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This is a different gal. To help you get out of the "idealism" paradigm and into the "trait analysis" paradigm, you must ask the question "who am I speaking to?" And "who am I based on what I am asking?" So I didn't masturbate over her, I told a white lie. I would never lie about something thats something I should never lie about, while at the same time this is a lie where I may need to do damage control, either she has had a bad day and has some unintended reaction for example or on the other hand she becomes overly infatuated with me, for either case because I already know Anie is a good person I'm going to devote the time regardless to ensure that no damage is done and or at the very least I redeem the situation, however in this case, I posed the question, "who is anie?" And I'm not going to be able to have that question answered by just dancing around nonsense questions where we're both in culturally accepted lines thereby producing culturally predictable responses, you must figure out how to cross those cultural lines while doing so in a way that is as respectful to the other person as much as possible. When you end up in a relationship with someone though where your relationship is predicated on culturally acceptable norms rather than a functional understanding of one another with a level of consciousness depth that supersedes the potential for normalised reactivity towards you, that's the relationship mate sorry to inform you, that's doomed to fail and either one of you are probably either only with you for ulterior motives or they're probably just so poorly developed or have such a shallow understanding of you that your relationship just isn't worth the time of day anyway to the extent that it genuinely adds value to your personal growth. I'm sharing this with you because it feels like part of at least one of the outcomes to your attachment is that you create a cultural dream world of social expectation. This social expectation is something you've been socially conditioned to believe in so that you re-enact that ritual in the real world and then wonder why you're not getting the success you thought you were going to get based on the subconscious rituals you didn't even know you were programmed to follow through with and not get adequate enough feedback from reality to change your behaviour in response to. I'm not saying you should now start telling all the women you're masturbating over them even though you're not, I'm just saying that you need to figure out your own independent way whereby you're going to only spend time on real relationships where you're both in it to be real with one another and get through the crass to get to truly know who one another are underneath and waste the least amount of time with those that have ego backlashes and therefore don't even know themselves enough to be able to even pass these kinds of tests to the point where they can intelligently relay who they are to you and vice versa. "Who is X?" Is the same question as "Who am I?", on one side of the spectrum you (or the person you're speaking to) have full ego identification and therefore almost zero self knowledge and on the other side of the spectrum you have full self wisdom and therefore at the very least enough ego integration to the point where you can generate creative intelligence no matter what someone throws at you and create light and heaven out of whatever they bring to the table for you to mirror the universe off with to you. For me, the faster I can find that ego and or lack of integration to the point where there's a lack of empathy on self and other, the quicker I can get out of there and establish creative intelligence in another direction. By generating harmless social experiments like this where I have full positive intentions and empathy towards any potential damage control needed, I get a quick read on biases that reveal truths that may have otherwise been completely missed and put me in a relationship that landed me in a complete mess months or even years down the line because I didn't get an intelligent objective read across many situations that add to my wisdom in a way where there's mutual respect for one another's humanity, including respect for one another's time aka saving months to years of both our lives. Again, if I tell a woman I love her though, that's not something I just throw out and see what flies back. There's simply lines I will not cross no matter the context, I now have a few gals now including Anie that are happy to have learned I just masturbated over them which I didn't, however there's a lot of women where I just simply wouldn't do that of course because it would be totally inappropriate relative to either the context of our relationship or the ego limits that I'd already for example investigated enough. It's the first time by the way where I've tried that social experiment, and now it's just damage control to ensure they're not anticipating this leads to a potential relationship while at the same time benefitting our friendship because now we've mutually crossed cultural lines where we get to explore new creative territory. You've gotta learn how to do that for the sake of understanding yourself and the sentience you're claiming you're trying to have a sentient aka non-culturalized-zombie relationship with. Hope these three comments serve as good learning mirrors for you mate. Again, hope the Christmas Break is serving everyone well 🎄🌍👌

@oMarcos And this gal is pretending to be all empathic towards me and I do believe she's empathic, like she does have a complex compass however for so many women man, they'll in the next breath happily talk about the guy in which their empathy has switched off towards to another guy, in this case, me. What she's doing right now shows a lack of maturity and so I don't hold her in as high esteem, however I recognise there's multiple factors at play here including the cultural pressures that have made her have the sight she has through the smoke and mirrors of indoctrinated misguided hollywood love potions being created by the guys she's speaking to, so I hope this helps you generate another mirror on yourself to see through your own naivety a little bit better just above the horizon of any potential ego backlash you may or may not have from me sharing this with you. Combined with my previous earlier comment above, you need to make a paradigm shift that allows you to see how your own self-indulgence in your own personal delusions results in blocking your primal cognitive empathy to complement your affective empathy, as a result, you get easily played bro and the way to respond to this isn't to try and outplay anyone it's just to make the best use of your time in your life and consequently stay on your growth curve towards reaching your highest consciousness maturity as much as possible to the point where these situations don't even register in your life as plausible scenario outcomes as you're not the naive one where your love isn't coupled with love that's bolstered by the rest of your intelligence and vice versa: These are two separate guys in the space of the last hour by the way. Wisen up, don't get bitter. The biggest problem is you don't view at least 50% of yourself and herself as a biological entity responding automatically to the forces of life around you continuously, instead a part of you that you need to unplug is stuck inside this magical fairy dust space of "Her and I are spiritual beings finding our spiritual paths" or however you frame it, consequently, your reticular activation system filters reality around you incorrectly relative to the level of inaccuracy surrounding the present paradigm in which you're processing your relationship. Fix the (cognitive) paradigm and you'll fix the filters which will in return change the feedback loops within your biology that create your emotions to appraise this and other situations around you to become socially attuned more accurately. Don't get bitter as said, the goal isn't even to get better as they say you should in just another form of delusion just delicately in a more sophisticated way, get more accurate. Get more accurate and you'll get more of you as you being you, being true. So as much as its a lack of empathy at an objective level, of course I play devils advocate on myself where this situation at the same time is the perfect example to reveal the other side of the equation. My revelations should relay that the nuance still reveals how I'm accurate on both accounts regardless but that the original boldness is still where you need to systematically step by step mature towards being able to know how to categorise empathy across the social spectrum as it presents itself to you situation to situation because to add with this second comment, you'll in return know how to self assess aka like in this situation, where your own self and other empathy is lacking and thus where you need to redeem yourself. In the case of these two examples, where the two gentlemen are stuck in their own self indulgence and are totally oblivious to how she may perceive them and so totally misperceive how she may respond to them in the future, in this case either ghosting or/to playing them. A part of it is their own fault and the other part of it, is however slightly, her own suffering because she then loses out on having a more mature appraisal of the situation that benefits her consciousness growth even though her biological response that reduces her empathy as a survival reaction to screen them out as potential partners at the same time is understandable. Good luck, but create your own luck by looking in the mirrors that give you a more accurate reading on life. Again, I hope everyone's getting the most out of this Christmas Break in preparation for the new year 🌍🎄👌. Spread the mature love.

Meta-Awareness of Biological Responses: Surfing the Horizonal Analysis of Sentient Evolutionary Triggers. An African American, 6 Police Officers and... Me. The human mind, especially when one attains a certain level of introspective mastery, begins to function in a manner that transcends the limitations of ordinary cognition. What I mean here is an acute meta-awareness that I'm presently meta-cognitive of, feeling the unique sensations of it wash over unusual metamorphoses of my consciousness in the creation of the egoic joint avatar of me moment to moment, an awareness that doesn’t simply acknowledge but actively tracks and unpacks the biological, cognitive, and emotional responses to external stimuli, resonating with evolutionary imperatives embedded deep within my physiology, flames above and surrounding the fire I cannot fully describe the colour to the contours of. This meta-awareness, is like feeling into new waves to surf in the ocean that could overcome me in any moment and swallow me whole, while at the same time remaining an area of deep fascination, an intrigue that forces pausation to discover deeper... Causation... In the moment of its experience, transforming the mere cascade of evolutionary responses into an analysis that reaches a consciousness convergence that generates novel enlightening experiences I haven't experienced before, turning the seemingly trivial into the ineffably indescribable I can speak about to no one other than.. in this journal space here. Meta-awareness is still a juncture, a translation from train station to mastery of all its railway tracks, that's far from either complete or traversed, as the vastness of the biological mechanisms and neurobiological impulses underlying my human to "evolutionary human" behaviorally is far more intricate and nuanced than any simple narrative could capture, or that I have understood yet, and whether any heights I've traversed of "extra-human" is either human, "evolutionarily human" 🧬 or both, is still not fully determined. Regardless, like a tiger staring back on itself like a predator, my continued observation of these internal states allows me to peel back layers of sentience that speak to something beyond mere cognition, the primality of self-aggression on my own self-awareness , evolutionarily encoded in the double helix of my self-gaze, still accessible at higher consciousness when observed with the right sniper scope and protective tension. Presently, I am bound by one of those seemingly mundane scenarios converted into an ineffable aggressive self-awareness. My observation of a group of six uniformed officers surrounding an African American man in a public setting. On the surface, this is a typical interaction, the kind that happens daily in urban environments. However, what is significant is how my own body responds to the array of biological stimuli that convert typical to symphonic at the right temporal timing, the core of multi-layered meta-awareness. Immediately, upon perceiving the situation, my biological responses begin to register. These responses, often visceral, deeply felt in the body before any conscious thought emerges, trigger an anti-authoritarian reflex. This is not intellectualized; it is a reaction, an instinctual urge to challenge authority when I witness what I perceive as an imbalance of power or an unjust interaction beneath the horizon of conscious articulation that on the surface, just looks like a guy, in this case me, casually walking by. The biological impulse to defend the perceived oppressed, in this case the African American man, manifests almost immediately in my body. It is the activation of a fight-or-flight response, an ancient evolutionary mechanism designed to prepare us for immediate action in situations where survival or social justice is in question. The emotional instinct, an almost involuntary sympathy for the oppressed, flows through me. There is an urge to step in, to somehow intervene in the perceived injustice. However, upon closer examination, I notice the second wave of biological response triggered by the unfolding scene. The African American man, although clearly restrained and handcuffed, exhibits a form of confrontational defiance toward the officers. He taunts, provokes, and attempts to assert himself in the face of authority. At this point, my biology shifts subtly like a string of piano notes cascading from high to low and low to high interesecting thunderous yet subtle raindrops. The initial anti-authoritarian instinct is now tempered by another biological response, a defensive reaction toward the police officers. Here, my sense of empathy oscillates between two impulses, two mediational points inside the greater theatre of my own self-observation, both neutralizing and activating my desire to protect, defend, aggress, discern... Observe. The evolutionary tendency to protect the underdog collides with a biological readiness to defend the social order, the officers in this case, who are part of a law enforcement system that I simultaneously respect and see the weaknesses of and thus am vigilant of all mediums of how my communication could play out here. This conflict between impulses is not purely cognitive, it is biological in nature, a direct consequence of the various instincts that we inherit from evolutionary pressures, my surge of my gut tempered by the slow hum of my heart that's sultaneously grounded in the desire for love. On some level, I understand cognitively that the antagonism I feel toward the officers is irrational, that the confrontation between an already restrained man and those who hold the power is likely to lead nowhere constructive. And yet, my biology resists this understanding; it is not enough for the higher cognitive centers to override the biological impulses that exist within me. They are primed to protect, and the biology doesn’t differentiate between context, it only responds to perceived threats and the balance of power. Now, what is fascinating is the level of awareness I am able to bring to these biological shifts. The very act of observing myself in real-time, monitoring how my own biology responds to this external event, provides rich insights into the evolutionary underpinnings of how I experience not only human sentience but the consciousness experience of meta-awareness altogether in expression through sentience; where am I on its universal spectrum and isn't it beautiful that this seemingly anti-fragile experience in the trivial can be simultaneously experienced with the innocent naivety of wondering about where my experience lands on this sentient spectrum? I am keenly aware of my body's reactions, the untouchable stretches of my consciousness within the safe limits of human experience, watching for subtle nuances that reveal the deeper evolutionary currents that govern what we myopically contain with categories like... feelings and thoughts. This level of meta-awareness of biological processes, the awareness of my own bodily response to the social dynamic, enables me to step outside of myself to a degree that I suppose many would find difficult to see beyond the denial and subsequent dissonance of doing so to the point where it's counterpoints results in parameters that open up a new consciousness bandwidth for them to explore and self-realise themselves through . I am no longer simply acting on impulses; I am observing the impulses in meta-temporal "human time", analyzing their origins, and dissecting their evolutionarily grounded nature, observing all of us simultaneously creating our avatars through our consciousnesses and evolving simultaneously with those changes in real time. Continuing my observation, the tension becomes even more palpable. The African American man, having been physically subdued, continues his verbal defiance. The police officers, at this point, remain remarkably controlled at different indices of personal dignity, their expressions betraying traces of annoyance and frustration, subtle shame to dissociation mediated though through hours of trained process. I can sense the power dynamics at play, how the officers, despite their physical control over the situation, are being subtly humiliated by the man’s taunts which makes me want to contain the African American, I notice a meta-simulation of how I might do so accordingly coupled with the bewilderment of imagining the police officers reactions to my doing so. There is something subversive in his actions, a challenge to their authority, even if he is now completely incapacitated, there is freedom in his desire to be aggressed upon further that he can manipulate in future interactions where he courts his own delusional defense. At this moment, I notice a subtle shift in my perception. The biological readiness to defend the officers, which had previously been tempered by a deep compassion for the African American man’s perceived plight, is now accompanied by an even more complex feeling, an almost psychological detachment, a growing sense that the situation is less about the individuals and more about the wider systems of power they represent as manifestations within this universal time lock that separates us from every other temporal lock on the earth at this moment, this... We share uniquely together. As my biology continues to shift, I begin to further observe the subtlety in the interactions. The subtle cues in the body language of the officers, the way they position themselves, the slight changes in their facial expressions as they handle the man, even the way they speak to each other provide me with valuable insights into how dominance, submission, and social hierarchy play out in these moments of high tension. The deeper I watch, the more I begin to see the interplay of complex evolutionary dynamics, and the deeper meta-questions that surface beneath my cells synchronistic concert of self-observational activity that's somehow, a double sided gun. On a biological level, the entire scene is a microcosm of the battle for dominance that occurs in many social interactions, in many areas of my consciousness. The aggression exhibited by the African American man is the expression of a threat to the social order, while the officers’ restrained control is the manifestation of their dominance, and their external dynamics and my watching, an analogy for how I linguistically now describe how the vying for dominance inside my consciousness hierarchy plays out between my internal processes. My own body oscillating between sympathy for the underdog or in part, underdogs, and support for the social order, trying to reconcile these conflicting impulses through a cognitive awareness that allows me to disarm some of the emotional charge of the moment. As the interaction unfolds and the officers begin to move on, I continue to monitor my own biological responses. Simultaneously, my body is primed to be confrontational toward the officers, a protective impulse triggered by the anti-authoritarian stance I take toward any perceived abuse of power. However again, curiously, I also find myself instinctively sympathizing with them, a biological reaction I cannot entirely suppress. I exchange a simple gesture as one police officer walks past me after I had situated myself already only meters away, an expression of mutual recognition, an acknowledgment of the shared social dynamics that exist between us despite the tensions of the situation, for whatever reason they welcomed my close proximity in spite of my own internal conflict that was barely externally visible. This moment, which appears to be a trivial social exchange, is, in reality, a complex interplay of biological drives and evolutionary instincts across all of us. My awareness of these drives, my ability to observe them as they unfold, places me at a unique vantage point not just on the interaction, but from the projected future looking back from multiple reference frames for how it could have played out compared to if I had of just continued walking onwards without the unique interplay of emotions to sort through in understanding my responses through the night of the interaction. By monitoring my own responses, I gain insight into the deeper forces at work, forces that shape how we not only perceive others and how we react to authority, but also how sub-drived like the biological imperative to protect, defend, or challenge is expressed through our sentient awareness juxtaposed with this not only being a shared disposition but one that you may also have conflict with at the same time if it played out that those that were paid to serve and protect for example, went up against a citizen that felt the same consciousness reward but by his own volition against one or more of them. In this way, the seemingly simple act of observing my own biological responses in this social situation becomes a profound exercise in meta-awareness so much that it becomes skin to the ecstatic rise I feel when improvising on the piano across many scales of emotional juxtapositions, revealing the underlying evolutionary architecture that defines the very nature of human interaction and the complexity of moral and social judgments where sound meets emotional symphony and meta-awareness, the simultaneous navigation and creation of meta-causation where subtext, becomes the entire plot of the story. The surf continues... but the ride is just beginning... Hoping everyone is enjoying their Christmas Break 🎄 🌏!

@oMarcos dude gtfo of this asap. You're dreaming, not living. Very clear boundaries: what makes a relationship isn't the attachment its trait based. Attachment minus proper tested traits is actually what leads to you wasting your life filled only with regret if you're without either the sense of mind, deep life lesson or both. This is NOT a complicated situation. Act quickly with the paradigm shift. She clearly doesn't have enough empathy. Who gives a fuck why, whether it's lack of maturity, life experience or genuine deficit, measure what you actually see. That's what you're meant to do as a man and then respond to it objectively, decisively and with momentum. You lack wisdom and that's what's holding you back right now so you must have a serious look in the mirror, remove the ignorance, implant knowledge and your future self will thank you later. Traits create passion that's long lasting and therefore a meaningful attachment that you look back on fondly into your old age, attachments can create passion but without the traits the passion is instead a hollywood delusion ruining your life while you live totally in denial about it. Anyhow, we're here to share and grow from wisdom together so don't let me be the last commenter on this one! Very operationally, two traits I filter every relationship through now or rather the wisdom of it is purely chain reasoning around empathy and family. Pure, simple, beautiful. Done. Best wishes and Merry Christmas mate, sincerely I really hope it works out for you and everyone else struggling with any similar situations present/past.

Right into New Year's Resolution, yeah no messing about: Become the richest person in my country by the end of next year. I literally didn't give a fuck about my wealth yesterday, however as of today even though it's been looming in my subconscious for a number of months now, I am worried about my own future freedom, including the future freedom of people I love. So it's as simple as off-setting that. And yal know how much I've talked about that being an entrenched ideal in my genetics. This is probably going to be like my Bangkok run, I'll just make it to Phnom Penh but fuck, at least I'll make it to Phnom Penh by the end of next year and something will have to perhaps physically stop me from going any further as what happened with immigration heh. And it's pretty feasible. Thought I'd just jump right into it, get folk thinking about how they're going to step into the running tracks before Jan 1st. I'll start sharing my own financial creativity in January sometime after Eleftheria/MemVinci. And please remember previously noted disclaimer for all intensive purposes concerning all my share here. Without expressing it in my journal just privately criticise the fuck out of me in a way that advances your own critical thinking haha, as the stuff I'll be sharing will be advanced so as long as you're doing it in a way that's self reflective you'll only be advancing yourself and it'll drive your own passion to serve your own freedom in the right way. Heh, I love this journal space. I'd personally hate for my journal or any journal I have to go viral in any way, I prefer anonymity but I love a small flock in the right temperature to just share my mind without any hayfever. Love yah and Merry Christmas, sincerely, just go have a fun bash 🎄🌎👌. Find the love, find your own personal new years resolution to run out the gates with before the years beginning. Best Light.

@ShardMare Speaking of 'Special' just caugh the following on Facebook. I mean, people have lost their minds from Facebook now, that's abundantly clear Quote: "Hello my dear.... I am first hybrid bloodline of the Anunnaki and I was called Ib-Braham(a). I was also a Pharaoh and I and my army guarded the spaceport in the real Jerusalem. The common version of my name is tpday Abraham, Ibrahim or Avraham. I was King Art(h)ur and the most realistic version as a film about him was Guy Ritchie's film, which I saw once in 2007 at the Kabbalah Centre London - just like Madonna. I was Grand Master of the Knights Templar Jacque de Molay (Prieure de Sion), Thomas Beckett, Thomas Moore and El Morya Khan. And from Morocco, Persia to Scotland, many incarnations worldwide on this little world map of lies. The soul of El Morya lives in me. It took me 14 years to allow myself to say it, because NOW is the time for change! This dome construction of this ‘earth construction’ is unbelievably large, the current earth maps are falsified and there are Nibiru, Asgard, Sirius and and and underneath. The sky is so deep blue at night because our dome is surrounded by an infinite ocean. And we are not small and insignificant. But the part where you live has been manipulated into a matrix of incarnation without memory. I permeate you, I am nothing special, but I have full memory. I am HE, I am SHE, I am IT, I am EVERYTHING. Lightworkers, now is our time to step out of our shyness and be A King to serve God (THE ONE)!," And posts like these are the norms in so many demographics there, and that's just the start to tasting the spectrum of demographics on Facebook these days. I peruse their on occasion to take a walk through a sci-fi zoo when I need a touch of the bizarre to hit my consciousness and learn something from. And I thought people from here were off heh! Dude seems like an interesting guy to have a beer with but! I found this humorous only because I made a joke not long back that I went to a psychologist where through one of our "past life remission" sessions we learned that I was a pharoah and some other stuff, again just for humour. It's a George Carlin (the comedian) schtick. Sincerely, Merry Christmas yal, and no disrespect if you want to dress up as the baby Jesus and re-enact Bethlehem saying you were Mary, Jesus, one of the apostles or whatever, each to their own I guess! 🎄🌎 But genuinely, I hope everyone's not having it too rough and you're creating good family memories, or at least recalling and learning from them. Best.

I have a responsibility to complete what I setout to do here, however I've still got a bit of work to fully adapt to the medication. I'll figure it out eventually. Just not entirely sure when this mind-body mechanism will adapt; it's pretty challenging. At least this humbles me. In other news, deciding on wife qualities has never been easier for men these days. https://www.news.com.au/lifestyle/real-life/news-life/gold-coast-porn-star-shags-schoolies-team-gets-evicted-from-airbnb/news-story/9c226dfa4f6f35464f9fb892697ce72e?dicbo=v2-QG1kpvF& I was so dazed from the incident and from the medication I kind of still am, so I never even bothered to get the details of the attending physician. She seemed like a normal woman. She taught me a lesson, after some introspection today I realised. It doesn't matter what ethnicity a woman is, what matters is her heart and consciousness development. In today's world, you need to minimise and prioritise criteria rather than either maximise or go with the flow, its paradoxical, you'd think you'd need a whole sleuth of things to vett through however in reality, you just need to identify cultures biggest problems and move in the opposite direction with respect to dating choices. Today it's cluster b personalities, especially those that are reactionary as in defense mechanisms which are the shadow variant of cluster b. Moreover it doesn't mean you vett for cluster b, instead you're just working to accurately scope the variation of empathy in someone. We've reached a point in society where because of our conformist behaviours, subconsciously empathy is actually being screened out rather than something you would normally just assume people look for, however because we're micro-expression screening organisms we're also unconsciously initiating micro-behavioral changes by the same indices, where before you know it, it's become the norm that empathy isn't even cared about perhaps even frowned upon within some social circles without the tribal group even being consciously aware of it to the point where if they were questioned on it, it would cause a chain reaction where there was some potential for redemptive change within the group, however for most cases in light of it only very rarely being flagged anyway, it would reduce back to the mean. So those are my two traits now, family and empathy and that's with friendships as well, I've mentioned family in the past. The two predict one another but they're both independent enough that it's rational to make accommodating shifts for both. Empathy is really the gold standard though to begin with, and it's just something everyone in light of today's culture needs to self educate themselves on as an intelligent reaction to unhealthy norms, like I'm a pretty savvy guy on this kind of stuff but I'm saying I need to work on the depth of my own system of understanding there, it's not easy. So everything now, a woman's intelligence, creativity, sensitivity, attractiveness, height, occupation, literally everything will be funneled through my own metrics for understanding the depth of how empathy 'behaves' in her versus where it doesn't 'behave' and why, it's also a fantastic foundation for how you understand someone as well. It's become so normalised now to not have our emotional needs met, it starts as a micro-expression that translates into micro-behavioral changes all the way to new broad social norms that characterise the limits of the humanity demonstrated to one another where said limits materialise it as mirroring something almost non-existent or arguably even a delusion. They've shifted from something that as a social norm partners as a whole culturally used to enjoy fulfilling to something that they treat like it's a job rather than a love to even not caring at all to being a complete burden. I now hold myself to a new set of personal standards concerning social norms now that I'm more deeply aware of these cultural issues we have in the west, vetting every possible micro-behavior I can within myself to take responsibility for the influence that I have, it's also the only real power we have over the cultural situation but it's a lot of power the more we can exert this discipline over our decision making. It's a decision that leads me to consciously understanding that more and more I have to workout how to monopolize my own individuality, however by the same token, it's the illusion of freedom and individuality that got us into this mess, so by the same measure also re-sourcing the people I choose to have around me, trusting their counsel given they're in my life because of the fact they're trustworthy people, not because I've ignored and made excuses for unhealthy behaviours in the past or just behaviours that I just... Didn't fully understand. I hope my self-admission here empowers others to contemplate the environment of their own consciousness in the behaviours that it manifests, that in saying so they too have the power if they want to build the awareness to identify patterns within themselves and assert with their own authority and philosophy what they deem a positive versus a negative adaptation for their own development, in this case for example I would cite my own past aggressions as one example of a compensatory behaviour that developed as a consequence of not knowing how to regulate the environmental influences of my own consciousness and by the same token, execute the level of personal responsibility that I was certainly capable of and that we may never know we're capable of until we have someone reveal by their own example that they can indeed make a choice, that it's within their power to chart their own course in their personal development with slow, mature, incremental appraisals and not only the right social influences hut also the right judgement calls on where their own individuality fits in the larger collective picture; removing their naivety on power they don't have and expanding the accuracy on their level of powers they do have is one behavioral adaptation that can bring enormous progress in someone's development. I would also cite how in the past due to cultural influences I've felt the need to be more narcissistic than I actually am, these days now I am more than happy to just simply choose company where I don't feel the need to act in any way that is outside my own personal integrity towards the continual building of my own character. As for medicine, wow, yeah this situation has coincidentally coincided in a strange way, I'm in no position to begin studies in 2025 and my GAMSAT scores will be valid for two years anyway, I'm just extremely grateful I did as well as I did to expand on my freedom of choice however at the same time, I don't think I've utilised that freedom as wisely as I could have in the past. For me, given Ukraine is not only not a wise decision for me early in 2025, medically I'm not going to get the clearance I need because of the epilepsy now and on top of that there's a few geopolitical red flags I'm still unhappy with concerning the conflict; becoming a medical doctor though long term for me just seems like a wise decision, including socially, and where for 2025 I will just focus on money, investment and preparing my mind in a way that I can strategize my studies to be as seamless as possible while living a full life as of course that's the biggest thing medical students struggle with the most during their education. In sum, to make it in this world today in the sense where you truly live an internally rich life you've gotta figure out a way to enjoy the process of going inside of yourself, objectively sorting out your own patterns and then like a surgeon, removing or even adding in carefully thought out behaviours that simultaneously you can do while still feeling in alignment with your true self. To do that though you've really gotta take complete ownership over who you are and what you're creating from moment to moment and that's super difficult for a lotta people especially when so many good people as well struggle when it comes to personal awareness. The best advice I have in that regard is just to be honest with where your struggles are and then socially, being honest with where there's influencers that either positively or negatively encourage the wisest movement forward for someone and making the judgement call there that's going to be within your wisest interest there. We don't get to choose how we're born or what we're born into, however, even in spite of any cavernoma your brains already moulded it's adaptations beyond, don't ever let anyone especially yourself convince yourself that you can't choose the patterns for how you proactively respond to the world. We design our own limits in as much as we're unaware of them, we get designed inside the gap of freedom we give the external world to run a muck; don't view the external as an enemy, no, it's a collaborator now and this collaboration has standards that need to be met that you won't fall below just as much as you don't accept any less, in this case, a translation of cultural vetting into familial design intelligence into responsible consciousness self-engineering; that's what's going to design the life self-authorship otherwise hidden foreground that's usually kept from view to something that's instead replaced by unconscious and unhealthy reliance on micro-cultural patterns. All the best for the Christmas holidays everyone 🎄.

@rachMiel well, to be specific it's not just a thought form, it's literally screwing with your identity. Ground yourself in that. Life is short man, it's not fun to let this stuff get the better of you. Merry Christmas, sincerely. Being away from the monotony of the middle of the year can make it easier for us to resonate with the parts of life that ground us in our humanity 🌲🌎.

@quantumspiral totally feel you man. I'm glad you posted this as well so I could share my answer as I've definitely thought about it and I can totally empathise with people whom don't even want to be a part of this world because there's so much suffering. Because I've already answered this for myself, I can give you an accurate perspective from my viewpoint. You've literally just gotta be real. If you are real, then you're never going to have parts of yourself that are unreal in which case you'll never have a mind that's clouded with the depressive illusions that can easily infect us and that we sometimes need to receive from reality to remember where to plant our feet on the ground. We especially in the west live in a fake world and there is so much suffering compounded even further because the west creates non-real value metrics that reward centres feedback loop on. By purely simplifying life and getting to the raw constituents of being without any nonsense outside of learning to creatively find your way to mastery, you become the antidote the world needs, without even grandiosely thinking of yourself as the antidote nor "what the world needs". Peace. Sincerely, find what comfort you can over this break. To whatever level you can I hope you find love, solace, strength and connection during Christmas. Best wishes 🌲 (and the same to everyone else).

@Husseinisdoingfine Americans cease to amaze me. I took in far too much of their nonsense today as an antidote to my own blindness to some of the messed up stuff in the world. Where other countries are just straight down the line, "yeah we got bombs and we explode stuff.. and ah... We also want your land", in America, they have spectrums of genres on how to master being toxic fools. To any American and elsewhere as I've got friends sprouted all round, just remember what this holiday season is about, visit your childhood and I genuinely wish you a warm cheer and great Christmas holidays 🎄, at least as much as is possible 🌎🙏.

@Flowerfaeiry yeah for me ego is just the boundaried self. And we need it for survival purposes. "Identity" is more along the lines of how I perceive your version of ego. I find it easier to separate them. Awareness is the differentiator and it's a bit like "magic" when it comes to being fooled and by the same power or more, seeing the patterns create themselves in real time.

@Basman I was a bit harsh before. I didn't watch the video. Teal did a good job. I didn't watch all of it. She just talks so much crap though for stupid people I wouldn't be able to do it, commend her to that end.

@rachMiel you're not a nihilist you're a human being, it's the biggest mistake philosopher types make. You've just got to unplug and replug back into the rawness of your experience. It's become hip these days to "see the matrix" but most of those folk don't see their own self-conceited bs. You've gotta connect and feel what it means to be human. I briefly heard in the news today that something like 3 quarters of today's youth in Melbourne have mental health issues. It's absurd. There's nothing wrong with your intrinsic experience, we're kind of meant to be human beings. Trust me, when you unplug from the digital matrix and you wakeup to purely what you are, not god, not vampires, not some Messiah, just purely what you are, all this nihilism stuff will vanish. And Merry Christmas 🎄, sincerely.

@integral I don't think you designed this life, I feel a whole bunch of people forgot to turn on their empathy when understanding existence and then gave their resulting thoughts a positive label then used their confidence to convince others of their thoughts. There's an other, and they're right now eating a salami sandwich somewhere wondering why you're getting tongue tied. We're just humans, intellectual grandiosity leads us to making proclamations that are cognitive steaks too big for our brains to digest. Venn diagrammatically, that's our delusional territory as a species. Sincerely, Merry Christmas 🎄 and I hope your environment is supportive of a good Christmas cheer and positive warm memories 🌍.

@caspex there's benefit to everything, chess is fantastic I got amazing insights from it, one those being deepening my understanding of abstraction. You're only limited by your creativity or character with respect to what you can learn from something. Lots of folk struggle with out of the box thinking so they give inside the box rationalizations on subjects. You should be asking yourself the question and then forming your own independent opinion based on accurate critical thought. Merry Christmas, sincerely.