Mellowmarsh

Right back at you. 🙂

You’re right, and right now I’m just feeling comfortably numb. I trust the process that knows how to live and die, I just have to relinquish all my resistance to it, and I can, and will, and do. I’m not scared anymore.

No, there’s just the raw experience of eating without any thought involvement as to whether it’s a valuable experience. A dog will even eat it’s own vomit, it doesn’t understand value, the vomit is still as good as the food before it was regurgitated. You’re barking up the wrong tree again.

Dear Diary, Today was a very big day. I saw my tail again. It was right behind me. I turned around fast. It ran away. I spun in a circle. It spun too. We played a game. I almost got it. Then I got dizzy. I fell on the rug. The tail stopped moving. I won the game, I think.

Well said. 😎 The thing is, only 1 out of 5 million people ever fully grasp the concept of nonduality. So it’s perfectly normal for the remaining people who don’t grasp its meaning to fully reject it, even fight to the death to defend their defencelessness. That’s why most people choose to stay asleep, it’s more comfortable and familiar.

@Hyperion I get it, the illusion is absolutely real. I’m not in any doubt about this. Words are being worded differently, but so what. You ask me WHY I don’t think humans should wake up. My answer is clear… how about addressing the “PAIN” issue, it’s just absolutely painful to be aware you are conscious, and it’s doubly painful knowing you never actually existed in the first place to be aware you are conscious, and waking up to that realisation is a catch 22 trap no one can escape from. It’s the worse joke ever on a huge cosmic scale. Think of all the misery and suffering for nature and human, it’s barbarism and brutal. Humans have become desensitised to it, it’s all very normal they’ll say, it’s just what it is, get over it. They’re mostly okay with it. But are they okay, why else do humans begin to ponder the meaning to their existence, why do they pursue a spiritual journey in search of absolute truth, why them and not dogs and cats, is it because they fundamentally sense their own powerlessness and lack of control in every aspect of their lives that triggers an insatiable need to fill the aching gaping gap of not knowing anything or consenting to anything, and this powerlessness starts to consume every corner of their mind growing increasingly deeper and deeper chasms that must be filled in the hunger to belong to some form of super supernatural spiritual other worldly “higher truth” that they can at least feel satiated by, at least for awhile to keep the illusion of being satisfied alive, to distract them for awhile from a reality they’d rather not look at, even though they know deep down that they are just deluding themselves into believing there is a higher purpose even if it is only a false sense of security. Believe a lie is better than coming to terms with the brutal truth. Most true philosophers of history past and present day knew about this existential dread as the curse of being conscious and subsequently lived solitary meaningless and pointless lives in quiet desperation as they were in no way shape or form in denial of acknowledging this the truth of no answers, that’s why they became philosophers, they chose to face the abyss head on rather than just dismissing it as though it wasn’t there. This rambling is just my opinion, I’m not speaking for others here, only myself, we’re all different, but this is my truth that’s all, no one has to agree. I’m just saying it as I personally see it, unapologetically. I adamantly admit that I know absolutely nothing. I’m just reporting my surround as I witness it directly. Nor do I know anything existing that is higher than that of my own human sentient awareness, and I can live with that not knowing. I don’t know who or what or why anything is happening at all, and I know I never will know. So I just accept it now.

Okay.

Okay.

So God has been sleeping and hasn’t always been awake, and the dream isn’t only Gods existence. You heard it here.

Okay if that’s your truth there, that’s fine by me.

Already awake that never sleeps. The only one existence.

Gods only existence is within the dream that cannot wake up from.

I’m saying that our true nature is to watch ourself experience the good the bad and the ugly, the whole enchilada in fact. And there’s nothing we can do about any of it, except watch forever infinitely for eternity. Nothing can stop it because nothing started it. But we endure and that’s the remarkable thing about it. It’s enduringly endurable otherwise it wouldn’t be happening.

It can be a curse in the sense that humans are self aware, meaning they know they are going to die, and they know the horror of torture and pain. They know the sting of attachment when that attachment is ripped from their reality through the death of the thing they formed attachment to. And what about grief and sadness and loneliness, humans experience these feelings because of self awareness. Sometimes this can seem like a curse. And what about the sense of separation and the anxiety that separation brings to both children and adults alike, and then there’s the fear of being different and the shame and humiliation of being bullied for being different, and then there’s the scary unknown experience of what aggressive cancer can do to your body and many other painful diseases we must endure and try to combat with zero success, and then there’s traffic and airplane crashes to think about and becoming paralysed and dependent on others for your survival, also the thought of being born blind, or even going blind after many years of seeing. Then theres the horror of war and nuclear bomb threat constantly in the news, then there’s women who have to endure the painful cramps of menstruation every month, and having to bleed from their vagina every month sometimes every three weeks… that’s just the short list, there’s much more I can mention as to why waking up can be a curse. Waking up to me means becoming aware that you are conscious of being trapped inside a sentient feeling meat suit with a nervous system that feels mostly very ouchy, then there’s the heartbreak of divorce and the pain of poverty and rising cost of living, and there’s nothing you can do about any of it.

It’s also important to make up your own mind about what you are listening to within the voice of others as to what you personally find as valuable to you, and not just have them tell you what they think is best for you. What’s best for you is for you to decide, no one else.