Letho

Constructing first 'Temporal Identity'. First principle of philosophy. 1. Never slap, stroke, or pull the schlong. Man should not masturbate, woman should 'masturbate' the man. Man is a being that is meant to personify the epitome of creating order amidst the chaos. The epitome, not the average, not half way or a quarter way or three quarters of the way up the population ranks, the epitome. Epitome is his only understanding of equality and for everything else, it should be beneath him including equalizing everything that potentially harms his self-control, resilience and chance for liberation, with only its execution, literally or figuratively. Moreover, by allowing a woman to be the only one to truly explore it, he will only allow open channels within himself in which he encourages her to do so, so that he himself can be a part of that play rather than appearing as an 'expert'. This emboldens the sexual interaction with exploration and adds another light to the adventure, including how his increased strength carries over elsewhere in the journey with the right woman. Okay, there's implicit grains of truth to that principle as I do adhere to it consequentially regardless, however its of course not what I'm talking about. 'Temporal Identity' is the understanding of Identity creation via a higher functional perspective, predicating the ego's nature drive to Identity via attachment and learning with intelligently defined parameters that create a higher ground by which structural identities are created. What differentiates a structural from a functional identity is that the former is purely informational aka everything that is destroying the west in the form of Identity Politics, whereas the latter is purely the 'how' on the movement of computing information, which is the crux of the various levels of achievement that follow Bioelectrical Agency, hierarchically. I've been working over a year to being able to achieve this so it's a significant leap in my progress now that the wires are starting to spark together, something that'll take me a few weeks to become an unconscious habit given its a literal gymnastics action that's performed when it comes to generating functional identities, a bunch of different movements (i.e. all the brain areas, gut, heart, etc stuff I've been talking about). The biggest issue with cultural politics these days is that we're not working from the ground level of how identity is even formed and the ego's healthy desire for identity, because of this, we end up with two or more groups fighting with one another who's group identities are not only predicated under false understanding of how their beings work and what they want but as a natural consequence to this, totally inaccurate beliefs that because they have grains of truth to them, they're able to leverage the highest and worst aspects of human nature to fight for the least truthful aspects of their beliefs under the mask of that grain of truth, then being able to stamp it and call that 'Good Patriotism' figuratively or literally, for LGBT or international war, or even down to the micro politics when it comes to the nonsense we see hear and there in divorce courts. 'Temporal Identity' is revolutionary where its entirely predicated by a new and far more accurate temporal understanding of human nature and identity formation that forms the structural lenses that govern our belief paradigms, where the cycles of brain cognition informed by biography to the working memory of the present moment that juxtaposes itself via the self-computation of gut bacteria and alchemical agency employed by the heart as a conscious response, its a grounded practical solution to at least my relationship to the rest of the humanity that whoever learns it along the way, will join me in that freedom. Only at level 1 tier 1 of that, but I'm the savant constructing it so I should be down the ways there over the weeks to months ahead; we've got plenty of bridges to this paradigm from neurofeedback to CBT to tDCs and plenty, plenty more, however they're philosophically dumbstruck when it comes to putting it altogether into a palatable philosophy that can become a self-employed bioelectrical authorship and that's because they're entirely predicated on the enduser not being the technology that creates the comparable change but instead dependent on the technology in doing so. In this paradigm, after hours and hours of training and advancement up the tiers, you are the technology, free from LGBT+++ propaganda outside of creating your own occasional fart joke regarding thereto including for all of the inversions of that from war, religion and everything else. Functional Philosophy (the how of 'how life works' aka our inner natures) is the future to Structural Philosophy, and the first way to realize this truth is in understanding how it has always been the 'how' regarding how our natures work that explains how any philosophizing including the various kinds were ever created at all. Imagine any increase/decrease in any main area of our nervous system that impacts our functionality and we will see a proportional change in the lenses that makeup our perception of reality and subsequent characteristics that are formed in the construction of our philosophies about life, analogously and literally, just as 'personality' has been ordered into something that is either more or less suited to a certain external profession is to understand then the many unique relationships brought by function to understanding structure and its subsequent creation of structure that speaks to philosophy that one or more persons adhere to and or advance. Functional Philosophy not only explains degenerate structural philosophy but also explains the challenges brought to challenging those degenerate philosophies themselves because as a functional sentient unit decreases for the ego to compensate it relies more and more on the most self-protective and therefore sometimes most self-sabotaging aspects of itself either for a self-preservation that does or doesn't lead to self-destruction in the one and or the many, where even if there are social feedback loops, because their resolution on the information created from the level of their functional philosophy is so low, they're consequently forced to be increasingly more rigid on the truth/falseness of the structural philosophy generated. In order to ‘save’ lower functional sentient units, they must be indoctrinated into as much peace as possible and or their functionality must be repaired and or upgraded, there is no other option. Both options as we know, are what have been circulated in many ways, on that latter note we’ve already heard enough about the brainwashing we receive on NeuraLink. To the former here in Thailand for example, the average IQ is less than 90 whereas in Cambodia they’re even higher than Australia, Cambodians have more functionality on one level however because their disgust sensitivity isn’t as high as some areas like I mentioned regarding the lack of cleanliness in many areas and therefore the need to have your own toilet paper, below their poverty line ‘sneaky crime’ that I’m sure I don’t need to bring up examples of are much less looked down upon and by the way I’m just hoping the person that stole my stuff including my thousands of dollars uses it to good use for their health and prosperity I couldn’t care less outside of that and learning from my experiences, even though as I’ve expressed, they’re very, very good people, over-nourished even when it comes to the Buddhist faith their taking ranch as beautifully as it has. On that note, I never got to see Angkor Wat but it’s highly, highly recommended, absolutely amazing. In Thailand, as made very visible by the artificial beauty standards they have here, they on the other hand even though that mechanism of functionality is a little twisted and extremely damaging with how shallow its expressed in their culture on certain ends as depicted in my previous post, especially where there’s a lack of disgust sensitivity where there should be some in a way that enhances that damaging effect, look down on the lower classes here in certain ways especially with respect to crimes of all kinds, and do not at all go out of their way like you may see in Cambodia they do when it comes to helping those below the poverty line. Both have the Buddha on a pedestal, however because of the unhealthy indoctrination of the West into Thailand, in the ways shared in the previous post, the way disgust sensitivity has presented itself in their culture has manifested very differently compared to the Cambodian’s, however a little smarter they are when it comes to being that little bit more sneaky. In the future, I'm both worried and excited for both countries with respect to how they evolve philosophically and how their respective positions right now change in that motion which will include the continual influx of cultures around the world, from China especially into Cambodia and the West's ongoing influence on the self-esteem of Thailand's mask, and concerning Vietnam, I see them as a combination of both Cambodia and Thailand where although Vietnam has suffered from the West's influence, they have a stronger affiliation with the self through Buddhism and even the spiritual practices they've inherited from China, so much of the sacredness that's preserved by the Cambodian's in rural areas is likely going to be kept strong in the way it is in China moving forward. However, as a lay opinion, I expect to see Bangkok to more and more become the bridge for the west into the rest of Asia as it has over the last couple of decades has opened up to via male Westerners being attracted to wedding the Thai women here. Still lots to integrate, however functionally using these three cultures as an example, even though Thailand is going to become more and more techy and in return advance its education in many new ways, with respect to Functional Philosophy we're going to very much see a stalemate between the three cultures because of how larger continents are going to landlock that conversation, out of the three though I expect to see Vietnam become more and more of the world around them and maybe even along with the Cambodians, become more philosophically astute, especially functionally because of their roots in being more body centered via Buddhism. On that note, even though we have the scientism I'm predicting to take more root in Thailand, that's only going to have more of a degrading impact on preserving the sacredness of their roots and at least right now at this point, I don't see how its possible that Thailand isn't going to simply turn into a 'Second West', which is what China used to be at risk of. Outside of previously being a casual appetizer I've only just started when it comes to analyzing and integrating other cultures, however I predict its going to be like a second arm to future philosophizing for me that'll only deepen the scope and breadth of my sharing's here that I look forward to.

The tale of the Fiery Green Eyed Doll and the Hyenas Manes of Centuries that tamed her under the Green Billed table of Consciousness. (Spontaneously decided to write this in a supermarket here in Bangkok just now. The singularity of a particular 'woman' here is used symbolically) The rain pours thunderingly Eyes of green fire seen from a distance Dancing hyenas with lion manes surrounding her through the looking glass of a voyeur room A Thai woman finding her place in the cultural smoke and mirrors Only taught to please those manes or find herself through the beauty she can achieve Even if taught that this is for herself, it is again, for the manes For the man has taught himself to be trapped just as much, via their fiery green gaze So in as much as they believe themselves to have imprisoned the woman Via that same volition, they ensnare themselves in a greater hurricane that traps them both within the voyeur palace One behind the doll glass and the other, sound asleep in their untraced desire within the looking room The looking glass that forever foretold many of these futures centuries behind this one and so then, not just this one too but also the spectrum of egoic idiocy that we see on both sides of sexes across the planet that keeps them still in their response, both trapped Centuries of green tears Bound by lustful monetary tiers Cloaked in a disguise That hinds a culture from the self that believes itself is the dark side of the moon Now orbiting the artificial sun, to continue the cycle of life and death To heroically triumph through the seasons, all in the name of future sun and daughter That hold these green eyes at the alter, while all burn ablaze Under and above, in a heaven made of hell As the thai woman threatens to carve the cheeks of her beautiful face And the hyenas manes calling her crazy As she releases in confusion and they hold her 'lovingly', and give her a child So they can both teach their son and daughter, how to love like this too A cultural insane asylum, locked on a hidden mental island With damage to the heart, enough too so that they can be exploited by the west and they can extend the deed of their enlightenment here too, Thailand, the land of the free tears, As they remain hidden among the thousands surrounding theirs, Silent, with the highest oppression being the hidden acceptance of the hyenas manes With their fiery green eyes, The diamonds of their soul Computable only as a brief passing thought or emotion An eyeglance towards the tiniest understanding of their secret stormy predicament In it, a light switch goes off to release their energetic torment but then just as quickly A robotic override, A welcoming plastic smile "Hello sir, how may I help you today? We have some lovely women coming for you, please wait a moment as they prepare for entering our display room" And no, I didn't I left - Best Light By the way running the following feedback loop for next few weeks that corresponds the scale I created from "Awareness to Agency" just above. Firstly, I'm writing in a very awkward position at the moment as the counters are suited to people of smaller height and there's no appropriate chairs, aka don't have much time here: 1. Enhancing differentiation of internal energy, remember as lack of differentiation increases so too does the lack of ownership of that energy and therefore the lack of agency and free will (which we do have however has been poorly categorised). Internal energy is purely all that we experience, external is purely all that we experience on the incoming that becomes the internal. Differentiation is multi-layered and overlays between the computationally abstract and the very mechanical and straightforward, "I felt this experience created from my gut, to my heart to my mind, it has a signature that expresses itself as a projective consequence to those mechanics, etc, etc". There's chaotic multidimentiality that expresses itself as orderly relationality from the viewpoint of understanding, that until its held in full view by awareness, that awareness does not fully translate all the way up the scale to agency that spells out the meta-language of then escalation into potentially higher consciousness that just NATURALLY follows as that's just the NATURAL direction of true awareness, it wants more light and when it achieves it, this is when awareness starts to translate into epigenetic change from viewpoint of its meta-language, that is always evolutionary, a translation of what I meant by "it wants more light". 2. Enhancing the LTM (long term memory) mapping between information gathered from awareness into... going back to the noted scale... understanding that fuels how power can actualise itself back into then the symbiotic relationship between the two that translates into a naturally greater level of awareness. This is done via techniques I've self created that are outgrowths from my learnings of method of loci for example. The light within tells me, if its true, that God wanted me to get rid of my phone and computer so that I relied much more on my memory, so that I brought more strength to the accomplishment of this purpose and for any other reason there may be on a cultural level. By understanding the scale created one should by now understand that to the level there is a lack of understanding and or power, there is zero, and mean zero ownership over the energy and therefore responses within our responses and therefore you are purely a puppet by the limits of that phenomenological profile. This is something that one has to maturely accept in order to embrace the challenge of moving up the levels in the same way we would for exercise, as long as we have the right methods. I have some upcoming stuff down the line here but just so yal know where I am in what I'm prioritising in my movement forward. I'll take the same energy I brought running now to my progression here which will now give me a level of unprecedented will and focus I haven't experienced for a long time. It's ah, arguably perfect timing, synchronistically. The loss of the run, the new realisations, the opportunity to now captilise, so I'm lucky in many ways in this respect. Cheers big ears God for opening my eyes a little here as requested, you knew I wasn't going to stop my run so you stopped it for me as I'd learned the lessons I'd needed for now from exercise to take things further in meta-ascendence, returning to the original project. I've run out of time to continue speaking here, will come another day. I've realised now though, and the deeper I go the more it impacts me to the core, that strikingly, its becoming more and more apparent that as the sophistication by which I understand how to become aware of, differentiate, influence, change and evolve my own energy (inclusive of all levels and manners of thought and emotion but not limited to) and the respective areas of the nervous system (i.e. not limited to areas of the brain) in which they're created, reside and have their power interdependently across the rest of our being (i.e. how a particular energy, no matter the kind or magnitude, experienced within the heart influences one to many in the gut, everywhere else and vice versa), the more I realise not only how I was a living, breathing biobot, programmed by the system, and that I, as a consequence of building the same powers that programmed the original state of my system am learning to breath beyond the abstract parameters that previously defined me as a being, but also how as a consequence of my cultural learnings then, how each core aspect of my nervous system has had tailor made hacking techniques specially created to successfully hack into each area so that I would believe that my decisions, hopes, dreams and desires were all mine and so I would stay as far away as possible from realising the core truths of the hacked spaces of my nervous system, and through that bridge, all of my consciousness and all of its possible levels. We're taught to falsely believe that a food craving is a real desire, and because of this we have an obesity crisis. We're taught to believe that a sex craving is a real desire, and because of this we have not an overpopulation issue per se but an overstupidity crisis. We're taught to believe that a dopaminergic urge to win is a true desire, which is why we have a narcissism epidemic. We're taught to believe that a sunken state is a true existential crises of depression of some kind and that the only solution for them is a pill or to 'find their true purpose' where their only choices are those artificially created by their culture that unbeknownst to them has fastly regressed into infantalism and that to choose between those will merely be a choosing between how their respective society has so far cleverly created a chemical treadmill of 'purpose' for them to run on as an alternative to realising that what literally all is needed is understanding of their own condition and like the kinaesthetic intelligence grown in one's hand with respect to catching a seemingly uncatchable ball they'll find bliss easily by just following the respective mind-body training that's needed. Moving back to the "Agency-Awareness" scale, we are OWNED by the external, our respective culture or otherwise, to the extent we do not own our own responses, if we do not embrace this truth by relative measure we simply won't make the appropriate strategically mature responses to find where the terrain of true self-awareness exists and therefore the ground of where true freedom exists that we need to track to. I've found a few more nuggets via my tracking from Vietnam to Phnom Penh and now as deeper cultural resolutions find my internal cognitive theatre room here in Bangkok as I deeper my relational understanding of the human condition and our historical progressions, what further ground will you make in more deeply realising your own? Not in malice, not in irrational campaigning, but in understanding who you truly are for what you are, how will you improve your intelligence to do so? At the end of the day, regardless of our overlap between one another, we must answer this question for ourselves to establish true ownership over who we are, one that isn't fettered by anything other than our deepest purity, analogous to a rebirth, untarnished by any poor faiths we keep with energies because we don't lead with understanding to enhance our power, and thus instead said power is purely of the previously noted identity structures that corrupt our genuinely very valuable, pure and good ego into the very falsity that masks those faiths into inner-created churches that are just smoke and mirrors that hide ourselves from our own true souls due to this self-ignorance as a natural fail-safe compensatory survival mechanism. Between now and when I'm back I'll have done a lot more research on Aristotle's work, among other. Who knows what else I should give you scoundrels tongue in cheek, to start with I'll make my next share the aforementioned promise "The Next Post" after I get more settled here in Bangkok.

I am now... OFFICIALLY... in Bangkok! Long story short, my guess is looking at all my injuries, that my backpack was stolen and the fact that I was going to be still doing a lot of tracking through urban areas where there's many unknown variables, my request to continue tracking to Thailand while receiving the aid of the Cambodian immigration was refused. Plainly stated, "Michael, I will not continue arguing with you, we have no idea how long its going to take you, 4 days, 7 days, or whatever you say excuse my English but we are not waiting around for you", and this is because she gave me an ultimatum, "If you continue to track to Thailand from Phnom Penh we will not help you receive the extra clearance you need because you now have a non-official emergency passport not a formal passport. You can choose to wait two weeks until everything is sorted with your embassy or you can cooperate with us. Be our guest though take the chance it us up to you but don't argue with us if you have issues at the border as we will not help you then and you will have to wait." I took a bus as the airport would not clear me yet. I am actually now glad, as I honestly believe I would have ended up seriously injured. I couldn't find a shoe store that had my shoe size so I had no choice but to rely on these sandles I previously pictured. I didn't think they were that bad but after I stepped out of the bus after our first break of the trip they now grip like slippery ice at the slightest give in the pavement forcing me to watch nearly every step depending on the unpredictable weather. If I tracked on, it would have been a terrible decision as tracking deeper into the rural from Phnom Penh that I'd argue isn't even a real city per se (but the people are really great and friendly, its just the poverty line that forces people to do things they wouldn't want to do) would have given me even less of a chance of finding shoes as they became increasingly worse, the worst of it of which would have been felt in the second or third day into again of which when would have likely spelt my end, with no one to contact still as like I said I'm cut off from all my social networks as they require phone verification and the only mobile number I bothered to learn off by heart was my fathers. Moreover, the Australian Embassy have only given me $200 US to work with, and that's a loan. Entering into my first day here in Bangkok my body is utterly exhausted, moreover I've started to experience issues with my right ankle and left knee, on top of this the rest of my injuries from the motorcycle injuries are still healing and combined with the conscious choice to be homeless and not to mention all the mosquito bites that have come with that, she's done me a great favor by persuading me to take her side. I also had three boils that had grown on my back from the tropical weather the size of small golf balls that when put under the slightest pressure other than the comfort of a light breeze, caused a lot of pain. I figured that given I could tighten my bag up against my back I'd be able to minimise the pain however even if I became used to any temporary pain, they would have taken twice as long to heal and perhaps could have developed into something worse, at the very least pending a potentially inevitable infection. So here I am now just easing my body back into regular life, however as much as I can I'm now going back into theoretical mode for the evolution of bioelectrical agency now where I've started to both realise the practical benefits of training slightly more as well as the importance of, although I'm proud of myself for how far I came as its literally the furthest I've ever tracked or ran especially on zero training for years, making sure I'm prepared bioelectrically, of which I now have a lot more confidence and inspiration towards as I had moments where I was able to experience elevations I've never been able to achieve more. The exhaustion of the body is of course the clock reaching 12 midnight on realising that it now has time to properly rest where I'm not going to pressure it anymore and so "Now is the time to let Michael know that we're fucked!". Which is fair enough, I'm proud of both my mind and body, there's still tons for me to process, integrate and only some of which I'll be able to share, especially socially speaking. Oh yeah, on the latter front so I met this person don't want to reveal many dets but this around the back and fourth between embassy and immigration anyway but fuck, this person really did my head in haha and they wanted me to spend all of my time with them. They were super great towards me, however they would just not stop talking and talking and talking, which is not their fault as I've still got more to learn with respect to enforcing boundaries in this regard as we all know but it went like "Yeah, so let's take the conspiracy of..." I'd say, and this person would say "MATE! It's not a conspiracy, this is conspiracy FACT!" and now you know the kind of person I was speaking with. This person loves to go out and party so they showed me a good time however I think where my nervous system was at the time I just wasn't able to appreciate them as much as they perhaps deserved. I promised them I'd be back in Cambodia following the ending of some of my future travels where I'll also be going back to Vietnam, so we'll see how it goes I'll have more of a swing in my step I think so I'll be able to steer the ship more in our get together which is what I think it really needed. Anyhow, this was typed on the laptop of a friend I've recently made here in Bangkok, just thought I'd give an update so yal aren't running a false story in your head. With respect to bioelectrical agency, start with the heart, then you learn to create this in the mind followed by the gut, then literally in every other energy center is where I'm experimenting with. Don't even bother trying it if you're not willing to devote at least an hour a day on the heart alone for two weeks, as that's how long it took me to start envisioning the greater depths that were possible with it and other areas of the body following my learnings from heartmath.com. 'Bioelectrical' may be changed to 'bioenergetics' however bioenergetics encompasses so much cool science stuff term now that it doesn't hit home base as much as I'd like even though its a more encompassing term, however the short end of that is to realise that 90+ percent of psychology is not purely replaceable or explainable by 'bioenergetics' but is instead just ancillary to and or that bioenergetics is the foundation to psychology. Practically speaking, any thought or emotion you have has more survival value to you if you understand that you both can understand it fully and have enough agency to change it fully (i.e. alchemy). Bioelectrical Agency is predicated on Understanding then Power then Ownership. Think of Bioelectrical Agency in the same way you would owning money, if you don't understand your money, then accurate proportional use is purely based on luck and saying you 'own your money' is like saying a squirrel owns a $50 US note, secondly if you don't have any power over its use, then relative to that lack of power especially when that lack is around misunderstanding how your psychology is influenced by the world around you to spend money, then saying you own your money is like saying a 9 year old spoilt brat brainwashed by reruns of the worst possible tik tok videos owns their money, or let's just take any sweatpants wearing Carls Jr. addict. They of course, don't 'Own' their money in the same way that they don't 'Own' their 'Bioelectricity' to be able to employ 'Agency' over it which is a combination of both understanding and power, balanced by the awareness to create and support it. Great, so now you understand why the western world has no capitalistic incentive to monopolise its interests towards marketing to you how you can advance your bioelectrical agency to become a more 'empowered consumer', or Carl's Jr. regular. In the past, especially around Aristotle's era I predict that given the work of a guy like Aristotle and his intelligence, in light of it being on the ontology of values which intersects with agency and our employment of them in the instruction of our energy over our beings to me its perfectly rational to conclude that perhaps Aristotle even completed work in this area of 'Bioelectrical Agency' as I've authored it. Venn diagrammatically, the work is perfectly symmetrical with mine when you add in utilising awareness, areas of the body and directions to focus energy in its revolution towards a particular endpoint within the nervous system. The achievement of Aristotle's ideals at work is entirely predicated on the ability to instruct awareness towards a particular value driven and therefore energetic end. In fact, even the differentiation between that which was a value versus a vice requires so much awareness over the bodies energies and understanding towards that which enabled order towards "Aristotle's Mean" versus chaos, what I've realised is analogous to my own "Order vs Chaos" dichotomy I shared earlier, something that mirrors the vice/virtue sentiment. If I were a police investigator and I had to reach the most rational conclusion here, I would say that at a bare minimum here Aristotle's work on bioelectrical agency here has... ah.... coincidentally become... ah... lost... so to speak, at least in part... even if he had different words for it where much of his work is now for me to read as I'm only going by what I've connected in the last 24 hours as I've barely looked into anything of Aristotle's other than what I've passively learned over the years with many of the sayings that have been passed on to westerners like "Remember Aristotle's mean!". This means that Aristotle not only created his own energetic map of which the discernment of values is on what supported the epigenetic advancement of being versus that which did not when held in context with the most intelligent use of said map in the context of any correspondence with 'Bioelectrical Agency', but that he would have had maps on the relationships between awareness, agency and the movement vs creation and discernment of energy in the context of self-bio-evolution, however elementary those maps may have been doesn't matter, those maps predicate the invention of his value dichotomies and thus he must have invented the former first. In this sense, I don't really have anything more to teach you with respect to bioelectrical agency anymore, you should be able to work the rest out for yourself from here as that would better steer you anyway in making the connections I have made myself. The destruction of the demographics of the blind in western civilisation has come at the hands of falsely adhering to the freedoms of democracy while underplaying how much of a collectivist you are and at the same time having those freedoms stolen away from you more and more as you sell your ability to intelligently instruct your energy in a way that self-informs the order of said freedoms via understanding and power, that when combined create the unity that reflects the freedom that so many people take for granted while simultaneously don't realise is being more and more taken away. The best way to know something is an absolute, yes an absolute truth not relative one, is in how much it scales between the finite and 'infinite' (even if we only mean this term from a symbolic reference frame) relative to our best intelligence on the environment and ourselves. To point towards this being realised as an absolute then is as follows, in particular how I drew my analogy to the practical relationship with money. Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness. Simply as follows, no awareness no power and from no power, at this point everything only becomes the illusion of understanding, which leads to illusions of ownership, which leads to illusions of freedom, which leads to illusions of agency. Now to finish that cycle relative to present knowledge, I'd put consciousness in front of agency to say that true consciousness cannot exist without being predicated by agency hence why we've created any hierarchy at all on consciousness i.e. low vs high, however for now we'll leave that where it is. Now, back to where we were, doesn't that sound a little like what happens with what I said regarding money? People walking around believing THEY'VE go the agency to make THEIR OWN decisions while all the while through their over-confidence combined with a hidden inflated ignorance they instead just create massive gaps in the market that can only be filled by companies that are best at exploiting this, with casinos of course being the greatest examples on the disgust sensitivity end. I'm NOT getting into conspiracy stuff right now though haha in light of what I mentioned earlier regarding the person I met in my immigration-embassy back and fourth draining all of my energy during our encounter, so I'll leave the rest for you. On a practical note though let's return back to "Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness" just to see where it travels from the finite to the 'infinite', we have where the analogical use of money meets the 'currency, investment and growth' of bioelectricity in the finite materialistic reservoir of consciousness and then on the other side of that, at any level of consciousness growth and any attempt at increasing the perception of the scale of consciousness this matrix, even if they change in the complexity of the dynamics between them ("Agency => Freedom => Ownership => Understanding => Power => Awareness") there is both neither the experience of higher consciousness that is without this dynamic or system nor even with another to replace it that supersedes it, that we know of. There is direct correspondence between the dimensions of experiential consciousness and our understanding of our agency over the energy we have to use within it and how at the lower dimensions this also corresponds to the immediacy of the physics of the material world with the seemingly most insignificant of phenomena, like that of a Carls Jr. burger and its however superior counterpart, sweatpants wearing addict who's got two chubby kids in the back screaming their order to them as they as the Energetically Noble Aristotelian parents that they are gracefully placing their order to the lovely person on the other end of the speaker in the drive through if its not a sliding glass door communication between Bioelectrically and therefore Diplomatically FREE employee and customer, both unbeknownst to them, looking into the eyes of an unfamiliar prisoner with a painfully frustrated smile with both bellies that only know they can't be satiated as they've never been taught to have the agency to do so, thus... They have the whip and ball chain of capitalism to whip em into shape with their next craving! Lights out for me, to humorously end to juxtapose the usual "Best Light" and to get a well deserved rest so I can enjoy the mind that'll return to me when I've achieved my full recovery heh, but only after a Carls Jr. soda. Shit, I forgot to get ice. Dang, I'll have to go back to the store. It's 30 minutes away, oh well, Carls Jr is worth it. See yal later on. But I do need to get some rest! I've also run out of time on my friends laptop half drinking my third beer here heh! But to finish as the synthesis as the recap, ever emotion and thought is now at what we can call just for fun but meant seriously an "Aristotelean Bioelectrical Value Intersection", this is because a personal value i.e. courage isn't just an energy, its the authoring and understanding of the energies between what makes up our nervous systems and what runs them to create agency as well as to expand it over our beings and subsequently, our bodies emotional and thought well-being as per what was the philosophical goal implied by "the Aristotelean mean".

I will be away for at least 2 wks. Or just when I want to comment again. Very simple message. = My backpack was stolen. Inclusive of iPhone, Macbook and passport. All means of communication now lost other than right in this moment being able to accept the friendly gesture of a man from Holland to send this message. I am sitting across from his friend from Turkey right now where the same thing happened to him, including the struggle with immigration and his embassy as I am having the same issue with the Australian embassy. I am not giving up on this challenge. I am still tracking on. I solely took the opportunity to send this message to inspire others not to give up either. I am almost forced to give in and just catch a plane to Bangkok, thats what everything in my nervous system almost is telling me to do. But I will not. I will accomplish what I set out to do no matter what. However, I will now have no means of reliable communication until I build up a new temporary home base in Bangkok. So whatever challenge you should be completing right now, whatever you have to do. Do not give in. Do not give up Find power in another level of inward silence where light is darkest before the dawn. If you didnt realise, that's your cue to now... Rise. As always, Best Light

@Keryo Koffa Yeah I have to explore more of south america, I only have connections in Colombia; and although its not black and white in light of some of the cultural difficulties they have there, my connections are only positive. One woman I know there she's very connected spiritually (psychism; after-life, ancestors, deep consciousness bonds, etc), and that's one of the most important qualities when it comes to *family* to me; spirituality minus connection though which is the the overlap with family is like holding a candle in a church while waiting to die. Lots of women that are spiritual but are just sexually spiritual and they get high off their sexuality rather than establishing any genuinely deep connections, especially where there's an unhealthy connection to psychedelics. There's many, many more positive things I have to explore in South America.

@Buck Edwards It's all people should focus on and yet western civilisation try to get them to focus on something else so that they can steal 'family' from underneath you; its how they keep unhealthy forms of collectivism in check, through more unhealthy forms of collectivism, that results in western civilisation destroying itself from the inside out, as it has. But that's another topic. Life is family, from here we learn interdependence and from this, the unity of "Self" and "Other" enough to then call the whole animal kingdom family, then learn how to teach that slowly to open minds, like our children, in the future.

@Buck Edwards I literally don't. I have one: family. That's it. I compartmentalise everything into that category now including energetic connection and then let it all unfold from there as a self-consistent ontology .

@Buck Edwards these days I put genetics first; taboo aryan race stuff. It's because I've realised I've been brainwashed to think it doesn't matter, in reality however, we have many problems that have emerged as a result of this. It makes so many people insecure though that we can't speak rationally. However for me, it's not even 'taste', its practicality. I'm a guy that would otherwise put deeper energetic connection first, now that I've learned from experience I've realised the illusions in that space as well, not that its totally impermanent however if there's any validity to its permanence it requires a set of qualities anyway that usually relate to a persons genetics. I know many women of many races now, and I appreciate all of their uniqueness, however it's only because I want to start a family. If I didn't want to start a family, I wouldn't care in the slightest outside of the persons proven value. This means there's still compromise if compromise means preserving a genuinely deep connection and the wisdoms in the right place, however there's obstacles for me to overcome internally when it comes to raising a family with with a Vietnamese, Cambodian, Chinese, Japanese, Thai or other asian women compared to say a Ukrainian, Russian, Bulgarian or Columbian woman; I haven't visited many European countries hence why its so far just restricted to Ukraine and Russia, another country where I have a connection is Ireland, and she's possible however to be honest, even though I think she'd be a great mother she's a little too authoritarian for me even though there's a spark . There's undeniably very beautiful asian women, my concern is not of beauty but of build, personality traits and other. All in all though, I still need to go through a systematic genocultural, to coin the word, analysis. If I chose Asia, I have no doubt I'd be able to get away with having multiple children with multiple wives to still raise a strong loving interdependent family with a firm value-hierarchy, however I also wouldn't be able to include women indoctrinated into more of a western influence relating to number of wives, moreover, I am leaving some temporal space still open concerning the finding of the right woman. I may even decide to settle down with a Cypriot woman, or any race at the end of the day depending on the connection, however at the end of the day this comes down to protecting the integrity of my family name for generations to come, which is a systematic undertaking. I don't care if people get offended with my choices, I deal with reality in the cultivation of a stable inner culture, I don't care about peoples identities anymore if they're not able to just be mature adults when it comes to healthy self reflection and self-reflection. People forget they're creators, so they should ensure at all times their creative process is respected first and foremost by themselves with the right value-set (which includes knowing how to take healthy feedback from trusted persons) but also others i.e. enforcing boundaries on choices if necessary. So when I have a child with a woman one of the worst case scenarios is I'm saying "Well I love the connection we have however I shouldn't have chosen them in light of x, y genetics" as its totally incompatible with my family name and the legacy we've so far created. For some strange reason for the most difficult and most important decision of someones life that wants to start a family, somehow they're expected to be people pleasers for those that get offended when they take that decision seriously; then we wonder why we have the societal problems we do. As usual, there's a combination of logic (genetic) and intuition (energetic connection) when it comes to solving these dilemmas, and I've already got it all there so its going to be pretty straightforward. I'm sure my commenting will aid someone who's open minded but lacking both. Especially when they just look at 'genetics' as attraction, which is only one shade of it, moreover its only one shade of 'energy' as well, we may be attracted to someone because we have codependent tendencies and they have narcissistic one's creating a perfect sized shoe and foot scenario.

Brief Journal - so it doesn't count as "The Next Post": For the first time yesterday at 2AM I felt real taste of actually waking up to my own personal reality hypnosis; that at a visceral level, it genuinely felt like something analogous to a computer simulation, that the only practical output to that understanding, is the obvious implications of optimising for signal to noise ratio. It also made me realise, there's only so much you can do when it comes to passing on second hand experiential knowledge that really require being embedded into that reality to really appreciate, especially as empathy, imagination and intelligence jointly decrease. For me now, I'm at the non-psychedelic (future vision and will disclose scientific stage by stage when I'm there) paradigm where it's really just about patterns of consciousness that I'm more and more concerning myself with and aligning with the re-categorisation of the environment around me that follows from that incremental levelling. It's totally inverted and or flatlined my reality questioning, building on its prior redundancy with a concrete fluidity I've never felt I belonged to, however strangely I felt it mirrored in external environmental instances. There's trainings I do that I haven't fully disclosed yet which pertain, though its only relevant after its experimentally valid to do so. By the way, have finally learned to appreciate the true essence of balance and moderation (something my father always talked to me about as a kid), having my first blue cheese and packaged salmon that I made a childhood favourite after a month plus of non-western luxuries. It was... undeniably an incredible experience. In spite of this new growth curvature forming in and out of lower hidden identity structures, there's an unmistakable gap that exists still in my addiction to said luxuries and the curse this puts on my ability to thrive with gratitude and love towards the hardest environments that have me worried enough to still work diligently to redeem as much as possible before Ukraine, an environment that requires growth from me that is not merely seen one day, but where my efforts in one day of action mean so much more that they carry so much further into the future as well as being able to repeat this day to day. My own grandiosity aggressively reached for the intuition within that pressed me to just do this without any training or any thought inside half an hour of the the first thought of doing so, something which has now faired well in helping make even riskier judgements in the future as a consequence of the improvements in self-measurement that have followed in what arguably began as too foolhardy. I knew I wouldn't do it in the ten days, even within a few days thereafter however what I completely didn't consider was the amount of socialising and friendships that I was going to make along the way, and subsequently, the detours that would result here. It's no longer the case all in all that I'm "not yet the being I need to be in order to..." but now, with the resolves and learnings that have followed, its instead much more "after this I'm going to be", with the balance and moderation needed to intelligently calculate that into healthy self-trust, which we all must have in this journey forward of ours.

@Carl-Richard Reminds me of William James' variant of pragmatism, quoting him "truth is what works in the way of belief." This idea that the usefulness of a concept underpins its validity is something I see resonating there in what you’ve said and is reflective of my recent re-evaluation of identity in the context of ego and shedding those versus acquiring those that only have true validity relative to the ontology that reflects our highest potentialisation. This follows from my new perspective that its what all cultures are inherently always attempting to do, at least in as much as they’re not granted with too much privilege that results in an internal imbalance. James emphasized the fluid nature of truth, suggesting that ideas gain credibility based on their practical application, not merely abstract accuracy; to play devils advocate, I am moving for both, where in the nondescript, that would be in exploring the infinite nature of consciousness to expand it to otherwise hidden environments inaccessible to basic sense reality, while grounding myself in challenging sense based environments that grow all good adaptations to them. Pragmatism safeguards against the dogma of naive realism, the latter which I’ve also brought up recently and how need to dive deep to remove as much of it from our psyche as possible as it’s symptomatic of that ‘silver spoon consciousness’ I implied, i.e. to align, pretty much the removal of everything related to identity politics as it presently stands in rotting most peoples consciousness. And on that note though you wisely acknowledge that some realism is inevitable, like how gravity isn’t just simply “useful” but is rooted in observable, measurable forces, in the same way that my work in bioelectrical agency is. Which is why its so “useful” to tie the infinite to the finite with things that continually teach us to better adapt to it by having a project to work on that tests this 'usefulness adaptivity' overtime . To wrap the infinite with the finite, as James might suggest, the challenge is navigating the "stream of consciousness" while recognizing that all maps of reality are partial tools to be wielded, not ends in themselves. This dynamic balance between certainty and flexibility is an art, a way of life and something Leo undoubtedly and measurably contends with in reaching his greater heights, so there’s depth and wisdom to your words regardless as it to pertains to how the gestalts of consciousness levels provide us with new lenses to perceive the same “truths” more than “useful fictions” and while at the same time, to that very utilitarian measurement. Without some degree of realism, communication and action in the world become incoherent, and that realism is where collectivism outside of the ‘infinity of individuality’ by comparison, is our answer on how we create a shared, consistent reality, which in spite of its many flaws, is why of course science in spite of its flaws is as important in modern times as it was when we stopped burning *witches to crosses*, a strong parallel to the noted identity politics, symptomatic of naive realism, we struggle so strongly with today. This survival imperative as well for the 'coherency among the masses' is the undertone I sense in your latest response as well in terms of validating both the infinite and the finite through the utilitarian, though to that end, that too is by our same bias i.e. useful fictions yet increasingly more measurable things like consciousness threshold; level; capacity; etc.

@Husseinisdoingfine Pain without awareness is the signal towards change without the space to articulate it into true grounded invention. Awareness without discernment is is magical thinking that feels good in the creative process not so much in hindsight of looking back on what you haven't created. Discernment without action is generating the most beautiful of designs without bringing them into reality. If we fail at step one, then it gets even worse, where pain then just goes straight to the ego's most primitive survival based identities its created for self-preservation as what is a rational response when it is struggling to bring rationality via awareness, it then shifts not even to the happy go lucky magical thinking of its opposite I mentioned but instead the magical thinking of what becomes self-justifying demonism. Insert Iran's backlashes which serve as the iconic example of what many memetic trends in Western civilisation emulate in their microcosm, for example a woman who's struggling with BPD will mirror that same behaviour in pseudo-psychic realities of relationships and a man struggling with NPD will mirror it in completely overreacting to an innocuous comment made to him by someone that was just trying to be nice and didn't know about his other sensitivities that he was triggered by but due to the NPD's magical thinking he will twist it in his mind where now that so called 'friendly guy' is instead the demon that he must possess through his delusional myopia. Further, when we either combine action or inaction by this point we now either get the outcome of psychosis and subsequent mental health hospitalisation via non-action, eventually, even if its just in analogous form, or through action the outcome of criminal charges and subsequent imprisonment. It's a harsh world we live in due to our misunderstandings of human nature, for any dissonances you have regarding you must always prioritise inner light understanding that darkness is only ever compensatory for not seeing the light, aka hence misunderstanding can be equated with darkness as per the word 'ignorance' and how its often included when attempting to mock other demographics, which is one sense healthy for the system of the demographic to either self-identify itself this way or to identify where there is ignorance if it leads to genuinely deeper knowledge or sometimes which is more often the case just a compensatory identity protecting mechanism similar to how disgust sensitivity works, and in another way, it can blind us to the self damage or damage we're doing to others in such categorisations to the level they're not done with context and nuance that pairs with the truth of the reality. Such is the case with your scenario, mockery, belittlement, 'negational categorisation' can lead to ego fulfilment when we haven't solved enough dissonance that would have otherwise led to ego fulfilment that corresponded to having identity structures that better aligned us with a more grounded and more imaginative and expanded via of consciousness and the greater universe that simultaneously humbled us while fulfilling our pride towards our individual march forward in how we uniquely positively impacted the collective via our actions. Genuine strength to you, stay strong. Have compassion for yourself and everyone involved, it will genuinely, if paired with increasingly greater awareness, understanding and personal boundaries, bring you not only far more contentment, but empowerment towards your highest resolves. And yes, the forum hasn't yet upgraded to this level of understanding yet, and I would too put myself in that category given I don't own it in the whole yet, however its where we invariably need to go while also remembering our sense of humour, but just with more sensitivity and intelligence on where to place it. Best wishes.

TLDR - explaining these related cultural outgrowths symptomatically, quoted: "By comparison, moral relativism destroys collectivism and impairs decision making on individuality where it affords a false freedom while ignorant external results, moral absolutism on the other hand repairs it while inadequately informing individuality and collectivism to the extent it remains trapped in a lack of democratic thought that enhances intelligence and removes ignorance. " Too tired to comment but , I should have waited until after I rested even though all of my points are still valid. If the reader just learned from that single sentence though, genuinely a lot of creative good can be generated from it to serve their ascendence. Otherwise click *here* to subscribe to more monthly quotations from me at an affordable price, generated from the unique special connection I've formed with the "Mother Universal Horizon" from years of meditating in the Himalayas with only the greatest of Buddhist enlightened masters. High Tier Clients get personally tailored messages where I reveal their unique destinies and as well as, free of charge, strongly aligning them to that path. You... Can do it too (but only after I teach you).

@Butters he's exploiting peoples vulnerabilities on the subject that's most important for people's development as humans, spirituality; classy dude. He seems okay though, it's just something I'd never endorse. Spirituality needs to have the integrity of the level that we expect but aren't fully receiving from the medical field in the west. He's established himself as an authority on spirituality, without proving himself as an authority outside of the success he's had at exploiting vulnerabilities. When I view him, I view a human analogous to any other species on the planet, I don't dislike/like him, I don't know him; I see him via the cause and effect of his life weighed against the fragile cultural insecurities of the west by misinterpreting true and only partial concepts of the east. The west is drunk on pseudo-spirituality that supports their narcissism which then opens them up to exploitation by people like his. The thing with people like him, is that some people can genuinely change, and thus, to truly have an objective perspective we need to ask ourselves, what are the actual results are people changing and why, just in the same way as we're meant to accurately view someone like Andrew Tate. The actual results are sometimes impressive, however in order to address contexts like this with cultural precision we both need to understand underlying natures and future results therein, what are for example the potential pre-existing psychological issues of both the recipient (i.e. attachment issues - looking for an authority figure to tell them what's right about life that related creators partially fulfil for a little while but then what happens after this? What percentage of those actually have long term positive change that then positively in return impacts the development of culture?) and the creator (i.e. potential narcissism and dark triad tendencies). On the surface, 'everything is positive' just in the same way we thought everything was positive when we saw the dynamic between the invention of 'celebrity' and 'fans' until this evolved to the deterioration of cultural artistry to only appeal to achieving a certain end for those 'fans' like either or both dumbing them down and or satisfying their taste buds. And now, this deterioration has evolved so much to the extent where this kind of pseudo-spirituality has evolved as a byproduct of those cultural patterns where 'he's a celebrity' and 'you can become one too' and we've just got to collectively take a gentle law of attraction bite into the 'sound bite of the cultural algorithm' that's now converted the 'Elvis = Fans = Money + Cultural leverage' algorithm into a mathematical formula we can all capitalise on if we just have the right 'good intentions' without any thought on how the universe is going to respond to our lack of responsibility concerning the long term future outcomes of our decisions. People get into false comparisons as well when they source from these kinds of guys as well, they'll be like 'Well he's NOT Andrew Tate therefore he MUST be good!" but its really not about that, it just comes down to whether the information being created is in alignment with the integrity of the direction. Like we need pharmacists to have the competency of the essence of pharmacy just as we need spiritualists to have the competency of what spirituality is, this guy doesn't have that. He comes across as a 'good' bloke though in the sense that his intentions are mostly hidden, and evolutionarily that's what people are buying into more presentationally as of course that's precisely what we see gets them activated or deactivated in the west with the politics, football games and Hollywood films as the perfect example. There's at least 50% of them that doesn't give a damn about truth and just evolutionary presentation and so the other 50% plus that does care gets manipulated into believing that "This is where its at, spirituality at the intersection of gold chains and fast cars". The biggest underlying issue I see presently in modern spirituality, is exploiting peoples lack of awareness especially in their self-perceived locus of control. In psychology there is a phenomenon that describes whether someone has an internal or external locus of control, well to be more accurate, there's Venn diagrammatically a few more intersections that derive that final output of each individuals unique expression here. In modern spirituality among these influencers, their followers are often exploited through the dynamic that's created between their desire for "Control, Empowerment, Ownership" (internal locus of control) as some mystical creator while at the same time, being totally absent of having any control by simply trusting in the universe to give you this if you simply align whatever selfish desire you have with this point of creation (external locus of control). That's precisely how a psychopath operates minus the lack of delusion all things being equal. They have a target, and they don't care what's in their way of completing it. I feel like in this sense, a lot of weak people are attracted to influencers like these because the empowerment they derive is a healthy response to their previous codependence, people pleasing and even naivety when it comes to listening to ignorant people around them about how the universe works and subsequently, how to actualise themselves within it. So the thing is, this kind of thinking DOES actually work, as its precisely how it works for psychopaths, however there's zero proper reality testing that goes on between point x and point y so they just say 'the universe did it' without adding any nuance to the equation which subsequently deteriorates their ability to objectively assess themselves and the cultural environments around them to build a healthy cause and effect that in return generates a more nuanced advancement to their locus of control. To benefit the reader in assessing this person or anyone like them objectively, my advice is to evaluate your own process via the filter as to whether you're maturely assessing for improvements in your own locus of control and subsequent personal creativity or whether you're potentially experiencing reductions. This person for example may actually make improvements to aspects of your locus of control depending on where its sitting, however can the potential improvements made also be viewed through the lens of where you're simultaneously able to see through the messenger? Because at the end of the day we're all just human, living our humble experience in this moment, solely differentiated mainly by our level of consciousness, which is not our self-perceived level but more than anything else the actual reading of our awareness and subsequent ability to differentiate our experience around us totally and utterly independent of our desires from the universe that have not yet found proper stability via an improvement in our cultural and historical education on our selves, our environments and where the intersection there leads to not only personal fulfilment but also cultural enrichment that benefits generations down the line. Finally again stated in another way, the question here shouldn't be "Oh Letho you wish you could just seamlessly scrape the monetary icing off the cake of the millions of peoples insecurities and subsequent ignorance in spirituality or any subject for that matter as well, don't you?" Instead, it should just be a subject of an analysis of ethics, integrity and analysing the intelligence surrounding where the highest future cultural maturity is likely to be resolved towards. To that end, he is a very, very unsurprising event of western culture and purely symptomatic of where the west is in its cultural development, however regardless, it's still a form of exploitative emotional slavery here that's at work which has more ethics to it than exploitive physical slavery that existed less than 200 years ago. Yep, just less than 200 years ago. When people become more self-educated and self-reliant therein towards their cognitive development, those emotional insecurities will reduce and influencers will be increasingly forced to re-measure their approach towards the public they're attempting to persuade. Just imagine a thought experiment for example where you instead were taking this guys information in from the perspective of being a part of a more advanced race 1000 or 10,000 years down the line from now, you'd see their information as totally misrepresentative of true spirituality, therefore you'd be assessing him in the same way as you would in determining the pros/cons of this kind of exploitation, finding the intellectual balance in your assessment where you could rather than being totally dismissive outside of holding your ground on the fact that its still very 'child like spirituality' with very little raw intellectual authority to it. You wouldn't condemn him though, you'd have compassion from the perspective of both his own weaknesses that have led him to this place and those of others that have blindly followed, and for both, without the maturity of sight that takes both potential perspectives and more into consideration in delivering your vision forward. "Oh look at this guy! He's taking the moral high ground!" says the dark triad propensity person. Well yes that's right, that's exactly what a dark triad person that's not of the light and therefore of the light of the future would say, wouldn't they? Can you see through your own biases as I see through mine while still making my own personal judgements based on how I view the overall ground of nature? By comparison, moral relativism destroys collectivism and impairs decision making on individuality where it affords a false freedom while ignorant external results, moral absolutism on the other hand repairs it while inadequately informing individuality and collectivism to the extent it remains trapped in a lack of democratic thought that enhances intelligence and removes ignorance. "Oh he's belittling him!", no it has nothing to do with that. This is just a subject of as I said: Ethics, spirituality and intelligence; their unity is what gives us a picture to follow with our lives and their disunity and to the level people believe in that is how we become a fragmented society that doesn't even have any common sense when it comes to assessing the intelligence of spirituality and its purpose anymore. So what are you waiting for? Get out your drawing pad, figure out how to appeal to peoples evolutionary biases as best as you can then start crafting your next best idea for how you're going to exploit them in the best way you can to manifest your (next) dream car on the morally polished ground of peoples misfortunes. Subscribed and now paid monthly fan.

@Consept Intuition + Logic loop, where you have intuition questioning logic and logic questioning intuition from a calm peace of mind where you know your own sense of authority must be respected. Your desire for higher maturity will tell you how to guide it to the end. For me, this is now more about you than it is more about them, as you already know their patterns and potential behaviours, but you don't know how to fully actualise yours. You're the one dealing with the guilt and the potential after-guilt, the way to listen to that emotion while having strong boundaries is to parent your guilt into understanding that while you're going to be fully open minded as you move forward in this situation while leading with a loving stance, you're going to feel empowered by the healthy boundaries you enforce. For me, tracking this into the future I feel that they need to know how I truly feel about their behaviours so that we can either find mutual ground or that we can establish that distance is going to remain, but that's just me. Their exploitational patterns which is not a true reflection of their essence need to understand that what you mirror back to them is a healthy authoritarian change point where you are only deeply respected for the authenticity that you are giving them as a gift as opposed to having to pretend like their aren't issues onto the surface that would only likely indirectly positively reinforce their negative behaviours.

I go out of my way to reduce the money tag these days. Guys you just gotta go deeper. Not into understanding female/male dynamics, that comes after you understand yourself. Women offer me money as a traveler, rides, places to sleep, etc even though I don't need these things. It's the intersection between cultural conditioning and true being, guys (and women too) in the west really struggle to differentiate between the two and make it so much about themselves or the other, helping bring clarity to these topics as opposed to feeding any false dichotomy helps both sexes onto the right path. The truth is in either finding a well-educated mate in the west or going elsewhere, as men, if you're intelligent there are truly so many great women in the east, you'll be too overloaded with options and women, there are also too many gentlemen here in the east if you're savvy that haven't been brainwashed by Andrew Tate, related. And @MsNobody you're so right about Latina's, although there's many cultural difficulties right now in South America, Colombia the true heart of their essence is really in the words you've expressed regarding their warm, loving nature, although there's a few women there's one particular woman that there's a chance that if our paths align (there's at least a 50% chance they won't: and its like that for many great potential mates) I may even wed in the future because of those very qualities, or to put more accurately because she has the qualities I'm looking for for someone I'd love to start a family with. My instinct is that if both sexes realised that the primitive consciousness of either is basically cashing in on the brainwashing the other has experienced to the highest possible levels of manipulation while at the same time there is a genuine desire for spiritual growth, a mature person would be able to strike a line in the middle regarding their evaluation of the character of the potential mate they're facing regarding where they truly are relative to whether they're ready for a more meaningful relationship, especially one involving family.

Let's recap: Day 15. A recap that'll be 'Prime K9 Night Vision' on building your own emotional kinaesthetic's on what the beginnings of Deep "Magnitude Learning" will start to look like for you at a personal level, where biographical learning meets the progression of spiritual maturity. Adventure totally on foot (except that brief small instance already shared, which I've already made up for arguably in light of the back and fourth following the hospital, not to mention the dogs right heh): Ho Chi Minh City, District 1 to Bangkok. Now that we're on Day 15 I think that given I'm only a few hours from my checkpoint, nows the perfect time to begin to paint the energetic psychological walls that I'll be staring at through my horse blinkers to focus the rest of my run, including too, the completion of my already begun theoretical frameworks in this journal. Although I haven’t fully shifted back into running yet, it feels like the run has become a bridge between worlds I had a feeling before I started was going to occur, however not like this, at least, as what will be a theme for this entry, experienced flavours that lived on the side of both the possible and relative to my present ego structure, (now previously) 'impossible'. Every mile stretching behind me, every breath inhaled and exhaled into the tropical Cambodian warm air is a marker not just of distance but of some deeper, subtler shift within as I attempt to slowly master the deeper experiential and theoretical depths of my own innovated understanding of human bioelectrical agency. As I’ve expressed before I hadn’t anticipated how much running from Ho Chi Minh City to Bangkok would become such an intense process of undoing layers upon layers falling away as the body moves forward but the mind begins to unravel what’s been hidden for too long. It’s strange to say now that I thought this journey was about reaching some destination, crossing a finish line, but it’s never really been about arriving at my next checkpoint or even Bangkok, although its going to be totally badass of course when I finally do. The people, the atmosphere, making that transition from baring the nakedness of my cultural civility to to properly inhaling through all the potential fears and closures towards my own separation from the outer culture and going deeper into the reservoir of how existence is created, and more so here, at the emotional energetic level. It’s been about untangling the knots inside with every new encounter while recovering from dads passing, running through the labyrinth of my own psyche as much as the highways between cities and the matrix of disorganised darkness of each towns construction of its own unique homeliness while somehow stretching their friendly unity amongst one another, even when its eyes are darkest as I’m “Running with, away and towards the wolves” at the pitch black of night; where ghosts in hospitals yet shared I’ve visited welcome… or don’t welcome my presence and have their way of showing it. As I think about the accident, about the way time froze for just that brief moment, the motorbike flipping, my body airborne. And my own mind… always so eager to craft meaning… immediately pulled the logistical switch, convinced that everything in existence now boiled down to this single moment. My mind painted the worst, a potential broken leg that wrapped itself around my timeline to Bangkok like chains that I had no way of escaping other than through my own sense of humour. But reality was kinder than the mind’s projections; I was mostly just left with an eye injury, a cut to my vision but not to the journey itself. It was as if the accident was trying to slow me down, to force me into contemplation. And then I remembered my previous journal entries where I prayed to God to give me greater sight on my ventures, then I remembered how the very next night multiple bugs had flown faster than the motorcycle into the same injured eye multiple times, and then that same night, where as I’ve reflected I’m mostly being homeless until I can’t hack it anymore and I want a reboot in a nice hotel, I found myself unintentionally laying down for sleep surrounded by 5 statues in a buddhist garden centre that were praying towards another statue representative of the buddha adjacent to the other side of my now laying body, almost in the same pose. Two of those statues, with one closest to my head and the other my feet, covering their right eye, the one I had injured, symbolically revealing to me that for the majority of my life as God has been trying to reveal to me in what I will at least partially say are his answers to my prayers, that I have been walking around the majority of my life half blind from… Head to toe. That this injury is to teach me to slowly recover from walking to eventually running where I’m living in a way with both eyes fully open. Living with vision, both literally and figuratively, across all relevant dualities, like vision on the past and vision on the future, and more. As I reflect on previous posts in this journal, what have I been so afraid of concerning the other aspects of my consciousness? It is obvious that my subconscious, or as I have previously theorised including most pertinently in the post just prior, identities that have taken my consciousness and subsequent ego hostage. That for most of my life, unknowingly, these identities have held my being at gunpoint, arm wrapped around me, shooting at any potential truths that could break through their glass house to generate new light upon the shadows that lurked. While at the same time as I now allow the feeling of this existential search beyond my own lost past surge, I realise, the accident was a gift, a forced pause, a brief window into the fragility of illusionary control that I try to pierce the veil of solidarity to through humour all because I am still yet to fully understand the unfathomability of my own existence, a dual understanding that I must come to terms with, that is… That I can and must, and that I will never fully meet my own expectations and that is okay. And yet, even in spite of these false projections, where life began once more beyond the pause that defined every micro moment of my life right before the crash, my body proved itself stronger than my mind's predictions. The next day as I haven’t revealed yet, I ran. More than that, I’ve now started to achieve the level of bioelectrical agency that I have been pushing towards, starting to finally feel the electrical fire I’ve been craving, that infinite definitive line between the order and chaos of expressed potential in the feeling of agency over my body, an echo to my Super Sayin video I did for humour, but that the emotional veins that have grown through repeated exposure in my childhood say that there is a deeper truth to the cartoon series that reveals merit to my own related ambitions here that I partially disguise with humour that when everything is held in context, its again, partially, pretty easy to see through. And that, in itself, was a deeper revelation. That as much as I will never reach my own standards, the dual reality of where I will never do this and yet the possibility of me going much further beyond as evidenced by my recovery, still exists, and so my own resolve as I do it, including with my humour, is still the only sane pathway forward in growing towards… not my deeper potential, but my deeper limits, and turning my own minds capacity for projection, into instead of mirror of fear of the inside or even of other untapped areas of my own consciousness, the limits that I make both friends and sparring partners with, where their mirrors continuously break and reform with every projection to awareness to reformation to revolution that my being mind cooks up in the hot stove that sits above the untapped fiery electrical being that remains below, awaiting my deeper… sight. In those early days leaving Ho Chi Minh City, the rhythm of the run was steady, almost methodical. There was something clean about it in spite of all the socialisation. My legs moving, breath cycling through, the body slipping into a comfortable cadence. It was mechanical at first, like a metronome counting out my existence which reminds me of an ontological temporal framework of self I’ve begun that I’ll share down the line, and then, the monotony of it began to crack into the darkness of my psyche. The ghosts of my past spoken through the barks of the dogs, the unspoken fears about my future held in the untamed smiles of the Vietnamese country people that treated me like I was family, and the unresolved tensions that sit like wet cement on the clothing of the mind, pressing and pressing to ensure the heat doesn’t harden my psyche the way it burns away at the sensitivity of my own skin. In this sense, there’s a purity in physical exhaustion that can’t be replicated in any other experience, it undoubtedly wears down the layers of ego, the hidden illusions we wear and look for a false mirror reflection on that can only be carried forward in my run as shards of glass left behind, never to even be looked at again outside the deeper resolve of my own sense of fragile vision I look to fully heal and grow into the way my father would want me to fully step into. Out here on the road, we can’t pretend anymore. All the jokes, all the humor, it all fades away into the crisp hot burning sun and into the wet soil of the tropical surroundings in the fit of echoing humid storms. The raw self, is all I now have the strength to survive with, remaining the architectures of what makes the ego to the point where I’ve now started to build an entire new paradigm for imaging “Ideal Identity Structures” that align with the purpose of our ego, to survive and thrive, what altogether feels like a spiritual unity I’m achieving in this creation and its following that I’ve slowly begun. I feel like this run was a way my unconscious has attempted to resolve the hidden tension between freedom and responsibility that I’m still grappling around family and greater social allegiances. The responsibility to fulfill the roles handed to me, to meet the expectations I was born into versus the desire to just live the self, for the self and live as naturally as possible from that point with respect to how its meant to unite with the previously postulated “Other” in this dichotomy of “Self” and “Other”. Running, in many ways, feels like the purest form of freedom… I get to own it, I get to own my choice to move beyond the desire to stop. It’s more than just a desire to grow my AMCC as I have previously shared scientific connections to, each step is mine, each breath is a testament to my own bioelectrical agency, slowly tracing the lines that remain previously hidden to me before in my incomplete attempts to finish my own theorisations here on the “Ontology of Meta-Ascendence, and remember, its ascendence now, not transcendence. The run teaches me to accept all of these life uncertainties as much as it is uncertain that I will complete that next step or remain totally out of reach of another potential motorbike accident, to both as I expressed, accept my control and my lack of it. To accept both the blurriness of life, temporally and otherwise, as well as my capacity for vision… and then to take that next step towards its natural ascendence, riding the natural passage of life towards my natural evolution, that wave that speaks to the completion of my earlier stated intention regarding the completion of a new theoretical conceptualisation of ego and identity through the lens of the ontological design of identity structures that only reflect the deepest truths of our essences, so that they can be set free to not only run, but to feel the full bioelectrical agency of their ability to CHOOSE to run, in the midst of chaos, to CHOOSE to immediately help a man that struck him with their motorbike even without knowing fully what had happened to themselves or even if the other man cared, still even indistinguishable to himself through the shock of the accident. And that, for now, is enough. I know I said I wanted to share more about my injury as a case study for how to proceed up the levels of Magnitude Learning, however I needed to get all of this out of my system first as I re-digest what all of those levels are of Magnitude Learning. Finally, and I promise I’ll try to make it as brief as possible but there is a little bit more than just a bit more sorry to say, more theory on what is much more than an intellectual tool for biographical introspection but as a means of much more deeply mapping one’s ontological trajectory forward up the scales of human potential where learning meets renewed and literally regrown perception to unite with all of life. That will be revealed next. After reading my next post, there will be zero remaining dissonance on why Magnitude Learning must now become a pivotal extra limb in your run forward to the depths of your own self-realisation, something that I feel incredibly humbled to both be given the intellectual insights to by God but also to have this space for its sharing. I hope my deeper efforts reflecting on my inner landscapes here on my greater journey since Vietnam will provide robust priming for conceptualising in your own way your own creatively unique pathway forward in turning this theory into daily practical exercise that becomes totally self-justifying in the self-enrichment it provides. Take your time with it, make it completely yours, and let my temporal self die with this post, now a part of the paradigm of continual seasonal renewal with you all on the uniqueness that we are all becoming; in control… while totally accepting and appreciative of the lessons of infinity. Thank you to the reader for any goodness I can give with this share, and to God, thank you for answering me if you did, and that you kept things humorous by pointing out my blindness (yes I already knew I was ignorant but like I said, thanks) while using my brains capacity for creativity to help me create the light of knowledge here. Lastly, between now and Bangkok I’m going to be hiding away a little bit more of my external self, integrating my experiences here to create what is obviously the new pathway forward, on top of the great bridge to my own self-defined freedom that I’ve already created. Best Light. - Love you dad, miss you.

@Consept Simple question, where is there disrespect? That's where there's proportional distance. You have to be the one though who decides how much distance that is emotionally (how much are they in your heart), psychologically (how much time do they take up) and physically though. If they're sometimes 'dragging you into...' that means there are issues when it comes to enforcing your boundaries because in the past you haven't been decisive on the distance and because of that, its eroded your boundaries where now you're no longer sure of where to make clear cut decisions emotionally, psychologically and physically with respect to how they take up your space. The best way to approach this is to CONSCIOUSLY which means denying impulses to the contrary begin to INSTALL BOUNDARIES relative to genuine misbehaviour you're uncomfortable with, something you could even test by simply starting a conversation with them at a genuine authentic level rather than trying to bait them into the boundary as that isn't going to do anything healthy for the way you appraise said guilt you experience, To the level they show disrespect then you've got to be the one that goes inward to decide on those three levels how that practically corresponds to how you will in return as a man respond to the situation while holding your own authority. I deal with things head on, so I don't really like the grey rock thing I like to be straight up with people and literally just tell them "Hey I think you're an x" can we have a discussion about it and if they can't be mature about it then its just the installation of boundaries accordingly in a nuanced stage by stage non-dramatic way in the ideal scenario, because think about it, unless you're doing with kids that you also have authority over towards installing the right maturity in them why are you wasting time trying to speak to them about their own immaturity whatever category of immaturity that is? The more nuance you can approach the situation with, the more in integrity with your self you're going to feel, the situation and the other person / people involved wherever that may be the case. Otherwise you're doing great.

@Emerald God I'm so sorry you went through that. @Princess Arabia Value differentiation = Internal Cultural value / Maturity = positive correlation with measurably real external survival value. In conversation I think that's what we mean when we're on a spirituality forum, if we were on a toxic reddit forum our underlying assumptions about what we deemed mature in this context would probably be different. For me just to broach this conversation more generally a high value woman = Long term marriage & family material (LTMFM) ). That's only in the last 12 months or so though. Many say marriage is over and I completely agree, as most people are too immature for it because of our decaying cultural standards, hence why to get any maturity these days we have to much more strive for an internal culture over an external one. Inside or outside wanting or deciding to/not have children, following this metric is still going to make a woman high value in my eyes. If you're a woman or man and you want marriage and children, don't mess around. 80% plus of the population are no good for it even if on paper it looks like they're passing. Get your shit together, stick to your plan and don't fall in love fall in alignment across several categories of consciousness: health, intelligence, heart, future desires. People believe that we're meant to fall in love through what is clinical delusion when in reality, it meant to be in connection across several areas of sanity. Three simple questions are needed to make the determination, "do you like one another and will this stay the same in 5 years what would change this result and are you both capable of simulating through this intelligently?", "could you raise children genuinely well together in the future?" and "what changes would either of you need to make in order to bring a positive resolve for both question two relative to any weaknesses you noticed?" Most relationships have such fragile ego boundaries that they'd completely collapse in deep discussion of the first question as it brings to surface hidden things they never bothered to face head on together about and for the second question, it really highlights the present dynamics of the relationship and whether that would fit in a family context, for example perhaps one of the spouses is particularly self-absorbed, selfish and just, not in reality but the other one is codependent, so then the codependent starts to either realise they'd be doing most of the work or they imagine a fantasy scenario whereby the selfish one is going to magically change, which won't happen, and that the kids will adapt normally as things progress through the changes the partner makes, which they won't. And lastly for question three, you should never begin a relationship based on how your partner is going to be good/better in the future otherwise, why are you with them in the present? Uncomfortable truths are quickly faced and ideally evolved from there. Most of us will fail in our relationships, statistically, so we need to be mature about how we approach our understandings here and really mould our approach to reflecting who we truly want to be and are deep on the inside. For me, a woman I want to marry has slightly less to a woman I want to have children with, and I'd say right now that's where my transition is. I don't make any of this stuff a priority though, I know I'll easily find the right woman when I'm ready to. Finding a woman to start a successful family with is arguably much easier than finding the right woman to marry, however if I can sort out family, marriage kinda sorts itself out as it means I've already vetted relative to more objective measurements anyway if that's what I'm prioritising. So 'high/low' value can also shift and have nuance to it relative to our personal existential context and changing the mirror upon which we view that, helps our decision making, like staying away from toxic reddit threads.

Magnitude Learning Firstly, let's get this out of the way, I’ll let the video do the talking concerning an update from the previous page. Video Shifting from: (1) Scene of the crime (2) Hospital (3) Back in action, walking first then will slowly building to running. As I said, don’t ask me how it’s possible, I honestly don’t know. I should at least have torn, fractured or properly injured something, however I haven’t, the so called football leg I mentioned seems like it was listening to Kanye West over the 5-6 hour period of my sleep in the hospital because the very next morning after I took off the bandages at little later, everything had calmed down significantly to the point where it only looked like I incurred a slight graze, I was utterly shocked more than I already was that I even survived. Moving on, have changed my schedule now no longer running (when I’m functional again) at night only early in the morning and the afternoon and using the time in between for everything else in my life including meditation. Whatever you’re going through, stay strong, stay smart and stay committed. From the way our heart functions to the way it communicates with our brain to help forge our filters, sense and subsequent interpretations of reality, life is about momentum in the right directions as we experience the effects of our efforts years down the line looking back. —————————————————————————— What is Magnitude Learning? Disclaimer: Bias towards those that can hold visual images in their mind. Simply change the example to one that serves your appropriate learning style. Magnitude Learning is equivalent to the establishment of a hierarchy on the level to which one is deeply learning not only just about an object, phenomenon or perception of any kind, however as a process of making a subject out of magnitude learning, one is learning how to learn from the perspective of the overlap between (1) self-awareness, how they engage with experience and (2) their experience of consciousness, so the relationship between states of consciousness, experience of learning within that consciousness state and in doing so from a practical perspective, learning how to strategically prioritise states of consciousness for the benefit of one’s self-awareness and in doing so, their learning within consciousness and its experiences. Moving forward, instead of going through the ins and outs of a ducks ass on how a zombie-human learns about reality as a function of discussing the lowest ‘magnitudes’ or levels of learning, we’re instead going to get to the brass tax of everything by simply first and foremost focusing on a ground level solution level by level. In short, there are two primary qualities to focus on in deepening one’s magnitude of learning, “Emotional Filter of processing” and “Cognitive Filter of processing”. It is better to think of them as filters because then you can act practically about not only both the incorporation of intuition (i.e. “I’m sensing this”) and logic (i.e. “I clearly (don’t) see this”) on your experience, but also using the very same process of intuition and logic on both intuition (i.e. “where do I sense I may be biased here?) and logic (i.e. “I had x experience earlier today which has clearly impacted my judgement on y”) as the medium of their incremental advancement, which is precisely what this is about with that just being one of the layers of the same broader feedback loop between awareness and consciousness for self-development here. This naturally turns into a continuous feedback loop between “Identity Opening” to “Consciousness Closure” as the ego’s natural competition with awareness to define itself in awarenesses living space of indefinability. Remember, ‘ego’ is not bad, in fact that’s a very healthy function, it’s about where perspective meets relativity in defining absolutism in the balance between flow and solidarity, order and chaos. In this sense, let’s look at ego as your sail in the wind, the “consciousness placement” of your chosen closure in the context of the level of emotional and broader energetic openness you’re able to handle for this present level of your bioelectrical agency, or if you’re not familiar on this terminology as I’ve shared my coining of it before, the “psychological health” of your nervous system like that of your heart and gut, and in return, how this influences those filters that are subsequently forged by consciousness as a consequence of the principle of biopsychological cause and effect. This is why ‘ego’ is defined as a ‘survival function’ because your consciousness is literally closing on a position in the balance between the seemingly infinite and finite in order to give you your sense of ‘reality’, the matrix that sits in the middle of explaining your unique juxtaposition between consciousness bandwidth and capacity. More broadly then, ‘Magnitude Learning’ is not only going to provide the reader with an in depth understanding on the levels of learning its also going to help them understand how the intersection between learning, perception, experience and interpretation informs identity formation and how the medium between awareness (zero point of consciousness), intention (placement of consciousness) and agency (final closure of consciousness) can be leveraged for one’s consciousness evolution via achieving higher states of deeper learning. This is why its called “Magnitude Learning” and not “hierarchical learning”, as magnitude can more generally encompass the breath, scope, spectrum and depth of learning whereas “hierarchical learning” isn’t a category that would normally encompass multiple subject lines in this case, the exploration of the dynamic between ego, identity, consciousness and learning in a hierarchy representative of how a framework representative of their simultaneity can operate as a practical function that also serves progression up the hierarchy. “Spiral Dynamics” actually works in a similar way, so in a sense I could call it something similar to “Spiral Learning” however don’t we all love the Austin Powers film reference to “Liquid Magma” (humour for those unfamiliar)? Level 1 Establishing Ground Communication with Self-Consciousness: Learning how the way we interpret the past informs the present. What is a cup? What is the way I am remembering the cup that comes to mind? What are the emotional impulses that are coming up as I remember a specific cup? As you engage with these three questions pay very close attention to the way that your ego functions in the context of your self-awareness to justify your own experiences relating to the simplicity of this experience. Notice how for example, you might feel: Frustrated by the triviality of the experiences Sad that you’re maybe not able to engage with the task at hand Disappointed as you completely understand the task at hand but you were expecting something of much higher abstraction that was going to test your ability cognitize everything linguistically before you so far Superior as you enjoy the task and you’re interested in learning more however you don’t believe truly that this is going to benefit you as you’re already very intelligent and not many things challenge you Open, ready and curious about what’s ahead without any expectations thereby allowing you to act creatively as opposed to pre-emptively based on assumptive reasoning We can refer to these as “Identity funnels” (as opposed to calling them “Ego funnels” we can refer to them as “Identity funnels” to refer to this process as representative of an aspect of Ego funnels and not necessarily the whole), because they have two components: (1) Emotion or energy (2) Underlying or conscious cognitization that is acting to positively reinforce the emotion thereby positively reinforcing the states of consciousness that create the identity to the point of becoming self-sustained “Identity-self-reinforcement” until we have “Egoic self-imprisonment”. “Egoic self-imprisonment” is basically when the ego now feels too threatened to question its own identity and therefore creates its own prison walls corresponding to the specific ego context. One of the biggest misconceptions in modern psychology is people perceive it as an “ego backlash” however its actually not, its more an “Identity backlash”, and its the identity that has basically taken the ego hostage to the point where its not able to entertain alternative energetic hypotheses, so cognitive or emotional, on “how reality is” whether internally/externally. This is given straightforward “truth-validity” by simply seeing how the ego feels more free after you pretend that the related identity doesn’t even exist after attempting to try something else, it reveals that there’s an “add 1” to ego rather than just merely being a contraction of the ego because the ego wants to serve its purpose, to help you survive and grow in this reality and the more you align with this truth rather than seeing it as a hindrance, your perceived opportunities for emotional and cognitive consciousness learning will open up dramatically. This “Identity-self-reinforcement” is the direct repetitive manipulation on the way the ego computes its final closure on reality, thereby representative of a “funnel” that moulds reality to positively reinforce the ego’s identity so it maintains ‘identity-consistency’ because the ego feels that it needs the temporary to long, partial to significant identity in order to help it survive. Awareness being the only direction to ‘self’, it provides the most organic modulation of that false-consistency where there becomes a natural shift to self-consistency through awareness rather than self-consistency via the illusion of achieving ‘identity-consistency’. The latter being what most sentiences without enough awareness or knowledge of how to employ to shift, change and adapt mathematically have no choice for better or for worse but to concede to its maladaption, like those awesome k-nine specimens attempting to chase me down at night while wanting to make friends with me during the day, there is ‘contextual modulation’, in this case, time of day, on their own ego structure that defines their temporal relationship to me and it of course, explains the to and throw of all other kinds of human relationship dynamics that occur, including too then, why a lion will love their trainer in one instance then as a result of being triggered by something unrelated to their owner, eats their trainer in the next; an example that perfectly explains why I am now devoting myself to spending so many hours in meditation each day so that I can employ as much agency as possible over these dynamics within my own personal egoic structure and its continual ‘fight for survival’ amidst my brief playful detachments when I venture back and forth from it when I visit infinity; not a pun on psychedelics, have not yet had. And after-all, concerning the lion and any other analogous example, what is maladaptive to awareness enhancement is not necessarily of course maladaptive to what is already an identity consciously or unconsciously developed that serves as an environmental adaptation based on its survival pressures, enter stage left “Rainbow Wolf” for humour as a reference to my first post of this journal. Thus, moving back to “Learning how the way we interpret the past informs the present”. To further add, “learning how…”, even up to the way we re-perceive reality opens up the way we can shift awareness and in doing so, shift our identities to break open our consciousness. Inside this opening, like light piercing through a crack inside those noted old egoic prison walls that defined a self-reinforcing identity-structure previously thought unreproachable, new ‘true self space’ is created via this positive reactive formation of the ego. And inside this new space, this self auto-renewal because possible as a positive ego-reaction-formation. Consciousness organically becomes open to higher experiences with the past by the reimagining of phenomenological stimuli through the inspired instinctual curiosity that follows. A positive egoic reaction formation that expands the self and its consciousness learning into the subtlety of their phenomenological depth, thereby opening the gateway of continual re-learning that acts as an ongoing positive identity that renews the ego into the exploration of higher consciousness learning; greater magnitude learning. ‘Positive’ reaction formation here is the natural juxtaposition of the negative egoic reaction formation that you have probably already intuited is the ‘adaptive identity formation’ that was created to serve the ego for the environment at the time in which it served its context either evolutionarily or socially but is now ‘maladaptive’ relative to serving the environment of one’s consciousness and its environmental growth. Returning back to the example of the cup, we can now avoid misinterpreting our responses to how we re-perceive our memories of a cup in this context as either ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’ but simply whether they serve the environmental context of our understandings about the world. If our consciousness learning has been trained to the point where its normal for our neurology to positively reinforce a myopic perspective, at any level, then your response is not ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’ but instead adaptive for the ego’s environmental context, even if its counter to the ego’s growth and instead benefits its own self-destruction, its because a particular identity-belief matrix is being supported unknowingly or knowingly as ‘good’ that then to the sentience it becomes at least analogously a ‘moral good’ to serve the ego’s self-destruction in preservation of the identity. Moving forward, start thinking of ‘identity’ as a prosthetic and ego as natural to serving our original nature rather than ‘ego’ as the prosthetic to our awareness and you will be able to much more seamlessly add and subtract said prosthetics in the name of serving what your ego truly wants, its growth and survival. Understanding this first level of the dynamic between consciousness self-states (emotion + cognition and broader energy), consciousness perception (awareness + self-interpretative agency) and their subsequent feedback loop into higher growth or regression is the first stage to opening up one’s potential into this first level of magnitude learning. By learning to access the interpretation of emotion and cognition via both intuitive and logical lenses that self-inform their growth via meta-awareness, we can transform the simple achievement of meta-awareness into meta-ascendence via deeper magnitude learning that leverages dual-self-awareness of the feedback loops between how reality and ego self-inform and create one another within consciousness and its making. As a practical exercise into this first level, return to the cup you first imagined and begin to re-experience it following the taking in of this new information. How has your vision of the cup changed? Make that an important note, become self-aware of what underpinned that experience. Continue to identify the relates feelings and consciousness states you’re experiencing while imagining the cup. What are positive one’s, what are negative one’s? How does the fact that you’re learning this from me as the author affect your judgement of the cup and your interaction with the exercise? Can you separate the emotional experiences and synthesise them to a more enlightened one that enhances your perspective and subsequent engagement into the task? Let’s get more into the hidden intuitive processing that’s occurring, imagine a biographical memory that involves a cup, listen to your heart and gut as you engage within this memory, what happens to it? How does the change in context shape the way your heart and gut engages with the learning of the experience of the cup? At this level, we can begin to build an intuitive mental framework for how emotions and thoughts build and are built from nervous system responses like those created by our heart and gut and in return, bicreatively engineer the experience of the ego via the symbiotic interaction between identity along with the beliefs and frameworks that underlay it, using self-questioning and awareness as a symbiotic tool, the triad of awareness, imagination and consciousness begin to open and now we can begin to plant the seeds for identity reformation and subsequent egoic expansion to its higher spiritual limits. Further as we engage deeper and deeper into the simplicity of this task, what’s unfolding is the purity of your understanding of the spectrum of your emotional bandwidth on your phenomenological experiences that in return self-inform the subsequent cognitive exposure that you experience within your consciousness as either positive to negative stimulation to explore the cup further, where as you move down the emotional scale your cognitive spectrum of consciousness possibilities you can imagine for stimuli will weaken whereas as you move up the emotional scale, your subsequent cognitive spectrum will enhance and in return your consciousness bandwidth grow much more closer to the optimal balance between the limits of your cognitive capacities and their growth. As we move deeper into the levels of “Magnitude Learning” we’re opening up our understanding of where the spectrum of our emotional experience informs and is informed by our cognitive experiences via the limits of identity and freedoms of the ego both evolutionarily and more broadly biologically, and although I don’t necessarily agree with the model in its entirety its of course something we see perfectly emulated in the progression of the ego as it moves up the hierarchy of spiral dynamics. Emotion re-informs cognition which re-forms identity formation and ego boundaries relative to its potential. Through “Magnitude Learning” we’re simultaneously exploring those limits while enhancing them as close as possible to our potential in the moment and then deepening them overtime via the creation of a framework that’s self-serving to this path for the ego’s development and subsequent magnitude of its learning from, as and into consciousness. Our goal moving forward is to understand and utilise as many of the cognitive, emotional and broader energetic mechanisms that create consciousnesses perception of any one phenomenon like a ‘cup’ and then be able to genuinely plug into the Matrix’s Simulacrum (Virtual Reality Training Simulator that Neo was plugged into to learn karate really fast) to enhance our phenomenological experience of the phenomenon and our subsequent consciousness learning. In level, we’re only just learning to see how emotion influences our perception and subsequent cognitive and emotional engagement, to finish this level, you’re going to go from the beginnings of previously stated self-questioning, to shifting between cognitive and emotional lenses to entertain how different feelings and thoughts you can self-provoke on a phenomenon in return alter your experience and subsequent learning of the phenomenon thereby influencing the magnitude of your learning relating to the experience. So, in level 1 we’ve just received an intellectual toy that’s teaching us the beginnings of how we can convert a simple intellectual toy into eventually, a radical alteration in identity and subsequent way our ego builds its value hierarchy for what it deems adaptive to its survival vs maladaptive and in return, aligning the way our consciousness learns from our environment to intersect with the existential path that also evolves our consciousness. Magnitude Learning is the answer to the question of how much of the true depth of our own emotional, cognitive and broader energetic experience is being maximised for the benefit of how our consciousness learns from our environment. In level 1, we touch on the feedback loop between emotion and thought where we begin to understand through that lens, how it informs the lens of identity formation and the subsequent limits of the ego and how it defines what positively or negatively informs its adaptation to its environment. In level 1 we’ve begun to imagine the possibility for how we can learn to prune and grow identity in a way in which ego is able to serve not only the immediate external environment as it pertains to survival but also our internal environment where its survival instead is more determined by our commitment to the growth and advancement of our consciousness. We’ve unplugged ourselves from a few untruths and blindspots for how to perceive the dynamic between perception, states of consciousness, ego, identity and how our greater overall energy of consciousness is in direct relationship with the magnitude of our consciousness learning while plugging into the beginnings of how we can plant the seeds to moving up the scale of magnitude learning as as both an indirect and direct pathway to consciousness evolution. By learning the beginnings of how we hold in mind a simple memory of a cup and how the energetic limits of our emotion and cognition are influencing our ego freedom vs identity limits, vice versa, and then learning to leverage awareness within the stability of the rest of our nervous system (i.e. your heart and gut) for self-questioning, we’re getting direct clear insight on the constrainment vs opening of our consciousness and subsequent freedom to experience life all around and within us, and subsequently, live the life of where heightened magnitude learning equals heightened maximum existential meaning. The beginnings of this theoretical framework will serve as the foundation by which I share a deeper example of Magnitude Learning being in this case, my recent accident involving how I was struck by an uncoordinated motorcycle driver at night while running. Yes, while running, so that makes the physics regarding the outcome there even more interesting. Best Light.

@r0ckyreed Pretty damn easy bro. That's why we use probability, "X is repeatedly here therefore....". The likelihood that I am typing this comment right now is 99.99% true. That .1% leaves room for the possibility that I am actually Caesar from Planet of The Apes, at least analogously.

@Basman f no. I've never had therapy but I basically have an advanced+ degree in self-awareness, etc. If you don't have that, do both. I mean, just go and see a very good therapist to help with your journaling it'll only cost you a few hundred bucks and you'll be journaling 10X better than you otherwise would have. Do research and use your intuition on who's likely to help you on your path here. Your path here obviously isn't meant to be go and see a therapist, its obviously to learn from a therapist as well as anything else you can do on how to develop your self-awareness so you don't need them anymore. So do that. Don't mess around with it, get it done. You also have Meta-AI for example, just use that, then feedback loop your learning experience with an ACTUAL therapist and you'll NATURALLY continually grow from there. Don't think you're all crash hot and get overconfident, its so incredibly valuable to have feedback from extremely good insightful people/therapists, even if they're sometimes a little off, you use the feedback to grow regardless.

@Dana1 and then women would complain that 'He can't speak for women as he's NOT a woman!' or perhaps a transexual will come and say 'Well what about US!' But just to add my 2 cents to the whole attraction thing, if a woman likes you she'll just suck your dick right then and there with you barely having to say a thing. I'm being purposefully direct but it's true. Usually I go on about theory but seriously, if any man reading this reverse engineers how that's even possible beyond a man's physical appearance you'll (1) understand how female attraction works (2) understand why your dick isn't being sucked just off on a whim. Your goal should never be to get your dick sucked off the cuff and mine never is, that's utterly absurd and honestly disgraceful intentionality. However I'm at the same time a super open minded guy exploring every consciousness possibility in the moment as much as my hearts content so if it feels right then these things unfold by themselves, I am just interested in ascending my consciousness. I'm not at all a player and would never become one however I (1) love genuinely talking to, connecting with and understanding people when things feel right and it feels like there's good vibration there and (2) love as I said exploring energy, energetic possibilities and explorations and that would just come off on me I'm guessing. This isn't all the time though, right now I'm pretty introverted as I like to spend my time integrating my past experiences, however if you subtract either 1 or 2, now all of a sudden I need to learn 'game' in an artificial way simply because I have a sex drive and I'm looking to get a high off of it rather than it just being a natural part of genuinely wanting to learn, understand and grow from human interactions. 'Game' is just a business model that takes advantage of the memetic stupidity that's surfaced in the last few decades (sometimes to good end, and sometimes its purposefully used to rope in the brainwashed so you can feed them wholesome stuff), you've gotta escape the matrix and just be an f'ing human and remember the other person is an f'ing human as well and not be so f'ing self-absorbed so you can empathise and if the other person doesn't get that either well the vibe shouldn't be there and from that point on you should be asking your intelligence why the f you haven't moved on yet to continue growing from life as you're wasting your time now. And I totally know what that's like by the way, I'm not some supreme super intelligence here, its taken me time to see through all the noise and establish that signal as a life path to move continuously forward with as a foundation for developing and being grounded by the maturity that comes from that ongoing feedback loop of experiencing, integrating, growing and doing the whole thing all over again until I'm ready to say my last words on my tombstone, "We did it, so did trillions of others. Do it better."

INTRODUCTION: Let’s move on from the previous page, it needs zero attention. Remember, people get hurt every day in almost every moment, I am just one person. Take this moment to have a thought for all those on this planet that are genuinely in deep pain and are struggling to find the strength to push on, let’s have them in our prayers for this brief moment. We’re now moving into incredibly deep territory now that I have a bit of “leg room” and greater “foresight”, pun intended of course 🤣, up my sleeve. Unless it becomes inorganic to do so, like I’ll probably be pulled away for social stuff sometimes, we’re now driving our motorcycle of truth deep into 20+ hour sessions of my own personalized meditations. We’re diving deep into the ocean of the soul like I’ve never dove deep before for the achievement of what we all know I’m after. The first new paradigm I’m going to bring to you is, “Magnitude Learning”.It’ll blow your eye socket out I tell you what! These will now be shared as “creative works”. After-all given I’ll be meditating for so long it would defy physics if “focused intelligence” didn’t get a boost. Magntitude Learning sounds very buzz wordy and it is, but without the fluff. Yal know outside of humor I’m anti-fluff, so if you can be patient enough to learn what I’ve uncovered this morning as a consequence of my reflections on yesterdays events and this whole trip since Vietnam 🇻🇳 , it’ll change your life forever I promise you. A sincere thank you ❤️ again to all of the staff at the hospital who are diligently working to serve the patients here, may your own travels stay true, safe and fortuitous. Best Light, stay strong.

So I ended up deleting my earlier post to the ADF marketing ad on Facebook that was a follow up to the parody shared here. I’m honestly a bit disappointed in my behavior and if I never made that post this wouldn’t have happened even though I’m lucky enough to say that this has been an extremely valuable lesson for me to learn from where I’m glad that I had for the reasons shared in the previous post. It’s behaviour I wouldn’t want my future children to exhibit unless under certain conditions which I don’t in this case fall under. Humor is humor granted, then there’s contextual delivery and for me at this time of my life my mind should have been preoccupied with other things as per my above recent declaration following the event that’s just transpired with the motorbike accident. I won’t of course delete the post here because it’s a log of my behavior and therefore a continual feedback loop in translating experience to wisdom to greater intelligence, however uniquely and creatively we sometimes need to be open minded to finding that. Otherwise another shout-out to Mei-lan Maurits & Ali Pervez Mehdi that I mentioned above, I’d prefer they take the spotlight over my injury noted in the previous post. Beautiful music to listen to and inspire towards being able to emulate in my own way ❤️😎. As always, Best Light.

So I’m at the hospital right now… No biggie, I’ll be alright, just a minor hiccup… Let’s jump to it though. [😎😎See brief YT video at the end of this post showing my battle scars while at the local hospital 😎😎] The other guys hand eye coordination while riding his motorbike towards me while I was tracking down the road, not so great. It was a worthwhile experience, a few millimeters to the left and I would have lost my eyesight, among other possibilities of course. Not losing focus. If I can’t run I can still train my AMCC (see previous pages) via meditation, as that’s where I need to focus anyway to truly take my running progress to the next level. I’m not sure how long my left leg is going to be out, good news on the x-rays but there’s no way I can’t walk on it right now, it looks like an NFL football 🏈 injected itself into the opposite side of where my calf muscles are. I’ve already started learning from the experience, it was good to see how my sympathetic nervous system and the rest of my body and awareness reacted to the situation moments pre-hit all the way to when the doctors were sizing up the final stitches around my eye. It was interesting, as soon as I felt the blow I automatically sensed my being just sizing up everything that happened, determining what it’s next move was going to be. The driver was barely scraped and yet I was the one helping him up off the ground while bleeding profusely. He was in shock, my body went into practical action mode. My brain had already informed my conscious mind that it had released pain numbers and was going to be introducing that punishment hours after the event so that I could act intelligently now, even though I was a bit surprised by the lack of pain and the ease by which I got up given I was just hit by a motorbike clocking in at least 50km an hour. Theres no point asking me how I casually withstood that. Zero. It’s strange. I just simply dusted myself off, made sure he was alright, ensured he was safe with others then just continued tracking onwards until I hit the hospital. I’m grateful that in my genetic lineage we have a survival mode built in as a fail safe for crisis situations so we’re able to act swiftly, effectively and practically. My father, brothers and I could have a bone sticking out of our arm while we’re holstering someone else to safety with the other. I don’t know what it is. It’s weird. But it’s got another side to it I don’t like that I believe is related. When it’s nondiscriminantly activated as is what’s meant to happen in a survival situation, it’s a real threat to those our biology deems a threat. Good for the military, but only when you’re following instructions, and that’s not me as yal know. Per se, there’s some grey areas to that. As per my meditation assignment for project meta-ascendence (not transcendence anymore as I don’t like the name), we want me to achieve a higher level of bioelectrical agency where I’m entirely driven by love. I have a kind of beastly aggression that I worry about sometimes. I have never hurt anyone before outside of protecting another or setting a boundary, though it lives within me and I must mature it to a much higher level. I can get easily manipulated by that energy that comes with it, the ego can leverage it to its own gains in ways that work counter to my long term spiritual goals that I must bring a higher truth to. For whatever strength and power any aspect of my psychology feels it can gain from this aspect of myself, I must teach it that it can go to even higher levels via love alone and a deeper connection with our souls essence. I must now begin to use this time to dominantly assert with hours and hours of training every day while my body recuperates to hone my nervous system to my desired level of bioelectrical agency, awareness must dominate every cell of my being so every cell can communicate with every other cell from and to the highest. How can we turn every moment as a moment to be more grateful, thankful and appreciative of the one that came, the one that is and the one that’s coming? That’s all I am trying to learn here, it’s just another sign for me to dive even deeper, to show me that I’m not trying hard enough. A big thank you to the docs for their warm hospitality and the rest of the staff here at the hospital, they’re all lovely people and I’m sorry they had to feel the smoke of the beast I mentioned above a little bit. There’s a deep love there they have and that I will covet in my moments of reparation as I stay the night for observation in the hospital.