Letho

Do you like bullying people for no reason @LoseYourvelf? That's fine, you're lucky this isn't a primary school, high school, university or workplace 'classroom' mate, as I've made it my livelihood to take care of bullies, its a part of my genetic makeup now as I stare intensely into the eyes of of a bully while I slowly rip their emotional skin off. Politely, change your tune on this forum, this is not your place to dump your neural acid made of the purposeless trash pushed by the infantalism of UK underculture, yes I've been catching up on your commenting history on your profile. Never comment on manuel's journal or anyone else's again outside of them feeling the warmth of the enlightenment you've achieved beyond the satirical historical trash that's played by your governmental politics, thank you. You've got my last name now, but would you have the balls to give me yours? Move on please and treat everyone, especially in the journals section, with the utmost respect or at the very least, back your words up with more than the acidostupedo that presently plagues the progress of our collective human race beyond the narcissistic-apathetic-cyborgism of our youngest generations coming through that at best, cement the position of the downfall of most of western civilisation outside of the best of the remaining outgrowths post its inevitable self-imploding cultural apocalypse. Or start a journal, be positive, be respectful and watch people change as quickly as they see you fall into alignment with love of truth, truth of love; true freedom. Plane's been delayed yal! We're sleeping at the airport tonight heh, which isn't so bad I've done it before! My friends just got the blankets you should see its humorous, I'd show but no phone still of course eh. Ha. This makes for an interesting last comment before I'm back but aye! Rock out. Stay safe, stay peaceful, stay protective, supportive and wise of the good, true and what we want humanity to best emulate.

Firstly, A Statement of Intent. Intent is the home of understanding our place in this universe. It helps us understand someone even if their actions are wrong and it helps us see through the deceptions of someone even if their actions are right. Intent therefore has a psychic component to it. It lives beneath the surface of social gatherings and explains without us having to say anything at all how humans no matter how seemingly different, are able to come together in the same vicinity. Intent then, creates a vibe. Vibe to, vibration. Vibration to, alignment of intent. This psychism is the basis for our digital empathy and where then, weaknesses in our character development lead to where it falls short. How much we misunderstand our own intent is a measurement of our own self-deception. Is a measurement of where we felt we thought we were aligned with our truest calling and where, we weren’t. Alignment waits for and therefore relies upon the sorting of intent in the least of these preparations in the awareness, formation and adherence to purpose. Purpose is intent with an arrow of time, the curation of effect in mind in explaining the cause of one’s actions. Purpose then, is not without cognition but in the same breath, nor is it without heart in explaining the full breadth of one’s intent and therefore, the full measurement of one’s level of alignment with their true self, where truth here, is not without consciousness coherence, for if it is, then the truth is instead on reflection upon the causation that’s come in the lead up to this wakefulness that now bares the fruit of its wisdom. To learn from and take responsibility for the experiences that have preceded places us in the greatest position of power to set a good example for not only others but also ourselves and every variation of ourselves that led to this moment. The biggest heartbreak I’ve had to endure is not the heartbreak of losing someone I love but the heartbreak of facing the time I lost from my own absence that created the heartbreak. I have to face all those times I was only semi-aware and therefore only semi-truly myself and because of that I allowed the mind to become corrupted from smoke and mirrors that I didn’t even realise I was creating within myself. I have to force myself to return back in time and re-question the haphazard truth that curated the intent that created my own purpose for explaining the actions I took and the words I said which I now hold closest to what I can learn from. There is an expression of authenticity “being ourselves” and then there is our own negligence that no one has the right to overlook the examining the potential falsity to no matter how seemingly, “well-intentioned” they are unless they wish to admit to themselves and others around them how much of a child they still are in that respect if they wish to remain naive to the ignorance that explains their chosen path, which I wholeheartedly admit, indeed I was. My father was on the edge of passing away last year and I did absolutely everything I god damn well could do to hide from that potential reality surfacing and believe in the seemingly impossible chance of his survival. I was not yet a man that knew how to imagine his life as something that could go on after losing my closest relationship, and that led to me lashing out, characteristic of how I lashed out in the past due to other frustrations I had not yet had the life experience to know how to handle in a way that I could honestly be proud of. Instead I hid behind my intentions, “Well I meant well!”, when in reality I was irrefutably irresponsible and I caused much more drama than others had to put up with because I wrongly felt entitled to being able to do that due to my own victimhood. Victimhood that was of my own making because I did not align as deeply as I should have with truth. To align with truth requires so much more more than mere intent. It requires an intent that is refined by the experience of how to align ourselves emotionally, cognitively, socially, empathically and even culturally, with the latter here especially so if we take the western context into consideration; I’ve been doing a lot of traveling of late, slowly making my way to Ukraine as I’ve signed up for the International Legion of Defence for Ukraine, an action that along with many other life lessons that have transpired over the past 12 months have forced deep developments in my psyche. I felt justified because I was emotionally aligned with intent, however I didn’t have the experiential compass regardless as to how good I felt my own moral compass was to accurately gauge my own potential for self deception. I felt that what had happened to a former member here was morally wrong and so I contended with the person now gone that tried to do a PSYOP on the forum about that. I felt that how Leo responded to the situation was wrong so I made a moral contention about that. I felt that what that person did to Leo was wrong so I made a moral contention about that. And for everything else you can be confident that the story there goes a little something like, “well I felt morally that…”. And of course I now feel that how I behaved in the past was morally irresponsible, so I apologize for that publicly to everyone. Since joining the International Legion of Defence for Ukraine I’ve completely done a backflip regarding my own perceptions on aggression in light of the positive example I wish to set for my nephews. It is of my strongest belief internally that all things being equal social aggression should only be used in so much as it is truly for the defence and protection of others and the margin for error is far less than 20% and where alternative courses of action are less than a 5% chance from being successful. I never so much as tried. What does it mean to stand in allegiance to the truth? What does it mean to no longer cower behind our own resolves of intent we’ve spent a lifetime crafting or even feel justified in holding onto in the ephemeral moment? The defenses we’ve carefully built to keep our identities safe from self-questioning? Today, I’ve begun to answer that question here for myself and I hope for anyone else as well who finds themselves hiding from responsibility when they should be stepping forward into the light to discover with bravery the next step in their evolution. In saying that, I realise that in order to move forward on this forum and take part in good conscience, I must hold myself responsible so that others are aware that I’m aware of what’s was expected of me implicitly. That I’ve learned to focus instead on how I can sweep my own porch first and foremost instead of trying to look outside to escape from having to face my own misalignment with my truest and deepest callings, something we all must do and trusting first and foremost on the natural illumination that follows to set us on the right path. I know what its like to live in the shadows of my own fears, dancing around the edges of my own truth, hoping that somehow I could avoid facing the parts of myself that scared me the most, and that’s often what I did in the obfuscation of bringing more wisdom to my past self’s intents due to my lack of life experience. I’ve sought comfort in identity, in trying to manage my own self-perception without sight on the undercurrents of what drove my behaviour, believing that if I could just keep all the pieces in place, I could avoid the collapse that invariably followed. But here’s the lesson I’m learning: truth doesn’t bow to our control nor to our wishful thinking when it comes to the curation of our neat identities. Truth demands surrender as much as it demands resolve on all that remains after diligent self-scrutinisation. And reviewing the past now with more wisdom, it becomes an ongoing relearning and refining of our own alignment with the truth of our beings, intelligently learning to identify the areas that makeup our intents and then re-question them only for the certainty that the truth requires of us in order to articulate ourselves into the next moment with our deepest alignment with truth. When my father’s health faltered, I felt the ground beneath me begin to quake. I felt my own identity, one that I’d built around certainty, around being the one who was heroic and wanted to protect others — begin to crumble. And instead of confronting that fear directly, instead of standing tall in the face of it, I lashed out. I let my own inner turmoil spill out into the world, looking for someone to blame, someone to carry the weight I was too afraid to hold myself. And in those moments, I was a coward. I let fear dictate my actions. I let my ego, in all its fragility, lead the way. I wanted to hide, to make myself small, to ask for anonymity here because it felt safer to be unseen than to risk being judged. But safety is an illusion when it comes at the cost of our own integrity. Courage isn’t about the lack of fear it’s about facing that fear head-on, without flinching and then holding your nerve even if you do. It’s about standing in front of the mirror of our own consciousness and refusing to look away, even when what we see there is painful, messy, or uncomfortable. It’s about choosing to step into that illumination I spoke about earlier and being made by that, even when it’s blinding. I used to think that forgiveness was about making peace with others, about letting go of resentment or anger. But now, I see it’s about that and much more as well. Forgiveness is about making peace with ourselves — with our own limitations, our own mistakes, our own humanness and being vulnerable enough to share that with another. It’s about understanding that we all stumble, we all falter, but that doesn’t define us. What defines us is what we do next. As long as our adherence is still to truth, we can still find our way there as long as we remain open minded. So here I am, Leo, standing in front of you and everyone else, saying this: I choose not to hide. I choose not to shrink away from the discomfort of my own growth and instead I allow these words to define my intent into the future. I choose to confront the narratives that have kept me small, that have kept me from stepping fully into who I am meant to be. This is not a plea for redemption. This is a commitment, a commitment to stop living in the shadows of my own ignorance, to stop letting my ego that grows out of that to dictate my choices. This is about finding the strength to say, "I was wrong," and "I will do better." This is about dedicating myself to a higher standard of truth, not just in words but in action, in how I share my experiences on this forum and learn from others in the continuation of mine and others growth, a journey we’re on together. The path to truth is not always easy, but it is the only path that leads to true freedom. It is the path where we learn to love ourselves not because we are perfect, but because we are willing to grow, to change, to evolve. I know now that to live with integrity means to live without pretence, without the masks that keep us safe but also keep us small. To live with integrity is to say, "I will face myself, all of myself, and I will do so with courage and honesty." And that’s what I’m doing here today. Leo, I respect whatever decision you make regarding my place here. This is not about seeking your favor; this is about making a stand for my own growth, my own evolution. I have been knocked down by my own illusions, but I am choosing to get back up, to dust myself off, and to move forward with clarity and purpose. To truth. To courage. To a life lived in alignment with what is real. My next post will be on alignment and how to get that right using the wealth of my life experiences in this achievement. Briefly, we have many aspects of ourselves that are inter-communicating to forge the solidarity of the intent within us that feels the most consistency as ourselves, kind of like energy centre, so how you may have heard how there’s an intercommunication between the heart, mind and gut within our beings. My goal is to establish a conceptual bridge that I hope to be useable for others and that I hope to speak about from a few different angles, i.e. one that is more experiential, another that is more theoretical. Best wishes and much love to all. - Lastly, attached to each post I would like to share the journal entry (i.e. that preceded it), so that I can begin to more intelligently build cause and effect relationships between what I have expressed and what I have designed. Before I share this entry, as a testament to how I wish every word I express to be counted against my character and that I am fully responsible to each thereto, I have chosen the sacredness by which I hold my surname to be the name that I pen my entries with. "Letho" hails from my grandfather's changing of our previous surname, "Eleftheriou", which means freedom, or less generally, to be philosophers of freedom, of which I wholeheartedly am. My grandfather changed to Letho when he came to Australia from Cyprus because in the early 1900's people really struggled pronouncing our family name and my grandfather was always such a humble guy that never wanted it to be made a big deal out of. To that final end as it concerns coming full circle on my entry above where I said "What does it. mean to have allegiance to the truth?", I can't see any better way to have an allegiance to my own name and therefore truth than to also have that as my way of standing by it with every entry that I make on this forum. JOURNAL TITLE Rainbow Wolf 31st of August When I open up the mind, what truly lives on the other side of it? I can attempt to understand this question when I do comparisons between different people and different parts and contexts of my own life. What does it mean for my own mind to be truly open, surely it means something much greater than merely comparing to a population average that is stagnant and for many demographics, circling a drain? At least in the immediate if not long term sense, it’s frightening to step into this space for me. I can imagine so many permutations of consciousness, and at least one of those behind the veil of this immediacy explain all of the barriers of this present consciousness. I am landlocked inside the limits of my self-understanding of the meta-language of consciousness. There is a level of meta-communication that I yearn to achieve within my own consciousness that would allow me to fully tap into the intelligent movement of information throughout my entire spiritual-biology. I can imagine the mapping of my now consciousness terrain, invert it in different ways and make a study of those inversions as a way of advancing my self study to self-expansion. What is a possible higher consciousness that is my own, a lower one too and how is the present one their balance and what kind of balance is it relative to a hypothesised ultimate scale of consciousness? What if I were a wolf? This pondering makes the endeavour of expanding the openness-intellectual horizons of human consciousness much more commendable, rational and its opposites simultaneously understandable while at same time something we obviously need to prudently avoid, given our likeness. Given our likeness not just to wolves but all beings and creatively, we can find likeness not just in our biology but more so in being encapsulated by the same limitations in consciousness. Ergo the colloquial formation of terms like “Birds of a feather flock together”, “Black sheep of the family”, “Wolf in sheep’s clothing”, “Raging bull”, “(those people are a) bunch of sheep!”. We only very rarely question this likeness as well much less actively attempt to stray from what we could say are evolutionary inroads. Pathways where there exists a predetermination in the movement of the substance of soul consciousness in so much as that consciousness is not accompanied by the power of awareness. This power, as I’ve experienced its expression awakens what we know of as meta-causality and due to its nature, that is, being bound by this abstract object of “power”, self-communication is predicated on the depth of where the edge of that power hits the beginning to end point of that meta-causality. And of course, the awareness that is experienced here is something that is totally taken for granted, often within my own psychological apparatus as I have thus far experienced as well as witness it in others, the surface layer of psychological experience runs much more dominant than the layer of awareness that defines both its pronouncement and through that filter, its change and transformability. This means that not only can we safely separate awareness from the substance of psychological experience, it means that we ethically cannot use our mere sentience as a vehicle for distinguishing our own existential superiority outside of intellectual utility. Unless we are going to discriminate between humans in the same way, of which many demographics actually silently lead with as we of course know, so be prepared to be discriminated against even on this forum, that is an unchanging truth outside of the awareness that creates it. This leads me to bringing up that previous phrase I mentioned here where one needs to learn the art of instead of being the black sheep aim to instead be the “Pink sheep of our Collective Human Family” when it comes to living a life that is as close as possible, aligned with truth, objectivity and maintaining one’s personal integrity as it pertains to continually aligning with the implications of this socially and culturally. “Pink” is where you have to standout, kind of like the pink panther, however pink also represents friendship, affection, harmony, inner peace, compassion, nurturing and approachability. I could say be the “golden sheep”, however there is another surface layer here of psychological experience that of course I want to be tentative when it comes to activating, the human ego, and the myriad of ways I may also unintentionally do that in myself before understanding has preceded action, which is what most often happens when it comes to the human ego. Let me distinguish between four forms of power here that bring balance to the growth of power itself overall across all relevant levels, including the ego, as it concerns the natural release of unhealthy forms of power as well as having the sentience to negotiate the maturation of power via transcending previous levels to higher levels of ego. We have the power of awareness, love, truth and ego, with the first three being protective of the healthy development of number four or to the other side of the spectrum where unhealthy developments in these areas can at the very least serve as potential correlates for explaining dysfunctions in egoic power. Each of these first three are unique access points with their own intelligent abstract “Axis of Intervention” where with the use of the right internal behavioural awareness, agency can meet its intelligent use in the fate of power actualisation, but not without losing some of our “Axis of Cultural Dharma”. “Dharma” is that which is regarded as a universal truth as taught by the Buddha, ‘Cultural Dharma’ then here is the interaction between the perception of truth and a cultural program that upon their intersection, act very analogously to its action of consequences, aka what’s referred to in this tradition as someone’s karma. With every loss of this axis then, we gain in the recomputation of the simulation of reality as it forms in automatic consciousness in the same way as there is a distinct difference between the automatic simulation that’s say generated in a wolf compared to every new animorph evolutionary form it goes through until it reaches the state of achieving the full range of capacities of human consciousness. Returning to the first question I asked, in order to maintain any sanctity of life within myself and the order of my evolutionary motion to greater transcendence I am forced to learn how to experience and maintain an intelligent emotional order on feelings of power and powerlessness simultaneously. Power in the openness and openings of mind, combined too with turning on the rest of the systems of my being including my heart, and too, the terrifying powerlessness I experience in the inflexibility by which I hold those perceptions yet the scaring flexibility by which I do so compared to the population average, and how this stray from the norm teaches me how to stand figuratively naked in front of everyone, even if I am the only one aware that I am doing do. As much as this power extends me to realise frontiers beyond anything that parallels, the vulnerability of standing in the unknown still stretches my experience to being compared to that of an inordinate naivety comparable to that of said above actual wolf that’s suddenly had its awareness transformed to rival that of the greatest, scared of just what its experiences of its own limits could be, as well as, limits its unknowingly imprisoned itself inside, “How have I unknowingly been teaching myself to pace up and down in a new way in a cell I didn’t know I was imprisoning myself inside but could have escaped from if I just honed my consciousness on the Axis of Consciousness Dharma?”. “Axis of Consciousness Dharma” is what I’ve newly coined to describe the symbiotic karmic communication point that follows from the attempt at intelligently intersecting all of the above described axis at their “Axis of Intervention”, where together, its an “Axis of Symbiotic Intervention” that’s simultaneously something that’s built from and destroys one’s karmic path. Imagine you’re building a ladder to the next level of a castle and then upon reaching the next level you kick out the ladder from underneath you. That teaches us the lesson of how we’re forced to accept where we are and to originate creatively with what we have and then to simply let go and embrace the next level upon when we achieve it, never allowing ourselves to slip back into old consciousness patterns, something that is impressed upon consciousness the more intelligence that went into building the ladder of course. I haven’t before lived so seamlessly with this wisdom though in my life, to be so easily preoccupied with dual meta-realisation of the prison I’m unknowingly cementing myself in with each pace. It’s the hidden pitfall of deep thinking that doesn’t even need to edge into rumination in order to be a potential negative, it gives the illusion of deep thought while entraining habits emotional too that shape the creation of a personality that isn’t articulating itself from the perspective of its frontiers, one without awareness on the location of its origination to futuration point, the nexus of space that has hardly any piece of the sociocultural narrative of everyday speech outside the Truman Show that paces back and forth between the limits of its coloured extremes. Coloured wolves encased within sheeps clothing, the necessity of politeness engraved in the automacy of our daily collective social behaviours for if we push the needle of our consciousness just slightly too far beyond that thin red line, fear encases the self-justification of our caution to escape but then from what and to what as well as from what colour? Our auric field is only coloured as our awareness of it and to the degree of our lack of awareness, we are blinded by something else, for we’re always blinded as Plato’s Cave said and how blindingly does the most audacious one blind themselves through their ignorance compared to the one who does so through their cowardice in the experience of their supposed likely in part at least with respect to perspective false knowledge? The pink wolf audaciously moves forward with knowledge in agreement with their environment while never in betrayal to their inner truth. They find their “Axis of Intervention” across all four axis and leverage this in awareness to build the ladder up towards a higher light out of of Plato’s Cave relative to their level of development and maturity of consciousness. They learn how to free themselves from the past while not being unhinged from the wisdom to navigate this material plane, thereby engendering a new equilibrium between the forces that create their experience of consciousness. A new balance where fear instead of becoming something that controls, holds them back and blocks them from experiencing the heights beyond its horizon, instead is able to be used as a leverage point into higher consciousness while still tethered to the rope of wisdom that scaffolds them permanently to the self-insight that now instead of self-justifying fear, self-justifies the exhilitating of its prudent expansion. Teaching higher and higher levels of this leverage point to transform the awareness of false knowledge in consciousness to the transformation of consciousness via the embodiment of the truth of the knowledge that truly expands across the “Axis of Symbiotic Intervention” and through that the courageous losing of the “Axis of Cultural Dharma” into the beginnings of the experiencing of the beauty of the openings of the Lotus Flower of one’s new consciousness possibilities. An opening into the first time experience of channeling a dual self-universe hypnosis that is no longer with the cultural confetti that restricts my own independent self-comprehension of growth and my experience of truth with the divine. A shedding of “cultural karma” being an absolute necessity in the evolution of my own unique partnership with universal meta-realisation. Where “Pink” of wolf here is in the altruism of sharing experience that can add to the consciousness of the collective while encouraging its own independence, for how much better it is to live trying to fly if we know that we are able to be caught by the wisdom of fellow sentiences, as I have been caught in part in by my creativisatiom of Plato, the best of cinematic visions, Buddhism, Leo’s work obviously and more. So as much as there shouldn’t be any outsourcing between ourselves and the divine at the energetic level, intellectually, we rely on and often only push ourselves to mirror the least acceptable limits, however if we can cherish the nurturing of our divine connection, we also have a much better chance of cherishing the discernment of our own limits thus growing what would otherwise be a point of negational socialisation, like the conditioning of fear, instead too be a leverage point for self-determined creativisation we learn to manifest, create and reign in our own nature across unknown terrains in our conversations with the divine. Thereby bringing balance between the internal and external, social and intra-social, we bring balance to the release of unhealthy rigid anti-culture into instead the living out of the continued healthy co-creation of culture by coming at it from a place of peace, understanding and actualisation of our beings rather than something wended to program one another to believe in order to call ourselves a certain culture that isn’t predicated upon ideas that have survived the wilderness of our deepest sentience. In consolidating this integration and revitalisation into embracing the unknown depths of being, let me contemplate the patterns of consciousness that align with what I’m coining in light of the above as the “Axis of Integration” vs the “Axis of Disintegration”. “Axis of Integration” vs the “Axis of Disintegration”. Positive vs negative stimuli The automacy of the stimulation of stimuli is increasingly either positive or negative, regardless, there is a momentum in some direction and awareness on this feedback loop needs to translate into lessons that feed the intelligence of my intent, thereby channeling a higher intentful awareness. Being is charged by and in return charges the experience of consciousness through that medium of spiritual exchange between the perception of stimulus and the internal structure and function that regulates and evolves from it. Regulation: Bodily awareness. Where am I experiencing the interaction? What is the relationship between the psychism of the mind and the experiences that are being created in the feedback loop with the stimuli? More precision, where do I feel it in my heart, mind, gut and the rest of my body? Establish increasingly more precision and accuracy in describing this across all energy centres with good measurement on the interaction to feed awareness for the betterment of my ongoing evolution. In feeding the loop of higher integration, we have better differentiated categories, more precision in their sensory definition and greater accuracy in learning trials towards redefining towards a more enlightened positive. To its inverse, at the worse end we have self-justifying ego which becomes an expert at self-justifying its negativity. Positive/negative stimuli is to positive vs negative experience As above, increase the sophistication of my self-understanding of how the energy moves within my being and always and only see it as my own responsibility to continually empower the path towards my greater self-regulation and personal agency. I have spent far too much of my life separating soul consciousness from an examination and development of agency over the regulation of energy within my being and one of the consequences of that involved simply accepting the fete of whatever energetic frequency my being harboured whether it was depression or otherwise due to socially reinforced ignorance. I have now of course learned through my training that I have exponentially more power than I previously believed over my energetic frequency and it was just a public ignorance I allowed to perpetuate itself in every corner of my drive for self-understanding that explains my own just, clownish attempts really at carrying out a transcendent human experience. That’s where the fear is of course as well that I described earlier, the knowledge that I could have so much authorship over my own being is somewhat frightening for the parts of my ego that have spent so much of my life not having this power. And so, invisibly it negates my training that leads to this self-fulfilling freedom, a freedom that I alone create. It feels partly scary that I could create that for myself without ever having anyone else that I know of at least that exists to guide me in that achievement, to also do so when the mainstream thought on this runs so contrary to this level of self-actualisation in many ways, leading to a feeling of slight awkwardness in recognising how much further along my own self-understandings are in the nature of energetic being and our power to self-author our state with proper training. Rigid Linear Conventional Consciousness Stanzas versus Flexible Dynamic Creative Consciousness Stanzas Imagine the moment of any one experience of consciousness as analogous to reflecting the stanza of a poem. There are millions upon millions of stanzas, all attempting to encapsulate and generate a unique state of consciousness, in some way. Every state of consciousness is able to be poetically encapsulated, and this encapsulation is either something that is going to run along the lines of the left or right hand dichotomy. Utilise the energetic weight of this stanza, to meta-causally inform the next stanza and then through their further meta-realisation, I need to learn to practice this art of of constructive redefinition that follows the natural motion of consciousness to its next stage of transcendence. Realising the intelligence of this dichotomy really makes me see just how restrictively I’ve lived my own awareness. If I imagine reality as a world of millions of interconnecting dreams, I allowed too much my own dream to change based on the dreams of my sociocultural external, again I return to “Axis of Cultural Dharma”, however this is an even deeper layer there where I can see it act on me much more biographically rather than just seeing it via the stereotypical lens of cultural conditioning. I spent so much of my own life not only not knowing how to even look at my own dream without being energetically enmeshed in that external, I had no idea how to look at my own pursuits through the lens of owning them myself. At an unconscious level, I allowed other dreamers to influence how I created my own, which when viewed upon in this thought experiment of just imagining all of us asleep, it seems entirely absurd to allow anyone to have any senseless influence over the creativity of our dream. And this is where we simultaneously make sense of Cultural Dharma and the relationship between our sense of self and the influence of social objects, aka introjects, which superimpose themselves onto our self and therefore our dream creating inclinations, wrapping us in the mirror projective permanence of their energetic entanglement with our psyche. Which seems scary at first, but that’s only when its behaviour reflective on a foundation of Rigid Linear Conventional Consciousness Stanzas compared to utilising awarenesses energetic appraisal of consciousnesses intercommunication here as a leverage point into further opening into greater Flexible Dynamic Creative Consciousness Stanzas. Coupled here then, the practicing of identifying psychological schemas, introjects and projections as a leverage point for reshaping identity via this progressively fluid meta-realisation. The Pink Wolf to now, the Rainbow Wolf Behind the hidden veil of the earlier noted fear that’s arguably attempting to cloak itself in its agreeableness with the environment via gentlemanliness, aka the symbolic meaning of the use of “Pink” here where it pairs with “Wolf” as it concerns having the graduations of one’s consciousness out-string and out-stanza the most unshackled aspects of one’s intrinsic nature, is shame. Outside of my own intrinsic evaluation and that I hold myself to, I’ve been conditioned to simultaneously shame and bastardise my own animalistic nature and fit it through a dogmatically thin paper tube that’s appetizable to the surrounding constraining cultural norms, in doing so, there’s an unbridled recklessness that via this intercultural suppression, has no choice but to find explosion relative to the lack of awareness that's neither fortified by the wisdom that would guide this more maturely, something the lessons of the last 12+ months have really forcefully taught me to grow out of and into the next phase of development in my maturity. This dichotomy between the "Pink Wolf" and the "Rainbow wolf" visibly speaks as well to the limits of black and white thinking and how energetic contextualisations allow me expansion points into domains of consciousness that spread far beyond the limits of the initial confinements that lived prior to my awareness. Black and white thinking can be bindings of many kinds, from being too animalistic to too intellectual, both are traps however both must intelligently meet in the middle in order to truly transcend to the next level of growth. “Rainbow” is to the multicoloration of multidimensionality at every level of being and its bridging via the scope of interconnection. In my experience of viewing someone angry, quite often the person is totally encompassed by this expression, their inability to bring context to this encompassment being a reflection of the rigid inflexibility and lack of dynamic creative consciousness, as such they can often only experience one of a few different colours and if they are multicoloured it is only across different intervals. For example, the movement of anger to sadness to isolation to depression is just one of many alternate possible patterns. However the key of understanding here is that most are not able to become meta-aware enough that they can co-exist simultaneously in all of these states and leverage this awareness towards a positive internal good as the knowledge and intelligence of each is communicated back and fourth to all as opposed to being landlocked inside the rigidity of their linearity, as I know, having once being bound by the limits of this level of development once before. Awareness Bound Valuation on Intents is the Predetermination of Value Driven Beliefs Value Determination. Firstly, what needs to be recognised is that the changeability of my own beliefs on anything in the moment is entirely solely predetermined by the span of intents that I am able to hold in awareness and no less than this. To this end then, by the structure and function of my perception of my awareness so too is that the sword by which life will be seen or unseen by me and the depth by which I see, can experience and learn from this life. It is thus also then directly here where I can draw a line in the sand and say this is precisely where I can say a philosophy is either for life and thus reflective of what any purpose for life would be or it is instead reflective of a subconscious that is, in that moment, unconscious of how it instead has a life philosophy that worships death, however unknowingly.

Heading Denmark today so much earlier than expected, backpacking with a friend don’t want to miss the opportunity. I’ll be away for while, will hit back here around Christmas time. With respect to earlier promised release stuff just remember I had my backpack stolen and with that everything on my Mac so just use some commonsense there. I actually don't want to buy another Mac or iPhone following with the pursuit of completing the rest of this obstacle that I think God's thrown my way as a challenge towards improving my own memory and creativity, so we'll see how long that lasts but regardless when I return, everything promised will return where it should be here. Wanted to write this post quickly before I left for the airport heh! So it's a little rushed but... valuable (areas in which will bring a lot of clarity for where I see a lot of need here for this spiritual demographic). ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This post will be deleted when I return due to parts of my own personal experiences that I’d rather keep private. What is a man vs a woman, at its spiritual core? As a man, your mastery is oneness, in fluid solidarity. As a woman, your mastery is togetherness, in solid fluidity. This is an absolute truth, there is zero deviation in your destiny outside of prior epigenetic failures which have been camouflaged in ‘spectrum of genderism’, when’s something has become an ‘ism’ as I’ve just for the first time coined it as it has when it has strict division to how it even exists, that thing no longer exists as an originating causality, instead just as has now become the case, ‘ism’ is coined to denote words that prioritize change in them, aka the introduction of the feminine into fluidity, which should never be allowed in the politics of science. There is a place for the feminine in science, however at its core it is a strictly masculine profession in light of its objectivity where mature femininity is where there is complementarity, such is the case with Dr. Dian Fossey. Dr. Magnus Hirschfeld, an openly gay physician, is an example of how when the feminine has perceived authority and they’re given the power to voice their opinion it can lead to disastrous cultural implications down the road. Viewing this in a traditionally biased way is how the identity politics of how ‘sexism’ conflicts with reality, where somehow because there’s not equal fairness in opinion due to gender differences that must therefore be wrong, when this of course couldn’t be further from the truth. Everyone has an equal and fair right to an opinion, however zero persons should be given an equal weighting and allowing the energy of either the masculine or the feminine more weighting than what it deserves for a context, is demonstrably unfair, when weighted against an objective appraisal of the observed reality in which we’re attempting to create visible lines of logical discrimination that equal maximum freedom for all relative to their actual makeup as a being. Being ‘better’ than a male as a ‘female’ scientist is not an argument for their authority, nor is being gay, everything must be simply weighted against the reality of the circumstances, not against the hypothetical simulated politics of ‘better and worse’. The infection of the feminine, including an over-emphasis on introducing social politics into science is what has invariably led to its downfall where the masculine objective presence is silenced in all ways possible including in the worst of places being the cornerstone of what science is for, objective analysis that fuels creativity and innovation that progresses humankind towards the furthering of our alignment with reality through the evolution of our potential inclusive of the enhancement of our understanding of the world around us. The feminine in a woman that’s been indoctrinated is literally programmed to makeup a plausible story to believe something different as its become a part of her identity to feel empowered by this false narrative against ‘the oppression of the man’ that doesn’t nearly exist as much as it used to in the whole but is instead found in demographic weaknesses, moreover, an indoctrinated man or genuinely gay, homosexual or trans man in their feminine will when feel threatened by this truth, also spew out lies as what in their mind is objective but is just a defensive mechanism for short term inward politics that has long term disastrous cultural consequences. This is not a speech against women, gays, homosexuals or trans, this is about understanding the consequences of energetic divisions and where the masculine versus the feminine is designed by nature to serve, and let me say it here, when a man or woman’s truest energy is not in service to their and therefore natures deepest good, they are solely in service to their ego, usually the result of some trauma of which we can include now brainwashing as a definite form of trauma that most people have in some way gone through on some level, we won’t emphasize the word ‘trauma’ here though in light of how its been used as a tool of manipulation by the feminine by both males, females, trans and every other genderism now. Remove the fluidity from a man, and you have is anger, rage, numbness and dissociation. Remove the solidarity from a man and you have the perfect reflection of how a man’s cultural upbringing has been infiltrated to make the feminine more dominant in his energetic matrix. Remove the solidarity of a woman, and you have just the same reflected as what is the case with a man, the only difference is that she will compensate for her lack of solidarity in trying to be over-masculine in different situations, which is often in todays era expressed in hyper-sexuality as her only lease on life in which she gets to feel ‘empowered’ over men that are feminizing themselves. A man outside of monetary expressions will usually not have this compensatory backlash where he overextends in trying to be feminine unless he has severe trauma. A man must find his fluidity via his solidarity, a woman must find their solidarity via their fluidity. Here the man learns to become the rocks in the river that guide the motion of the water that the woman fluidly runs her course through, aka he builds the home and then she builds the nest within it. his is not about ‘traditionalism’ vs ‘modernism’, it’s a false dichotomy where the latter only represents the deterioration of the true nature of man and woman via a process of sociopolitical incrementalism that corrupts the man and woman’s original natural pathway towards procreation and raising a family by disrupting the masculine/feminine dynamics which in the end destroys the family to have the children relying on the state and the parents dissociated from their roles as parents either via genuine apathy or via single parenting that in return does not give the child proper role models to follow on how their energies are to naturally develop; as one consequence, either sex that is forced to be in their opposite energy more than their natural masculine/feminine will in return create offspring that overtime as they mature if their isn’t an energetic balance in their environment, will incur some related trauma there with where a single parent woman is forced to be more masculine creates on average more feminine men as one example. All of this gender politics nonsense that we see in the USA, Australia and I don’t know much about the UK so I won’t say anything there is rooted in the disruption of the family unit when it comes to the state surreptitiously allowing the rise of big business and artistry that through its marketing with the passive consumption from uninformed parents leading directly to the indoctrination of children without the state or related government even having to ask for consent as the children invisibly fall into their hands totally non the wiser. Through this means, there has been a slow severing of the sacredness between child and parent across the stomach of the body that is family that makes a civilization stable and great for the long term future of humankind for the purpose of the government prioritising long term control over the long term prosperity. Through the marketing of business and art in the west we have seen the advertising of the illusion of freedom via individuality found in self-expression against any form of perceived oppression, which has destroyed the true collectivism of the family unit that when healthy naturally fuels a balanced state of individuality only to in the end fall into the hands of the oppressive collectivism that was drilled into us we were avoiding all the while people destroying the strength of the sacredness of their family unit in the process so that when they look around them after this realization, they’re without the proper strength of the family unit to fall back on as is often intelligently nurtured in many eastern countries here. This mainly effects low to middle class families that are not only forced to be wage slaves or some variety thereof but are indoctrinated to the extent that their pathway is unable to be any other way to the point where their family dynamic becomes an absolute truth that they just have to ‘deal with’ rather than imagining that its underpinned by long term generational dynamics that their children will add to when they’ve left the home. When you truly understand the ‘Energy of Family’ you will understand and accept the purpose of energy dynamics and therefore accept what is your own unique role to play in the world concerning the true energy that you were blessed with. I’ve decisively articulated the division of that for you above in order to emulate as far as possible in your life so that you can be a part of the cultural war in a totally passive way not out there trying to fight imaginary phantoms from society but instead just focusing on how you can be a part of the natural creation of life through your own energy which may or may not include the building of a strong family with the right partner. A right parnter that isn’t indoctrinated by this societal mess or at the very least understands the role they must play in combatting it, which is by simply living their life. They nor you ever again have to even turn on the radio, YouTube, television, TikTok or whatever else ever again where all they’re listening to is the echo of these damaging effects to our energetic dynamics (ED), it has absolutely nothing to do with the issues people complain about themselves and entirely to do with ED, not to mention all the nonsense distractions people talk about on this forum where we see even crueler versions of how the true power in the collectivism of family and the sacred structure that it is meant to help embolden offspring into the world has been so usurped by religious dogma that children are instead eventually as adults or younger become the bullets to be fired at the end of someone else’s or a group of persons selfish lust for power, greed and control. What you are fighting against if there is any fight at all at the inward level, is purely unhealthy narcissism in a nutshell, for of course, what do we get as a byproduct of being sold the illusion of individuality that falls into the hands of collectivism? We get delusional forms of narcissism whether they’re pro collectivism in the form of dangerous ‘religious like’ orders or they’re pro ‘fake individuality’. Where although the former has more nuance from the east to be added, concerning the latter which is more dedicative of our condition in the west because become so entrenched in falsity of what truly makes them connect with another human that the only truth they’re able to establish in the idea of connection is when their soul has been taken over by the fictional sense of self they create about themselves in their own minds projective landscape. Totally disconnected from the rest of their nervous systems similar in the way I have partially taught here in my positive endorsement concerning increasing the sensitivity with the rest of the most important regions of our nervous system like the heart, mind, gut and as you grow in sophistication, their various parts and interactions. What is your response to this unhealthy narcissism? The healthy kind. Your ego must become attached to an identity that believes in its true worth, ability to create and value relative to the energetic structure of your being and therefore those regions of the nervous system that are their to be activated so that your healthy narcissism can show its greatest light. Why? Because the state or government has told you that it should actually be the one that’s meant to be your narcissism, that its meant to create the laws, rules and provide you with all the opportunities that you’re capable of generating, which is completely false obviously and you shouldn’t trust them in light of todays identity politics that have completely gone array, but nor should you distrust. Healthy narcissism means as one value differentiator there, and I recommend studying Aristotles work more in the areas of balance, values and ethics, means balanced trust. I you’re too naive and unquestioning, you’ll be gullible the way they want you to be, if you’re too cynical you’ll be some variant of being too rebellious, which is what they also want, as they simply want a lack of balance as a lack of balance is what eventually destroys your family unit in the future if you bless yourself enough to create one. In the past, you would hand over your personal narcissism to the tribal leader, and you would do this based on an intrinsic sense of intuitive trust among likemindedness. It had a lot of flaws, but it got us by for a lot of generations. Your false individuality, and I say its false as I hardly doubt most readers have matured their level of ethics, sense of values, responsibility, freedom and sovereignty to the level they need to be in order to be a true reflection of balanced individuality, was meant to be a counterpunch to the tribal leader, aka your parents or true role models so that you would run into the ideological cage that you’re likely trapped in by some level, and if you’re not, all props to you. Now that you’ve seen the underlying relationships at play here though, you need to take off that fake warm clothing of freedom and individual expression that we see with guys going blindly trans and whatever else because its an ‘expression of individuality’, and simply stand naked under the light of reality then just take an honest look at what you are, who you are and how you are at the core of things without all the noise of societies dishonest words. From here, if you’re a man, fluid solidarity. Which means as shortly as possible, you should mostly only view your time as something that is another brick to add onto your castle; that’s what you most as strongly as possible build as much healthy narcissistic pride around as you can where you only define yourself through the next action you take towards achieving your challenge rather than pontificating about whether when you were a child you actually wanted to be a female and this is why your life turned out wrong. You don’t try and fight the state or government unless it is in alignment with your true intelligence which for most of you its not, its not a part of your purpose, just focus on the true dynamics that make you and therefore a family great that then in return is the blessing you give to future civilization. Lastly, as a man you have to realize that there’s never a point in which you should ever not be a man. Whether it’s acting or not acting, an actor needs to realize that done too much in the absence of balance if he’s pretending to be a woman he’s doing damage to his energetic ecosystem; minor pretending, can be beneficial for both man and woman. To get past the brainwashing a man has received to be more feminine implicitly or explicitly, he just needs to understand that every moment is a moment of the masculine to override and overcome where in the context of time, this is learned to be done with increasingly greater more sophistication and maturity. Whether he’s dealing with children, sweeping the floor, a manager of a bank, milking a fucking cow, it must be recognized that a man is not defined by the type of the challenge but his masculine energy towards the challenge itself. Look at most men around you, many use the ease of a task to define the weakness they have towards it to the point where for many men if they’re not in a gym, you won’t see anything remotely close to a masculine energy. In the pavlovian sense, he’s ‘switched off’ from being a man and this is where YouTube and the rest of the media bullshit world gets to turn him into a feminine puppet twisting and courting his belief systems into becoming a supplicating pouting pigeon pouncing on the next bread feed of the next passerby. You’re a man 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and the masculine energy is something that should be positively self-reinforcing meaning its something that you become fueled by rather than tired by as so many men are these days when it comes to simply being who they were born to be because of how their energy systems have been fucked with. And if you’re a woman, solid fluidity. Which means as shortly as possible, you’re totally preoccupied with the environment you’re in or wish to be a part of with respect to nurturing the values of harmony, peace and the maturity of the greater sacredness of life. That’s not sexist for me to say that, that’s literally what the feminines drive is designed for and for anything, however subtly, to say or dictate otherwise is damage to and the eventual destruction of the feminine as we now see in society today, including too with the masculine which for either one could say its a byproduct of the destruction of the other. You can be a scientist if you want again I’m not saying you shouldn’t look at Dr. Dian Fossey, her entire work was dedicated to nurturing the apes environment and too via the learning and wisdom she sought to courageously invoke towards the surrounding over masculine narrative towards great apes. It even brings a tear to my eye her work is so beautiful to me. She was intelligent and wise enough to have her femininity complement the masculinity she needed to pair it with in the profession of science that is as stated a masculine profession at the core of things, she is the perfect example then of what many women should aspire to emulate in their own way. Now, what do you do if you have disruptions to your energetic system? For me, my heart and my gut were destroyed growing up by my unstable familial environment and many of these traumas (i.e. actively, so on a conscious level, practicing to dissociate while my mother was yelling absurdities at me as a small body because I wasn’t able to handle the emotional impact it had on me) remained hidden beneath my own natural genetic resilience. However after much dedicated effort to reawaken my hearts connection with the rest of my nervous system as one example, I haven’t experienced the dissociative symptoms I used to experience with respect to feeling cut off from parts of my body for over a year now. And to be vulnerable for a moment, these two improvisations ( https://www.youtube.com/@puremusiconly3645 ) that I created off the cuff a few years ago both in their own way reflect what I was going through underneath, and ‘Awaken The True War’ actually came at the aftermath of an energetic release that spontaneously came to me in the middle of the night at 2am or so, where I just new something mystical was rushing through me and I had to express it. Today, I felt motivated to share this with you as I became aware of the pains that still existed within me as shared with me by the ‘invisible gut that lived behind my gut’ when late at night my sleeping was disrupted by two French women that had decided to stay in my room at the hostel I was staying in. When they came into my room I was almost fast asleep so my judgement was semi-conscious which no doubt impacted the vulnerability of the rest of my system however in saying that, I almost immediately within the span of the few minutes they were there started to get a crush on one of them even though I hadn’t even seen them I’d just heard their feminine voices that were equally as beautiful as one another. After they were informed they were in the wrong room and left, my gut for spontaneously experienced a strong sense of abandonment. So here we have an analysis, (1) vulnerable state (2) environmental sense of reward (3) taken away (4) bodily trigger (5) emotional overcoming. What needs to be stressed here as a priority is that it’s a bodily trigger first and foremost, not an emotional one and especially not a thought. You may say, ‘Oh I feel x, y, z and it creates w, t, j’ and that’s all well and good but its actually irrelevant if you don’t understand and or cannot connect with where its occurring in the body, something which is totally and utterly just, absurdly wrong in most of the field of ‘therapeutic psychology’, “because well of course, if you’re disconnected from your body then we can just feed you some pills and say it has more to do with your thoughts and emotions than your body, especially in the prioritization of an overemphasis of brain”. That ‘soft pain’ in my gut revealed to me how I’m still very disconnected in this area of my body regardless as to how much more connected I may be than the average person in certain areas, it reveals the profound realization as well that the solution to isolated psychological events do not live in isolated locations within the body, that as much as I can do work on the heart as I have, the gut, the brain too, etc, eventually not only do I need to enhance the level of connection to my gut as I have with my heart, at a holistic level as I have been hinting I’ve been achieving, I need to activate all of these regions of the body in simultaneity as an all encompassing healing process, again start at heartmath.com if you’re a novice. Concerning the future, this IS a future cornerstone to the therapeutic process if not the entire stone house itself the more people advance up the hierarchy of bioelectrical agency as I am working to design the castle of completion for myself here. All in all, that brief encounter with the lovely French women that I never even got to meet have opened up a truth inside of me that I’ve still got a lot of work to do but that I welcome the challenge with the tenacity that’s inspired by the power I’ll be able to experience and accomplish even more once I’ve inhaled the new level it takes me to. Returning back to my sentiment pertaining to how a man is defined not by the type of challenge but by the quality of his approach to life (to express slightly differently as I don’t precisely remember what I said) and this endeavor towards my own energetic work here is no different. Men have been brainwashed into believing that resilience in the absence of sensitivity to what is real in their body occurring as an energetic pain, is somehow good and masculine, when in reality, its purely the compensation of the ego’s ignorance when it comes to understanding what a man is. See the man keeps going in the face of obstacles, however no where in our manual does it ever say that when we stop we shouldn’t understand our beings to ensure we mature ourselves to a higher level so we’re more likely to operate the next progression on our next training interval, they’ve been taught by the feminine to falsely either italicize their feelings into bullshit narratives so they act like the irrational imbalanced feminine monkeys that damage both the sacred feminine and masculine, be ashamed of that core or to simply ‘ignore it and push on’ which then puts them into a schism as to what to believe they should do. This only results in the creation of various kinds of dysfunctional childish narcissism from the male as a way to compensate where his true spiritual sovereignty towards his highest actualised narcissism becomes damaged, and unfortunately, is never truly realized. This should never be a case of ‘pick your poison’ which in culture it is in light of ignorance being commonplace, where guys energetically choose between either suffering in silence to the finish line while they positively reinforce a false not positive ego that becomes increasingly more distorted the more disconnected it is, and because like machines they’re still ticking the boxes, going to work and putting the hours in, that’s still ‘good’ as its ‘good’ for societies bottom line at the mechanical level and therefore better than if they were to take the poison o the delusional fake feeling narrative world of the feminine, where they turn every little ache and pain into a soap opera of beauty and the femibeast. Down to the core then, as men, part of our mastery then towards ‘fluid solidarity’ as I’ve coined it is in understanding all of the processes of our being that give rise to the creation and transformation of energy so that we can as effectively and creatively as possible convert our energy into the best next move forward for the legacy that we’re ideally leaving behind in some way, that’s it. A part of that then is in now relying upon ourselves to understand ourselves via the model of part-process-connection-system when it comes to understanding how thoughts and emotions are even made to best engineer both paths of the masculine and the feminine to their highest potential, that’s how we act as a scientist upon ourselves and therefore as a natural byproduct a benefit for the worlds self-understanding of its nature. ‘Bioelectrical Agency’ as I’ve coined it is a man’s natural destiny as a consequence from his self-understanding translating over into an increasingly more evolved energetic state produced as a consequence of the energy systems within his body communicating more intelligently, aka a collective grouping of the highest energies like love, power, unity, balance, order, fun, excitement, courage all coming together to forge into the oneness that makes his ‘fluid solidarity’. More negative, less fluid. More positive, more fluid. More positively masculine and we have positive narcissism that builds for one’s respective community in some way and for a positive feminine that is the contribution and harmonizing of what is build by the masculine, whereas if it’s more negative it’ll do a combination of either self-inflate and self-explode as we see in unhealthy narcissism. Both males and females these days are just as narcissistic as one another and that’s something I learned from Sam Vaknin who’s much more into the science there where its his belief that there’s more female narcissists than females these days. Just in case you’re unsure, ‘positive narcissism’ versus ‘negative narcissism’ is discriminated in the scientific literature as something that is either a personality disorder or not, in this case narcissistic personality disorder. What I’ve realized, is that given there’s such a strong relationship between energetic dynamics overlapping with the presentation of a unique profile when it comes to cases that represent narcissistic personality disorder, this work I’m doing that I hope collectively continues much more strongly outside of me eventually leads to an inevitable cure for all unhealthy forms of narcissism which I believe it is. The problem of course being, the very reason why we needed a solution to the epidemic to begin with, bringing us back to of course both the symptom and the cause being ‘pseudo-individuality’ propagated as a false freedom to the lower-mid population demographics, including all of its outgrowths. As a man, your mastery is oneness, in fluid solidarity. As a woman, your mastery is togetherness, in solid fluidity.

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@PurpleTree With respect to the converted 'kid', underneath there's the same desire for truth as there is for you and I and so all three of us have that same switch underneath us, because its predicted on a sense of rightness and wrongness, truth over falsity. Although that may sound beautiful and great on the surface, coalesced with that is the simultaneous intersection with the ability to differentiate these things cognitively, separate it from past trauma and elucidate mature equilibriums relative to the rest of the swath of energetic, emotional, intuitive and especially social experiences that are a part of informing consciousnesses final resolve for the stage of decision making each of us three, and for that matter, the entire forum is in. If you imagine consciousness as a circle reflecting the inner core of being, while all of these other areas 'energetic, emotional, trauma, cognitive, etc' as separate bubbles that are all directing their energy towards that core, where connected to or absent from that consciousness core is an underlying conscience with only degrees of mature development, you'll understand how the guy that switched could be any one of us if you change just a few of the quantitative metrics of each of those other categories. Ironically, this is both the virtue and vice of psychopaths, where although they're not going to be the one's irrationally changing due to some arbitrary variable like a tendency towards group conformity, they're actually far more likely to be leaders at the top of these kind of outfits (including and separate to people higher up on Narcissistic Personality Disorder), in fact it would give them great pleasure the more intelligence they have because of course, it genuinely takes considerable intelligence to both not care about the actual outcome of a movement outside of one's covert strategic intention while also successfully manipulating to the point of persuading hundreds to thousands if not more. There is this overly simplistic pseudo-intellectual attitude in some spiritual circles that because values and principles are relative to a culture in which they're from, that means that values and principles don't inherently actually matter and anyone is philosophically right to actually do whatever it is they want. This is fundamentally true from a psychopaths biological context, however only partly, moreover when we're speaking about the broader population the pattern that we're noting when we speak of the generation of tradition and its outfit of values and principles, across the entire planet of cultures, is of course, the very natural and organic drive to organize truth from falsity relative to an underlying inherent drive towards wanting to not only know what is morally good but also be a part of it socially and build communities who's underlying spirit is fostered by its essence. The varying nature of tradition in culture when it comes to morality has nothing to do with then the absence of an inherent truth in 'philosophical morality' but purely the reason for why, to bring us back to where we started, 'Us Three' as I put it or as I furthered it 'Each Individual on the Forum', would have a different propensity to this individual that 'switched' and therefore from our relative position gives us 'Fair Game' to criticize them however when you changed just a few of the metrics of our biological and or environmental backgrounds, all of a sudden, we're perhaps even worse than the person that was brainwashed with ease on the switch. Or in the case of understanding why the morality varies between cultures and history, is to understand the unique environmental and biological context in which the traditions for morals and, eventually, an understanding of what universal virtue which is what this is all meant to lead to, ends. Propensity is to drive is to purpose is to an end that is solved via biology (Functional Philosophy) and environmental understanding (Structural Philosophy), so 'absolute truth' is in part, the achievement of the 'absolute solution' to any one of our drives of which a universal philosophy is concerning one that serves the underlying intention for all cultures across the planet, which of course too, includes respecting the individual functional and structural intelligence that has surfaced uniquely over the centuries since the dawn of time when a psychopath could easily just claim themselves as leader by beating another 'Neanderthal' over the head with a rock, which actually happened. This isn't to say, 'This is what they did in those times!', as that would be totally misplaced when it comes to accurately contextualizing those actions from then relative position of where their may for example have been less or more psychopaths relative to demographic and time of history, not to mention mental illness, especially situationally given 'Structural Philosophy' which contains all of the knowledge we've learned for how to self-regulate relative to social position is what often automatically controls our automatic impulses, that in our earliest times in history we just wouldn't have the knowledge much less social norms to be able to intelligently negotiate, so in the context of jealousy for example, without awareness it would often override the intelligence of the respective sentience and then from the future looking back we would ignorantly say 'look at what they did in those times' totally overlooking a more accurate interpretation of contextualized morality. Moving forward 100 years into the future and holding onto the assumption that we continue to progress philosophically rather than regress (the latter is arguably more possible though let's try and do our best given psychopaths and narcissists are able to live hidden in plain sight these days in political strata), we would look at this situation of the 'Switch' as a case study example where we further understood the vulnerabilities of human psychology versus the strengths that don't just protect it from being easy to change, because the susceptibility to change overlaps with neuroplasticity which is a positive of the related person, nor even just protect us via critical thinking, however inbuilt within our non-informational moral strata an understanding of all of the 'Energy Units' like psychological characteristics that have been well categorized like 'Disgust Sensitivity', 'Prudence' and others that bring greater 'Emotional Stability', which would then allow in advance as a new scenario if we were to alter these characteristics of the related person and run a new computer simulation as to what would happen after this change in the individual. What I have personally originated is this distinction between 'Functional' and 'Structural' philosophy and I think if people used this layer to understand how they conceptualize the origins of morality, it would really help them understand morality from a biological perspective rather than via the fragile filters of pure historical analysis that requires more of the stated contextualisaton, including too a radical new awareness for how new cultural outgrowths like that we have fascinatingly, however simultaneously disappointing and depressing it is from another angle, seen in the USA manifest over just the last two decades especially though held within the broader context of something that has spiraled more from the 1960's. Some on this forum would undoubtedly try to conceptualize everything using models like spiral dynamics, however you're going to have to try a bit harder if you really want to understand the level of danger the whole world is in as a consequence of these manifesting from what is scarily categorized as the most powerful country on earth. The most powerful and yet for a very large section of their population, arguably the most brainwashed and philosophically weakest in light of the opportunities they have before them to evolve their nature as sentient beings.

As per reminder of the post above, every post corresponds with a humorous self-analysis while courting my own mind, trying to get its attention, woo it, etc with whatever pickup line I can come up with, just remember that. Scratch 60+ points off my IQ and this is literally where it's at haha, who knows maybe I'd still do okay in Thailand. Anyhow, humor aside, this is just another layer to my appointment with evolving what I'm now terming as a new philosophy 'Temporalism'. It's the best overlap I've ever fathomed between the two comment noted ago, Functional Philosophy and Structural Philosophy. With intelligence, when it exists as a counterpoint to one's frustrations you have to remember its so easy to fuel a false identity with it rather than utilize it to truly make ground in one's own self-awareness and greater wisdom of the universe. It pays then to remember, no really, on that note let's run a game right now. Imagine you had to choose between either for every centimeter you lost in height or some other characteristic, you would gain in IQ and for every point you lost in IQ you would gain a centimeter in height, how far would you take it just for the sake of speculation? Now for the sake of speculation, let's drop your IQ by those noted 60+ IQ points and hit the big Dr. Evil Red Button for nuclear weapons on what instead activated your sex drive, or some other drive, can you now feel more empathy for the state of various relationship dynamics in the world and where you extend it to different drives activated across our Freudian-Jungian analyses, where else can you extend your empathy to develop your own spiritual intelligence on the present moment? Now let's say I am actually 60+ IQ points deficient in this moment and I had to live my life this way for the rest of my life, with the loss and fractioning of any identity I had with intelligence that my ego attached itself to, where would I find my humility? How does it reveal other aspects of my shadow that I haven't seen yet? How about for you? If not intelligence, try it for many other areas. How about a 100 IQ point increase? Continue the same exercise and work to move towards deepening your groundedness rather than getting carried away like many false self-help gurus tell you to do when they make it a part of your Law of Attraction process to just "GO WILD" in your imagination for what you want, while forgetting all the limitations to that even though there is some use to it. Temporalism, gentlemen and ladies, is a philosophy that I'll be advertising here when I want to as something that serves as a solution to relationship issues through the lens of those that are capable of energetically (cognitively and emotionally) actualising it, that'll be the best way to relay its learning exercises. "Yo dude, imagine if you reached level 1 to temporalism, that'd be all your social anxiety, inhibitions and need for validation wiped away while preserving that tear of beauty now liberating itself down your cheek for achieving this on top of what we now call your empathy, the thing that connects you to yourself as much as another", to me that's the beginning to a much more culturally stable way of relaying my ideas rather than just entirely restricting it to the rigid intellectualism of something that's even a cognitive imposition on what something like heart-math can handle. It's still not palatable for people who haven't done the training that they're able to create a powerful symbiotic energy that they can use in so many cool ways by aligning their activated connection with their hearts, minds and guts as a tertiary foundation. "You saying my gut has secret powers? It just tells me when I want Pepsi, Cheeto's and whether my momma is lying to me about whether she stole the last one!", yes I am. The gut has so much more I'm still discovering, Temporalism, is the understanding of this triad and the greater nervous system through their rhythms and how via their rhythms their harmonies create the channels that generate what we know as our felt experiences of emotions and thoughts, however... That is just the beginning kiddos and you'll have to give me a few weeks more for all of my wounds to heal, yep I have to go to the hospital daily now just to get my eye cleaned now that I have my stitches out; yep, its infected. Like I told yah, God was pushin for the endin and that immigration officer called it as she did, I'd be right now peeing in the pushes with puss oozing from my eye right now wondering where I was going to sleep at night as I looked both ways down the wrong seeing nothing for the bare 100's of meters that I could eye either way down the highway if I didn't listen. And that's an interesting process in the context of this work isn't it, where the listening was and what I was reading from my body layered in the context of the minds wants and wishes paired with the assertions of what wanted to Will here in the context of our underlying conversation on free will and determinism here regarding choice. Conscious Choice is already figured out, I've neatly defined it inside the clever confines of simply saying "free will is proportional to awareness and everything else is determinism", however in the context of Intuitive Choice, well now, that's an entirely different kettle of tea to boil isn't it aye! But that which Temporalism of course, overlaps in answering. "But I still don't fully understand what Temporalism is!" Good, because I don't want you yet, it'll come on the next page of this journal for a more formal presentation down the road heh!

~~~~~~ The West is totally overrated by the way, none of the countries shouldn't be anywhere near the top in terms of places to visit because of all the brainwashing, etc. Europe and Asia are where its at even though of got many soft and strong positive vibes with niches in the West that I'll always hold sacred, because sacredness is where its at and what a country needs to preserve which is all that I'm disappointed by really and is where all disharmony resides from in the world, psychologically <-> culturally and all sociological dynamics in every which way that you can make out of that. ~~~~~~ Something I've been thinking about. So as I've made pretty clear, working to be a dad and start a strong family, that being said along the way there's going to be a lot of strategic grounded adventures that I'm happy being open minded about to be a positive endorsement for ethical relations when it comes to negotiating the process of having many relationships with the opposite sex. Although right now 'Project Temporal Identity' takes precedence, as soon as I've established myself in level 1 there I'll be moving to Project Conquer ___insert country here___, where Thailand is of course, first on the list. My goal will be to form ethical relationships with 50 women per country I visit from now on each of which will only count if they're seeded with the potential or already established for being a some variant of a LTR, learning the language as I go along enough for basic conversation that can organically grow overtime. My goal with this project is to establish a core rich understanding based on personal experience on: (1) relationship dynamics so I can build a truly multidimensional imaginative landscape for how I imagine the future family I'm building (2) the dynamics of what I want (3) designing, learning and teaching parenting dynamics (4) deepening my existential grounding on life and what our human condition is (5) how to go after what I want as maximally and ethically as possible in way that is mutually beneficial and where its solely built on a grounding of trust (6) and of course, teach my son and daughter from the perspective of a gentleman that has truly seen it all. So THAT'S in the works. My father was a true traditional alpha male indoctrinated by the system to be the loyal bread winner that fought for his woman as protectively and dominantly as possible, he passed that onto me and its arguably in our genes as all my brothers are the same. I really love my dad and I love the wisdom that exists in that, however those same dynamics that were able to survive in the past in a much less complex world because of the increased multidimensionality, over-complications, drama and indoctrinations now show too many of their blindspots that its now dangerous to operate under the same traditional horse blinkers. For me, this is a 'you can have your cake and eat it too' situation where I get to preserve the past while simply creating my own intellectualized complex dating system whereby thin and reduce the signal to noise ratio as much as possible while respecting and sharing positive experiences with the opposite sex. For me, this would be a really positive project for me to do in light of it being a core need amongst both sexes that need to be filled, so that men on the one side understand my own strategic decision making when it comes to creating the most intelligent road to building my own family that I personally want to envision and on the other hand, to help reduce the bias of any female readers when it comes to a man focusing on quantity in this respect to give her an opportunity to discriminate between men that focus on quantity because they're purely looking at women as an object and game versus men that are genuinely looking for a certain kind of woman while creating an adventure along the way which is as ethical as possible and in that process, done where there's the minimum of suffering and maximum positive. This will help encourage both sides to begin to think about how they could operate strategically and objectively as well to help them move away from societal brainwashing while moving towards those true home grown values that truly make a society strong as it concerns remembering that family is the bedrock of civilization, as its family that creates the people and its the people that create the country that makes it a great place to visit, not the cloning of other countries, their cultures or the strategic brainwashing for capitalistic ends to create pseudo home away from homes that don't broaden cultures horizons for the betterment of our mutual collective inward development. Will translate from 'Something I've been thinking about' to: Something I'm now doing. In a matter of weeks. 50 may seem like a lot however for Bangkok, its really not. The 'quantity' changes from location to location based on my evaluation of each culture. Moreover, you should never try to 'match me' that's not what this is about, we are completely different people with different abilities, opportunities, goals and futures, you need to focus on building your future while I focus on building mine, and do so as strategically as possible. You have to remember that I'm not going to fit into anyone's definition of 'Woke', at the end of the day you have to remember that I have a male brain, '50' is just a number that gives my brain something to focus on, a goal, an ambition to accomplish, the humanism is in the process I actualize to achieve that, not the result, the result is in the impact I have on every interaction including how you maturely appraise this project. So here's to potentially (MOST LIKELY) upcoming... Project Conquer Thailand.

@Keryo Koffa I'm looking forward to going to Denmark soon.

Constructing first 'Temporal Identity'. First principle of philosophy. 1. Never slap, stroke, or pull the schlong. Man should not masturbate, woman should 'masturbate' the man. Man is a being that is meant to personify the epitome of creating order amidst the chaos. The epitome, not the average, not half way or a quarter way or three quarters of the way up the population ranks, the epitome. Epitome is his only understanding of equality and for everything else, it should be beneath him including equalizing everything that potentially harms his self-control, resilience and chance for liberation, with only its execution, literally or figuratively. Moreover, by allowing a woman to be the only one to truly explore it, he will only allow open channels within himself in which he encourages her to do so, so that he himself can be a part of that play rather than appearing as an 'expert'. This emboldens the sexual interaction with exploration and adds another light to the adventure, including how his increased strength carries over elsewhere in the journey with the right woman. Okay, there's implicit grains of truth to that principle as I do adhere to it consequentially regardless, however its of course not what I'm talking about. 'Temporal Identity' is the understanding of Identity creation via a higher functional perspective, predicating the ego's nature drive to Identity via attachment and learning with intelligently defined parameters that create a higher ground by which structural identities are created. What differentiates a structural from a functional identity is that the former is purely informational aka everything that is destroying the west in the form of Identity Politics, whereas the latter is purely the 'how' on the movement of computing information, which is the crux of the various levels of achievement that follow Bioelectrical Agency, hierarchically. I've been working over a year to being able to achieve this so it's a significant leap in my progress now that the wires are starting to spark together, something that'll take me a few weeks to become an unconscious habit given its a literal gymnastics action that's performed when it comes to generating functional identities, a bunch of different movements (i.e. all the brain areas, gut, heart, etc stuff I've been talking about). The biggest issue with cultural politics these days is that we're not working from the ground level of how identity is even formed and the ego's healthy desire for identity, because of this, we end up with two or more groups fighting with one another who's group identities are not only predicated under false understanding of how their beings work and what they want but as a natural consequence to this, totally inaccurate beliefs that because they have grains of truth to them, they're able to leverage the highest and worst aspects of human nature to fight for the least truthful aspects of their beliefs under the mask of that grain of truth, then being able to stamp it and call that 'Good Patriotism' figuratively or literally, for LGBT or international war, or even down to the micro politics when it comes to the nonsense we see hear and there in divorce courts. 'Temporal Identity' is revolutionary where its entirely predicated by a new and far more accurate temporal understanding of human nature and identity formation that forms the structural lenses that govern our belief paradigms, where the cycles of brain cognition informed by biography to the working memory of the present moment that juxtaposes itself via the self-computation of gut bacteria and alchemical agency employed by the heart as a conscious response, its a grounded practical solution to at least my relationship to the rest of the humanity that whoever learns it along the way, will join me in that freedom. Only at level 1 tier 1 of that, but I'm the savant constructing it so I should be down the ways there over the weeks to months ahead; we've got plenty of bridges to this paradigm from neurofeedback to CBT to tDCs and plenty, plenty more, however they're philosophically dumbstruck when it comes to putting it altogether into a palatable philosophy that can become a self-employed bioelectrical authorship and that's because they're entirely predicated on the enduser not being the technology that creates the comparable change but instead dependent on the technology in doing so. In this paradigm, after hours and hours of training and advancement up the tiers, you are the technology, free from LGBT+++ propaganda outside of creating your own occasional fart joke regarding thereto including for all of the inversions of that from war, religion and everything else. Functional Philosophy (the how of 'how life works' aka our inner natures) is the future to Structural Philosophy, and the first way to realize this truth is in understanding how it has always been the 'how' regarding how our natures work that explains how any philosophizing including the various kinds were ever created at all. Imagine any increase/decrease in any main area of our nervous system that impacts our functionality and we will see a proportional change in the lenses that makeup our perception of reality and subsequent characteristics that are formed in the construction of our philosophies about life, analogously and literally, just as 'personality' has been ordered into something that is either more or less suited to a certain external profession is to understand then the many unique relationships brought by function to understanding structure and its subsequent creation of structure that speaks to philosophy that one or more persons adhere to and or advance. Functional Philosophy not only explains degenerate structural philosophy but also explains the challenges brought to challenging those degenerate philosophies themselves because as a functional sentient unit decreases for the ego to compensate it relies more and more on the most self-protective and therefore sometimes most self-sabotaging aspects of itself either for a self-preservation that does or doesn't lead to self-destruction in the one and or the many, where even if there are social feedback loops, because their resolution on the information created from the level of their functional philosophy is so low, they're consequently forced to be increasingly more rigid on the truth/falseness of the structural philosophy generated. In order to ‘save’ lower functional sentient units, they must be indoctrinated into as much peace as possible and or their functionality must be repaired and or upgraded, there is no other option. Both options as we know, are what have been circulated in many ways, on that latter note we’ve already heard enough about the brainwashing we receive on NeuraLink. To the former here in Thailand for example, the average IQ is less than 90 whereas in Cambodia they’re even higher than Australia, Cambodians have more functionality on one level however because their disgust sensitivity isn’t as high as some areas like I mentioned regarding the lack of cleanliness in many areas and therefore the need to have your own toilet paper, below their poverty line ‘sneaky crime’ that I’m sure I don’t need to bring up examples of are much less looked down upon and by the way I’m just hoping the person that stole my stuff including my thousands of dollars uses it to good use for their health and prosperity I couldn’t care less outside of that and learning from my experiences, even though as I’ve expressed, they’re very, very good people, over-nourished even when it comes to the Buddhist faith their taking ranch as beautifully as it has. On that note, I never got to see Angkor Wat but it’s highly, highly recommended, absolutely amazing. In Thailand, as made very visible by the artificial beauty standards they have here, they on the other hand even though that mechanism of functionality is a little twisted and extremely damaging with how shallow its expressed in their culture on certain ends as depicted in my previous post, especially where there’s a lack of disgust sensitivity where there should be some in a way that enhances that damaging effect, look down on the lower classes here in certain ways especially with respect to crimes of all kinds, and do not at all go out of their way like you may see in Cambodia they do when it comes to helping those below the poverty line. Both have the Buddha on a pedestal, however because of the unhealthy indoctrination of the West into Thailand, in the ways shared in the previous post, the way disgust sensitivity has presented itself in their culture has manifested very differently compared to the Cambodian’s, however a little smarter they are when it comes to being that little bit more sneaky. In the future, I'm both worried and excited for both countries with respect to how they evolve philosophically and how their respective positions right now change in that motion which will include the continual influx of cultures around the world, from China especially into Cambodia and the West's ongoing influence on the self-esteem of Thailand's mask, and concerning Vietnam, I see them as a combination of both Cambodia and Thailand where although Vietnam has suffered from the West's influence, they have a stronger affiliation with the self through Buddhism and even the spiritual practices they've inherited from China, so much of the sacredness that's preserved by the Cambodian's in rural areas is likely going to be kept strong in the way it is in China moving forward. However, as a lay opinion, I expect to see Bangkok to more and more become the bridge for the west into the rest of Asia as it has over the last couple of decades has opened up to via male Westerners being attracted to wedding the Thai women here. Still lots to integrate, however functionally using these three cultures as an example, even though Thailand is going to become more and more techy and in return advance its education in many new ways, with respect to Functional Philosophy we're going to very much see a stalemate between the three cultures because of how larger continents are going to landlock that conversation, out of the three though I expect to see Vietnam become more and more of the world around them and maybe even along with the Cambodians, become more philosophically astute, especially functionally because of their roots in being more body centered via Buddhism. On that note, even though we have the scientism I'm predicting to take more root in Thailand, that's only going to have more of a degrading impact on preserving the sacredness of their roots and at least right now at this point, I don't see how its possible that Thailand isn't going to simply turn into a 'Second West', which is what China used to be at risk of. Outside of previously being a casual appetizer I've only just started when it comes to analyzing and integrating other cultures, however I predict its going to be like a second arm to future philosophizing for me that'll only deepen the scope and breadth of my sharing's here that I look forward to.

The tale of the Fiery Green Eyed Doll and the Hyenas Manes of Centuries that tamed her under the Green Billed table of Consciousness. (Spontaneously decided to write this in a supermarket here in Bangkok just now. The singularity of a particular 'woman' here is used symbolically) The rain pours thunderingly Eyes of green fire seen from a distance Dancing hyenas with lion manes surrounding her through the looking glass of a voyeur room A Thai woman finding her place in the cultural smoke and mirrors Only taught to please those manes or find herself through the beauty she can achieve Even if taught that this is for herself, it is again, for the manes For the man has taught himself to be trapped just as much, via their fiery green gaze So in as much as they believe themselves to have imprisoned the woman Via that same volition, they ensnare themselves in a greater hurricane that traps them both within the voyeur palace One behind the doll glass and the other, sound asleep in their untraced desire within the looking room The looking glass that forever foretold many of these futures centuries behind this one and so then, not just this one too but also the spectrum of egoic idiocy that we see on both sides of sexes across the planet that keeps them still in their response, both trapped Centuries of green tears Bound by lustful monetary tiers Cloaked in a disguise That hinds a culture from the self that believes itself is the dark side of the moon Now orbiting the artificial sun, to continue the cycle of life and death To heroically triumph through the seasons, all in the name of future sun and daughter That hold these green eyes at the alter, while all burn ablaze Under and above, in a heaven made of hell As the thai woman threatens to carve the cheeks of her beautiful face And the hyenas manes calling her crazy As she releases in confusion and they hold her 'lovingly', and give her a child So they can both teach their son and daughter, how to love like this too A cultural insane asylum, locked on a hidden mental island With damage to the heart, enough too so that they can be exploited by the west and they can extend the deed of their enlightenment here too, Thailand, the land of the free tears, As they remain hidden among the thousands surrounding theirs, Silent, with the highest oppression being the hidden acceptance of the hyenas manes With their fiery green eyes, The diamonds of their soul Computable only as a brief passing thought or emotion An eyeglance towards the tiniest understanding of their secret stormy predicament In it, a light switch goes off to release their energetic torment but then just as quickly A robotic override, A welcoming plastic smile "Hello sir, how may I help you today? We have some lovely women coming for you, please wait a moment as they prepare for entering our display room" And no, I didn't I left - Best Light By the way running the following feedback loop for next few weeks that corresponds the scale I created from "Awareness to Agency" just above. Firstly, I'm writing in a very awkward position at the moment as the counters are suited to people of smaller height and there's no appropriate chairs, aka don't have much time here: 1. Enhancing differentiation of internal energy, remember as lack of differentiation increases so too does the lack of ownership of that energy and therefore the lack of agency and free will (which we do have however has been poorly categorised). Internal energy is purely all that we experience, external is purely all that we experience on the incoming that becomes the internal. Differentiation is multi-layered and overlays between the computationally abstract and the very mechanical and straightforward, "I felt this experience created from my gut, to my heart to my mind, it has a signature that expresses itself as a projective consequence to those mechanics, etc, etc". There's chaotic multidimentiality that expresses itself as orderly relationality from the viewpoint of understanding, that until its held in full view by awareness, that awareness does not fully translate all the way up the scale to agency that spells out the meta-language of then escalation into potentially higher consciousness that just NATURALLY follows as that's just the NATURAL direction of true awareness, it wants more light and when it achieves it, this is when awareness starts to translate into epigenetic change from viewpoint of its meta-language, that is always evolutionary, a translation of what I meant by "it wants more light". 2. Enhancing the LTM (long term memory) mapping between information gathered from awareness into... going back to the noted scale... understanding that fuels how power can actualise itself back into then the symbiotic relationship between the two that translates into a naturally greater level of awareness. This is done via techniques I've self created that are outgrowths from my learnings of method of loci for example. The light within tells me, if its true, that God wanted me to get rid of my phone and computer so that I relied much more on my memory, so that I brought more strength to the accomplishment of this purpose and for any other reason there may be on a cultural level. By understanding the scale created one should by now understand that to the level there is a lack of understanding and or power, there is zero, and mean zero ownership over the energy and therefore responses within our responses and therefore you are purely a puppet by the limits of that phenomenological profile. This is something that one has to maturely accept in order to embrace the challenge of moving up the levels in the same way we would for exercise, as long as we have the right methods. I have some upcoming stuff down the line here but just so yal know where I am in what I'm prioritising in my movement forward. I'll take the same energy I brought running now to my progression here which will now give me a level of unprecedented will and focus I haven't experienced for a long time. It's ah, arguably perfect timing, synchronistically. The loss of the run, the new realisations, the opportunity to now captilise, so I'm lucky in many ways in this respect. Cheers big ears God for opening my eyes a little here as requested, you knew I wasn't going to stop my run so you stopped it for me as I'd learned the lessons I'd needed for now from exercise to take things further in meta-ascendence, returning to the original project. I've run out of time to continue speaking here, will come another day. I've realised now though, and the deeper I go the more it impacts me to the core, that strikingly, its becoming more and more apparent that as the sophistication by which I understand how to become aware of, differentiate, influence, change and evolve my own energy (inclusive of all levels and manners of thought and emotion but not limited to) and the respective areas of the nervous system (i.e. not limited to areas of the brain) in which they're created, reside and have their power interdependently across the rest of our being (i.e. how a particular energy, no matter the kind or magnitude, experienced within the heart influences one to many in the gut, everywhere else and vice versa), the more I realise not only how I was a living, breathing biobot, programmed by the system, and that I, as a consequence of building the same powers that programmed the original state of my system am learning to breath beyond the abstract parameters that previously defined me as a being, but also how as a consequence of my cultural learnings then, how each core aspect of my nervous system has had tailor made hacking techniques specially created to successfully hack into each area so that I would believe that my decisions, hopes, dreams and desires were all mine and so I would stay as far away as possible from realising the core truths of the hacked spaces of my nervous system, and through that bridge, all of my consciousness and all of its possible levels. We're taught to falsely believe that a food craving is a real desire, and because of this we have an obesity crisis. We're taught to believe that a sex craving is a real desire, and because of this we have not an overpopulation issue per se but an overstupidity crisis. We're taught to believe that a dopaminergic urge to win is a true desire, which is why we have a narcissism epidemic. We're taught to believe that a sunken state is a true existential crises of depression of some kind and that the only solution for them is a pill or to 'find their true purpose' where their only choices are those artificially created by their culture that unbeknownst to them has fastly regressed into infantalism and that to choose between those will merely be a choosing between how their respective society has so far cleverly created a chemical treadmill of 'purpose' for them to run on as an alternative to realising that what literally all is needed is understanding of their own condition and like the kinaesthetic intelligence grown in one's hand with respect to catching a seemingly uncatchable ball they'll find bliss easily by just following the respective mind-body training that's needed. Moving back to the "Agency-Awareness" scale, we are OWNED by the external, our respective culture or otherwise, to the extent we do not own our own responses, if we do not embrace this truth by relative measure we simply won't make the appropriate strategically mature responses to find where the terrain of true self-awareness exists and therefore the ground of where true freedom exists that we need to track to. I've found a few more nuggets via my tracking from Vietnam to Phnom Penh and now as deeper cultural resolutions find my internal cognitive theatre room here in Bangkok as I deeper my relational understanding of the human condition and our historical progressions, what further ground will you make in more deeply realising your own? Not in malice, not in irrational campaigning, but in understanding who you truly are for what you are, how will you improve your intelligence to do so? At the end of the day, regardless of our overlap between one another, we must answer this question for ourselves to establish true ownership over who we are, one that isn't fettered by anything other than our deepest purity, analogous to a rebirth, untarnished by any poor faiths we keep with energies because we don't lead with understanding to enhance our power, and thus instead said power is purely of the previously noted identity structures that corrupt our genuinely very valuable, pure and good ego into the very falsity that masks those faiths into inner-created churches that are just smoke and mirrors that hide ourselves from our own true souls due to this self-ignorance as a natural fail-safe compensatory survival mechanism. Between now and when I'm back I'll have done a lot more research on Aristotle's work, among other. Who knows what else I should give you scoundrels tongue in cheek, to start with I'll make my next share the aforementioned promise "The Next Post" after I get more settled here in Bangkok.

I am now... OFFICIALLY... in Bangkok! Long story short, my guess is looking at all my injuries, that my backpack was stolen and the fact that I was going to be still doing a lot of tracking through urban areas where there's many unknown variables, my request to continue tracking to Thailand while receiving the aid of the Cambodian immigration was refused. Plainly stated, "Michael, I will not continue arguing with you, we have no idea how long its going to take you, 4 days, 7 days, or whatever you say excuse my English but we are not waiting around for you", and this is because she gave me an ultimatum, "If you continue to track to Thailand from Phnom Penh we will not help you receive the extra clearance you need because you now have a non-official emergency passport not a formal passport. You can choose to wait two weeks until everything is sorted with your embassy or you can cooperate with us. Be our guest though take the chance it us up to you but don't argue with us if you have issues at the border as we will not help you then and you will have to wait." I took a bus as the airport would not clear me yet. I am actually now glad, as I honestly believe I would have ended up seriously injured. I couldn't find a shoe store that had my shoe size so I had no choice but to rely on these sandles I previously pictured. I didn't think they were that bad but after I stepped out of the bus after our first break of the trip they now grip like slippery ice at the slightest give in the pavement forcing me to watch nearly every step depending on the unpredictable weather. If I tracked on, it would have been a terrible decision as tracking deeper into the rural from Phnom Penh that I'd argue isn't even a real city per se (but the people are really great and friendly, its just the poverty line that forces people to do things they wouldn't want to do) would have given me even less of a chance of finding shoes as they became increasingly worse, the worst of it of which would have been felt in the second or third day into again of which when would have likely spelt my end, with no one to contact still as like I said I'm cut off from all my social networks as they require phone verification and the only mobile number I bothered to learn off by heart was my fathers. Moreover, the Australian Embassy have only given me $200 US to work with, and that's a loan. Entering into my first day here in Bangkok my body is utterly exhausted, moreover I've started to experience issues with my right ankle and left knee, on top of this the rest of my injuries from the motorcycle injuries are still healing and combined with the conscious choice to be homeless and not to mention all the mosquito bites that have come with that, she's done me a great favor by persuading me to take her side. I also had three boils that had grown on my back from the tropical weather the size of small golf balls that when put under the slightest pressure other than the comfort of a light breeze, caused a lot of pain. I figured that given I could tighten my bag up against my back I'd be able to minimise the pain however even if I became used to any temporary pain, they would have taken twice as long to heal and perhaps could have developed into something worse, at the very least pending a potentially inevitable infection. So here I am now just easing my body back into regular life, however as much as I can I'm now going back into theoretical mode for the evolution of bioelectrical agency now where I've started to both realise the practical benefits of training slightly more as well as the importance of, although I'm proud of myself for how far I came as its literally the furthest I've ever tracked or ran especially on zero training for years, making sure I'm prepared bioelectrically, of which I now have a lot more confidence and inspiration towards as I had moments where I was able to experience elevations I've never been able to achieve more. The exhaustion of the body is of course the clock reaching 12 midnight on realising that it now has time to properly rest where I'm not going to pressure it anymore and so "Now is the time to let Michael know that we're fucked!". Which is fair enough, I'm proud of both my mind and body, there's still tons for me to process, integrate and only some of which I'll be able to share, especially socially speaking. Oh yeah, on the latter front so I met this person don't want to reveal many dets but this around the back and fourth between embassy and immigration anyway but fuck, this person really did my head in haha and they wanted me to spend all of my time with them. They were super great towards me, however they would just not stop talking and talking and talking, which is not their fault as I've still got more to learn with respect to enforcing boundaries in this regard as we all know but it went like "Yeah, so let's take the conspiracy of..." I'd say, and this person would say "MATE! It's not a conspiracy, this is conspiracy FACT!" and now you know the kind of person I was speaking with. This person loves to go out and party so they showed me a good time however I think where my nervous system was at the time I just wasn't able to appreciate them as much as they perhaps deserved. I promised them I'd be back in Cambodia following the ending of some of my future travels where I'll also be going back to Vietnam, so we'll see how it goes I'll have more of a swing in my step I think so I'll be able to steer the ship more in our get together which is what I think it really needed. Anyhow, this was typed on the laptop of a friend I've recently made here in Bangkok, just thought I'd give an update so yal aren't running a false story in your head. With respect to bioelectrical agency, start with the heart, then you learn to create this in the mind followed by the gut, then literally in every other energy center is where I'm experimenting with. Don't even bother trying it if you're not willing to devote at least an hour a day on the heart alone for two weeks, as that's how long it took me to start envisioning the greater depths that were possible with it and other areas of the body following my learnings from heartmath.com. 'Bioelectrical' may be changed to 'bioenergetics' however bioenergetics encompasses so much cool science stuff term now that it doesn't hit home base as much as I'd like even though its a more encompassing term, however the short end of that is to realise that 90+ percent of psychology is not purely replaceable or explainable by 'bioenergetics' but is instead just ancillary to and or that bioenergetics is the foundation to psychology. Practically speaking, any thought or emotion you have has more survival value to you if you understand that you both can understand it fully and have enough agency to change it fully (i.e. alchemy). Bioelectrical Agency is predicated on Understanding then Power then Ownership. Think of Bioelectrical Agency in the same way you would owning money, if you don't understand your money, then accurate proportional use is purely based on luck and saying you 'own your money' is like saying a squirrel owns a $50 US note, secondly if you don't have any power over its use, then relative to that lack of power especially when that lack is around misunderstanding how your psychology is influenced by the world around you to spend money, then saying you own your money is like saying a 9 year old spoilt brat brainwashed by reruns of the worst possible tik tok videos owns their money, or let's just take any sweatpants wearing Carls Jr. addict. They of course, don't 'Own' their money in the same way that they don't 'Own' their 'Bioelectricity' to be able to employ 'Agency' over it which is a combination of both understanding and power, balanced by the awareness to create and support it. Great, so now you understand why the western world has no capitalistic incentive to monopolise its interests towards marketing to you how you can advance your bioelectrical agency to become a more 'empowered consumer', or Carl's Jr. regular. In the past, especially around Aristotle's era I predict that given the work of a guy like Aristotle and his intelligence, in light of it being on the ontology of values which intersects with agency and our employment of them in the instruction of our energy over our beings to me its perfectly rational to conclude that perhaps Aristotle even completed work in this area of 'Bioelectrical Agency' as I've authored it. Venn diagrammatically, the work is perfectly symmetrical with mine when you add in utilising awareness, areas of the body and directions to focus energy in its revolution towards a particular endpoint within the nervous system. The achievement of Aristotle's ideals at work is entirely predicated on the ability to instruct awareness towards a particular value driven and therefore energetic end. In fact, even the differentiation between that which was a value versus a vice requires so much awareness over the bodies energies and understanding towards that which enabled order towards "Aristotle's Mean" versus chaos, what I've realised is analogous to my own "Order vs Chaos" dichotomy I shared earlier, something that mirrors the vice/virtue sentiment. If I were a police investigator and I had to reach the most rational conclusion here, I would say that at a bare minimum here Aristotle's work on bioelectrical agency here has... ah.... coincidentally become... ah... lost... so to speak, at least in part... even if he had different words for it where much of his work is now for me to read as I'm only going by what I've connected in the last 24 hours as I've barely looked into anything of Aristotle's other than what I've passively learned over the years with many of the sayings that have been passed on to westerners like "Remember Aristotle's mean!". This means that Aristotle not only created his own energetic map of which the discernment of values is on what supported the epigenetic advancement of being versus that which did not when held in context with the most intelligent use of said map in the context of any correspondence with 'Bioelectrical Agency', but that he would have had maps on the relationships between awareness, agency and the movement vs creation and discernment of energy in the context of self-bio-evolution, however elementary those maps may have been doesn't matter, those maps predicate the invention of his value dichotomies and thus he must have invented the former first. In this sense, I don't really have anything more to teach you with respect to bioelectrical agency anymore, you should be able to work the rest out for yourself from here as that would better steer you anyway in making the connections I have made myself. The destruction of the demographics of the blind in western civilisation has come at the hands of falsely adhering to the freedoms of democracy while underplaying how much of a collectivist you are and at the same time having those freedoms stolen away from you more and more as you sell your ability to intelligently instruct your energy in a way that self-informs the order of said freedoms via understanding and power, that when combined create the unity that reflects the freedom that so many people take for granted while simultaneously don't realise is being more and more taken away. The best way to know something is an absolute, yes an absolute truth not relative one, is in how much it scales between the finite and 'infinite' (even if we only mean this term from a symbolic reference frame) relative to our best intelligence on the environment and ourselves. To point towards this being realised as an absolute then is as follows, in particular how I drew my analogy to the practical relationship with money. Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness. Simply as follows, no awareness no power and from no power, at this point everything only becomes the illusion of understanding, which leads to illusions of ownership, which leads to illusions of freedom, which leads to illusions of agency. Now to finish that cycle relative to present knowledge, I'd put consciousness in front of agency to say that true consciousness cannot exist without being predicated by agency hence why we've created any hierarchy at all on consciousness i.e. low vs high, however for now we'll leave that where it is. Now, back to where we were, doesn't that sound a little like what happens with what I said regarding money? People walking around believing THEY'VE go the agency to make THEIR OWN decisions while all the while through their over-confidence combined with a hidden inflated ignorance they instead just create massive gaps in the market that can only be filled by companies that are best at exploiting this, with casinos of course being the greatest examples on the disgust sensitivity end. I'm NOT getting into conspiracy stuff right now though haha in light of what I mentioned earlier regarding the person I met in my immigration-embassy back and fourth draining all of my energy during our encounter, so I'll leave the rest for you. On a practical note though let's return back to "Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness" just to see where it travels from the finite to the 'infinite', we have where the analogical use of money meets the 'currency, investment and growth' of bioelectricity in the finite materialistic reservoir of consciousness and then on the other side of that, at any level of consciousness growth and any attempt at increasing the perception of the scale of consciousness this matrix, even if they change in the complexity of the dynamics between them ("Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness") there is both neither the experience of higher consciousness that is without this dynamic or system nor even with another to replace it that supersedes it, that we know of. There is direct correspondence between the dimensions of experiential consciousness and our understanding of our agency over the energy we have to use within it and how at the lower dimensions this also corresponds to the immediacy of the physics of the material world with the seemingly most insignificant of phenomena, like that of a Carls Jr. burger and its however superior counterpart, sweatpants wearing addict who's got two chubby kids in the back screaming their order to them as they as the Energetically Noble Aristotelian parents that they are gracefully placing their order to the lovely person on the other end of the speaker in the drive through if its not a sliding glass door communication between Bioelectrically and therefore Diplomatically FREE employee and customer, both unbeknownst to them, looking into the eyes of an unfamiliar prisoner with a painfully frustrated smile with both bellies that only know they can't be satiated as they've never been taught to have the agency to do so, thus... They have the whip and ball chain of capitalism to whip em into shape with their next craving! Lights out for me, to humorously end to juxtapose the usual "Best Light" and to get a well deserved rest so I can enjoy the mind that'll return to me when I've achieved my full recovery heh, but only after a Carls Jr. soda. Shit, I forgot to get ice. Dang, I'll have to go back to the store. It's 30 minutes away, oh well, Carls Jr is worth it. See yal later on. But I do need to get some rest! I've also run out of time on my friends laptop half drinking my third beer here heh! But to finish as the synthesis as the recap, ever emotion and thought is now at what we can call just for fun but meant seriously an "Aristotelean Bioelectrical Value Intersection", this is because a personal value i.e. courage isn't just an energy, its the authoring and understanding of the energies between what makes up our nervous systems and what runs them to create agency as well as to expand it over our beings and subsequently, our bodies emotional and thought well-being as per what was the philosophical goal implied by "the Aristotelean mean".

I will be away for at least 2 wks. Or just when I want to comment again. Very simple message. = My backpack was stolen. Inclusive of iPhone, Macbook and passport. All means of communication now lost other than right in this moment being able to accept the friendly gesture of a man from Holland to send this message. I am sitting across from his friend from Turkey right now where the same thing happened to him, including the struggle with immigration and his embassy as I am having the same issue with the Australian embassy. I am not giving up on this challenge. I am still tracking on. I solely took the opportunity to send this message to inspire others not to give up either. I am almost forced to give in and just catch a plane to Bangkok, thats what everything in my nervous system almost is telling me to do. But I will not. I will accomplish what I set out to do no matter what. However, I will now have no means of reliable communication until I build up a new temporary home base in Bangkok. So whatever challenge you should be completing right now, whatever you have to do. Do not give in. Do not give up Find power in another level of inward silence where light is darkest before the dawn. If you didnt realise, that's your cue to now... Rise. As always, Best Light

@Keryo Koffa Yeah I have to explore more of south america, I only have connections in Colombia; and although its not black and white in light of some of the cultural difficulties they have there, my connections are only positive. One woman I know there she's very connected spiritually (psychism; after-life, ancestors, deep consciousness bonds, etc), and that's one of the most important qualities when it comes to *family* to me; spirituality minus connection though which is the the overlap with family is like holding a candle in a church while waiting to die. Lots of women that are spiritual but are just sexually spiritual and they get high off their sexuality rather than establishing any genuinely deep connections, especially where there's an unhealthy connection to psychedelics. There's many, many more positive things I have to explore in South America.

@Buck Edwards It's all people should focus on and yet western civilisation try to get them to focus on something else so that they can steal 'family' from underneath you; its how they keep unhealthy forms of collectivism in check, through more unhealthy forms of collectivism, that results in western civilisation destroying itself from the inside out, as it has. But that's another topic. Life is family, from here we learn interdependence and from this, the unity of "Self" and "Other" enough to then call the whole animal kingdom family, then learn how to teach that slowly to open minds, like our children, in the future.

@Buck Edwards I literally don't. I have one: family. That's it. I compartmentalise everything into that category now including energetic connection and then let it all unfold from there as a self-consistent ontology .

@Buck Edwards these days I put genetics first; taboo aryan race stuff. It's because I've realised I've been brainwashed to think it doesn't matter, in reality however, we have many problems that have emerged as a result of this. It makes so many people insecure though that we can't speak rationally. However for me, it's not even 'taste', its practicality. I'm a guy that would otherwise put deeper energetic connection first, now that I've learned from experience I've realised the illusions in that space as well, not that its totally impermanent however if there's any validity to its permanence it requires a set of qualities anyway that usually relate to a persons genetics. I know many women of many races now, and I appreciate all of their uniqueness, however it's only because I want to start a family. If I didn't want to start a family, I wouldn't care in the slightest outside of the persons proven value. This means there's still compromise if compromise means preserving a genuinely deep connection and the wisdoms in the right place, however there's obstacles for me to overcome internally when it comes to raising a family with with a Vietnamese, Cambodian, Chinese, Japanese, Thai or other asian women compared to say a Ukrainian, Russian, Bulgarian or Columbian woman; I haven't visited many European countries hence why its so far just restricted to Ukraine and Russia, another country where I have a connection is Ireland, and she's possible however to be honest, even though I think she'd be a great mother she's a little too authoritarian for me even though there's a spark . There's undeniably very beautiful asian women, my concern is not of beauty but of build, personality traits and other. All in all though, I still need to go through a systematic genocultural, to coin the word, analysis. If I chose Asia, I have no doubt I'd be able to get away with having multiple children with multiple wives to still raise a strong loving interdependent family with a firm value-hierarchy, however I also wouldn't be able to include women indoctrinated into more of a western influence relating to number of wives, moreover, I am leaving some temporal space still open concerning the finding of the right woman. I may even decide to settle down with a Cypriot woman, or any race at the end of the day depending on the connection, however at the end of the day this comes down to protecting the integrity of my family name for generations to come, which is a systematic undertaking. I don't care if people get offended with my choices, I deal with reality in the cultivation of a stable inner culture, I don't care about peoples identities anymore if they're not able to just be mature adults when it comes to healthy self reflection and self-reflection. People forget they're creators, so they should ensure at all times their creative process is respected first and foremost by themselves with the right value-set (which includes knowing how to take healthy feedback from trusted persons) but also others i.e. enforcing boundaries on choices if necessary. So when I have a child with a woman one of the worst case scenarios is I'm saying "Well I love the connection we have however I shouldn't have chosen them in light of x, y genetics" as its totally incompatible with my family name and the legacy we've so far created. For some strange reason for the most difficult and most important decision of someones life that wants to start a family, somehow they're expected to be people pleasers for those that get offended when they take that decision seriously; then we wonder why we have the societal problems we do. As usual, there's a combination of logic (genetic) and intuition (energetic connection) when it comes to solving these dilemmas, and I've already got it all there so its going to be pretty straightforward. I'm sure my commenting will aid someone who's open minded but lacking both. Especially when they just look at 'genetics' as attraction, which is only one shade of it, moreover its only one shade of 'energy' as well, we may be attracted to someone because we have codependent tendencies and they have narcissistic one's creating a perfect sized shoe and foot scenario.

Brief Journal - so it doesn't count as "The Next Post": For the first time yesterday at 2AM I felt real taste of actually waking up to my own personal reality hypnosis; that at a visceral level, it genuinely felt like something analogous to a computer simulation, that the only practical output to that understanding, is the obvious implications of optimising for signal to noise ratio. It also made me realise, there's only so much you can do when it comes to passing on second hand experiential knowledge that really require being embedded into that reality to really appreciate, especially as empathy, imagination and intelligence jointly decrease. For me now, I'm at the non-psychedelic (future vision and will disclose scientific stage by stage when I'm there) paradigm where it's really just about patterns of consciousness that I'm more and more concerning myself with and aligning with the re-categorisation of the environment around me that follows from that incremental levelling. It's totally inverted and or flatlined my reality questioning, building on its prior redundancy with a concrete fluidity I've never felt I belonged to, however strangely I felt it mirrored in external environmental instances. There's trainings I do that I haven't fully disclosed yet which pertain, though its only relevant after its experimentally valid to do so. By the way, have finally learned to appreciate the true essence of balance and moderation (something my father always talked to me about as a kid), having my first blue cheese and packaged salmon that I made a childhood favourite after a month plus of non-western luxuries. It was... undeniably an incredible experience. In spite of this new growth curvature forming in and out of lower hidden identity structures, there's an unmistakable gap that exists still in my addiction to said luxuries and the curse this puts on my ability to thrive with gratitude and love towards the hardest environments that have me worried enough to still work diligently to redeem as much as possible before Ukraine, an environment that requires growth from me that is not merely seen one day, but where my efforts in one day of action mean so much more that they carry so much further into the future as well as being able to repeat this day to day. My own grandiosity aggressively reached for the intuition within that pressed me to just do this without any training or any thought inside half an hour of the the first thought of doing so, something which has now faired well in helping make even riskier judgements in the future as a consequence of the improvements in self-measurement that have followed in what arguably began as too foolhardy. I knew I wouldn't do it in the ten days, even within a few days thereafter however what I completely didn't consider was the amount of socialising and friendships that I was going to make along the way, and subsequently, the detours that would result here. It's no longer the case all in all that I'm "not yet the being I need to be in order to..." but now, with the resolves and learnings that have followed, its instead much more "after this I'm going to be", with the balance and moderation needed to intelligently calculate that into healthy self-trust, which we all must have in this journey forward of ours.

@Carl-Richard Reminds me of William James' variant of pragmatism, quoting him "truth is what works in the way of belief." This idea that the usefulness of a concept underpins its validity is something I see resonating there in what you’ve said and is reflective of my recent re-evaluation of identity in the context of ego and shedding those versus acquiring those that only have true validity relative to the ontology that reflects our highest potentialisation. This follows from my new perspective that its what all cultures are inherently always attempting to do, at least in as much as they’re not granted with too much privilege that results in an internal imbalance. James emphasized the fluid nature of truth, suggesting that ideas gain credibility based on their practical application, not merely abstract accuracy; to play devils advocate, I am moving for both, where in the nondescript, that would be in exploring the infinite nature of consciousness to expand it to otherwise hidden environments inaccessible to basic sense reality, while grounding myself in challenging sense based environments that grow all good adaptations to them. Pragmatism safeguards against the dogma of naive realism, the latter which I’ve also brought up recently and how need to dive deep to remove as much of it from our psyche as possible as it’s symptomatic of that ‘silver spoon consciousness’ I implied, i.e. to align, pretty much the removal of everything related to identity politics as it presently stands in rotting most peoples consciousness. And on that note though you wisely acknowledge that some realism is inevitable, like how gravity isn’t just simply “useful” but is rooted in observable, measurable forces, in the same way that my work in bioelectrical agency is. Which is why its so “useful” to tie the infinite to the finite with things that continually teach us to better adapt to it by having a project to work on that tests this 'usefulness adaptivity' overtime . To wrap the infinite with the finite, as James might suggest, the challenge is navigating the "stream of consciousness" while recognizing that all maps of reality are partial tools to be wielded, not ends in themselves. This dynamic balance between certainty and flexibility is an art, a way of life and something Leo undoubtedly and measurably contends with in reaching his greater heights, so there’s depth and wisdom to your words regardless as it to pertains to how the gestalts of consciousness levels provide us with new lenses to perceive the same “truths” more than “useful fictions” and while at the same time, to that very utilitarian measurement. Without some degree of realism, communication and action in the world become incoherent, and that realism is where collectivism outside of the ‘infinity of individuality’ by comparison, is our answer on how we create a shared, consistent reality, which in spite of its many flaws, is why of course science in spite of its flaws is as important in modern times as it was when we stopped burning *witches to crosses*, a strong parallel to the noted identity politics, symptomatic of naive realism, we struggle so strongly with today. This survival imperative as well for the 'coherency among the masses' is the undertone I sense in your latest response as well in terms of validating both the infinite and the finite through the utilitarian, though to that end, that too is by our same bias i.e. useful fictions yet increasingly more measurable things like consciousness threshold; level; capacity; etc.

@Husseinisdoingfine Pain without awareness is the signal towards change without the space to articulate it into true grounded invention. Awareness without discernment is is magical thinking that feels good in the creative process not so much in hindsight of looking back on what you haven't created. Discernment without action is generating the most beautiful of designs without bringing them into reality. If we fail at step one, then it gets even worse, where pain then just goes straight to the ego's most primitive survival based identities its created for self-preservation as what is a rational response when it is struggling to bring rationality via awareness, it then shifts not even to the happy go lucky magical thinking of its opposite I mentioned but instead the magical thinking of what becomes self-justifying demonism. Insert Iran's backlashes which serve as the iconic example of what many memetic trends in Western civilisation emulate in their microcosm, for example a woman who's struggling with BPD will mirror that same behaviour in pseudo-psychic realities of relationships and a man struggling with NPD will mirror it in completely overreacting to an innocuous comment made to him by someone that was just trying to be nice and didn't know about his other sensitivities that he was triggered by but due to the NPD's magical thinking he will twist it in his mind where now that so called 'friendly guy' is instead the demon that he must possess through his delusional myopia. Further, when we either combine action or inaction by this point we now either get the outcome of psychosis and subsequent mental health hospitalisation via non-action, eventually, even if its just in analogous form, or through action the outcome of criminal charges and subsequent imprisonment. It's a harsh world we live in due to our misunderstandings of human nature, for any dissonances you have regarding you must always prioritise inner light understanding that darkness is only ever compensatory for not seeing the light, aka hence misunderstanding can be equated with darkness as per the word 'ignorance' and how its often included when attempting to mock other demographics, which is one sense healthy for the system of the demographic to either self-identify itself this way or to identify where there is ignorance if it leads to genuinely deeper knowledge or sometimes which is more often the case just a compensatory identity protecting mechanism similar to how disgust sensitivity works, and in another way, it can blind us to the self damage or damage we're doing to others in such categorisations to the level they're not done with context and nuance that pairs with the truth of the reality. Such is the case with your scenario, mockery, belittlement, 'negational categorisation' can lead to ego fulfilment when we haven't solved enough dissonance that would have otherwise led to ego fulfilment that corresponded to having identity structures that better aligned us with a more grounded and more imaginative and expanded via of consciousness and the greater universe that simultaneously humbled us while fulfilling our pride towards our individual march forward in how we uniquely positively impacted the collective via our actions. Genuine strength to you, stay strong. Have compassion for yourself and everyone involved, it will genuinely, if paired with increasingly greater awareness, understanding and personal boundaries, bring you not only far more contentment, but empowerment towards your highest resolves. And yes, the forum hasn't yet upgraded to this level of understanding yet, and I would too put myself in that category given I don't own it in the whole yet, however its where we invariably need to go while also remembering our sense of humour, but just with more sensitivity and intelligence on where to place it. Best wishes.

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@Butters he's exploiting peoples vulnerabilities on the subject that's most important for people's development as humans, spirituality; classy dude. He seems okay though, it's just something I'd never endorse. Spirituality needs to have the integrity of the level that we expect but aren't fully receiving from the medical field in the west. He's established himself as an authority on spirituality, without proving himself as an authority outside of the success he's had at exploiting vulnerabilities. When I view him, I view a human analogous to any other species on the planet, I don't dislike/like him, I don't know him; I see him via the cause and effect of his life weighed against the fragile cultural insecurities of the west by misinterpreting true and only partial concepts of the east. The west is drunk on pseudo-spirituality that supports their narcissism which then opens them up to exploitation by people like his. The thing with people like him, is that some people can genuinely change, and thus, to truly have an objective perspective we need to ask ourselves, what are the actual results are people changing and why, just in the same way as we're meant to accurately view someone like Andrew Tate. The actual results are sometimes impressive, however in order to address contexts like this with cultural precision we both need to understand underlying natures and future results therein, what are for example the potential pre-existing psychological issues of both the recipient (i.e. attachment issues - looking for an authority figure to tell them what's right about life that related creators partially fulfil for a little while but then what happens after this? What percentage of those actually have long term positive change that then positively in return impacts the development of culture?) and the creator (i.e. potential narcissism and dark triad tendencies). On the surface, 'everything is positive' just in the same way we thought everything was positive when we saw the dynamic between the invention of 'celebrity' and 'fans' until this evolved to the deterioration of cultural artistry to only appeal to achieving a certain end for those 'fans' like either or both dumbing them down and or satisfying their taste buds. And now, this deterioration has evolved so much to the extent where this kind of pseudo-spirituality has evolved as a byproduct of those cultural patterns where 'he's a celebrity' and 'you can become one too' and we've just got to collectively take a gentle law of attraction bite into the 'sound bite of the cultural algorithm' that's now converted the 'Elvis = Fans = Money + Cultural leverage' algorithm into a mathematical formula we can all capitalise on if we just have the right 'good intentions' without any thought on how the universe is going to respond to our lack of responsibility concerning the long term future outcomes of our decisions. People get into false comparisons as well when they source from these kinds of guys as well, they'll be like 'Well he's NOT Andrew Tate therefore he MUST be good!" but its really not about that, it just comes down to whether the information being created is in alignment with the integrity of the direction. Like we need pharmacists to have the competency of the essence of pharmacy just as we need spiritualists to have the competency of what spirituality is, this guy doesn't have that. He comes across as a 'good' bloke though in the sense that his intentions are mostly hidden, and evolutionarily that's what people are buying into more presentationally as of course that's precisely what we see gets them activated or deactivated in the west with the politics, football games and Hollywood films as the perfect example. There's at least 50% of them that doesn't give a damn about truth and just evolutionary presentation and so the other 50% plus that does care gets manipulated into believing that "This is where its at, spirituality at the intersection of gold chains and fast cars". The biggest underlying issue I see presently in modern spirituality, is exploiting peoples lack of awareness especially in their self-perceived locus of control. In psychology there is a phenomenon that describes whether someone has an internal or external locus of control, well to be more accurate, there's Venn diagrammatically a few more intersections that derive that final output of each individuals unique expression here. In modern spirituality among these influencers, their followers are often exploited through the dynamic that's created between their desire for "Control, Empowerment, Ownership" (internal locus of control) as some mystical creator while at the same time, being totally absent of having any control by simply trusting in the universe to give you this if you simply align whatever selfish desire you have with this point of creation (external locus of control). That's precisely how a psychopath operates minus the lack of delusion all things being equal. They have a target, and they don't care what's in their way of completing it. I feel like in this sense, a lot of weak people are attracted to influencers like these because the empowerment they derive is a healthy response to their previous codependence, people pleasing and even naivety when it comes to listening to ignorant people around them about how the universe works and subsequently, how to actualise themselves within it. So the thing is, this kind of thinking DOES actually work, as its precisely how it works for psychopaths, however there's zero proper reality testing that goes on between point x and point y so they just say 'the universe did it' without adding any nuance to the equation which subsequently deteriorates their ability to objectively assess themselves and the cultural environments around them to build a healthy cause and effect that in return generates a more nuanced advancement to their locus of control. To benefit the reader in assessing this person or anyone like them objectively, my advice is to evaluate your own process via the filter as to whether you're maturely assessing for improvements in your own locus of control and subsequent personal creativity or whether you're potentially experiencing reductions. This person for example may actually make improvements to aspects of your locus of control depending on where its sitting, however can the potential improvements made also be viewed through the lens of where you're simultaneously able to see through the messenger? Because at the end of the day we're all just human, living our humble experience in this moment, solely differentiated mainly by our level of consciousness, which is not our self-perceived level but more than anything else the actual reading of our awareness and subsequent ability to differentiate our experience around us totally and utterly independent of our desires from the universe that have not yet found proper stability via an improvement in our cultural and historical education on our selves, our environments and where the intersection there leads to not only personal fulfilment but also cultural enrichment that benefits generations down the line. Finally again stated in another way, the question here shouldn't be "Oh Letho you wish you could just seamlessly scrape the monetary icing off the cake of the millions of peoples insecurities and subsequent ignorance in spirituality or any subject for that matter as well, don't you?" Instead, it should just be a subject of an analysis of ethics, integrity and analysing the intelligence surrounding where the highest future cultural maturity is likely to be resolved towards. To that end, he is a very, very unsurprising event of western culture and purely symptomatic of where the west is in its cultural development, however regardless, it's still a form of exploitative emotional slavery here that's at work which has more ethics to it than exploitive physical slavery that existed less than 200 years ago. Yep, just less than 200 years ago. When people become more self-educated and self-reliant therein towards their cognitive development, those emotional insecurities will reduce and influencers will be increasingly forced to re-measure their approach towards the public they're attempting to persuade. Just imagine a thought experiment for example where you instead were taking this guys information in from the perspective of being a part of a more advanced race 1000 or 10,000 years down the line from now, you'd see their information as totally misrepresentative of true spirituality, therefore you'd be assessing him in the same way as you would in determining the pros/cons of this kind of exploitation, finding the intellectual balance in your assessment where you could rather than being totally dismissive outside of holding your ground on the fact that its still very 'child like spirituality' with very little raw intellectual authority to it. You wouldn't condemn him though, you'd have compassion from the perspective of both his own weaknesses that have led him to this place and those of others that have blindly followed, and for both, without the maturity of sight that takes both potential perspectives and more into consideration in delivering your vision forward. "Oh look at this guy! He's taking the moral high ground!" says the dark triad propensity person. Well yes that's right, that's exactly what a dark triad person that's not of the light and therefore of the light of the future would say, wouldn't they? Can you see through your own biases as I see through mine while still making my own personal judgements based on how I view the overall ground of nature? By comparison, moral relativism destroys collectivism and impairs decision making on individuality where it affords a false freedom while ignorant external results, moral absolutism on the other hand repairs it while inadequately informing individuality and collectivism to the extent it remains trapped in a lack of democratic thought that enhances intelligence and removes ignorance. "Oh he's belittling him!", no it has nothing to do with that. This is just a subject of as I said: Ethics, spirituality and intelligence; their unity is what gives us a picture to follow with our lives and their disunity and to the level people believe in that is how we become a fragmented society that doesn't even have any common sense when it comes to assessing the intelligence of spirituality and its purpose anymore. So what are you waiting for? Get out your drawing pad, figure out how to appeal to peoples evolutionary biases as best as you can then start crafting your next best idea for how you're going to exploit them in the best way you can to manifest your (next) dream car on the morally polished ground of peoples misfortunes. Subscribed and now paid monthly fan.

@Consept Intuition + Logic loop, where you have intuition questioning logic and logic questioning intuition from a calm peace of mind where you know your own sense of authority must be respected. Your desire for higher maturity will tell you how to guide it to the end. For me, this is now more about you than it is more about them, as you already know their patterns and potential behaviours, but you don't know how to fully actualise yours. You're the one dealing with the guilt and the potential after-guilt, the way to listen to that emotion while having strong boundaries is to parent your guilt into understanding that while you're going to be fully open minded as you move forward in this situation while leading with a loving stance, you're going to feel empowered by the healthy boundaries you enforce. For me, tracking this into the future I feel that they need to know how I truly feel about their behaviours so that we can either find mutual ground or that we can establish that distance is going to remain, but that's just me. Their exploitational patterns which is not a true reflection of their essence need to understand that what you mirror back to them is a healthy authoritarian change point where you are only deeply respected for the authenticity that you are giving them as a gift as opposed to having to pretend like their aren't issues onto the surface that would only likely indirectly positively reinforce their negative behaviours.

I go out of my way to reduce the money tag these days. Guys you just gotta go deeper. Not into understanding female/male dynamics, that comes after you understand yourself. Women offer me money as a traveler, rides, places to sleep, etc even though I don't need these things. It's the intersection between cultural conditioning and true being, guys (and women too) in the west really struggle to differentiate between the two and make it so much about themselves or the other, helping bring clarity to these topics as opposed to feeding any false dichotomy helps both sexes onto the right path. The truth is in either finding a well-educated mate in the west or going elsewhere, as men, if you're intelligent there are truly so many great women in the east, you'll be too overloaded with options and women, there are also too many gentlemen here in the east if you're savvy that haven't been brainwashed by Andrew Tate, related. And @MsNobody you're so right about Latina's, although there's many cultural difficulties right now in South America, Colombia the true heart of their essence is really in the words you've expressed regarding their warm, loving nature, although there's a few women there's one particular woman that there's a chance that if our paths align (there's at least a 50% chance they won't: and its like that for many great potential mates) I may even wed in the future because of those very qualities, or to put more accurately because she has the qualities I'm looking for for someone I'd love to start a family with. My instinct is that if both sexes realised that the primitive consciousness of either is basically cashing in on the brainwashing the other has experienced to the highest possible levels of manipulation while at the same time there is a genuine desire for spiritual growth, a mature person would be able to strike a line in the middle regarding their evaluation of the character of the potential mate they're facing regarding where they truly are relative to whether they're ready for a more meaningful relationship, especially one involving family.

Let's recap: Day 15. A recap that'll be 'Prime K9 Night Vision' on building your own emotional kinaesthetic's on what the beginnings of Deep "Magnitude Learning" will start to look like for you at a personal level, where biographical learning meets the progression of spiritual maturity. Adventure totally on foot (except that brief small instance already shared, which I've already made up for arguably in light of the back and fourth following the hospital, not to mention the dogs right heh): Ho Chi Minh City, District 1 to Bangkok. Now that we're on Day 15 I think that given I'm only a few hours from my checkpoint, nows the perfect time to begin to paint the energetic psychological walls that I'll be staring at through my horse blinkers to focus the rest of my run, including too, the completion of my already begun theoretical frameworks in this journal. Although I haven’t fully shifted back into running yet, it feels like the run has become a bridge between worlds I had a feeling before I started was going to occur, however not like this, at least, as what will be a theme for this entry, experienced flavours that lived on the side of both the possible and relative to my present ego structure, (now previously) 'impossible'. Every mile stretching behind me, every breath inhaled and exhaled into the tropical Cambodian warm air is a marker not just of distance but of some deeper, subtler shift within as I attempt to slowly master the deeper experiential and theoretical depths of my own innovated understanding of human bioelectrical agency. As I’ve expressed before I hadn’t anticipated how much running from Ho Chi Minh City to Bangkok would become such an intense process of undoing layers upon layers falling away as the body moves forward but the mind begins to unravel what’s been hidden for too long. It’s strange to say now that I thought this journey was about reaching some destination, crossing a finish line, but it’s never really been about arriving at my next checkpoint or even Bangkok, although its going to be totally badass of course when I finally do. The people, the atmosphere, making that transition from baring the nakedness of my cultural civility to to properly inhaling through all the potential fears and closures towards my own separation from the outer culture and going deeper into the reservoir of how existence is created, and more so here, at the emotional energetic level. It’s been about untangling the knots inside with every new encounter while recovering from dads passing, running through the labyrinth of my own psyche as much as the highways between cities and the matrix of disorganised darkness of each towns construction of its own unique homeliness while somehow stretching their friendly unity amongst one another, even when its eyes are darkest as I’m “Running with, away and towards the wolves” at the pitch black of night; where ghosts in hospitals yet shared I’ve visited welcome… or don’t welcome my presence and have their way of showing it. As I think about the accident, about the way time froze for just that brief moment, the motorbike flipping, my body airborne. And my own mind… always so eager to craft meaning… immediately pulled the logistical switch, convinced that everything in existence now boiled down to this single moment. My mind painted the worst, a potential broken leg that wrapped itself around my timeline to Bangkok like chains that I had no way of escaping other than through my own sense of humour. But reality was kinder than the mind’s projections; I was mostly just left with an eye injury, a cut to my vision but not to the journey itself. It was as if the accident was trying to slow me down, to force me into contemplation. And then I remembered my previous journal entries where I prayed to God to give me greater sight on my ventures, then I remembered how the very next night multiple bugs had flown faster than the motorcycle into the same injured eye multiple times, and then that same night, where as I’ve reflected I’m mostly being homeless until I can’t hack it anymore and I want a reboot in a nice hotel, I found myself unintentionally laying down for sleep surrounded by 5 statues in a buddhist garden centre that were praying towards another statue representative of the buddha adjacent to the other side of my now laying body, almost in the same pose. Two of those statues, with one closest to my head and the other my feet, covering their right eye, the one I had injured, symbolically revealing to me that for the majority of my life as God has been trying to reveal to me in what I will at least partially say are his answers to my prayers, that I have been walking around the majority of my life half blind from… Head to toe. That this injury is to teach me to slowly recover from walking to eventually running where I’m living in a way with both eyes fully open. Living with vision, both literally and figuratively, across all relevant dualities, like vision on the past and vision on the future, and more. As I reflect on previous posts in this journal, what have I been so afraid of concerning the other aspects of my consciousness? It is obvious that my subconscious, or as I have previously theorised including most pertinently in the post just prior, identities that have taken my consciousness and subsequent ego hostage. That for most of my life, unknowingly, these identities have held my being at gunpoint, arm wrapped around me, shooting at any potential truths that could break through their glass house to generate new light upon the shadows that lurked. While at the same time as I now allow the feeling of this existential search beyond my own lost past surge, I realise, the accident was a gift, a forced pause, a brief window into the fragility of illusionary control that I try to pierce the veil of solidarity to through humour all because I am still yet to fully understand the unfathomability of my own existence, a dual understanding that I must come to terms with, that is… That I can and must, and that I will never fully meet my own expectations and that is okay. And yet, even in spite of these false projections, where life began once more beyond the pause that defined every micro moment of my life right before the crash, my body proved itself stronger than my mind's predictions. The next day as I haven’t revealed yet, I ran. More than that, I’ve now started to achieve the level of bioelectrical agency that I have been pushing towards, starting to finally feel the electrical fire I’ve been craving, that infinite definitive line between the order and chaos of expressed potential in the feeling of agency over my body, an echo to my Super Sayin video I did for humour, but that the emotional veins that have grown through repeated exposure in my childhood say that there is a deeper truth to the cartoon series that reveals merit to my own related ambitions here that I partially disguise with humour that when everything is held in context, its again, partially, pretty easy to see through. And that, in itself, was a deeper revelation. That as much as I will never reach my own standards, the dual reality of where I will never do this and yet the possibility of me going much further beyond as evidenced by my recovery, still exists, and so my own resolve as I do it, including with my humour, is still the only sane pathway forward in growing towards… not my deeper potential, but my deeper limits, and turning my own minds capacity for projection, into instead of mirror of fear of the inside or even of other untapped areas of my own consciousness, the limits that I make both friends and sparring partners with, where their mirrors continuously break and reform with every projection to awareness to reformation to revolution that my being mind cooks up in the hot stove that sits above the untapped fiery electrical being that remains below, awaiting my deeper… sight. In those early days leaving Ho Chi Minh City, the rhythm of the run was steady, almost methodical. There was something clean about it in spite of all the socialisation. My legs moving, breath cycling through, the body slipping into a comfortable cadence. It was mechanical at first, like a metronome counting out my existence which reminds me of an ontological temporal framework of self I’ve begun that I’ll share down the line, and then, the monotony of it began to crack into the darkness of my psyche. The ghosts of my past spoken through the barks of the dogs, the unspoken fears about my future held in the untamed smiles of the Vietnamese country people that treated me like I was family, and the unresolved tensions that sit like wet cement on the clothing of the mind, pressing and pressing to ensure the heat doesn’t harden my psyche the way it burns away at the sensitivity of my own skin. In this sense, there’s a purity in physical exhaustion that can’t be replicated in any other experience, it undoubtedly wears down the layers of ego, the hidden illusions we wear and look for a false mirror reflection on that can only be carried forward in my run as shards of glass left behind, never to even be looked at again outside the deeper resolve of my own sense of fragile vision I look to fully heal and grow into the way my father would want me to fully step into. Out here on the road, we can’t pretend anymore. All the jokes, all the humor, it all fades away into the crisp hot burning sun and into the wet soil of the tropical surroundings in the fit of echoing humid storms. The raw self, is all I now have the strength to survive with, remaining the architectures of what makes the ego to the point where I’ve now started to build an entire new paradigm for imaging “Ideal Identity Structures” that align with the purpose of our ego, to survive and thrive, what altogether feels like a spiritual unity I’m achieving in this creation and its following that I’ve slowly begun. I feel like this run was a way my unconscious has attempted to resolve the hidden tension between freedom and responsibility that I’m still grappling around family and greater social allegiances. The responsibility to fulfill the roles handed to me, to meet the expectations I was born into versus the desire to just live the self, for the self and live as naturally as possible from that point with respect to how its meant to unite with the previously postulated “Other” in this dichotomy of “Self” and “Other”. Running, in many ways, feels like the purest form of freedom… I get to own it, I get to own my choice to move beyond the desire to stop. It’s more than just a desire to grow my AMCC as I have previously shared scientific connections to, each step is mine, each breath is a testament to my own bioelectrical agency, slowly tracing the lines that remain previously hidden to me before in my incomplete attempts to finish my own theorisations here on the “Ontology of Meta-Ascendence, and remember, its ascendence now, not transcendence. The run teaches me to accept all of these life uncertainties as much as it is uncertain that I will complete that next step or remain totally out of reach of another potential motorbike accident, to both as I expressed, accept my control and my lack of it. To accept both the blurriness of life, temporally and otherwise, as well as my capacity for vision… and then to take that next step towards its natural ascendence, riding the natural passage of life towards my natural evolution, that wave that speaks to the completion of my earlier stated intention regarding the completion of a new theoretical conceptualisation of ego and identity through the lens of the ontological design of identity structures that only reflect the deepest truths of our essences, so that they can be set free to not only run, but to feel the full bioelectrical agency of their ability to CHOOSE to run, in the midst of chaos, to CHOOSE to immediately help a man that struck him with their motorbike even without knowing fully what had happened to themselves or even if the other man cared, still even indistinguishable to himself through the shock of the accident. And that, for now, is enough. I know I said I wanted to share more about my injury as a case study for how to proceed up the levels of Magnitude Learning, however I needed to get all of this out of my system first as I re-digest what all of those levels are of Magnitude Learning. Finally, and I promise I’ll try to make it as brief as possible but there is a little bit more than just a bit more sorry to say, more theory on what is much more than an intellectual tool for biographical introspection but as a means of much more deeply mapping one’s ontological trajectory forward up the scales of human potential where learning meets renewed and literally regrown perception to unite with all of life. That will be revealed next. After reading my next post, there will be zero remaining dissonance on why Magnitude Learning must now become a pivotal extra limb in your run forward to the depths of your own self-realisation, something that I feel incredibly humbled to both be given the intellectual insights to by God but also to have this space for its sharing. I hope my deeper efforts reflecting on my inner landscapes here on my greater journey since Vietnam will provide robust priming for conceptualising in your own way your own creatively unique pathway forward in turning this theory into daily practical exercise that becomes totally self-justifying in the self-enrichment it provides. Take your time with it, make it completely yours, and let my temporal self die with this post, now a part of the paradigm of continual seasonal renewal with you all on the uniqueness that we are all becoming; in control… while totally accepting and appreciative of the lessons of infinity. Thank you to the reader for any goodness I can give with this share, and to God, thank you for answering me if you did, and that you kept things humorous by pointing out my blindness (yes I already knew I was ignorant but like I said, thanks) while using my brains capacity for creativity to help me create the light of knowledge here. Lastly, between now and Bangkok I’m going to be hiding away a little bit more of my external self, integrating my experiences here to create what is obviously the new pathway forward, on top of the great bridge to my own self-defined freedom that I’ve already created. Best Light. - Love you dad, miss you.

@Consept Simple question, where is there disrespect? That's where there's proportional distance. You have to be the one though who decides how much distance that is emotionally (how much are they in your heart), psychologically (how much time do they take up) and physically though. If they're sometimes 'dragging you into...' that means there are issues when it comes to enforcing your boundaries because in the past you haven't been decisive on the distance and because of that, its eroded your boundaries where now you're no longer sure of where to make clear cut decisions emotionally, psychologically and physically with respect to how they take up your space. The best way to approach this is to CONSCIOUSLY which means denying impulses to the contrary begin to INSTALL BOUNDARIES relative to genuine misbehaviour you're uncomfortable with, something you could even test by simply starting a conversation with them at a genuine authentic level rather than trying to bait them into the boundary as that isn't going to do anything healthy for the way you appraise said guilt you experience, To the level they show disrespect then you've got to be the one that goes inward to decide on those three levels how that practically corresponds to how you will in return as a man respond to the situation while holding your own authority. I deal with things head on, so I don't really like the grey rock thing I like to be straight up with people and literally just tell them "Hey I think you're an x" can we have a discussion about it and if they can't be mature about it then its just the installation of boundaries accordingly in a nuanced stage by stage non-dramatic way in the ideal scenario, because think about it, unless you're doing with kids that you also have authority over towards installing the right maturity in them why are you wasting time trying to speak to them about their own immaturity whatever category of immaturity that is? The more nuance you can approach the situation with, the more in integrity with your self you're going to feel, the situation and the other person / people involved wherever that may be the case. Otherwise you're doing great.