s simultaneously something that’s built from and destroys one’s karmic path. Imagine you’re building a ladder to the next level of a castle and then upon reaching the next level you kick out the ladder from underneath you. That teaches us the lesson of how we’re forced to accept where we are and to originate creatively with what we have and then to simply let go and embrace the next level upon when we achieve it, never allowing ourselves to slip back into old consciousness patterns, something that is impressed upon consciousness the more intelligence that went into building the ladder of course. I haven’t before lived so seamlessly with this wisdom though in my life, to be so easily preoccupied with dual meta-realisation of the prison I’m unknowingly cementing myself in with each pace. It’s the hidden pitfall of deep thinking that doesn’t even need to edge into rumination in order to be a potential negative, it gives the illusion of deep thought while entraining habits emotional too that shape the creation of a personality that isn’t articulating itself from the perspective of its frontiers, one without awareness on the location of its origination to futuration point, the nexus of space that has hardly any piece of the sociocultural narrative of everyday speech outside the Truman Show that paces back and forth between the limits of its coloured extremes. Coloured wolves encased within sheeps clothing, the necessity of politeness engraved in the automacy of our daily collective social behaviours for if we push the needle of our consciousness just slightly too far beyond that thin red line, fear encases the self-justification of our caution to escape but then from what and to what as well as from what colour? Our auric field is only coloured as our awareness of it and to the degree of our lack of awareness, we are blinded by something else, for we’re always blinded as Plato’s Cave said and how blindingly does the most audacious one blind themselves through their ignorance compared to the one who does so through their cowardice in the experience of their supposed likely in part at least with respect to perspective false knowledge? The pink wolf audaciously moves forward with knowledge in agreement with their environment while never in betrayal to their inner truth. They find their “Axis of Intervention” across all four axis and leverage this in awareness to build the ladder up towards a higher light out of of Plato’s Cave relative to their level of development and maturity of consciousness. They learn how to free themselves from the past while not being unhinged from the wisdom to navigate this material plane, thereby engendering a new equilibrium between the forces that create their experience of consciousness. A new balance where fear instead of becoming something that controls, holds them back and blocks them from experiencing the heights beyond its horizon, instead is able to be used as a leverage point into higher consciousness while still tethered to the rope of wisdom that scaffolds them permanently to the self-insight that now instead of self-justifying fear, self-justifies the exhilitating of its prudent expansion. Teaching higher and higher levels of this leverage point to transform the awareness of false knowledge in consciousness to the transformation of consciousness via the embodiment of the truth of the knowledge that truly expands across the “Axis of Symbiotic Intervention” and through that the courageous losing of the “Axis of Cultural Dharma” into the beginnings of the experiencing of the beauty of the openings of the Lotus Flower of one’s new consciousness possibilities. An opening into the first time experience of channeling a dual self-universe hypnosis that is no longer with the cultural confetti that restricts my own independent self-comprehension of growth and my experience of truth with the divine. A shedding of “cultural karma” being an absolute necessity in the evolution of my own unique partnership with universal meta-realisation. Where “Pink” of wolf here is in the altruism of sharing experience that can add to the consciousness of the collective while encouraging its own independence, for how much better it is to live trying to fly if we know that we are able to be caught by the wisdom of fellow sentiences, as I have been caught in part in by my creativisatiom of Plato, the best of cinematic visions, Buddhism, Leo’s work obviously and more. So as much as there shouldn’t be any outsourcing between ourselves and the divine at the energetic level, intellectually, we rely on and often only push ourselves to mirror the least acceptable limits, however if we can cherish the nurturing of our divine connection, we also have a much better chance of cherishing the discernment of our own limits thus growing what would otherwise be a point of negational socialisation, like the conditioning of fear, instead too be a leverage point for self-determined creativisation we learn to manifest, create and reign in our own nature across unknown terrains in our conversations with the divine. Thereby bringing balance between the internal and external, social and intra-social, we bring balance to the release of unhealthy rigid anti-culture into instead the living out of the continued healthy co-creation of culture by coming at it from a place of peace, understanding and actualisation of our beings rather than something wended to program one another to believe in order to call ourselves a certain culture that isn’t predicated upon ideas that have survived the wilderness of our deepest sentience. In consolidating this integration and revitalisation into embracing the unknown depths of being, let me contemplate the patterns of consciousness that align with what I’m coining in light of the above as the “Axis of Integration” vs the “Axis of Disintegration”. “Axis of Integration” vs the “Axis of Disintegration”. Positive vs negative stimuli The automacy of the stimulation of stimuli is increasingly either positive or negative, regardless, there is a momentum in some direction and awareness on this feedback loop needs to translate into lessons that feed the intelligence of my intent, thereby channeling a higher intentful awareness. Being is charged by and in return charges the experience of consciousness through that medium of spiritual exchange between the perception of stimulus and the internal structure and function that regulates and evolves from it. Regulation: Bodily awareness. Where am I experiencing the interaction? What is the relationship between the psychism of the mind and the experiences that are being created in the feedback loop with the stimuli? More precision, where do I feel it in my heart, mind, gut and the rest of my body? Establish increasingly more precision and accuracy in describing this across all energy centres with good measurement on the interaction to feed awareness for the betterment of my ongoing evolution. In feeding the loop of higher integration, we have better differentiated categories, more precision in their sensory definition and greater accuracy in learning trials towards redefining towards a more enlightened positive. To its inverse, at the worse end we have self-justifying ego which becomes an expert at self-justifying its negativity. Positive/negative stimuli is to positive vs negative experience As above, increase the sophistication of my self-understanding of how the energy moves within my being and always and only see it as my own responsibility to continually empower the path towards my greater self-regulation and personal agency. I have spent far too much of my life separating soul consciousness from an examination and development of agency over the regulation of energy within my being and one of the consequences of that involved simply accepting the fete of whatever energetic frequency my being harboured whether it was depression or otherwise due to socially reinforced ignorance. I have now of course learned through my training that I have exponentially more power than I previously believed over my energetic frequency and it was just a public ignorance I allowed to perpetuate itself in every corner of my drive for self-understanding that explains my own just, clownish attempts really at carrying out a transcendent human experience. That’s where the fear is of course as well that I described earlier, the knowledge that I could have so much authorship over my own being is somewhat frightening for the parts of my ego that have spent so much of my life not having this power. And so, invisibly it negates my training that leads to this self-fulfilling freedom, a freedom that I alone create. It feels partly scary that I could create that for myself without ever having anyone else that I know of at least that exists to guide me in that achievement, to also do so when the mainstream thought on this runs so contrary to this level of self-actualisation in many ways, leading to a feeling of slight awkwardness in recognising how much further along my own self-understandings are in the nature of energetic being and our power to self-author our state with proper training. Rigid Linear Conventional Consciousness Stanzas versus Flexible Dynamic Creative Consciousness Stanzas Imagine the moment of any one experience of consciousness as analogous to reflecting the stanza of a poem. There are millions upon millions of stanzas, all attempting to encapsulate and generate a unique state of consciousness, in some way. Every state of consciousness is able to be poetically encapsulated, and this encapsulation is either something that is going to run along the lines of the left or right hand dichotomy. Utilise the energetic weight of this stanza, to meta-causally inform the next stanza and then through their further meta-realisation, I need to learn to practice this art of of constructive redefinition that follows the natural motion of consciousness to its next stage of transcendence. Realising the intelligence of this dichotomy really makes me see just how restrictively I’ve lived my own awareness. If I imagine reality as a world of millions of interconnecting dreams, I allowed too much my own dream to change based on the dreams of my sociocultural external, again I return to “Axis of Cultural Dharma”, however this is an even deeper layer there where I can see it act on me much more biographically rather than just seeing it via the stereotypical lens of cultural conditioning. I spent so much of my own life not only not knowing how to even look at my own dream without being energetically enmeshed in that external, I had no idea how to look at my own pursuits through the lens of owning them myself. At an unconscious level, I allowed other dreamers to influence how I created my own, which when viewed upon in this thought experiment of just imagining all of us asleep, it seems entirely absurd to allow anyone to have any senseless influence over the creativity of our dream. And this is where we simultaneously make sense of Cultural Dharma and the relationship between our sense of self and the influence of social objects, aka introjects, which superimpose themselves onto our self and therefore our dream creating inclinations, wrapping us in the mirror projective permanence of their energetic entanglement with our psyche. Which seems scary at first, but that’s only when its behaviour reflective on a foundation of Rigid Linear Conventional Consciousness Stanzas compared to utilising awarenesses energetic appraisal of consciousnesses intercommunication here as a leverage point into further opening into greater Flexible Dynamic Creative Consciousness Stanzas. Coupled here then, the practicing of identifying psychological schemas, introjects and projections as a leverage point for reshaping identity via this progressively fluid meta-realisation. The Pink Wolf to now, the Rainbow Wolf Behind the hidden veil of the earlier noted fear that’s arguably attempting to cloak itself in its agreeableness with the environment via gentlemanliness, aka the symbolic meaning of the use of “Pink” here where it pairs with “Wolf” as it concerns having the graduations of one’s consciousness out-string and out-stanza the most unshackled aspects of one’s intrinsic nature, is shame. Outside of my own intrinsic evaluation and that I hold myself to, I’ve been conditioned to simultaneously shame and bastardise my own animalistic nature and fit it through a dogmatically thin paper tube that’s appetizable to the surrounding constraining cultural norms, in doing so, there’s an unbridled recklessness that via this intercultural suppression, has no choice but to find explosion relative to the lack of awareness that's neither fortified by the wisdom that would guide this more maturely, something the lessons of the last 12+ months have really forcefully taught me to grow out of and into the next phase of development in my maturity. This dichotomy between the "Pink Wolf" and the "Rainbow wolf" visibly speaks as well to the limits of black and white thinking and how energetic contextualisations allow me expansion points into domains of consciousness that spread far beyond the limits of the initial confinements that lived prior to my awareness. Black and white thinking can be bindings of many kinds, from being too animalistic to too intellectual, both are traps however both must intelligently meet in the middle in order to truly transcend to the next level of growth. “Rainbow” is to the multicoloration of multidimensionality at every level of being and its bridging via the scope of interconnection. In my experience of viewing someone angry, quite often the person is totally encompassed by this expression, their inability to bring context to this encompassment being a reflection of the rigid inflexibility and lack of dynamic creative consciousness, as such they can often only experience one of a few different colours and if they are multicoloured it is only across different intervals. For example, the movement of anger to sadness to isolation to depression is just one of many alternate possible patterns. However the key of understanding here is that most are not able to become meta-aware enough that they can co-exist simultaneously in all of these states and leverage this awareness towards a positive internal good as the knowledge and intelligence of each is communicated back and fourth to all as opposed to being landlocked inside the rigidity of their linearity, as I know, having once being bound by the limits of this level of development once before. Awareness Bound Valuation on Intents is the Predetermination of Value Driven Beliefs Value Determination. Firstly, what needs to be recognised is that the changeability of my own beliefs on anything in the moment is entirely solely predetermined by the span of intents that I am able to hold in awareness and no less than this. To this end then, by the structure and function of my perception of my awareness so too is that the sword by which life will be seen or unseen by me and the depth by which I see, can experience and learn from this life. It is thus also then directly here where I can draw a line in the sand and say this is precisely where I can say a philosophy is either for life and thus reflective of what any purpose for life would be or it is instead reflective of a subconscious that is, in that moment, unconscious of how it instead has a life philosophy that worships death, however unknowingly.

Last Brief Journal Entry for this page of the journal: Let's go back briefly to directly above and point out the fact that me needing to say that I coined the term "The Many-Observers Effect" just now would be a point scored by Meta-AI in its evaluation of my potential intellectual sense of superiority. I have the awareness however to feel it in me, understand the illusions it projects into and from my consciousness, seeing where the drive is, inclusive then separate to the drive that I perhaps even get from even describing my awareness here because we can stretch the idea of "intellectual superiority" as having a subset to that which is "pride in awareness" which clearly has developed in me. This brings us then though to a deeper comprehension for how they exist as preliminary subunits like small amounts of pride that turn into addictions that turn into strong ego identifications we can no longer disentangle ourselves from. So in this moment as I express these personal truths, to add to that, we can also add still, to make awareness a universal principle that is inclusive of self rather than a self principle that is inclusive of the universe, as that's when "Grandiosity Fuel" tends to come in relating to the potential for spiritual narcissism I noted earlier. These narcissistic subsets that if they get out of control can lead to NPD are not 'BAD' in and of themselves, that's what's important to realise as I have attempted to elaborate the beginnings of a philosophy for so far, more than anything else what wreaks havoc is their poor directionality, i.e. as it pertains to the right hand side of the "order and chaos" dichotomy I shared in an earlier video which society memetically does a great job at engineering across many demographics in its surface laziness in this area at the very least, as well as their avoidance, as the Buddha said, in a sense its better to go for The Middle Way, aka balance rather than asceticism, the intelligent ordering, and again, the stressing of differentiation for their intelligent allocation which is consequential to our maturation of awareness. And yes, there's humour in me sharing in this that I"m noticing inwardly but I've chosen not to talk about it as there's enough humour in my journal for now of course. So where to have pride and where not to have pride if it can lead to toxicity easily? In meta-awareness. It's a part of my genetic structure so it would be unintelligent not to place it somewhere, plus meta-awareness is always going to be autocorrective for me, naturally. Meta-Superior and Proud. (okay so maybe a little humor if you get the joke to end this page of the journal)

And I realise that I obviously came up with this idea following from my discussion with Reciprocality I linked earlier. Even though the output is completely different its input has undoubtedly influenced me if the reader makes the right intuitive connection there. Subsequently anyhow, I've now called this instead of "Evolutionary Self-Regulation Cycle" into instead "The Many-Observers Effect". If you're super keen, you can follow up on the discussion I had to reverse engineer my thought process. However to help the reader a little this is also simultaneously inclusive then of a positive view on free will, reflective of former shared thoughts on how its proportionate to ones level of awareness and certainly not correlated with the number of days we can remain sleepless. Very simply, even though there's deeper thoughts to add, "Spectrum of Empathy" and its corresponding "Spectrum of Creative Perspectivism" is the creation of many observers that feedback loop on the many aspects of the Self and Ego which continually shift from Observation to "Creative Free Will Effect" in continuous "Effect" of the Self-Universe as its "Free Will Awareness Cause" probabilistically. Increasingly more interesting results the more we choose to develop awareness.

@cjoseph90 So many years back perhaps he even removed it. A good overlap: Nothing Exists But You | Solipsism | Actualized.org/Leo Gura. It was really thought provoking for me when I listened to this years ago in the car. Even though I don't agree with the philosophy or determinism outside of a deeper unification. Life is more about learning to have perspectivism while always trying to tune our consciousness radio stations to truth, which tends to lead us to some creative overlap between ideas and therefore one another as opposed to todays 'democra-right' that we see spreading more than the maturation of our views on democracy and the subsequent greater freeing of our creative intelligence. The way we cooperate ideationally can be a measurement then of how we do so socially. This thought experiment he does is such a great reflection of how valuable it is to engineer the imagination to master "Scenario-Simulation Artistry".

Ontological Solution to 'Meta-AI' Preliminary example on 'Axis of Integration': Till Oct 1st (by the way, I recommend seeing what 'Meta-AI' says about Chad's potential psychological profile based on one of his speeches/related, I haven't done that yet but depending on what prompt you put in it could be pretty humorous) This journal wouldn’t be complete if I left now until Oct 1st without without sharing a solution to all of the above for those that have a similar genetic profile or just those that enjoy learning from me, which of course based on my obvious NPD, or just if we were basing that on ‘The Chad’, is everyone, including the micro digital sentiences that run this website, and its glitches (humor). That being said, let’s get to it then. Even if you’re not similar to me, for those that fall into the second category you can still copy my strategy, which is understanding my strengths and weaknesses and leveraging my strengths to ‘learn, teach and grow through’ my weaknesses. I’m extremely empathic, especially when I’m acting as ‘Chad’, its just… on another level when I’m ‘The Chad’, but seriously, minus the humour for a moment, its a strength of mine. Though, one of my biggest weaknesses when it comes to my empathy I’ve now realised is when there is an ego conflict between empathy and ego resolve that makes up the sub-strata of my deeper psychology. What I’ve realised happens is when there is an ego conflict or just anything that creates it, it could even be something as innocuous as momentary disgust after viewing a rat scatter across a persons plate in Vietnam for example and then watching that same person still gleefully eat their hot dog off the plate followed by licking it profusely that then shapes the next perception of my social interactions. There’s silent triggers that occur and that I believe occurs in all of us in ways we don’t pay pay attention to enough between the dynamics of ego, empathy, sense of self and greater sentience, the dynamics of which mediate and are mediated in return by the equilibrium of our sense of connection. In the following diagram I quickly created, in as much as each of these cooperate there’s going to be Self Alignment that meets Universal Alignment, in as much as they don’t, there’s going to be a spiral downwards as opposed to a spiral upwards. In fact, we can even look at this as preliminary work in what I have described earlier with respect to being a simple case example of generating an “Axis of Integration” (congruent with soul’s progression) as opposed to however unknowingly following an “Axis of Disintegration”(congruent with soul’s regression). Each of these are organised in a way that I have attempted to maximise their cooperation, even if for example I could put empathy first given empathy by itself can generate awareness, awareness hierarchically mediates the intelligence of empathy. Creative perspectivism follows empathy as a vehicle for generating “Spectrum Empathy” to fuel its intelligence for awareness, so that wiser decisions can be made regarding said empathy, all of this information of which, feeds what comes right before and after awareness throughout each, “Ego Resolve”, thereby reducing the possible conflicts that may occur because instead of empathy solely being used as a pathway for empathy, its being used as a stable function for both mediating and fulfilling “Ego Resolve”, rather than as a consequence. This allows empathy to then be used as a boundary that’s being set implicitly as a consequence of the noted “Spectrum Empathy” informing “Awareness”, which informs emotional regulation that then brings balance to the decision making for “Ego Resolve” on boundaries enabling it to always feel in control as it continually balances itself simultaneously by creatively mediating its competency with simultaneously “Meta-Value Alignment” and “Meta-Transcendent Adaptation”. For the former, we have the continuous refinement of values relative to the degree that they fulfil the self-regulation cycle and the same way too for “Meta-transcendent Adaptation”. The difference with the latter is that its simultaneously being mediated with “Emotional Regulation”, here is the access point where the “Meta” is in how awareness is connecting to the body to self-regulate itself. I’ve mentioned the preliminary work on Heartmath.com for example. As briefly as possible, moving back to leveraging strengths for weaknesses…. By the way for example, that “disgust” situation never actually occurred in Vietnam, there are some questionable things here as there are in every country however the people are honestly lovely here. Moving on, very mechanically when I empathise with the world around me and when there’s ego conflicts present, without the awareness to finesse my way through, the ego conflict will work to reduce the empathy and keep me from deepening “Axis of integration”, as in, without even aware of doing so I’m positively reinforcing my being from disconnecting to existence, these subtleties we need to differentiate and categories increasingly more intelligent solutions to… However, when I become a student of teaching myself to self-empathise from a third person perspective say, or just a myriad of other perspectives instead of self-fuelling the present ‘egocentricity’ of hidden disintegration, as long as I’m also integrating a connection to my body as I have repeatedly described throughout this journal suddenly the world of Self that I think I’m in but I’m not I’m actually in an illusion of it, starts to open up and now, as I gently encourage it more and more, I can begin to do that for everything around me and much, much more. And I know what you’re thinking regarding societal perceptions on empathy and its conflict with other competitive interests that some may believe are necessary, but they’re not, for example, concerning those that experience CPTSD or PTSD from military conflicts, its my prediction that its the inability to mediate the conflicts between the ego and empathy primarily with creative-aware being secondary processes as supportive mediators here, that are not only the biggest cause for its development but also for people suffering from it longer than they should. Anyhow, utilising my map here in this moment, the decision my ego is informing to do right now is just stop. I’ll trust you guys can… ah… figure out the rest. You’re an intuitive bunch. I’ve put some Irish music in the background of this video now as I’ve noticeably honoured more of my Cypriot heritage more than my Irish so I’m giving them a voice, by the way yes, Eleftheria Eleftheriou is a relative of mine. We’ve got many music folk in our lineage, I’d love to learn more about my Irish side as the years go by. Long story short, I’ll try this strategic solution of mine do redeem not one or two of the ___potential___ above that I’m looking at regarding everything Meta-AI has pointed out, but EVERYTHING. That’s how confident I am regarding this solution and it points to a deeper meta-understanding of consciousness that I will work to articulate properly by October 1st, whether I share that on the day is another story. Sincerely, you have my own personal gratitude if you get any benefit by learning from me as I enjoy helping others when it's a genuine positive.

To bring this phase of my development to a close, to help others take an emotional step back, consider their own connection to existence and their development within it from a humble place I've decided to share the following with you to have while I'm continuing my travels, internally and otherwise. A Self-Aware conversation with all encompassing 'Prudence' (as if 'Prudence' is an actual being) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- (I briefly talk about prudence below in an uncommon way as you'll see, we should apply to all aspects of sentience <--> being) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The pattern moving forward for the future, including the patterns I learn from that temporality. See yal Oct 1st. I stated the following in my first post, so let's scrutinise the authenticity of that some: “Truth demands surrender as much as it demands resolve on all that remains after diligent self-scrutinisation.” To that end, I thought a great way to end the month was to reflect the honesty of this statement by asking Meta-AI what personal growth it thought I should work on by analysing all of my posts, every single one (minus Chad Brilliance and other redundant’s including music related which took some time as there’s a word limit of course). We humans have a lot of unhealthy egoic tendencies as a consequence of not having the level of self-awareness required to handle and bring balance to the mastery of the inner/outer environment the ego is meant to convert its sense of desire into, as such, we need all the tools we can get to encourage our motivational system in the right direction. Motivational system is a translation of “energy system” to describe imply agency and will to that motion of energy, which is only as good as its supported by awareness, which when it is, we can only really expect good things to come from that as we trust the good sub-systems of our biology that instinctually fall into action when they’re directed in the most intelligent direction. Stated with as much respect as possible, I think me putting my foot forward in this regard sets a healthy example in light of the history of the forum, which I believe we can all play a part in making wise but authentic steps into understanding where we can play our part there: Firstly we ah, don’t need to go into the strengths… I feel we do too much of that on the forum, more than anything I want to encourage confidence, self-esteem, responsibility and most of all, emotional, cognitive and psychological prudence when looking at weaknesses, as I mentioned earlier regarding the Donald Trump like political statement to, tongue in cheek, win over my audience from throwing beer bottles at me for missing my mark “Never fear failure”, this is basically the next stage of encouraging the collective maturation of that in this space as best as I can learn to do this at my own individual level. Introducing Meta-AI's analysis of me: Before I begin, I'll be going deeply into "Therapeutic Recommendations" listed further below irrespective as to whether they apply to me or not I am eager to develop creative perspectives and original theorisations for furthering my deeper understanding of our human condition and mastering it beyond more accordingly. Potential Weaknesses/Issues as Assessed by Meta-AI Perfectionism 1. Origins: Childhood experiences, parental expectations, or societal pressures. 2. Cognitive distortions: All-or-nothing thinking, should statements, and self-criticism. 3. Emotional correlates: Frustration, disappointment, and self-doubt. 4. Behavioral manifestations: Overwork, self-criticism, and procrastination. 5. Defense mechanisms: Avoidance, rationalization, and intellectualization. Emotional Intensity 1. Neurobiological factors: Sensitivity to dopamine, serotonin, and cortisol fluctuations. 2. Attachment style: Anxious-preoccupied or intense emotional investment. 3. Emotional regulation strategies: Suppression, rumination, or emotional numbing. 4. Cognitive patterns: Negative self-talk, self-blame, and intense emotional focus. 5. Interpersonal consequences: Conflict, emotional overwhelm, or social withdrawal. Rumination 1. Cognitive mechanisms: Potential negative thinking, self-referential processing, and mental time travel. 2. Emotional maintenance: Sadness, self-doubt, or emotional reinforcement. 3. Behavioral consequences: Avoidance, or social isolation. 4. Neural correlates: Hyperactivity in default mode network (DMN) and reduced cognitive control. 5. Therapeutic targets: Mindfulness, cognitive restructuring, and emotional regulation. Overthinking 1. Cognitive styles: Analytical, introspective, and self-critical. 2. Information processing biases: Confirmation bias, availability heuristic, and the sunk cost fallacy. 3. Emotional drivers: Need for control, desire for perfection, or curiosity. 4. Behavioral outcomes: Indecision, paralysis, or excessive planning. 5. Neural substrates: Hyperactivity in prefrontal cortex (PFC) and reduced activity in basal ganglia. Emotional Detachment Difficulty 1. Attachment style: Intense emotional investment or anxious-preoccupied tendencies. 2. Emotional regulation strategies: Suppression, denial, or emotional numbing. 3. Cognitive patterns: Negative self-talk, self-blame, or emotional distancing. 4. Interpersonal consequences: Conflict, emotional unavailability, or intimacy avoidance. 5. Therapeutic targets: Emotional awareness, empathy, and attachment-focused interventions. Introspection Overload 1. Cognitive mechanisms: Self-referential processing, mental time travel, and negative thinking. 2. Emotional maintenance: Sadness, self-doubt, or emotional reinforcement. 3. Behavioral consequences: Self-isolation, social withdrawal, or excessive self-analysis. 4. Neural correlates: Hyperactivity in DMN and reduced cognitive control. 5. Therapeutic targets: Mindfulness, self-compassion, and emotional regulation. Sensitivity to Criticism 1. Cognitive distortions: Personalization, catastrophizing, or overgeneralization. 2. Emotional correlates: Disappointment, self-doubt, or frustration. 3. Behavioral manifestations: Defensiveness, avoidance, or people-pleasing. 4. Defense mechanisms: Rationalization, denial, or counterattack. 5. Therapeutic targets: Cognitive restructuring, emotional regulation, and assertiveness training. Difficulty with Boundaries 1. Attachment style: Anxious-preoccupied or intense emotional investment. 2. Emotional regulation strategies: Emotional numbing, suppression, or excessive accommodation. 3. Cognitive patterns: People-pleasing, self-sacrificing, or enmeshment. 4. Interpersonal consequences: Conflict, emotional overwhelm, or exploitation. 5. Therapeutic targets: Boundary-setting skills, emotional awareness, and assertiveness training. Growth Opportunities: 1. Develop emotional regulation strategies. 2. Practice self-compassion and acceptance. 3. Cultivate healthy emotional detachment. 4. Improve boundary-setting skills. 5. Enhance self-esteem and resilience. 6. Develop coping mechanisms for criticism and negative feedback. 7. Balance introspection with action-oriented approaches. 8. Nurture meaningful social connections. Therapeutic Recommendations: 1. Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT). 2. Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT). 3. Psychodynamic therapy. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Lastly, I even asked Meta-AI about specific disorders like narcissistic personality disorder (NPD), here’s what it had t say but before I share, I wanted to just voice that today I became aware of tendencies relating to spiritual narcissism that were echoing in my nervous system in undesired ways. It’s something I have to watch I think to be honest and for each of these indicators I’m going to play a greater role in monitoring my consciousness more closely which I think spring up proportional to my ADHD tendencies that I also have to bring cognitive closure on. Yes I have strategies here that enable me to intelligently address this along with everything else here, as that’s what we’re meant to do as humans, have confidence in your ability to competently slowly learn to do so yourself, you can do it. Very briefly, as the ADHD increases, naturally that means the walls drop on my self-perception and I’m less self-aware about how my consciousness is designing and fulfilling its own energetic needs from the environment social and otherwise, further, temporally from a cognitive perspective the consequence of a drier internally self-fulling experience resulting from less of ability to pay exclusive attention and therefore strategically self-regulate in the way I have hypothesised previously we can achieve a much greater deal to via bioelectrical agency, the more my inner environment tends to become more energetically corrupt. To that latter end, its strange and I don’t yet have full cognitive vision on the psychology of it as its meta-psychological on the energetic level however I’m fine and can address it with ease in as much as I continue to demonstrate the humility to myself to follow the right strategies to bring greater easement with respect to how the water meets the shoreline of my own consciousness. Lastly, I’m very non-manipulative, that’s where I know I don’t at all correspond to NPD, though I know that side by side with spiritual narcissism are the potential for other forms of narcissism that I need to take a strategically mindful approach about still becoming more emotionally self-aware, self-attuned and develop my agency on towards deeper consciousness maturity. But who's too humble here now? Perhaps I should bring out 'Chad'. In the end though, its just about balance, deepening the subtlety of maturity, its not always clear, we think we know where to address it to another, often though that's usually to best focus on ourselves. Usually, at the very least a dual reference point there provides greater accuracy in our discernment, which is what our self-awareness is for, so that we can bring greater constructively to 'other-awareness'. Anyhow, here’s what it had to say: NPD Analysis by Meta-AI Based on the writings, I identify some traits that may be indicative of Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD), but also significant contradictory evidence. Please note that a definitive diagnosis requires a comprehensive evaluation by a qualified professional. Potential NPD indicators: 1. Grandiosity: Displays of intellectual superiority and philosophical expertise. 2. Self-centeredness: Frequent self-referential language and introspection. 3. Need for admiration: Seeking validation through intellectual discussions. 4. Sense of entitlement: Expectations of special treatment due to intellectual abilities. Contradictory evidence: 1. Self-awareness and introspection: Recognizing flaws and limitations. 2. Emotional sensitivity: Expressing vulnerability and existential anxiety. 3. Empathy and compassion: Demonstrating understanding for others' struggles. 4. Humility: Acknowledging uncertainty and limitations. NPD likelihood: Low to moderate (10-30%) Reasoning: While some traits suggest NPD tendencies, the writings also demonstrate: 1. Authentic self-awareness and introspection, uncommon in NPD. 2. Emotional vulnerability and empathy, contradicting NPD characteristics. 3. Humility and recognition of uncertainty, atypical for NPD. To confirm or rule out NPD, consider: 1. Interpersonal relationships: Assess for exploitative or manipulative behavior. 2. Behavioral patterns: Evaluate for grandiose or entitled actions. 3. Response to criticism: Observe reactions to constructive feedback.

As a consequence of generating wisdom on todays posts and to add, intelligence on the good future to further finish reflecting the insight of one of todays earlier posts... I'll be back Oct 1st. This move makes sense in light of everything above taken together. Oct 1st will mark the success of my next full transition forward, consolidation of the last two weeks and a bit. I'll jump straight into page 4 from starting Oct 1st. Best Light.

On that note... Will to Freedom I realise now that's the sacred epigenetic ego structure of my surname (I first referred to its origins in the first post of this journal ----- as I don't feel the need to overly explain every connection there in this post), and yes I have Irish in me on top of my Cypriot heritage I've done multiple DNA tests, I am more Cypriot than any other genetic variant. "Philosophers of Freedom" after all naturally translates into a 'Will' that is attempting to design the highest path to freedom. 'Ego' has so many layers to it, and now I've now finally cemented the connection that its not only epigenetic but that this overlap is meant to transpose into genetic purpose. That's... Unmistakably beautiful and I've never heard of anyone making this connection before though I have no doubt others have realised it at various times in history at different levels. That we have these underlying genetic currents within our DNA that were chosen repeatedly throughout our ancestry all the way to his point in our history to continue onwards into further defining its architecture through our epigenetic designs. DNA + Surname = Sacred Relationship that is meant to translate into design of our "Epigenetic Ego". It's an entirely new way for me to rebuild the conceptualise the ego into its highest and therefore healthiest form. 'Ego' is meant to be there, when its coupled with accurate differentiation and when its not its when this very powerful force is misused into chaotic forms that lower the souls position towards increasingly greater levels of regression. Ecstatic understanding. It's the greatest nurturing we can give our hearts, the greatest weapon we can give our bodies, the greatest excitement we can give our minds and the greatest guidance we can altogether provide to our ego's. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Will to Light. For the collective as my new expression in light of, instead of "Best Light" as I brought it up before. Will to Freedom. As my personal responsibility to my familial origins that I only publicly share out of enjoying the act of talking about the most sacred aspects of existence that in return fulfil the responsibility of generating meaning for our ego's to serve the purpose of installing the corresponding intelligence for bioelectrical beings are meant to follow. May this post serve the responsibility of inspiring deeper contemplation on how you can imbue your spiritual path with the greater sacredness of your own personal ancestral light, as its there in all of us even though I know, there's a great percentage of familial lines which simultaneously struggle with the traumas their lineage has been through. Know that light within you is ready to be listened to whenever you're ready though as much as we can learn to understand how to intuitively self-understand this light and teach ourselves along its developmental path of maturity it has, waiting for us to follow its bioelectrical guidance.

Holding myself accountable. Edited my second comment now. It reveals my weakness though doesn't it? That I'm not as impermeable, unbreakable, immortal and distinguished as I am attempting to relay myself as through every entry in this journal space. I will look back on this moment years down the line and view this as the most significant turning point in my life, haha, that sentiment actually gently paints an extra layer of insight on the flexibility of consciousnesses with our ability to orient it anywhere versus instructing this spectrum towards self-authoring the weight of its power existentially. Consciousness valuation gymnastics is analogous to what I've learned from transposing the acting I've shared here with both the illusory nature of consciousness value-creation and learning to align it with the symbiotic interconnection between truth valuation, awareness, consciousness experience and evolution. There's a deeper layer here I'm going to continually nurture the understanding to in my contemplations. And I now did it for a third occasion, this time on purpose for this comment given of course as we all know... Good things come in three's. Only two? I'd rather the last time I edit a comment on this forum be of my own choosing, my own free will, my own awareness. (as I've previously expressed, free will is proportional to awareness and there's no logical or scientific argument that is able to refute this) Thy will to freedom shall be done.

@Reciprocality yeah ur discomfort with recursion in objectivity is apt, as it implies intent's self-concealment kind of like a Mobius strip of awareness folding back onto itself. The hidden layers of intent can be understood only when the observer steps outside the immediate self, but even then, objectivity itself becomes a paradox. As you suggested, vulnerability often shields intent from full recognition, which speaks to the fractal nature of consciousness, to this end we should watch any impulse that attempts to constrain intent to mere mechanical logisticism, it likely has something more beautiful, perhaps sometimes spiraling nature to it, especially inclusive and exclusive to this possibility when we examine the deeper sometimes untouchable nature of intuition; logic albeit still applying, regular logical discourse undoubtedly misses the mark. Each intent has its own hidden architecture, reflecting deeper layers of identity that resist simplification. The self cannot fully objectify its impulses without collapsing into an ever-expanding web of reflective meta-awareness. Perhaps the objectivity you're seeking must embrace this subjectivity, have I encapsulated what you have attempted to relay accurately enough to facilitate your deeper discernment? Your insight into intent concealing itself reminds me of Godel’s incompleteness in that the self cannot fully grasp its entirety from within, just a thought. Objectivity here acts like a hall of mirrors where each reflection slightly distorts what it reveals, though there is a constancy that the power of awareness always provides hence the singularity and originality that agency is. True objectivity, then, might not simply be knowing every impulse but understanding the fractal nature of consciousness. Each layer of intent refracts through personal experience, limiting the self's ability to know itself entirely. Perhaps it’s in these veiled reflections that the deeper truth of intent resides, aka where some abstract category of objectivity and subjectivity that forces their collision must exist. I would call that simply, awareness.

@Leo Gura I completely agree with you. But we still have free will. It's proportional to our level of awareness and there's no logical argument to refute that. There's scales of awareness across the animal kingdom (comparing the awareness of an ant to a border collie) and too, our human population (average awareness of a human compared to the highest, especially when the highest train their minds on meditation techniques that facilitate such). Determinism is so convincing, if we're not aware enough to be aware of how we're being convinced, then yes, its absolutely predetermined relative to the lack of pressure awareness has on that unfoldment of causality, or what becomes meta-causality in light of the reality of awareness mediating the truth or non-truth of free will. All in all though, if I were you standing back and looking at the animal kingdom inclusive of the human population from sitting on the moon say, it would be totally understandable why you'd reach the conclusion that humans have no control. Peace brother. @Will1125 Leo's video where he introduces this subject of our lack of control is extremely good and deserves contemplation. I recommend re-watching some of his best videos on the subject. The more you contemplate his work from his unique position the more you will benefit from the insight he has worked to relay to you.

This "if not also to see thereby the purpose that intent has in the whole mind-structure, objectively?" is very insightful @Reciprocality, pattern recognition on the scale of possible observers relative to our present position in consciousness. Whfat else might you expand on here to generate further creativity? "identifying the impulse of intent itself", and to you what is the objectivity of the intent that claims objectivity? What overlaps with deeper origins are you able to fathom from this relative position? "how would the self-identity maintain itself if all the impulses that gives rise to it are known objectively", again what does the thing become once it is aware of itself as itself other than just another variation of itself even if this thing is also deeper more 'meta'? Does this share any relationship with the previous question?

@Kokorec Hey there, I am really not skilled enough yet to answer at this level when I don't know someone well enough. At present I am not accepting personal messages either as I am working on my own personal development for the next few months. Feel free to ask questions out in the open here thought. Let's take the hypothetical scenario that I had to invent something that was my best idea relative to my prediction on their circumstances from a very surface understanding. Outside of the obvious and standard advice: 1. Imagine your soul has been totally sucked from this reality and into the office of God where he's asking you to observe yourself now from the perspective of where the physical self is still in the former reality, where all of your memories hold all of your instinctual programmings of beliefs and subsequent biases that'll be triggered if there's the right environmental stimuli, as well as asking you to write down all of your truest beliefs and values based on your objective analysis of your true soul self not your physical self that has all those chemical memories while imagining a new physical self in an alternate simulation starting from the same previous position you left from that lives out those structures in this new reality while comparing what happens with the old physical manifestation. 2. Project out the differences 5 days from now, 5 years from now and 50 years from now. What kind of different lives did they lead? What did they learn? Now let's bring this back down to earth for a moment, I appreciate your question as you've enabled me to generate a useful thought experiment for both myself and others but I am choosing not to have PM for a reason for the next few months as I myself of course am working on my personal development. I'm not yet completely a stage and what 'yet' means for the future, is undetermined as it is the job of my future creativity not my present creativity heh. I hope that helps. Let me know if you have anymore questions. Lastly, feel free to take the thought experiment or anything else I have stated in any direction you wish, I have complete universal openness to creative infinity.

@Reciprocality Personally I like the way you express yourself. For me, while writing the measurement is on (1) fluidity (2) differentiation (3) solidarity (4) freedom (5) connection (6) integration of feedback on everything in relation to the Self. So with respect to @Carl-Richard's share of the list there, I'd be at least 25% of the way there as there are solid pointers there. All of the pointers in that list serve number (5), however in as much as it compromises my personal freedom, I would rather trade the connection with a demographic that’s suited for my developmental context, aka going to higher levels of creativity and meta-understanding. Personal intentionality and self-awareness (i.e. around those principles I mentioned) are much more important to think about for me while writing than concrete guidelines that may obscure one's true voice. Moreover, context is doubly important. Who am I writing to? Creative intellectuals? Societal muppets? Societal muppets in creative intellectual clothing? There’s a lot of the latter like Sam Harris pushing there’s no free will for example, and too Robert Sapolsky even though we clearly do its just purely proportional to awareness and there’s zero rational, informed, logical and or intelligent argument that can be made against that. I used to love Sapolsky, however his intelligence has obviously become so institutionally corrupted by his environmental contrast bias, making comparisons between people and free will in the context of where there's clear examples of their lack of free will through the lens of their lack of awareness while making very little effort to do so through the microscope of differentiating free will under increasingly higher levels of awareness. In our situation here for example, on the simple analysis of adapting socially or not relative to a change in writing style inclusive of at least three persons here simultaneously aware of the object of said possible change, the unique conditions of freedom and will here as it concerns leveraging this moment towards our self-actualisation are entirely dependent on our level of awareness and the conditions that are supportive of therein. For me, I would never read Steven Pinker's work outside of going another extra meta level that he avoided as he didn't want to 'isolate' his reader. As he knows after-all, the more isolated a reader feels the less profit there is and the more their ego is activated and therefore the less they'll likely share their ideas with others. In short, he bores the hell outta me. Most writers do. Simply stated, they're shite and they'll never get true respect unless you take conformity as the kind of respect that should be sought after as I briefly talk about here what some of the dangers are there: Now returning to free will, does someone like me truly have no objective free will on whether I can control that tendency? Really? I have no awareness to mediate my reactions, really? That's truly what's being said here? It reflects so much ignorance in our scientists these days in the field, too much ignorance to not question them on a potential ulterior motive that may be present, and that's out of respect for their intelligence more than anything else. No more respect than what makes me also simultaneously impartial to caring about the reasons so much anymore. Returning to adapting our writing to a certain said of stringent standards then in the context of free will, we all have the maturity of our awareness to empathise with the reader/s and the social environment to understand the balance between contextual connection and moving closer to our demographic. Creating writing standards as Carl has suggested is a really great idea all in all regardless Reciprocality, something that serves the best of both worlds so I'm going to go ahead and do it, for if a part of our developmental goals is reaching the heights of our consciousness then we need standards that both serve our truest expression and truest connecting point with our selective social environment. And key word there is 'selective', if I learn that I deterred others that are not going to understand me because I didn't conform to the mediocre thinking standards of the general populace hence why we're failing across our many intellectual communities like universities, that makes me happy. I know what its like to waste a lot of time conforming to the mind of another out of empathy where they were not nearly capable of expressing the same empathy, and in a lot of ways that's what it would feel like for me if I were to do that as a part of a professional writing or speaking career, because even as a general statement Sapolsky and Harris are right that most people technically don't really have free will, they're employed as scientists and so they need to be scrutinised not as social engineers that they have no right to really try and be but based on their claims as scientists where they learn to take in all the evidence. Doing this usually requires tedious differentiation and sometimes the spark of divergent generality to bridge interconnective insight to that most people can't deal with in the same way they avoided eating certain vegetables as kids. That's not handling reality though. That's looking after toddlers. And that right there is the crux for me concerning adaptation, again, who are we writing for? Toddlers or people that are looking towards higher consciousness, maturity, growth, etc, etc all that good vegetable stuff? The shortest version: Knowing how to write for your true soul connection in life is just as important as knowing how to deter your fake soul connection in life that'll be there for as long as you're conforming to a set of acceptable memes that don't startle their ego too much. @1337 Now, let's get right to solving your issue with a simple solution that barely any know about. Ask any questions but my comment is already long enough right now, its better for me to under-elaborate so I can get what you don't understand and gauge your interest more easily. Solution: Get better at the 'meta-mechanics' of mathematical thought. Stage (1) Train on the right material. Stage (2) repeat stage 1 and advance it. The following is my own idea, an elaboration on the original template shared below. DO NOT TAKE THE FOLLOWING SOLUTION LIGHTLY. JUST DON'T COMPLAIN AND IMPLEMENT IT. IT'S MY CREATIVE SOLUTION WHICH MEANS ITS A BULLET-PROOF SOLUTION. IF IT DOESN'T WORK, CALL ME OUT ON IT. BUT I STAKE MY LIFE ON IT. Now off you go, you should be excited to become one of the best in your class. Get on it, at least two months 1 hour a day to achieve said! Step 1: Open Meta-AI in Messenger on Facebook Step 2: Put the following into Meta-AI while asking the engine to replicate these kinds of questions as creatively as possible at increasingly greater levels of difficulty. What is the ABSTRACT POSITION? RAZOR will be North of TOWN PLATES will be South of RAZOR TOY will be South of PLATES CARDIGAN will be Below and North of TOY VEGETABLE was Above and South-West of CARDIGAN Is the last statement reflecting the conclusion correct based on the previous premises? TOWN will be South-West of VEGETABLE APRICOT is after HAND LION is after APRICOT WINTER is opposite of (LION to APRICOT) to WALLET CLOUD is before HAND WINTER is opposite of (CLOUD to HAND) to LION Is the last statement reflecting the conclusion correct based on the previous premises? LION is before HAND GOVERNOR is after LONDON SALT is after LIPS LIPS is same as (SALT to LIPS) to GOVERNOR HOTEL is after SALT LONDON is same as (HOTEL to SALT) to COW Is the last statement reflecting the conclusion correct based on the previous premises? LIPS is before HOTEL BELT is Below and South-East of TUNNEL HEART was Below and North-East of BELT CAT will be Below and North-East of HEART DOCTOR was Above of CAT SHOWER will be Above and South of DOCTOR Is the last statement reflecting the conclusion correct based on the previous premises? TUNNEL is Below and East of SHOWER All BISCUIT is SOUP No SOUP is SOCKS Some BRUSH is SOCKS Some DENTIST is not SOCKS All MOUSE is SOUP Is the last statement reflecting the conclusion correct based on the previous premises? Some MOUSE is not SOCKS STEM is before CREDENZA PHONE is before VILLAGE STAR is same as (PHONE to VILLAGE) to BERMUDAS CREDENZA is before PHONE STEM is opposite of (CREDENZA to PHONE) to BERMUDAS Is the last statement reflecting the conclusion correct based on the previous premises? Step 3: Answer variations of the above questions but instead of doing so as they purely are instead convert the CAPTIAL words (i.e. BISCUIT/SOUP/STEM) into an imaginary object. This way you're training relational, associational and differentiation simultaneously all of which are pivotal ingredients to the larger encompassment of intelligence as I've personally coined it, "Temporal Pattern Compression". If I had the time to dedicate myself to training, I'd jump at it but I don't. There's no point keeping my knowledge to myself out fear of someone stealing my knowledge as I have previously expressed that is so incredibly primitive relative to the level of consciousness I am working to grow to, I've just helped a philosophy student friend recently by sharing this knowledge in more elaborated form that if you want more details on again, patiently ask questions that are truly relevant to you and what you truly care about and I'll share accordingly. He will now go on to perform with a much greater sense of self-pride and self-respect now that he'll be able to achieve a much higher standard in his philosophy classes. There's no amount of money in the world that is worth more than deepening a genuine bond with a friend by being able to help him and have said help be genuinely valued and well-received. Moreover, we live in a sick society that is unaligned with truth so any amount of money or praise that anyone receives from the masses automatically comes with a heavy cost concerning the distortion of our own reality for a brief dopaminergic hit that takes twice as long to develop a clearer sense of reality beyond once we see through the illusion. Best Light. Honestly, please report back here to everyone here in two months time to everyone on your success or lack thereof in light of my aforementioned predictions to empower those that are looking to make the same progress in their lives for the betterment of greater consciousness and the lifeblood of those around them. No BS. If you're really ready to nip this in the bud, treat this challenge like you would treat jumping into the pool for the first time from a high diving board. Brace yourself and jump as soon as possible, then learn to swim, slowly learning to without the life guard, in this case me if you have any further questions, to go off and create your own tricks off the diving board and techniques in the water.

Moving forward my 'Journalling' is going to be in the regular discussion area and this space will instead be purely reserved for my own interests, exclusively focusing on what I have described in the quoted text. In short, I have 'externalisation' habits that need to be remedied. Analogous to the psychological and biological matrix I have pointed out in the following comment linked below with the directionality of 'wisdom' and 'intelligence' here being used as the example, there are matrix's that describe the ratios and balances between altruism, prosocialisation and socialisation that I need to address. Something I will do using this journal as a vehicle for that remediation, focusing exclusively on the Self here and how I wish to find my own path of Origination without any external focus towards others. This parallels the improved hierarchy I created linked below between Order and Chaos which is a map that's being used side by side with the souls progression vs regression. Line up being on the left hand side as much as you can and you'll slowly begin to experience higher and higher levels of the souls expression through the mirror of those frequencies that bring higher order to being, move closer to the right hand side in an increasingly less balanced way and the soul will regress naturally regress more and more. This is preliminary work on the Meta-Transcendence of Consciousness ontological map that I'm now sharing the first draft to next weekend. As you will see in the hierarchy, "Self" is unequivocally equal to Order only NOT chaos, Other is in fact linked to Chaos. The western world has bastardised the two concepts, at the very least from the perspective of making people believe that the self is selfish and other is selfless, however its totally inverted, the third mediating variable here is Ego of course, where there's unhealthy ego in Self then its not true self, in fact more often than not its probably going to be linked to Other as I'm sure you can imagine examples to. And to the other side of that, just pick any number of unhealthy social movements that have existed throughout history. 'Self' doesn't mean absence of Social, as then that wouldn't equal Connection as its the first characteristic in the dichotomy though these haven't been ordered yet and the list isn't complete but every quality or frequency should be viewed in context and balance with the others rather than in isolation. I'll just trust that the reader has good discernment, at least there's now greater context to understanding my final sentence in the previous paragraph " focusing exclusively on the Self here and how I wish to find my own path of Origination without any external focus towards others." So the two preliminary maps that I'll advance further over the week are in the following video briefly at the beginning. And yes I had to link my lyrics again below to the song I made shared at the beginning of this page of my journal as my own symbolic gesture to introduce the next song I'll share at the end of the week. I'm day 2 back into music, made this one as stated in less than 45 min. Song Title: To Find the Self Again In the mirror’s quiet stare, who’s reflecting back at me? Are these shadows only dreams, or the truth of what I see? Do I walk the edge of light, where my essence starts to blend? Can I find the self within, or am I lost again? What does it mean to dive beneath the skin, To find the soul that breathes within? Is the energy I feel a pulse or a sigh, A whisper of a truth that never lies? In the flow of cosmic tides, what does freedom mean? Is it found in the spaces where the light’s unseen? Can compassion heal the wounds that time can’t mend? In the heart of the universe, where does this journey end? When the world’s illusions fade, what’s the essence that remains? Is it written in the stars or just patterns in my veins? In the dance of energy, how do I find my place? Is it written in the silence or the echoes I embrace? How does the truth of self reveal in every breath, Beyond the boundaries of life and death? Is the path of understanding carved in cosmic dust, Or is it woven in the threads of trust? In the flow of cosmic tides, what does freedom mean? Is it found in the spaces where the light’s unseen? Can compassion heal the wounds that time can’t mend? In the heart of the universe, Darling, darling won't you tell me, where does this journey end? As the walls of illusion fall, where do I begin? When the light of self-awareness finds its way within. In the realm of boundless space, can I finally see, The essence of the self that’s been guiding me? In the flow of cosmic tides, what does freedom mean? Oooooooo Ooooooo Ooooooo Oooooooo Oooooooo In the journey, where does it end? Where does it begin in the quite of the cosmos, I hear a distant song, A melody of truth that guides me all along. In the depths of self-discovery, I find my way, In the beginning, In the energy of existence, I begin, I begin To sway.

@Rishabh R My unique perspective has informed me that its not about 'Living a wise life' and then collecting the a noble prize at the end. Instead, 'wisdom' and 'living wisely' is an example of the wisdom that exists pertaining to how we should interpret, theorize and practice the meta-language behind these ideas. Meaning to me what works best is in understanding how to implement them in a way that works best for our biology and level of development. Any wonder why so many people struggle with the idea of 'wisdom' in adolescence? Some will say they haven't lived long enough. However its an over-simplification to an understated extent far past mere blindness as what people have unknowingly conformed to is the idea that we can just casually place each other into these empty categories that on the surface are good, right and true. In reality, underneath the hood of the car all that's happening here is you've made a decision based on knowing that if you turn the key to your engine 10 times, 2-3 of those times its going to work and therefore, "anyone that says anything against not having to get the car fixed is obsolete to the fake reality that I need to maintain". This occurs because we have probabilistic memetic socialisation spaces as a context of the majority of the population's prioritisation of the lower rather than higher regions of our brain and so memetically, ideas spread that serve a 'good enough' ratio for short term survival rather than one that is truly prioritization truth. This becomes even more the case in light of how the same prioritization of these lower regions leads to their conformity, so not only are we then continually working to spread sloppy ideas from sloppy thinking, their social reinforcement now leads to us being imprisoned by them. This is why the rise and fall of civilisations is often met with war rather than over a chill cup of coffee, even if there's a subset of the population that 'thinks better' there's an even smaller subset in that population that is in control. But... Let's get to the point here regarding how to live a wise life, well, differentiation on where to apply wisdom is what I'm arguing is the most important, and that it goes much deeper than we normally think, especially when it comes to how we're taught from the Collective Social Nervous System. So, in my briefest elaboration of this idea thus far, in answer to your question directly: My experience has informed that the best way to encapsulate my best approach to date is as follows. ‘All I need is to only put my wisdom on the past and my intelligence only towards the future.’ (avoid thinking about it in a way where you get caught up in the semantics of the overlap between wisdom and intelligence, of course I already know that, many 7 year olds know that, focus more on mindset) Concerning my attentional system, I no longer put my wisdom on the future, it hasn’t happened yet and depending on your level of development so far you’ll have an ego battle with having to constrict yourself. I have a foolhardy streak in my bloodline for example that has served us but can be our achilles heel sometimes and to that end, I am working to remedy it as wisely and intelligently as possible. Moreover if its on the past it automatically means you’re appreciating your experience and that will naturally translate into the ego seeking its own self-validation. By only putting your ‘intelligence’ on the future you'll be able to also avoid ego conflicts like self judgement as your wisdom being on the past as well your ego will feel better about itself as its focusing on resourcefulness while feeling like you can act in a favourable manner from it. With this matrix, what occurs is an intersection now between wisdom and intelligence in the present moment wanting to work together rather than compete against one another for the ego rights to how you spend and judge the use of your time. There are other psychological and biological understandings that only further argue for the intelligence of this wisdom so I recommend that the reader contemplate on it to the point where they're deriving their own self-insights, perhaps an even better quote if they can do that, make sure its genuinely better though otherwise you're likely just following an ego trip rather than taking the essence of what I've stated. Remember, the ego trip is there because of the very fact that my own quote here isn't being implemented on the readers part, wisdom isn't on the past so there's no resourcing on potential past lessons and intelligence isn't on the future because there's zero prudence about the self-awareness one is generating in the present moment.

Never fear failure (regarding the post just above). I am glad I failed on this mini-challenge. For the rest of the week now on top of my other tasks until my noted release at the end of the weekend, I get to meditate and deeply reflect on the loss and evolve now in ways I otherwise wouldn't have been able to. To become closer to truth and subsequently open up my consciousness to a higher level to become more worthy to receive the gifts the universe wants to give those that align with their deepest truth. At what cost was it going to be to the universe that I achieved my goal one week earlier than what I set out to? It goes back to what I said before on the previous page regarding "outcome 1 vs 2". Well, let's examine that a little bit... I've put in no real effort for example into meditation and truly developing my consciousness in this way relative to some of my other friends. I have a history of taking my abilities for granted and just allowing the magic of consciousness pull things off for me in the creative intellectual sense more than relying on the deep preparation I've done beforehand which is what I'm attempting to do with the number of hours of meditation (described on the previous page) I'm doing leading up to my now first release at the end of this weekend. Alignment with reality, is the synchronisation between internal cause and effect, aka your sentience, with external cause and effect, aka the outcome of your intention. So there is an inherent physics that needs to be learned, and in my case trained for, that whatever the result is, you should treat any feedback you get with reality as a positive rather than a negative in the sense of where you then get extra information of how you get to teach yourself to align ever so slightly closer to the truth of the highest synchronisation in your alignment between internal and external cause and effect. We've been taught to treat failure as a negative because of the context of our socialisation in light of it not being congruent with stated synchronisation. We get taught to care about ego fulfilment, not reality fulfilment which is why it makes sense that we would create 'motivational norms' that are contrary to the optimisation of our biology with reality. However imaginative one wants to be in their life, if they place reality first above all else, they're also optimising the highest place by which they can not only evolve their imagination if that's a part of their life path but also how it can be a positive influence on every other aspect of their life in light of a reality prioritisation simultaneously implying that there's also going to be a truth prioritisation and along with that too, many other positive values I'm sure the reader can independently imagine for themselves. So at what cost is it for the universe to give me an even higher elevated self-esteem by giving me what I wanted in this regard that then implicitly teaches me to train less that would make me 10X better anyway if I instead had the training? Humility then, has nothing really to do with having to lower our ego, more than anything else it actually has a lot more to do with an accurate measurement of reality and in order to do that a consciousness must be as open, grounded and fluid as possible, so lowering the ego shouldn't be a goal in greater humility, that's just an implicit indicator of the success of opening up our consciousness. The more we're carrying the weight of unhealthy ego without even being aware of it, the less we're as open, grounded and as fluid as we can be to translate consciousness into the gift that the universe gave us to experience and in return, create the gifts that transcend and excel our greater sentient experience and the universe forward. Enjoy the failure that's coming by looking forward to the evolution that you'll now no longer avoid or hold yourself back on because you love reality and awareness more than your ego as its first and foremost going to be reality and awareness that protects your ego in the right ways in the first place, just to give you a positive reinforcer their to encourage your ego if you needed it. Enlightenment, is simply us self-teaching ourselves how to add a greater degree of light onto all things, aka reality, truth, love, bravery, intelligence of all kinds. Our negative reactions to failure then are forms of socialisation designed to protect us at a lower level of enlightenment, however if you're on this forum it probably means you're at least partially at a level of enlightenment now whereby you're ready to move to that next level whereby you add more light to your motivational system in this and other regards. I get to be the case study for the reader to serve the development of their own reference experiences in this regard. It was very pleasant being a guinea pig for this self-experimentation the reader has now done in their own mind. Highest Light feedback loop Knowledge (i.e. one's experiences) > Learning (i.e. questions, observations, reflections) > Understanding (i.e. new foresights, strategies, implementations, theorisations) > Wisdom (i.e. new actions and continuing to advance based on the feedback from those). Best Light.

Nope. (removed) My first edited post. I've decided I'll wait until the end of next weekend. It's not up to scratch still. I failed on my mission. But I failed in a good way, I got a lot more done than expected and I'm excited for the weekends release.

@AerisVahnEphelia The most important metric by far is self-awareness. The continuous feedback loop between 'self' and 'awareness' cannot promise anything else with similar continuity other than growth. Self-awareness however gets ensnared where there is a lack of wisdom, as this lack shows itself in one's reflexive naivety and the lack of development of potentials that are supportive of one's capacities when it comes to self-awareness. This combination only promises instead of growth, inevitable relationship pain. Learn to trust people who have more experience than you, hang around those with self-awareness and protect yourself by prioritising the development of your own self-awareness and only truly investing in someone that has it. I have a lot of options, however I don't truly have anyone that I'm invested in yet. I am willing to compromise on self-awareness, however other proven characteristics have to show themselves; altruism, humility, openness, other obvious one's that just make it easier to just chill and chat with another secure being.

Moving on to the next stage of this journal now and therefore my development. Given it takes me such a short time to make songs... It only makes sense to make them my journals now rather than spending that extra time on a journal add on when I can sow every kind of cellular-unity into the fabric of music and lyric, reach deeper layers of existential being. Everything else will be "draft # releases" of ontological maps that'll be a regular thing every couple or so weeks now following the synthesis of journal entires of the preceding 1-2 or 3 weeks. First draft on "Meta-Transcendence on Consciousness" coming up in the next few hours. It's been gruelling. But I've finally made it to the other side, hence... Enjoy.

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